u/ThrowRapinker

Is MBA worth it for someone who doesn't wanna do a job?

Im 20 F, with almost 2 years of job experience in interior design. My parents want me to do a "reputed degree" for "job security". I don't want to do a job anymore. I'm on my notice period. I've outgrown it. I am also doing a part time international sales job (cold calling) remote.

I have started a startup recently, its going well (not monetized it yet). I also want to create a clothing brand, get into food industry, real estate, get international interior design clients, also start an eyewear brand.

I have an actual idea and plan for all the businesses i want to do. Its not a vague desire. I'm not interested in being called the founder. I genuinely want these unique ideas to come into existence. I want to create that's it. Ofc I'll earn as well.

My cousin got into an mba clg recently. 20+ lakh fee. My parents are like gone crazy after seeing that. Like the campus is like london blah blah.

Should I do an mba? The second option is CMA USA.

Pros of mba for me-

Will get to live in hostel (my parents are abusive asf)

Will get to live the clg life (due to work i missed out on it)

Parents would be mad happy (i don't give shit about them)

Cons of mba-

If they are investing 20L, they would expect me to persue a job through mba for the rest of my life ( that means bye bye to all my other interests)

I'm not a huge fan of studies. And i feel restless if i don't act on this urge to create businesses. I'd have to sacrifice it for 2 years there. I'm not looking for any co- founder there anyway.

Pros of CMA USA-

one year study

Low fees (parent's won't force me to persue it forever)

Less time duration

Cons of CMA USA-

No going to hostel (meaning being beaten up by parents all the time)

Parents don't see it as a "reputed degree" as it's only for one year.

What do i do?

Btw i also wanna travel the world (everyone wants to so that ik but i also want my businesses to go online as the currency exchange helps in my favour)

Im 20 F, with almost 2 years of job experience in interior design. My parents want me to do a "reputed degree" for "job security". I don't want to do a job anymore. I'm on my notice period. I've outgrown it. I am also doing a part time international sales job (cold calling) remote.

I have started a startup recently, its going well (not monetized it yet). I also want to create a clothing brand, get into food industry, real estate, get international interior design clients, also start an eyewear brand.

I have an actual idea and plan for all the businesses i want to do. Its not a vague desire. I'm not interested in being called the founder. I genuinely want these unique ideas to come into existence. I want to create that's it. Ofc I'll earn as well.

My cousin got into an mba clg recently. 20+ lakh fee. My parents are like gone crazy after seeing that. Like the campus is like london blah blah.

Should I do an mba? The second option is CMA USA.

Pros of mba for me-

Will get to live in hostel (my parents are abusive asf)

Will get to live the clg life (due to work i missed out on it)

Parents would be mad happy (i don't give shit about them)

Cons of mba-

If they are investing 20L, they would expect me to persue a job through mba for the rest of my life ( that means bye bye to all my other interests)

I'm not a huge fan of studies. And i feel restless if i don't act on this urge to create businesses. I'd have to sacrifice it for 2 years there. I'm not looking for any co- founder there anyway.

Pros of CMA USA-

one year study

Low fees (parent's won't force me to persue it forever)

Less time duration

Cons of CMA USA-

No going to hostel (meaning being beaten up by parents all the time)

Parents don't see it as a "reputed degree" as it's only for one year.

What do i do?

Btw i also wanna travel the world (everyone wants to so that ik but i also want my businesses to go online as the currency exchange helps in my favour)

I think it's fatal

I'm 20 f and I have gone through a heart surgery at the age of 13. I was born with hole in heart wall. Growing up i had issues like shortness of breath especially at night, air hunger, chest pain during dance, exercise etc. the doctors said it will heal on its own as I'll grow up.

It didn't heal, it turned into 4 holes. I had to get a surgery urgently. They inserted a device through my inner thigh, that stays inside and patches the holes.

Recently since a week, I'm having bad air hunger again, shortness of breath, heart beat feels loud, and nausea . But not actually puking. It's happening only at night. And a lil headache, very slight headache and brain fog.

