Opinions on antidepressants?
Hello everyone, I’m not sure if this is a weird question but I need a bit of guidance and advice. I am 20 and stayed a whole year home without doing anything, living in depression and anxiety. Bed rotting all day and my health has decreased, I can barely sleep, I feel vibrations, see shadow entities and have terrible nightmares. Again my tinnitus has gotten worse and I have horrible jaw pain and body pain. I also suffer from vertigo sometimes I end up falling and almost passing out. I went to the doctor and did multiple exams and they say everything is fine.
I’ve dealt with depression before and took weaker anti depressants but once I stopped everything crumbled. I can’t find anything passionate about my life and I need help, I stan celebrities and I live in maladaptive daydreaming, I feel empty. I need to change, I feel like this is my body screaming for help. My mum wants me to start college again this year because she thinks it will get me out of the house but I can’t even find anything to be passionate about. I don’t know what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I’m afraid these health issues are caused by entities attacking me and don’t know how to protect myself.
Do you think I would benefit from therapy? I don’t know if I should take anti depressants since they have a lot of secondary effects and I heard they zombify you and cut you off from your intuition/calficy the pinneal gland. I’m not sure if I can trust medical care and that scares me since I also have jaw issues. Do you know any alternatives for antidepressants to work alongside therapy?
Any advice is highly appreciated 😊