u/Resident_Thanks_57

I know I'm gonna sound stupid but I'm left with no answers till today so wanna pen it down anyway.

I(F) met a man online and we connect really well... Conversations were going great because we're like minded... He was respectful, grounded and charismatic initially... I know that he works for an IT company remotely as an SEO.. Our conversations went really flawless, tho early, we even went over resolving our differences (we are from different religious background,culture,place) and he was paving way for us to meet excitedly .. he was really into me, we did video calls one night and after that he confessed that he wants to be together with me and he has feelings for me...asked me to meet him the next month but as we're states apart ... I told him to wait for a lil longer like 5/6 months maybe... because I'm trying to plan things as it was not easy to step out of my home and went states away(family constraint)... Long story short... I begin to notice inconsistency and late replies.. sometimes a reply after a day or two..when it was too much gather my courage and confront him and he said he was stressed with work/family/had a friend who pass away like a 2 months before we met so still disturbed by loss..ask me to give him time.. I was really empathetic so I imagine walking in his shoe and really understand him even if he went without texting for weeks I would still wait for him to get better... I was afraid I might trouble him so when he went off for too long ..I used to check up on him..asked him how he has been.. he did always replied but it was always late... One day I ask him... Has your feelings changed? because I was really invested in him by this point and he said it's still the same even his feelings and his words... everything is still the same... but let's meet first and we'll see if we're gonna carry the relationship forward officially...

I said okay wait for me (fyi our conversations begins last year end of June) Then cut short I texted him this year on New Year and it was delivered but no reply till today.. I was really in disbelief... Wednesday night for the last time I still wanna make sure what really happened or changed although I already knew long before my heart wasn't able to contain his absence..so I texted long paragraphs putting my self respect aside..but boom.. it' didn't even get delivered... turns out I was blocked.... Wth... He could've just said he didn't wanna go on with me and I easily could've stopped... When all I carried is unconditional grace for him what did I even do wrong... Ghosted and blocked ,so is this the best I can get out of genuine love for someone??

(Ps. If he was still around, maybe we would've already met just even for once.. it pains me to swallow the hard truth that I'm not getting to meet the person I care for with my whole heart)

Only learned the hard way that you don't get to be 20 forever. Instead of enjoying the moment and changing the way I see things.. I used to hate my days in college or hostels.. my only wish was me getting out of it asap... I was in darkness in my own frustrated world..And I said to myself that I'll never miss a thing about being in college but guess what after 5 years of life after it, I begin to feel that those were the moments I could make the best use of, with the right perspective.... I know I can't go back but all I can do now is help the next one in line... Hope this helps anyone that resonates with my life.

I met a guy that's seems genuine at first through the internet... He is from Jaipur while I belong to the opposite side of his world and we're lot's of states apart. We started talking and we clicked instantly...it was also my first encounter from outside my state and we have lots of differences... Like he is a hindu and I'm not but we talked through it... He told me he doesn't care about religion or race or anything as long as he's in love. And that his parents will be willing to let him marry anyone of his choice because his family is open minded.. I remember him telling me all that.. but we're not in a relationship...we just did deep talks... He was younger to me but he doesn't care ... His approach was meeting first then falling in love... We also talked about it... He volunteered to pay for my one way if I could ever come to Delhi we're like let's meet halfway... I was also somehow excited... But at the same time skeptical... But after talking all of these...things changes gradually with time... After few months he begin to drift away.. I felt the change so I confronted him and he told me that his best friend died two months ago by suicide and it still effects him now and that he is also stressed with his work and he needed space.. sometimes he admit that he don't feel like talking .... I understand him very much... I gave him space and after some weeks he get back to me... And it was nice for a moment but the same cycle begins to repeat constantly of him ghosting me... For the second time I ask him why ...this time he told me his grandpa who has been suffering from cancer passed away so... Yeah I felt really sorry for him.... And then after a while the cycle goes back... And I dare not text him again after this cycle keeps looping... And I didn't even went halfway to meet him anymore since it's drifting apart.... For the last time I texted him and he didn't reply anymore... That's the end for me... And one thing I find it so strange about him is that... He's rarely online on WhatsApp sometimes his last seen would be like a month ago... considering that he is just 23 I find it quite unusual...but anyway it ends with so many questions left unanswered and it's okay... I wish him the best in life....