Should I get it checked? Or is it not that serious? I have had air hunger previously (after surgery)and i got it checked but everything was fine. Its only happening at night, only at my home. Btw i live in a toxic abusive house.

The thing is, honestly speaking, i don't have any will to live due to the past trauma. Involving 🍇 and abuse. So if this is fatal, i don't wanna save my life. But should i still?

I'm not gonna take my life or anything, but I'm so tired of the trauma and all.

Pls note- i also have sleep apnea, recessed chin and jaw, extreme overbite, dental issues, tongue tie, cavities

I think it's fatal

I'm 20 f and I have gone through a heart surgery at the age of 13. I was born with hole in heart wall. Growing up i had issues like shortness of breath especially at night, air hunger, chest pain during dance, exercise etc. the doctors said it will heal on its own as I'll grow up.

It didn't heal, it turned into 4 holes. I had to get a surgery urgently. They inserted a device through my inner thigh, that stays inside and patches the holes.

Recently since a week, I'm having bad air hunger again, shortness of breath, heart beat feels loud, and nausea . But not actually puking. It's happening only at night. And a lil headache, very slight headache and brain fog.

Should I get it checked? Or is it not that serious? I have had air hunger previously (after surgery)and i got it checked but everything was fine. Its only happening at night, only at my home. Btw i live in a toxic abusive house.

The thing is, honestly speaking, i don't have any will to live due to the past trauma. Involving 🍇 and abuse. So if this is fatal, i don't wanna save my life. But should i still?

I'm not gonna take my life or anything, but I'm so tired of the trauma and all.

Pls note- i also have sleep apnea, recessed chin and jaw, extreme overbite, dental issues, tongue tie, cavities

I think it's fatal

I'm 20 f and I have gone through a heart surgery at the age of 13. I was born with hole in heart wall. Growing up i had issues like shortness of breath especially at night, air hunger, chest pain during dance, exercise etc. the doctors said it will heal on its own as I'll grow up.

It didn't heal, it turned into 4 holes. I had to get a surgery urgently. They inserted a device through my inner thigh, that stays inside and patches the holes.

Recently since a week, I'm having bad air hunger again, shortness of breath, heart beat feels loud, and nausea . But not actually puking. It's happening only at night. And a lil headache, very slight headache and brain fog.

Should I get it checked? Or is it not that serious? I have had air hunger previously (after surgery)and i got it checked but everything was fine. Its only happening at night, only at my home. Btw i live in a toxic abusive house.

The thing is, honestly speaking, i don't have any will to live due to the past trauma. Involving 🍇 and abuse. So if this is fatal, i don't wanna save my life. But should i still?

I'm not gonna take my life or anything, but I'm so tired of the trauma and all.

Pls note- i also have sleep apnea, recessed chin and jaw, extreme overbite, dental issues, tongue tie, cavities

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I'm 20 f and I have gone through a heart surgery at the age of 13. I was born with hole in heart wall. Growing up i had issues like shortness of breath especially at night, air hunger, chest pain during dance, exercise etc. the doctors said it will heal on its own as I'll grow up.

It didn't heal, it turned into 4 holes. I had to get a surgery urgently. They inserted a device through my inner thigh, that stays inside and patches the holes.

Recently since a week, I'm having bad air hunger again, shortness of breath, heart beat feels loud, and nausea . But not actually puking. It's happening only at night. And a lil headache, very slight headache and brain fog.

Should I get it checked? Or is it not that serious? I have had air hunger previously (after surgery)and i got it checked but everything was fine. Its only happening at night, only at my home. Btw i live in a toxic abusive house.

The thing is, honestly speaking, i don't have any will to live due to the past trauma. Involving 🍇 and abuse. So if this is fatal, i don't wanna save my life. But should i still?

I'm not gonna take my life or anything, but I'm so tired of the trauma and all.

Pls note- i also have sleep apnea, recessed chin and jaw, extreme overbite, dental issues, tongue tie, cavities

I'm 20 f and I have gone through a heart surgery at the age of 13. I was born with hole in heart wall. Growing up i had issues like shortness of breath especially at night, air hunger, chest pain during dance, exercise etc. the doctors said it will heal on its own as I'll grow up.

