u/Vanalen

How do i even try to focus on anything and be mindful when this house is draining the life energy out of me. Its so unbearable sometimes and i cant move out yet for personal reasons

Im having intrusive thoughts that a friend i reconnected with will kill me or hurt me when we hangout tomorrow. I cant tell if this is gut feeling or anxiety

Edit: i texted her and i feel reassured. Thanks for the comments and support I’ll be considering therapy

I dont know where to post this but recently i reconnected with a friend who i stopped conversing with because for some personal reasons. We planned to go out tomorrow but my mind keep telling me shes mad at me and will try to do something to hurt me. It’s really stressing me out and having me rethinking of going out. I feel like im going psychotic because i heard some of the symptoms are thinking that people are out to get you. Please give me advice

Like they went as far as climbing a tower together to express their love. While mine couldn’t handle an argument and decided to breakup because i was too much lol and realised that its peaceful without me in her life

i dont wish her well for leading me on and then blindsiding me and when i asked her what the fuck did she want from me then she simply said “Nothing. I just wanted to converse with you” im so angry i will hate her for the rest of my life. Fuck you and i hope if there was someone else it wouldn’t last long and you get blindsided the same way you did to me

Shes always tired working herself to death for my dad and shes slowly losing all her health. She also has autoimmune disease from dealing with my dad’s mental and physical abuse. I dont know why i wrote this post i just want to vent or find someone who can relate cause its mentally tiring to see her do all of that shes literally killing herself slowly

They lead you on for months and then spew some bs like that and you’re supposed to have hope that someone actually love with all their heart on this earth.

You’re only useful to them until you are not and then they dump you like you meant nothing. All the memories, love, time wasted just to hear this sentence what a cruel ugly world

No one will stand you when you have issues and show the real you. They claim they love you the way you are but once it becomes too much they leave. It happened every single time im so fucking tired of it all

I fucked our relationship up and after 3 months of nc and trying to learn from my mistakes and a couple of therapy sessions, she said shes happy and peaceful and doesnt want a relationship anymore. I know i said and did awful things to her but i really tried to be good and i was trying to change. Im so fucking broken i feel so worthless i cant get myself up to do anything from how disgusting i feel about myself

Whats the point of relationships if they will just end? I hate this pointless life

So i broke no contact after two months of NC and felt i accepted the breakup and healed. So i asked her if she wants to be friends since we were friends initially. She said “of course. What a dumb question” as much as i love our friendship i noticed in these 5 days my thoughts are going erratic. Going from being fine and doing what i love to obsessing over idea of her finding someone to love. Im so conflicted and i really thought i was doing well and i could have our friendship back but with the way my brain is reacting i don’t know anymore.

I feel so disrespected and i crashed out on my family multiple times to the point i tried jumping off the car. Nothing from what i did budged them and they still want me to meet him in case i “change my mind”. I will refuse him once the meeting is done but i cant stop blaming myself for giving into the pressure and not trying hard. I have so much negative feelings towards them it feels like my heart will explode

الواحد شو يسوي و كيف يقنع اهله ان ما الكل يبا يتزوج؟ تقدم لي واحد ومن ضغط الاهل قبلت اني بس اشوفه لكن بعدها برفضه لكني ندمت على هالقرار لان شخصيتي للاسف تميل لارضاء الناس قبلت و خفت اني "افشل" اهلي اذا رفضت. ودي اغير رايي لكن اعرف امي ردة فعلها تصير هستيرية لما اسوي شي غير عن هي اللي تباه. تكفون عطوني حل

Yesterday I had an interview and i cant stop thinking and repeating the interview and everything i said, my expression, etc. i get the feeling i want to scream every time i remember and its giving me literal physical pain. I need advice to deal with this feeling and i want to know if anyones been in this situation.