u/RCPlaneLover

I am a Catholic with a Jewish background, I became Haredi at some point. I speak Yiddish, Englishe, and Hebrew. I do have a shaychus to cultural Judaism but am also a person of culture and wouldn’t pass as Jewish. I still have a ton of Jewish stuff in my house to remember my ancestors. I am not supportive of messianic Judaism or missionary stuff at all, I am not very religion to where being catholic is my EVERYTHING, I do wear ☦️ necklace. I love Jewish culture and am still afraid of antisemitism to the point where I’d only want to marry a Jew

Is this dodgy,

I am a Catholic with a Jewish background, I became Haredi at some point. I speak Yiddish, Englishe, and Hebrew. I do have a shaychus to cultural Judaism but am also a person of culture and wouldn’t pass as Jewish. I still have a ton of Jewish stuff in my house to remember my ancestors. I am not supportive of messianic Judaism or missionary stuff at all, I am not very religion to where being catholic is my EVERYTHING, I do wear ☦️ necklace. But like will I have a hard time getting married, making friends, or anything else if I ever come to Israel

I heard your couscous was saintly so I want to come here (legally obviously, not Aliyah as my religion isn’t allowed to do it)

My mother is a reform convert to Judaism adopted into a prolific conservative Jewish and reform Jewish family. She was Jewish until all of them died z”l almost and she became a Christian with my father and through tons of trauma. I was somewhat raised in this and then through a orthodox organisation for Kiruv, I became on fire for Judaism (didn’t know what I beleived about Hashem at that point) but I became obsessed and in love with Jewish culture, learned Yiddish, and became a massive fan of being Jewish. By the next year, I had a black hat and tzitzit! I later found out though, when going off the derech, that I was not even Jewish to start, as my mom was only a gebentched Yid by the Reformishe standard and wouldn’t be a kosher convert. Earlier I did know that orthodox Halacha agreed that she was not Jewish, but the orthodox group still let me come to grow my Judaism. The reform rabbi straight told me I wasn’t Jewish.

Now, my parents are Christian, and I began looking more into Christianity and am kind of tied between Catholicism and, you know, reconverting (I think that’s the word) to Judaism.

דאס יז משוגע!

Any advice?

This thing popped up on my chrome user that has been inactive for around a year and is basically blocking my browser so I need to go onto Google on my own. Unfortunately it has basically compromised my email I think because now Google is waiting 48 hours to authenticate that it belongs to me

It supposedly disguises itself as a browser or something.

I bypassed it and went to a music website (Ableton) to register my account. Do you think this thing compromised my data?

She buys very childish looking clothes, will act like a child and talk accurately like a child with my father who rarely showed he affection for years and cheated on her close to a hundred times. She will sometimes play around and skip and prance and act like a child and then go back to her normal serious, sometimes grumpy, or smart idea. She will avoid problems with this and act like it. She has started to do it more recently and continuously compared to a few years ago

Is this normal. She doesn’t know the online community

I genuinely feel that I have no purpose now. I barely believe in a god. I don’t even know where to start. First I went OTD, second I found out I was never even a Jew. My entire life has been a lie. I get that hobbies exist, and that many other things exist, but to realize that I was never Jewish after having basically being a BT and Kiruv save my life through my parents problems and my whole sad life part is just unbelievable. I only feel happy singing and making music now. I just feel broken otherwise.

I literally don’t know how I can go on in life. I would never trust a non Jew as my romantic partner, but now I can’t be with a Jewish person either. I have to be Christian for my family who are now Christians. (Mom was Jewish but reform convert at infancy). I literally am sitting here looking at the black suit and hat and all the fiends the laughs and the tears and not, and normally I would sing Toda by Benny Friedman or something and then cuss in Yiddish and smile but now I’m just looking and seeing an empty room.

When you are told over and over that you are royalty, given mitzvot, and being a chosen person, you eventually end up believing. When you are given the best community ever you end up believing. When the rabbis say you did something wrong, you end up believing.