It didn't heal, it turned into 4 holes. I had to get a surgery urgently. They inserted a device through my inner thigh, that stays inside and patches the holes.

Recently since a week, I'm having bad air hunger again, shortness of breath, heart beat feels loud, and nausea . But not actually puking. It's happening only at night. And a lil headache, very slight headache and brain fog.

Should I get it checked? Or is it not that serious? I have had air hunger previously (after surgery)and i got it checked but everything was fine. Its only happening at night, only at my home. Btw i live in a toxic abusive house.

The thing is, honestly speaking, i don't have any will to live due to the past trauma. Involving 🍇 and abuse. So if this is fatal, i don't wanna save my life. But should i still?

I'm not gonna take my life or anything, but I'm so tired of the trauma and all.

Pls note- i also have sleep apnea, recessed chin and jaw, extreme overbite, dental issues, tongue tie, cavities

I'm begging you to help me

My mother is a different type of narcissist and I don't know how to deal with her, I've tried every trick in the world, the gray rocking and all, nothing works, she's physically verbally emotionally in every way abusive. She very confusing, one minute she'd be pushing me roughly and whispering shouting at me to get tf out of her house, and the second she hears the guests walk by, just starts cooing me like oh my sweet child and all. I'm so tired

Long story short- I'm 20F, physically and verbally abusive mother, dead father. Father used to spoil me alot when he was alive, he died when i was 10 due to cancer. I was m\\\\\\\*lested by a stranger man in my own house when i was 10 in my sleep. After my father's death, i was stuck, helpless with a very abusive mother. She'd abuse me when I would tell her my period pains are bad. And one day the medical reports proved them, that's when she shut up. Pulling by my hair, beating, telling me that I have ruined her life, that I'm worth nothing. Only hugging me on my birthday once a year. Not supporting my career choices, no financial support blah blah

Worst part is, a few months ago in a huge argument she blurted out how her husband, my father had 🍇ed me as a kid. That she knew it but she wasn't sure and he was already diagnosed with cancer when she was about to get me tested for 🍇.

I used to look up to him, so much, only to know this. And idk if he actually did it or if my mother is making shit up, apparently he used to drug me , he used to mix it with the medicines he'd give me. I don't know whats worse a 🍇pist father or a lying abusive mother. I don't know how to process it. I have no one to have my back. Family is fucked.

I have also been groped by my younger brother once. When is this gonna stop? Everytime I'm like that was the last sexual assault something worse happens, I'm so tired. I get nightmares.

The point is, i want to move out, but my mother doesn't allow it, she's a single parent, I'll be questioned by the relatives, what do i do? I want to move out, she doesn't allow it. She throws things when she's angry, break them, tells me I'm worth nothing, it's bad.

I want to end it all as well. I'm really done with stuff. I just wanna die. But i don't understand why I can't seem to attempt. I do have a plan ready. But I can't seem to even think of attempting. The past is always haunting me. The future seems bleak cuz my mother isn't allowing me to move out. Idk what to do pls help.

And if the father thing is real, then its even worse, because i used to feel safe with him, my body felt physically safe with him, after his death and the abuse at home, i physically feel like there's a giant hole in my chest. How do i trust my body again? If i feel safe with someone, that doesn't mean he/she is a good person. Then how do i ever make sense of what's actually safe and what's not? I have never received love, never understood it, i don't know what love is.

I used to be depressed a few years ago, pulled myself out of it, by persuing my dream career but my family doesn't support it.

Idk why i made this post. I just want to be taken care of for a month, away from everything, just fed good, loved i need to rest. I also have dealt with a heart surgery, eating disorder, self harm etc. I'm so tired.

Pls pls help me out, how do i deal with her,what type of narcissist is she, and how to handle her, i feel like I'm losing my sanity like there's something wrong with me. I don't help her for household chores at all, she has 3 maids . I don't know if I'm a good daughter. Am i the problem?

She expects me to act like those daughters in movies who wake up and hug their mom and give them a kiss on cheek and say goooodd morning mommmm but she didn't even ask me if i was okay the other day i was vomiting cuz of food poisoning.

