u/SilentLoudener

Hi all, before I begin I just want to say I apologise if I overlap or repeat myself throughout this post. I am 22m. My girlfriend of almost 6 years decided to break up with me 5 days ago due to certain reasons and I sort of understand why she went ahead with this decision. We didn’t split up on bad terms, I obviously wish that we hadn’t split up at all but, here we are. Fast forward a few days and I simply don’t know what to do, how to feel etc. I haven’t slept much since this happened, in the past 100 or so hours I’ve managed to get roughly 1 or 2 hours of sleep per night just due to pain and the only reason I have even slept is because I physically pass out from exhaustion. I have tried my hardest to suppress my emotions since and I have had multiple panic attacks and breakdowns but as I have been working every day since, it wasn’t as brutal, but I had a day off yesterday, at which point I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I cried upon waking at about 3am yesterday morning up until going to sleep this morning at about 3am once I passed out, woke up today at around 4:30am and couldn’t sleep. I just feel numb since it happened. I just laid there motionless. My throat feels like something is trying to push its way up and my chest hurts like nothing I have ever felt before. The past 5 days have been so somber. I haven’t really been eating well as my appetite is completely gone, just snacking here and there to have something in me for when I am working. I am struggling really hard to focus on anything and it got so bad today, it’s difficult for me to admit it but I broke down in front of a customer, face to face. Everything I do reminds me of her, she is the best thing that ever happened to me, she’s the best person I know in every way possible and I couldn’t even begin to imagine a better girlfriend. The worst part is, and this is fully my fault, that I don’t have friends and I can’t talk to anyone about this so it has been bottled up since. Even if I do talk it would most likely be 99% crying and trying to get my words out. It was my birthday 4 days prior to her breaking up with me and, for the record, we don’t live together, we both live separately with our mothers, but that was the last day I seen her, and even then I had to leave and go home early as I felt extremely unwell so I just about made it through a lunch that she brought me out to eat as a birthday gift and went home only to go to the emergency doctor to find out I have some form of vertigo, I felt awful already prior to this as this month was my grandmothers 1 year anniversary since she passed away so I was pretty miserable and then this hit, it felt like a dagger through my heart. I mentioned earlier that she stated her reasons which I kind of understand where she’s coming from, she’s an incredible girl and human being in general, she’s funny, smart, kind, loving & incredibly beautiful.. basically a rare diamond. Anyways, I don’t want you all thinking that this is a call for help, I just need advise. I feel like I need a therapist but I don’t know where to even begin with that. I have experienced many deaths in my life and none of them hit quite as hard as this has. I have nothing but nice things to say about this girl, she really is special. We used to talk every day through Snapchat and FaceTimed everyday and every night and I don’t have that anymore and I just feel worthless and ashamed of allowing myself to lose her. I was too blinded by the happiness she gave me to see the signs of her happiness fading. I don’t know how to end this off either but please, someone give me some sort of advise.

If I could go back and change the past even in the slightest bits I more than likely wouldn’t be in this situation. I hate myself for failing to provide her with the things she was missing whilst with me. I failed miserably and I let myself down by not being the best version of myself and letting her slip through my fingers. I lost a diamond and now I feel I have lost myself too. Nothing brings me joy anymore apart from looking at photos of her or videos of us laughing and that in itself also comes with so many different emotions. If only I had known what choices to make in the past to prevent this from happening.. I am a firm believer that the future is malleable and always shapes and shifts differently depending on decisions made and therefore I again state I feel like this could have been prevented.. she said that I have done everything I could but I refuse to believe that. She deserved so so much more and better than what I provided her with.. I just simply love her to bits and now I am just heartbroken and depressed. I say again, this is not a call for help guys but I need some guidance. I only want the best for her and her to find the happiness she needs.

I miss my girlfriend and I miss my best friend. It hurts so much I can’t begin describing it.

