u/Takahiro__

TW: de.ath threat things

Im 16F. My dad is 53M. He's usually very chill with me, gives me a lot of money, and does whatever I ask him to do. He's a good dad, mostly just financially. Kinda bcs when I had depression when I was 5, and he... uh... didn't do anything? Like, no medication, no therapist. I think the only thing that really changed was how he started to spoil me more. (Don't worry about that, I'm fine now, I'm just socially awkward)

But today, when my dad asked me what I wanted for dinner (my dad usually doesn't like to cook, and I'm extremely picky, so he'll just buy takeout for me), and I didn't like any of the dishes he suggested, and he probably wouldn't know where to buy the ones I wanted, I said something cheap so he could buy it for me.

And then I didn't eat it. Well, that made him angry. But what really angered him was that he noticed the pants he used to buy for me had been cut in small places at the ankles. It was because we had argued about three months prior, and I was so angry that I cut those small parts of the pants he bought me to vent my anger (because they looked really bad to me back then). And this somehow really made him lash out at me. He started yapping about "do you know how hard it is to work?", "I'll make you drop out of school and go to work if you dare do that again," "the internet has really destroyed you," and I remember him threatening to kill me at least four times (I can't lie it was just my fashion style because he assumed anyone who didn't dress like his 70s -90s fashion or dye their hair was a bad person).

As far as I remember, this wasn't the first time he'd done this. I remember him saying he would kill and bury me, when I was in elementary school. I don't remember what I did to make him say that, but it probably couldn't be that serious, especially since I was just a little kid at the time.

And this didn't really teach me anything about money. I've been taught how hard it is to work at least 200 times in my life tho, both internet and schools,and stuff. I've come to understand that I should probably have obeyed him more... before going to university and then graduating and getting a job so I wouldn't have to face his crazy things anymore.

It seems they got lost