Pls help me find a solution? A trick? Should i just perform the "i love my mom" act? But that's not me. I don't wanna lose myself more. I hate performing. What to do pls help me out. Should i be rebellious or should i pretend to be the loving affectionate daughter and get my way? But the conditional love of hers is so much, the conditions never end.

Pls i beg you to help me out. My own father

I'm so tired

Long story short- I'm 20F, physically and verbally abusive mother, dead father. Father used to spoil me alot when he was alive, he died when i was 10 due to cancer. I was m\\\*lested by a stranger man in my own house when i was 10 in my sleep. After my father's death, i was stuck, helpless with a very abusive mother. She'd abuse me when I would tell her my period pains are bad. And one day the medical reports proved them, that's when she shut up. Pulling by my hair, beating, telling me that I have ruined her life, that I'm worth nothing. Only hugging me on my birthday once a year. Not supporting my career choices, no financial support blah blah

Worst part is, a few months ago in a huge argument she blurted out how her husband, my father had 🍇ed me as a kid. That she knew it but she wasn't sure and he was already diagnosed with cancer when she was about to get me tested for 🍇.

I used to look up to him, so much, only to know this. And idk if he actually did it or if my mother is making shit up, apparently he used to drug me , he used to mix it with the medicines he'd give me. I don't know whats worse a 🍇pist father or a lying abusive mother. I don't know how to process it. I have no one to have my back. Family is fucked.

I have also been groped by my younger brother once. When is this gonna stop? Everytime I'm like that was the last sexual assault something worse happens, I'm so tired. I get nightmares. Sometimes i look at myself and feel disgusted that i have the blood of such ppl in my veins. Like i genuinely feel disgusted. I was a kid.

The point is, i want to move out, but my mother doesn't allow it, she's a single parent, I'll be questioned by the relatives, what do i do? I want to move out, she doesn't allow it. She throws things when she's angry, break them, tells me I'm worth nothing, it's bad.

I want to end it all as well. I'm really done with stuff. I just wanna die. But i don't understand why I can't seem to attempt. I do have a plan ready. But I can't seem to even think of attempting. The past is always haunting me. The future seems bleak cuz my mother isn't allowing me to move out. Idk what to do pls help.

And if the father thing is real, then its even worse, because i used to feel safe with him, my body felt physically safe with him, after his death and the abuse at home, i physically feel like there's a giant hole in my chest. How do i trust my body again? If i feel safe with someone, that doesn't mean he/she is a good person. Then how do i ever make sense of what's actually safe and what's not? I have never received love, never understood it, i don't know what love is.

I used to be depressed a few years ago, pulled myself out of it, by persuing my dream career but my family doesn't support it.

Idk why i made this post. I just want to be taken care of for a month, away from everything, just fed good, loved i need to rest. I also have dealt with a heart surgery, eating disorder, self harm etc. I'm so tired.

​

My mother is a different type of narcissist and I don't know how to deal with her, I've tried every trick in the world, the gray rocking and all, nothing works, she's physically verbally emotionally in every way abusive. She very confusing, one minute she'd be pushing me roughly and whispering shouting at me to get tf out of her house, and the second she hears the guests walk by, just starts cooing me like oh my sweet child and all. I'm so tired

Long story short- I'm 20F, physically and verbally abusive mother, dead father. Father used to spoil me alot when he was alive, he died when i was 10 due to cancer. I was m\\\\\\\*lested by a stranger man in my own house when i was 10 in my sleep. After my father's death, i was stuck, helpless with a very abusive mother. She'd abuse me when I would tell her my period pains are bad. And one day the medical reports proved them, that's when she shut up. Pulling by my hair, beating, telling me that I have ruined her life, that I'm worth nothing. Only hugging me on my birthday once a year. Not supporting my career choices, no financial support blah blah

Worst part is, a few months ago in a huge argument she blurted out how her husband, my father had 🍇ed me as a kid. That she knew it but she wasn't sure and he was already diagnosed with cancer when she was about to get me tested for 🍇.

