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>!So for context: we're plurals, four people in one persons mind. No, not DID. There's Starry, Ash, Loralei, and Mac. We told our friends M, D, and K (not saying names, since we'd like to keep our friends' identities a mystery in case they somehow have Reddit and see this), in a group chat we have with them specifying all that. That was July 25th. Now, K forgot (but once we reexplained to her she was very understanding and even asked who we were at the moment, trying to use our correct name and pronoun at the time). But we can't find ourselves to reexplain to M and D. And we have so many other people to explain it to.!<

>!And Ash is nonbinary and Mac is male (which I guess makes us trans in a way when we're Mac due it being AFAB). No biggie. Except our stepmom,Dad,stepsister, and stepcousin are all transphobic, and stepmom + dad say that nonbinary people are mentally ill.!<

>!Yay. /sarcasm!<

>!We remember planning to commit last year on Dec. 1, but backed out. Then planned Mar. 20 this year, but backed out again. W to our best bud Oz (which is what he goes by online) for helping us through those btw, forever grateful.!<

>!Though the thoughts are coming back.!<

>!And the whole SH thoughts are back.!<

>!Yay. /sarcasm!<

>!We gen can't keep our shit together we swear, like we just feel ignored in our friend group at school and it feels like half our friends don't even like us or have better people to talk to. I mean, our friend E literally said he forgets we exist half the time which is why he only called twice over summer. And that's a fucking pain in the ass because well, we get really attached really easily. And we want to keep people by our side due to something going down in around 2023 (which in itself is a whole thing to unpack for another post), so we're desperate to please others and just let people borrow our stuff just to keep people by us.!<

>!Okay holy yapfest, uh, alright we'll just disappear now ✌️!<