My Jewish group advisor friend told me I can always come back even though I’m not one of him. Only person who is so kind like that. Lots of respect for him

My heart aches

I genuinely like dancing and after the Michael Jackson movie found a really cool dance move. Now it’s oddly associated with religious messianic Jews because I found it in a click bait video for it that was “Davidic Dance” and me just being curious saw it and it moves really slow but when you speed it up and do a couple you get something really cool to either drop into a moonwalk or an air-split and I think it looks great

Just do you think it’s odd that it’s associated with messies in any way or do you think it’s badass?

HEEE HEE! OW, SHAMONE!
Hee hee! Shababababa! Oooo! Billie Jean is not my lover

Also just I don’t wanna disrespect your guys form of Christianity. It seems interesting from what I have seen and don’t wanna mess with this if it is a big tradition

I genuinely like dancing and after the Michael Jackson movie found a really cool dance move. Now it’s oddly associated with religious messianic Jews because I found it in a click bait video for it that was “Davidic Dance” and me just being curious saw it and it moves really slow but when you speed it up and do a couple you get something really cool to either drop into a moonwalk or an air-split and I think it looks great

Just do you think it’s odd that it’s associated with messies in any way or do you think it’s badass?

HEEE HEE! OW, SHAMONE!
Hee hee! Shababababa! Oooo! Billie Jean is not my lover

The rest of my family practice a Christian religion unlike Judaism. I am just gonna convert to that and call it quits. I’m just really in serious pain. On one hand I believe in this. On the other hand I went off the derech. On the other hand Jewish communities the most beautiful thing ever, and also, I’ve been taught and trained so many things by rabbis that I literally cannot get some out of my head. I probably will never be able to marry, as the thought of marrying a gentile feels as if allowing antisemitism or danger into my life. My English is permanently changed, my worldview is permanently changed, diet is permanently changed, and overall behavior is.

Because of the fact that I underwent trauma before and during the time I became a BT, I’ve forgotten all the really good childhood memories with my lovely family. I truly only remember myself as the man with the Payot. I was the man who was in this. It became my entire identity. My rabbi became my only source. Studying religion was my only duty.

My mother was Jewish by some standard. But it turns out that standard required her to raise me Jewish to make me a Jew. Something she didn’t know and didn’t do. So I’m completely a non Jew and never was by Orthodox Standards. I’m also not Jewish by reform standards and I lived a lie I didn’t know was one

Ouch.

What do I do. I already have a therapist. Am doing deconstruction stuff but damn. This is bad and it really sucks

Never had this problem before. Can someone explain the reason for this

I’m about to deconvert and return to Hasidic Judaism.

I love the idea of Jesus. I absolutely do. The idea of a cosmic warrior that killed death itself and dies and comes back to life for the sake of making is absolutely peak to me.

I’m just very horrified at hell and testimonies and stories. It hurts. I don’t know if I may be wrong with being another faith and my choice will send me to hell, especially since I had so many chances with Jesus.

What really is it? Is hell true?

I’m half Jewish. My dad is gentile, told me I’d go to hell for rejecting Christ first when I was. 3

I’m Jewish and about to convert to Catholicism in less than 200 days. Someone told me to explore Judaism full before. I am a Baal Teshuva and live in a frum area and want to experience a ton of Jewish joy before I finally make my decision. Is this very bad?

I put on a kippah, tzitzit, and Hasidic garb for the first time again today and am gonna try to live VERY Jewish for the time being

Is this shitty?

Not any of the messianic Meshugenneh behavior, but like I speak Yiddish. I also don’t trust ever considering dating a non Jew in this time where pretty much my entire generation has internalized bias against Jews. Antisemitism is a dealbreaker and most of my generation at least where I live are fed antisemitism by social media and outside sources. I am weirdly enlightened pretty culturally Chassidish due to me living around Hasidic Jews and also having Ashki family despite being a POC (lots of adoption and intermarriage in my background), I speak Yiddish, know all the recipies and absolutely dig klezmer….

I know, this sounds like something from Seinfeld.

But yeah, would they, or is the whole Jesus thing a dealbreaker?