Just went into a grocery store for the first time since watching Dominion
I'm recently vegan (8 days, feeling AMAZING); transitioned out of an omnivore diet for about 2 months due to health issues, joined the vegan sub, saw Dominion advertised, watched it, now I'm vegan for all the reasons.
I was only there for five minutes but the weight of what I can't unsee started to feel suffocating. I'm good at focusing on how glad I am that I'm on the right path now. I can't afford to beat myself up for my past lifestyle. I don't spend my alone time dwelling on the guilt, even though I am guilty (deep down I knew better for many years, but always yielded to cultural momentum... Dominion just cracked me open). But being there... all I could see was packaged misery. Brought to you by big oil, who couldn't function without this, and has spent 100 years convincing us that we need it.
I'm desperately networking, trying to find like-minded people, but I've already been trying to make friends in general since I moved across the US last year and it's HARD in your late 30's. I emailed a rescue farm near me about volunteering. I want to go be with the cows and just sit and watch them and be gentle around them, and be with people who feel the same way. The nearest meet-ups would take too much travel for me given certain life circumstances, though I should be able to do that sometime within a few months. I need to find a vegan who's willing to let me cry into their arms for a few hours.
There are no words in any language to describe how fucked up this is. Even if the lies and jokes about how vegans have to eat "rabbit food" were true, I'd rather eat nothing but iceberg lettuce for the rest of my life, to the detriment of my health, than participate willingly in this hell.