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I have wanted a rhinoplasty since I was 12, and am now almost 19. I have enough money saved but would want to go to turkey since nose jobs are rarely done in my country.

Whats holding me back from taking the leap are a couple of things. For example telling my family and boyfriend, having to travel for it, spending thousands of dollars and also the fact that I have a few "good days" where I dont HATE my nose. Although once in a while I think it looks fine a majority of the time I hate it and it has truly taken a toll on my mental health and confidence, my entire camera roll the last year has just been filled with pictures of my nose and edited pictures of it when I try to see how it would look smaller. I despise getting pictures taken of me because for some reason it just looks extra big in pictures.

There is one other thing that also is holding me back a little and its that I am pretty insecure about my lips as well as I feel they are too small but I wonder if it is just because my nose looks so bulbous? I just really really dont want to get more done than my nose. If I get my nose done that is going to be it I wouldnt want to get lip fillers as well I feel thats when things can get out of hand and I just want more and more.

What do I do? Does it sound like I should finally go for it, or is it not worth it?

(also I told my boyfriend once I wanted a nose job and he was very sad and told me I do not need one, but my confidence has just gotten too low and this is spmething that is affecting my life too much)

I have wanted a rhinoplasty since I was 12, and am now almost 19. I have enough money saved but would want to go to turkey since nose jobs are rarely done in my country.

Whats holding me back from taking the leap are a couple of things. For example telling my family and boyfriend, having to travel for it, spending thousands of dollars and also the fact that I have a few "good days" where I dont HATE my nose. Although once in a while I think it looks fine a majority of the time I hate it and it has truly taken a toll on my mental health and confidence, my entire camera roll the last year has just been filled with pictures of my nose and edited pictures of it when I try to see how it would look smaller. I despise getting pictures taken of me because for some reason it just looks extra big in pictures.

There is one other thing that also is holding me back a little and its that I am pretty insecure about my lips as well as I feel they are too small but I wonder if it is just because my nose looks so bulbous? I just really really dont want to get more done than my nose. If I get my nose done that is going to be it I wouldnt want to get lip fillers as well I feel thats when things can get out of hand and I just want more and more.

What do I do? Does it sound like I should finally go for it, or is it not worth it?

(also I told my boyfriend once I wanted a nose job and he was very sad and told me I do not need one, but my confidence has just gotten too low and this is something that is affecting my life too much)

I want to start of by saying that I have not been diagnosed with bpd but experience many symptoms ver strongly.

Anyways I am feeling so upset with myself because I am so crazy in my relationship and I have never seen anyone act like me. But the thought of addressing the issue and going to therapy scares me because that means I need to start not caring about all the things I have been so crazy about.

I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years and at the start I was very jealous, possessive and insecure but I just assumed that was going to go away once weve been together longer and once I've grown up a bit but I feel like it hasnt gotten better, or atleast very little.

For example I can not stand him being around other women (he has never given me reason to overthink and he always reassures me) but whenever we are around other women I just go crazy and want to leave immediately and pull him away. Especially when I think they are attractive I feel like I will lose my mind. When we first got together I just didn't want him around women at ALL and didn't want to go to social gatherings if there were other women but now that has gotten better however I want him to avoid talking to them at all costs and still try to keep him away. Meanwhile I see other women not caring and their boyfriends have a bunch of female friends and usually very attractive ones.

This jealousy doesn't only happen with women also with his friends if I feel like he could possibly be enjoying his time with them more than with me I want to cry. I get so jealous and mad. He doesn't have one singular best friend but if he did I know I would get so jealous and feel like I was in a competition.

I also always over analyse how he acts and even when he's acting normally I overthink so much and think he's upset with me. He is so secure in me and doesn't overthink at all and trusts me completely and I want to get better but it is so difficult because that means I would have to stop controlling all the little things I have been controlling. Is there any advice that could possibly help me? Also I don't think I have access to a therapist since in my country a single session is about 250 dollars.

One other thing: one time he yelled at me because I was acting crazy and I completely freaked-out, started hyperventilating and started banging my head on the wall and screaming, he looked genuinely worried and after that I realised I clearly have some underlying issues.

If so could you tell me about your experiences?

I want to get a rhinoplasty and wpuld like to lift the tip just a teeny bit but very little, but im curious if it could increase how long my philtrum looks since sometimes I've heard complaints about that. Does that only happen when the tip is lifted a lot or does it just happen with rhinoplastys in general/making the nose smaller?

