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I’m not sure if these could be actual health issues or a case of gangstalking. I guess I’ll know after MRI’s.

A bit on my background:
I think I’ve had ADHD and OCD since I was a child but I never diagnosed it. Anyways, I think A LOT, I get stuck in my head with intrusive thoughts and lately I feel like it has gotten worse since I started my “awakening” and questioning society. My doctor thinks I have tinnitus because of tmj issues since the tinnitus started with that, however the sounds are very weird and don’t even seem to come from the ear sometimes. I also get pulsatile tinnitus (heartbeat on the ear)

I hear a lot of “machine noises” and weird noises I can’t explain but never “voices”.
The voice I hear is kind of myself thinking but I’m afraid of going paranoid and start imagining things.

Weird things that happened:

I’ve gotten twitching in my cheeck (hemifacial spasm), on the left side though.

I can’t explain or describe the sounds I hear, I tried searching for all tinnitus types but it always changes. During the first day it sounded like a machine and also wind howling but now the sounds have been different, sometimes it’s like a bell, others is machine noises again.

This weird sound sounds like it loses intensity and wins intensity each second.

I felt a weird sensation like an elastic band in my ear inside.

I get really bad headaches and head dizziness.

Sometimes the sound does not come from the ear but from somewhere else (I think the head)

I feel fluttering

The machine sounds only come from my right ear, the classic tinnitus “piii” comes from both and changes depending position.
I can’t seem to catch the patterns, sometimes is position but I can’t grasp which ones.

My ears get clogged a lot. Sometimes I feel something coming across one side to another, like a breeze of wind and then one of them gets clogged (it’s so weird lol )

3 days at night time I heard screaming from outside the street, and have been hearing loud bangs, once my dad heard the bang but not the screaming so this gave me a bit of reassurance

I feel like I have things crawling on me

I get fluttering/trembling/shaking in some parts of my body randomly, sometimes the neck, the back, my feet

2 nights ago I started seeing waves come from my phone, I also saw energy waves above me and my lights turned off twice.

I’m not sure how to realize if these are my thoughts/my voice or someone else’s.
I don’t really hear voices but I get a lot of thoughts and feel like I can’t control what I think about/drift away/start thinking about random stuff without realizing. I always thought this was because of maladaptive daydreaming. And I’m afraid that now that I read about these cases I start imagine/thinking the things myself.
How can I know this is really me and I am not being controlled? Like being sure this is my sub vocal? Can you share your experience so I can compare?

Also, do you get this by implants or neurodust?

The weird sensations only started to happen after I started searching more about our society’s darker side, but I have tmj so this is what confuses me… could be from health.

I’ve been going through a spiritual awakening or spiritual psychochis and I’ve started reading and investigating a lot lately and I fell down certain rabbit holes.

Now, since I was a child I never felt like I belonged anywhere and suffered from major maladaptive daydreaming and disassociate a lot. I can’t concentrate and I have ocd/adhd.

2 weeks ago I started suffering from major tinnitus which my doctor associated to tmj on the right side of my jaw, however I am also suffering from vertigo, dizziness and major headaches.

At first it seemed like normal tinnitus however now I am living hell, my body trembles a lot, sometimes even in my feet and my neck/spine.

3 days ago I started seeing waves of energy coming from my phone and even waves above me. The lights also turned off. I got so scared I had to get off the bed and walk to the kitchen.

I’m going to see a neurologist next week.
Idk why but I am getting brain fog a lot something I NEVER dealt with, my memory used to be really good. I have also been having a lot of negative thoughts and live trapped inside my head.

Now the scary party:
I have been hearing clicking noises and noises like an elastic band from my ear, also a fluttering noise, the thing is, the noise does not come from the ear but from the head, it’s so weird to explain.

I feel like a monster, I have very intrusive thoughts. I also face a lot of guilt because I paid for a witchcraft spell in the past (binding spell with blood) and I wonder if I am being punished by entities.

About supplements, would you take NAC?

How to protect myself from vibrations? Should I stop using my phone?

I know this sounds paranoid but I am also experiencing physical stuff…. And seeing things/waves. Just now I was searching on a website about darpa and there brain waves and immediately the sound got louder and my ears got clogged. Please help 🫩 I don’t want to be connected to these things and don’t want to be spied on.

Or maybe I am going insane…

I don’t know how to explain but a week ago I started going through a spiritual awakening and now I have entities after me please help me, my lights are turning off all the time and sometimes they even come over me. I’ve been really bad in health lately and feeling guilty about stuff which does not help.

I used to see shadow entities when I was a child and it had never happened again. I also feel stuff on my body like trembling and touches. I hope I am not going crazy 😢 sometimes I feel a colder rush in my body too

It got worst this night… I started hearing sounds from my room too very weird…

Idk if it’s Hailey herself who does this or if she has a team of ppl working for her, I’d assume it’s a team. I’d say some of her fanatic fans may also do this for her without her having to ask but one of the main Selena haters on Twitter showed she was on a group chat with Hailey sooo 👀

I noticed A LOT of comments like: “Hailey is the sweetest”, “Hailey is so down to earth” “No one is talking about Hailey’s hair” “She’s so funny”

My theory is: Hailey asked them to copy the hate comments she gets from Selena’s fans on her pages, for example, if they call Hailey a victim or a bully, Hailey’s bots will start calling Selena that to try to change narratives.
So maybe this works the other way around, for the nice stuff too. That’s why we see them calling Hailey down to earth which is what every celebrity always calls Selena. She is always keeping track on Selena’s pages because she needs to stay in this drama to stay relevant.