I used to look up to him, so much, only to know this. And idk if he actually did it or if my mother is making shit up, apparently he used to drug me , he used to mix it with the medicines he'd give me. I don't know whats worse a 🍇pist father or a lying abusive mother. I don't know how to process it. I have no one to have my back. Family is fucked.

I have also been groped by my younger brother once. When is this gonna stop? Everytime I'm like that was the last sexual assault something worse happens, I'm so tired. I get nightmares.

The point is, i want to move out, but my mother doesn't allow it, she's a single parent, I'll be questioned by the relatives, what do i do? I want to move out, she doesn't allow it. She throws things when she's angry, break them, tells me I'm worth nothing, it's bad.

I want to end it all as well. I'm really done with stuff. I just wanna die. But i don't understand why I can't seem to attempt. I do have a plan ready. But I can't seem to even think of attempting. The past is always haunting me. The future seems bleak cuz my mother isn't allowing me to move out. Idk what to do pls help.

And if the father thing is real, then its even worse, because i used to feel safe with him, my body felt physically safe with him, after his death and the abuse at home, i physically feel like there's a giant hole in my chest. How do i trust my body again? If i feel safe with someone, that doesn't mean he/she is a good person. Then how do i ever make sense of what's actually safe and what's not? I have never received love, never understood it, i don't know what love is.

I used to be depressed a few years ago, pulled myself out of it, by persuing my dream career but my family doesn't support it.

Idk why i made this post. I just want to be taken care of for a month, away from everything, just fed good, loved i need to rest. I also have dealt with a heart surgery, eating disorder, self harm etc. I'm so tired.

Pls pls help me out, how do i deal with her,what type of narcissist is she, and how to handle her, i feel like I'm losing my sanity like there's something wrong with me. I don't help her for household chores at all, she has 3 maids . I don't know if I'm a good daughter. Am i the problem?

She expects me to act like those daughters in movies who wake up and hug their mom and give them a kiss on cheek and say goooodd morning mommmm but she didn't even ask me if i was okay the other day i was vomiting cuz of food poisoning.

Pls help me find a solution? A trick? Should i just perform the "i love my mom" act? But that's not me. I don't wanna lose myself more. I hate performing. What to do pls help me out. Should i be rebellious or should i pretend to be the loving affectionate daughter and get my way? But the conditional love of hers is so much, the conditions never end.

Pls i beg you to help me out.

My mother is a different type of narcissist and I don't know how to deal with her, I've tried every trick in the world, the gray rocking and all, nothing works, she's physically verbally emotionally in every way abusive. She very confusing, one minute she'd be pushing me roughly and whispering shouting at me to get tf out of her house, and the second she hears the guests walk by, just starts cooing me like oh my sweet child and all. I'm so tired

Long story short- I'm 20F, physically and verbally abusive mother, dead father. Father used to spoil me alot when he was alive, he died when i was 10 due to cancer. I was m\\\*lested by a stranger man in my own house when i was 10 in my sleep. After my father's death, i was stuck, helpless with a very abusive mother. She'd abuse me when I would tell her my period pains are bad. And one day the medical reports proved them, that's when she shut up. Pulling by my hair, beating, telling me that I have ruined her life, that I'm worth nothing. Only hugging me on my birthday once a year. Not supporting my career choices, no financial support blah blah

Worst part is, a few months ago in a huge argument she blurted out how her husband, my father had 🍇ed me as a kid. That she knew it but she wasn't sure and he was already diagnosed with cancer when she was about to get me tested for 🍇.

I used to look up to him, so much, only to know this. And idk if he actually did it or if my mother is making shit up, apparently he used to drug me , he used to mix it with the medicines he'd give me. I don't know whats worse a 🍇pist father or a lying abusive mother. I don't know how to process it. I have no one to have my back. Family is fucked.

I have also been groped by my younger brother once. When is this gonna stop? Everytime I'm like that was the last sexual assault something worse happens, I'm so tired. I get nightmares.

The point is, i want to move out, but my mother doesn't allow it, she's a single parent, I'll be questioned by the relatives, what do i do? I want to move out, she doesn't allow it. She throws things when she's angry, break them, tells me I'm worth nothing, it's bad.

