I have been on about a year maybe 6 months of only 1 100 mg capsule a day . Then I started dumping out half and stayed on that the rest of the time. The last month or so I think I've only taken 50 mg Max a day maybe less. But when I don't take it I get waves it anxiety/insomnia/body doesn't feel good

I'm just surprised that such a little amount could do that ? Or is it in my head ? I have anxiety and take Ativan and a piece of clonidine a day and even with those I get anxious til I dose gabapentin

I gave in tonight I think it had been almost a week. Last time I made it about a week and that was it. Seems like Everytime I make it to that mark and then lose control.

For anybody at a week or about to give in it's not worth it. It really didn't even feel that good. It didn't make me feel some.magical way and I feel disgusting because I watched porn again.

It seems when I am about a week in my brain forgets all those things and makes it seem like I NEED to do it. Or even makes me think I NEED to make myself horny so I can do it it's crazy. I really want to put this behind me. It's not worth constantly worrying about sinning. Obviously we are all sinners but I hate constantly thinking "I know I will sin in this particular way in the next week"

It's like always in the back of my mind

Does anybody ever just feel like your in the twilight zone ? Like everything is off. Including colors. Lights create an unsettling HD effect,contrast feels off,everything feels and looks too intense. It creates a great deal of anxiousness and dizziness. I've been dealing with this everyday. I recently had blood work that came back ok besides high cholesterol but not too high,and low vit d but nothing too extreme. I started a D supplement after. I track my blood pressure and it stays ok besides when I'm really stressed. I track my blood oxygen and heart rate and it seems fine

So what is happening to me ?

Broke.

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My rear time has a hole in the outer wall that I've plugged and replugged about 8 times

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My phone is disconnected so I have to use WiFi only and only go to stores with WiFi and then I have to find WiFi again to complete order

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The base of my phone is cracked so my charger won't stay in especially in the car

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I am diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks medically. I left my last job where I was making decent money due to this condition

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So I feel like I'm currently the most stressed driver in my state at least.

I know that's a weird question and I always hear you feel better as the days go. But I'm at around a week nofap . Never seem to make it passed here. Because I already have anxiety. And I feel worse without doing it... And I feel like that body ache you feel when you're getting sick. I feel drained and I can't sleep at night. Has anyone else went through this ?

And by hits I mean gets worse cuz it seems to always be there. But like driving for example tonight I felt like I had just dropped some acid and was smoking a blount to the dome. Blurred vision,heart rate increase,fear

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The only way I can explain it is that gas that bain uses in batman I get scared af and everything looks distorted. I get tunnel vision and the urgent need to get tf home. It's scary and seems to happen daily now

I have smoked cigs and vaped on and off for almost 20 years . But never really had a cough or anything. I would quit or switch to dip tobbaco and never was concerned about "real" lung damage

Well about 5 months ago I started buying disposables again and have been literally blazing down on raz etc for 5 months all day everyday. I recently started feeling like I wasn't breathing right at night and sometimes during the day. So it made my anxiety way worse. I quit for good yesterday. And I'm hoping to heal from this crap. Nicotine lozenges don't even touch the craving. But I know breathing is much more important 🫡

I feel very defeated. I went to an appointment last week. Heart rate was 120 + the entire time . They did an EKG and said "looks good" but I didn't believe them.

I have to wait almost 90 days for cardiology appointment. And I fear I will walk in there with my heart racing panicked. Everyday is hell. I feel like something is wrong with me.

My heart rate goes crazy at the slightest bit of stress and I feel like I need to run home and lay down.

Earlier I went to the store and my heart rate was at 150 + when I tried to check out and I had to go to the bathroom. I barely made it out the store.

I take my bloodpressure daily and it seems in the normal range when sitting but elevated for a brief time when I first stand up. Along with my heart rate.

I feel like I get winded and racing heart from doing things I used to do no problem. I just ran up and down my stairs 5 times (set of 5 stairs) and felt like I couldn't keep going

If I'm stressed and do something like that my heart rate goes out of control. A few weeks ago I went to drop off an instacart delivery and as soon as I started up the stairs at these apartments my heart rate went to 160 + and I barely made it to the top. I called an ambulance and had a panic attack in the parking lot. My heart rate slowly came down

I just can't keep dealing with this everyday. I can't work a normal job. I can barely even do instacart.

Anyone gone through similar and if so,what helped you return to normal ?

I need a really good way that my mind will accept. I wake up and my BP is normal . And it can get elevated randomly throughout the day like 140s over 100 then it will go down after I take it one or 2 more times

I'm tapering off clonidine rn which is a bp med that I was prescribed for anxiety so it makes my compulsion to check my bp worse since it can raise BP if you come off too fast. But I'm on a very low dose. Like a quarter of a 0.1 mg a day max

But when I leave the house I start to wonder about my bp. And I really need to stop this

If they are all infected already... Why does a bite or scratch kill them and turn them into a zombie 😂

Went to Walmart earlier but then started feeling like I was getting a pain when I breathe then. So I went to the house and on the way I started having rapid heart rate.

Then everything kind of settled down at the house, I think it was acid reflux related

Anyway I went back to Walmart to force myself to go I hate letting anxiety "win" so I'm I went in and I felt weird af dizzy and then blurry vision the whole time and elevated heart rate. The blurry vision lasted all the way til I got home. It's happened before as well but it's a weird symptom of anxiety attack. Does anyone else deal with vision issues because of panic ?

It seems like I didn't really have the urge to look at porn or masterbate for 2 Weeks. It got to the point where I was like trying to think of sex because I was worried my sex drive and libido were "gone"

But instead that led me to repeat the same cycle. . Disgusting porn and that feeling of "I messed up again"

I'm trying not to let it defeat me. I mean 12 days was a long time for me. I think I just feel alone and depressed and give in. No gf no wife. Idk if things will work out in the future with my long distance female friend or not . So it's just a bunch of uncertainty and feeling almost like forever alone that triggers it.

My exp lately is they flood me with shitty orders when I first log on and when the system detects I'm not accepting them I don't get anymore batches maybe one every 30 min.

I'm 99 percent sure they do this to punish drivers for not being a slave. Especially since it's Friday and the same thing is happening again