Hi all, before I begin I just want to say I apologise if I overlap or repeat myself throughout this post. I am 22m. My girlfriend of almost 6 years decided to break up with me 5 days ago due to certain reasons and I sort of understand why she went ahead with this decision. We didn’t split up on bad terms, I obviously wish that we hadn’t split up at all but, here we are. Fast forward a few days and I simply don’t know what to do, how to feel etc. I haven’t slept much since this happened, in the past 100 or so hours I’ve managed to get roughly 1 or 2 hours of sleep per night just due to pain and the only reason I have even slept is because I physically pass out from exhaustion. I have tried my hardest to suppress my emotions since and I have had multiple panic attacks and breakdowns but as I have been working every day since, it wasn’t as brutal, but I had a day off yesterday, at which point I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I cried upon waking at about 3am yesterday morning up until going to sleep this morning at about 3am once I passed out, woke up today at around 4:30am and couldn’t sleep. I just feel numb since it happened. I just laid there motionless. My throat feels like something is trying to push its way up and my chest hurts like nothing I have ever felt before. The past 5 days have been so somber. I haven’t really been eating well as my appetite is completely gone, just snacking here and there to have something in me for when I am working. I am struggling really hard to focus on anything and it got so bad today, it’s difficult for me to admit it but I broke down in front of a customer, face to face. Everything I do reminds me of her, she is the best thing that ever happened to me, she’s the best person I know in every way possible and I couldn’t even begin to imagine a better girlfriend. The worst part is, and this is fully my fault, that I don’t have friends and I can’t talk to anyone about this so it has been bottled up since. Even if I do talk it would most likely be 99% crying and trying to get my words out. It was my birthday 4 days prior to her breaking up with me and, for the record, we don’t live together, we both live separately with our mothers, but that was the last day I seen her, and even then I had to leave and go home early as I felt extremely unwell so I just about made it through a lunch that she brought me out to eat as a birthday gift and went home only to go to the emergency doctor to find out I have some form of vertigo, I felt awful already prior to this as this month was my grandmothers 1 year anniversary since she passed away so I was pretty miserable and then this hit, it felt like a dagger through my heart. I mentioned earlier that she stated her reasons which I kind of understand where she’s coming from, she’s an incredible girl and human being in general, she’s funny, smart, kind, loving & incredibly beautiful.. basically a rare diamond. Anyways, I don’t want you all thinking that this is a call for help, I just need advise. I feel like I need a therapist but I don’t know where to even begin with that. I have experienced many deaths in my life and none of them hit quite as hard as this has. I have nothing but nice things to say about this girl, she really is special. We used to talk every day through Snapchat and FaceTimed everyday and every night and I don’t have that anymore and I just feel worthless and ashamed of allowing myself to lose her. I was too blinded by the happiness she gave me to see the signs of her happiness fading. I don’t know how to end this off either but please, someone give me some sort of advise.

If I could go back and change the past even in the slightest bits I more than likely wouldn’t be in this situation. I hate myself for failing to provide her with the things she was missing whilst with me. I failed miserably and I let myself down by not being the best version of myself and letting her slip through my fingers. I lost a diamond and now I feel I have lost myself too. Nothing brings me joy anymore apart from looking at photos of her or videos of us laughing and that in itself also comes with so many different emotions. If only I had known what choices to make in the past to prevent this from happening.. I am a firm believer that the future is malleable and always shapes and shifts differently depending on decisions made and therefore I again state I feel like this could have been prevented.. she said that I have done everything I could but I refuse to believe that. She deserved so so much more and better than what I provided her with.. I just simply love her to bits and now I am just heartbroken and depressed. I say again, this is not a call for help guys but I need some guidance. I only want the best for her and her to find the happiness she needs.

I miss my girlfriend and I miss my best friend. It hurts.

Dior Sauvage EDP
Bleu De Chanel EDT
Acqua Di Gio Profondo EDP
D&G Light Blue Eau Intense
Creed Millesime Imperial EDP
Montblanc Explorer Platinum
Le Sel D’Issey
Acqua Di Parma Bergamotto Di Calabria
Acqua Di Parma Fico Di Amalfi
Prada Luna Rossa Black
Valentino Born in Roma Intense
Valentino Born in Roma Coral Fantasy
V&R Spicebomb EDT
LV Imagination (No Brand Poor Clone)
Creed Aventus (No Brand Poor Clone)

Do note that I have sampled all 4 of my options and enjoy them all. I just can’t seem to make this decision for myself so help me out and give a reason as to why you chose your pick, and yes I do know I said “3” in the title, I meant 4.

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