I want to end it all as well. I'm really done with stuff. I just wanna die. But i don't understand why I can't seem to attempt. I do have a plan ready. But I can't seem to even think of attempting. The past is always haunting me. The future seems bleak cuz my mother isn't allowing me to move out. Idk what to do pls help.

And if the father thing is real, then its even worse, because i used to feel safe with him, my body felt physically safe with him, after his death and the abuse at home, i physically feel like there's a giant hole in my chest. How do i trust my body again? If i feel safe with someone, that doesn't mean he/she is a good person. Then how do i ever make sense of what's actually safe and what's not? I have never received love, never understood it, i don't know what love is.

I used to be depressed a few years ago, pulled myself out of it, by persuing my dream career but my family doesn't support it.

Idk why i made this post. I just want to be taken care of for a month, away from everything, just fed good, loved i need to rest. I also have dealt with a heart surgery, eating disorder, self harm etc. I'm so tired.

Pls pls help me out, how do i deal with her,what type of narcissist is she, and how to handle her, i feel like I'm losing my sanity like there's something wrong with me. I don't help her for household chores at all, she has 3 maids . I don't know if I'm a good daughter. Am i the problem?

She expects me to act like those daughters in movies who wake up and hug their mom and give them a kiss on cheek and say goooodd morning mommmm but she didn't even ask me if i was okay the other day i was vomiting cuz of food poisoning.

Pls help me find a solution? A trick? Should i just perform the "i love my mom" act? But that's not me. I don't wanna lose myself more. I hate performing. What to do pls help me out. Should i be rebellious or should i pretend to be the loving affectionate daughter and get my way? But the conditional love of hers is so much, the conditions never end.

Pls i beg you to help me out.

Long story short- I'm 20F, physically and verbally abusive mother, dead father. Father used to spoil me alot when he was alive, he died when i was 10 due to cancer. I was m*lested by a stranger man in my own house when i was 10 in my sleep. After my father's death, i was stuck, helpless with a very abusive mother. She'd abuse me when I would tell her my period pains are bad. And one day the medical reports proved them, that's when she shut up. Pulling by my hair, beating, telling me that I have ruined her life, that I'm worth nothing. Only hugging me on my birthday once a year. Not supporting my career choices, no financial support blah blah

Worst part is, a few months ago in a huge argument she blurted out how her husband, my father had 🍇ed me as a kid. That she knew it but she wasn't sure and he was already diagnosed with cancer when she was about to get me tested for 🍇.

I used to look up to him, so much, only to know this. And idk if he actually did it or if my mother is making shit up, apparently he used to drug me , he used to mix it with the medicines he'd give me. I don't know whats worse a 🍇pist father or a lying abusive mother. I don't know how to process it. I have no one to have my back. Family is fucked.

I have also been groped by my younger brother once. When is this gonna stop? Everytime I'm like that was the last sexual assault something worse happens, I'm so tired. I get nightmares.

The point is, i want to move out, but my mother doesn't allow it, she's a single parent, I'll be questioned by the relatives, what do i do? I want to move out, she doesn't allow it. She throws things when she's angry, break them, tells me I'm worth nothing, it's bad.

I want to end it all as well. I'm really done with stuff. I just wanna die. But i don't understand why I can't seem to attempt. I do have a plan ready. But I can't seem to even think of attempting. The past is always haunting me. The future seems bleak cuz my mother isn't allowing me to move out. Idk what to do pls help.

And if the father thing is real, then its even worse, because i used to feel safe with him, my body felt physically safe with him, after his death and the abuse at home, i physically feel like there's a giant hole in my chest. How do i trust my body again? If i feel safe with someone, that doesn't mean he/she is a good person. Then how do i ever make sense of what's actually safe and what's not? I have never received love, never understood it, i don't know what love is.

I used to be depressed a few years ago, pulled myself out of it, by persuing my dream career but my family doesn't support it.

Idk why i made this post. I just want to be taken care of for a month, away from everything, just fed good, loved i need to rest. I also have dealt with a heart surgery, eating disorder, self harm etc. I'm so tired.