I bought a dyson airstrait in Iceland and have barely used it so I want to sell it but after multiple attempts of uploading it on Icelands facebook marketplace and on other Icelandic sales websites I just can not seem to get any views (I fear that there is just too little people here to be interested) but I have to be able to sell it, it was so expensive!! Costs 1k in iceland when I belive in the US its only about 500 dollars..

So I am wondering if there are any websites where I can sell my dyson internationally and that allow me to ship such a large device with a heavy cable. Where could I advertise it? I am not familiar with any websites since I have only ever sold things on Icelands facebook marketplace.

I bought a dyson airstrait in Iceland and have barely used it so I want to sell it but after multiple attempts of uploading it on Icelands facebook marketplace and on other Icelandic sales websites I just can not seem to get any views (I fear that there is just too little people here to be interested) but I have to be able to sell it, it was so expensive!! Costs 1k in iceland when I belive in the US its only about 500 dollars..

So I am wondering if there are any websites where I can sell my dyson internationally and that allow me to ship such a large device with a heavy cable. Where could I advertise it? I am not familiar with any websites since I have only ever sold things on Icelands facebook marketplace.

I hate having pictures taken of me because 9 times out of 10 my nose looks so big and like it takes up so much of my face, but then in the mirror I feel like it doesn't look THAT big. I mean it's not a small nose but like in pictures it just looks way bigger no matter the angle or how far away it's taken :/ Are the far away pictures more accurate or being close up in the mirror? Its making me want a rhinoplasty but like maybe im overreacting over what it looks like on a screen?

A couple of months ago I noticed my hair was breaking near my hairline and my front pieces getting thin and brittle. This has never happened before and the only things I changed in my routine was using the dyson airstrait and using k18. Hairdressers I've gone to say that it cant be that but then don't know whats causing it? Could it be mechanincal damage from the airstrait or maybe my hair turning brittle from k18 (I used it a lot) or maybe both together? Please help.

One other thing is I also started derma rolling a couple months ago but idk if thats why i have these short hairs because they are in kinda thick locks like pieces broken off rather than small hairs growing in, and also I only used the derma roller for like 2 weeks I think, and it wouldn't explain my front pieces getting thin and brittle.

All advice will be greatly appreciated💕

A couple of months ago I noticed my hair was breaking near my hairline and my front pieces getting thin and brittle. This has never happened before and the only things I changed in my routine was using the dyson airstrait and using k18. Hairdressers I've gone to say that it cant be that but then don't know whats causing it? Could it be mechanincal damage from the airstrait or maybe my hair turning brittle from k18 (I used it a lot) or maybe both together? Please help.

One other thing is I also started derma rolling a couple months ago but idk if thats why i have these short hairs because they are in kinda thick locks like pieces broken off rather than small hairs growing in, and also I only used the derma roller for like 2 weeks I think, and it wouldn't explain my front pieces getting thin and brittle.

All advice will be greatly appreciated💕

A couple of months ago I noticed my hair was breaking near my hairline and my front pieces getting thin and brittle. This has never happened before and the only things I changed in my routine was using the dyson airstrait and using k18. Hairdressers I've gone to say that it cant be that but then don't know whats causing it? Could it be mechanincal damage from the airstrait or maybe my hair turning brittle from k18 (I used it a lot) or maybe both together? Please help.

One other thing is I also started derma rolling a couple months ago but idk if thats why i have these short hairs because they are in kinda thick locks like pieces broken off rather than small hairs growing in, and also I only used the derma roller for like 2 weeks I think, and it wouldn't explain my front pieces getting thin and brittle.

All advice will be greatly appreciated💕

How do you like your major? And what jobs can you get after finishing your degree? I am thinking about applying for business administration since its a pretty flexible major (i think) and i can apply for very different jobs. However i am a creative and freedom in my education is important to me so im not sure if this major might maybe be too flat or restrictive? (stability is very important to me which is why im not choosing a more creative path like art)

I have noticed that almost every time I try to post, moderators take them down almost immediately and I am so confused as to why??

I dont have a lot of karma on this account so often it geta taken down because of that but most of the time my posts are just deleted with no explanation :/

I follow the rules of the subs and everything so what could the problem be? Ironically, I tried posting this on other subs and it got deleted lmao.