u/Shhrinvy

I always think abt it all the time, i dont remember had a good time in my teen year, even tho i love to play around and wanting to have teen experience like anyone else.

My undiagnosed audhd was a hell back then, i got bullied and manage to mask, but bcs of it i feel alone. I never really have a close friend. What i did everyday was so depressed cycle its just class-eat-home-gaming-often to absent in class. I never go to party or hangout with my friend (also its covid at that time) i isolating my self, my neighbors doesnt even recognize me. Now im not in my teen year, but i really want to fill up my lost childhood year. But rn i feel cringe n old everytime i do that esp when i see other group of teenager and i cannot enjoy that at all

So since i was a child i never really love or like anyone, but i craving all love language or attention from them, i never mind with kiss on the lips, hugs, holding hand or etc i found that just close platonic activities also i dont wanna lie i like that.

Ive been in relationships and dating for a few time, but i never really love them, i love when we're in getting know each other phase but when they confess to me i dont have a choice i dont want to lose them so i accept it.

But after a 1-2 week i get sick w them and choose to broke up, on the first day i feel sad and feel lone, but after a few day im not longer mind abt it. I never had a crush celeb, or wtv u called it. everynight i imagined i have a gf or bf to cuddle bcs i love that but in reality idk its just feels weird, idk if this bcs of my mental health or im a aromantic

I fee like i didnt really have a close friend i only have safe place aka group in my entire school life after i graduate i just avoiding them and meet for 1x a year

So i would working out for like 1 hours a day while df, ive been df and wf several time includes 5 day df too and feel fine along that (well i just study on those day) so here i am try to get into boxing for begginer (self teaching) while i plan to do df for 5 days. What do u think?

So here's the thing i have some sort of trauma from bullying in elementary to 7th grade (its the worst year ive ever been) back then, I was physically bullied, kicked and punched by boys in my class for an entire year. I never fought back, and those scars affect me deeply to this day

So i grew up in a neurodivergent household. My parents show clear signs of being ND, and as a result, my siblings and I struggle too. I have audhd, and I was bullied for being either too quiet or hyperactive. My sister is undiagnosed and went through the same thing.

My brother is already showing signs of being targeted. His only defense rn is crying and telling our mom. And guess what? our mom doesn't seem to care. When I was being bullied, she told me to just introspection and try to being 'kind' to my classmate It was frustrating. Heck. So i train my lil bro (9) to self defense 2 hours a day kinda intense, and he’s clearly not used to it, which makes me feel like I might be being too harsh. However, I’m terrified that if he doesn’t learn to stand up for himself now, he’ll end up like me

Having nd (neurodivergent) ruining my entire life, my mom stop go working bcs of it, we had a financial struggle, i had no friend when i was in elementary school and got bullied in 7th grade, lol luckily i can maskin like any other people in 8th grade< and stay alive until now, since i go to college its just getting worse i cannot adopt with the environment, My social anxiety is getting worse, i kept getting another mental problem it suck

I HATE EVERYTHING, I HATE EVERYONE, I HATE THIS WORLD, I REALLY HOPE IF ANOTHER TIMELINE EXIST I WOULD BE NORMAL IN THERE

been maladaptive day dreaming since i was in 6th grade. At first, it was fine, I only did it for about 3 to 4 hours a day. But as time went by, it got worse. Now that I'm unemployed, I spend almost 15 hours a day daydreaming. Between that and 6 hours of sleep, I only have a few hours left for basic needed (eat, shower, talk w family etc) i have tried everything, but the imagination just keep showed up no matter the time, place or activities