Anyways, I never understood how this girl got so many views on some YT videos on her channel / interviews, even before Rhode came out. I went to the comment sections and I scrolled a bit and noticed most of the comments say the exact same things but with different words, aka bot farms, the comments also have lots of likes, again bot farms, similar to the ones used on Twitter.

Now I don’t think Hailey started this alone, I’m 100% sure she got help from Kris Jenner, Scooter Braun and people we don’t even know about…

What are your thoughts on this?

I took an ibuprofen some hours ago and my tinnitus got worse, will it get better after the medication’s effect passes?

I don’t mean to sound weird but how do you look at your health issues?
I’ve been having anxiety attacks for the past two days because I found out I have a disease and I’ll have to wait a few weeks to treat it because my country’s health care is really bad atm. I’m constantly in fear afraid it will get worse.

Also I feel like I’ll never evolve spiritually because I can’t meditate.

I suffer from tinnitus so my head is always filled with noise, permanently. I can’t find peace. I almost did you know what because of the constant noise I hear… to imagine I’ll spend the rest of existence hearing this loud noise…. (I am only 20)

I suffer from ADHD, OCD and BPD, my mind is always filled with thoughts.

I suffer from tmj and sometimes can’t even open my jaw or eat normally. I have major back pain and will also need 1 high risk surgery….

I’m 20 and I hate the fact that this is just the start of my suffering… I still have a lot to live.
How do y’all cope? Life is so depressing…

I don’t take medication for my health issues because I’m afraid of what antidepressants do to our brains and also afraid of being numbed out.
Since I’ve been suffering I’ll possibly fail everything in college, I’ve already lost 2 years I’m so hopeless 😭

I’m not sure if I believe 100% in the concept of starseeds but I heard you guys are light workers :( sorry if this isn’t the right place. I’m so tired of bothering others, I can see how much my mother suffers because of my issues.

I don’t mean to sound weird but how do you look at your health issues?
I feel like I’ll never evolve spiritually because I can’t meditate.

I suffer from tinnitus so my head is always filled with noise, permanently.
I suffer from ADHD, OCD and BPD, my mind is always filled with thoughts.

I suffer from tmj and sometimes can’t even open my jaw or eat normally. I have major back pain and will also need 1 high risk surgery….

I’m 20 and I hate the fact that this is just the start of my suffering… I still have a lot to live.
How do y’all cope? Life is so depressing…

I don’t take medication for my health issues because I’m afraid of what antidepressants do to our brains and also afraid of being numbed out.

Is it safe for me to start learning more about spirituality alone? I’m not sure if I believe in everything spirituality says because there are multiple branches and I’ve come along a lot of scammers. I also know it must come from within but I feel very lost. Since I’m in a dark place rn in my life I’m afraid of getting attacked by dark entities or being manipulated by evil spirits disguising themselves as light workers.

I see a lot of stuff related to the Illuminati/elites/hollywood with symbolism that is considered “esoteric and satanic”. For example: eye of Horus, which is Egyptian. The typical triangle symbolism of the Illuminati and other geometry symbols too.

Alsooo, most of these videos say that Dracos and Reptilians are evil and working with the government and are vril parasites too. How much of this is conspiracy? I didn’t believe this stuff before the files came out…
I’m still new to this do you recommend any book or video for me to learn more about this topic?

Some old civilizations also used blood rituals/sacrifices which could be considered evil just like the elites do now.
I want to learn more about spirituality and star seeds but I don’t want to dwell in dark energies.

I’m not sure if I am a starseed but I suspect I might be, in any case, I was hoping any of you could give me advice since you are light workers and I really have no one to talk about this and I’m so hopeless right now.

I suffer from multiple mental health diseases, not something like depression who I’d say for some might be a state of mind and not an actual disease, but from ADHD, OCD, BPD and maladaptive daydreaming. Some of these are what society considers “neurodivergent” and I have them since I was a child. My family kind of saw some of my symptoms as weird and even thought I was autistic and shamed me for it growing up, still, I never had therapy so I developed coping mechanisms.

I disassociate a lot from my body and sometimes I look in the mirror and don’t even associate it with me.

I might have cptsd too because I never treated this stuff, only took sertraline for like 2 years for depression but after I stopped I was back to being miserable again.

Does anyone have any advice for me?

I can’t meditate because my mind is soooo loud, I really didn’t want to have to use SSRI.

I heard prozac and SSRI sometimes even give brain zaps / feelings of electricity on the brain. I thought about using LSD/Mushrooms, or maybe hypnosis but I also heard they were used in Mk ultra and that stuff so it’s a big no for me.

I’m afraid of getting medical help because I don’t trust the government. I think doing shadow work, trying mushrooms or other plant medicine might help me but I’m not sure if it’s safe?

I try to escape reality in any way and whenever I read stuff online that forces the truth upon me I start breathing heavily and get anxious. I stopped reading this darker stuff that has been going on in the world because I don’t want to get stressed. I get loads of downloads of information and thoughts and I feel like my mind will break at any time. I stay at home or go out alone because I can’t stand being in crowded places or interacting with other humans for too long.

I used to have a lot of dreams and astral projection as a kid and now nothing.

Would I benefit from a social media and technology detox? I’m 19 and since I’m like 13/14 I’ve been always on my phone with headphones on… I feel so alone and being stuck in the matrix kind of offers me a sick comfort.