u/bytheway_em

Atp I genuinely don't know. I have a terrible relationship with my dad. Calling him dad doesn't sit right tho he is my biological dad he never really behaved like one. Maybe today's one of my low energy days as I never really post things venting in reddit but....I think it's about time I get it addressed by people than bots😭😭

My classmates used to joke about how I have daddy issues and I did look it up as I didn't really know what it exactly meant, which lead into me talking to gemini about stuff I never really said out to people much. So here we go...

My dad never really liked me is what I'd think. He and my mom don't get along well (it was an arrange marriage) and they'd go FOREVER without talking because of my dad's lack of communication skills. Instead of talking the thing out my dad inclines over violence and talking shit about my mom and her father. I don't really remember a time I felt relaxed or comfortable with my dad around. He has hit me many times in the past and used words that one wouldn't really tell their daughter. Saying stuffs like

"Be glad that you're a girl if you were a guy you'd be useless".... "don't tell anyone you're my daughter" (I got a B in math and he disowned. It's 3rd grade btw)

However when it comes to my sister (she's elder) he never has once laid a finger on her nor has used words that'd hurt. Even when he and mom had a fight it almost never meddled with my sister's social life. He'd still go with mom to drop her off at her stop so she could go to college and all that. But when it comes to me he behaves as if he wants me to beg.

He doesn't talk with us (me, my mom, and my sister) but he expects obedience.

We also suspect that he's probably having affairs as we have noticed him coming home at odd hours and shit. Mind you he doesn't really work. We have a business that's under his name but runs almost entirely because of my mom's hardwork.

My mom isn't willing to leave that man because she doesn't want to "burden" her parents.

I was recently venting about this to gemini and it pointed out that this might follow me into my adulthood relationships, as it said I didn't really experience "love" and that my mind takes this for normalcy. And looking back I did like a guy (we didn't date) who was almost always keeping me on my toes. As if my brain was short circuted I'd freeze and wouldn't be able to process what had happened.

And I do know I shouldn't let this consume my mental space as I have to focus on academics, some days like today I'm drained.

I don't know.

I know this is petty but I'm kinda jealous of people with good dads..even my maternal grandpa he's awesome my mom was so lucky idk maybe that's why God nerfed my mom's life with her husband.

Sometimes I hate how I look when I smile. I resemble him. I hate how much I resemble him. Tho I am really glad that I've a great mom (she has her own issues but that's completely understandable as she had put up with a waste of a man like my dad for decades)

I researched a LOT but many sources said that the registrations for the entrance exam starts in Feb some say in Jan but when exactly does the PHASE 1 registrations start?

And also if the registrations do start, where would I be able to find the form sort of thingy in the website? Because under the admissions thing I wasn't able to find stuff related to the 2027 entrance exam. Maybe I looked it up wayyy toooo early?

We stopped texting (we used to almost everyday for 2 months) ikik I should focus on myself but then whenever I hear a song he posted on his story or when my playlist plays something that he recommended or even an internet meme he used to text about jus to annoy me comes up on my fyp I miss him. Probably the most genuine male friend I had.

We found each other in reddit....I hope he reads this

I'm sorry I really miss how comforting our late night texts and music sharing felt. I remember every nuance of the convos we had, every single detail, and I can't help but wonder do you ever think of me as I can't get my mind off you. I felt that distance and disappointment when you stopped texting for I didn't know what else to do to make you feel warm after that.

I'd say you pretty much knew me more than my irl friends.

I sent you a paragraph and blocked your acc in hopes you'd text me in the others jus to see if you wanted this friendship as much as I did. But I guess no.

What an irony that I used to vent to you and now I'm venting about you.

I hope you read this dumbo. For today is friendship day and I wish you were still in my life.

✉️

I did post this in other communities but I didn't get an answer on how to make things right....

Sooo we found each other in reddit btw thru a study buddy post (I had posted it) we texted a bit changed platforms to discord and I felt closer to him (idk how he felt tho) hence we exchanged Instagrams we texted almost every day and whenever I didn't get a text from him I used to sulk but yeah "he's prolly busy" is what I used to think. Ngl.....I became attached way toooooooo much. He knows almost everything about my life....He's older than me and we aren't from the same time zones (4.5 hours apart) so we usually texted at night(also because of my school timings and his uni/work).....This is where it all went wrong..I kinda like to stalk my friends (I ASK THEM BEFORE DOING SO AND IF THEY SAY NO IT IS A NO). I asked him if I could stalk him too and he was pretty cool abt it at first so I went ahead and did stalk him. Tho I didn't find anything tooooo sensitive I did find smth related to his ex from 6 months ago. Eventually I told him what I had found (I didn't take it seriously as I thought I already knew alot about him and because I had his consent before doing so.) But he freaked out when I told him whatever I had found out....and I felt terrible I apologized, posted a story of apology in Instagram to which he said "this feels like secondhand public humiliation". Tbh idk why it came off as "secondhand public humiliation" for him....because most of the people who follow me don't even know him...

I tried talking with him after that incident...but I don't feel the old connection.

We haven't been talking for nearly 21 days now.

He used to do lore spills about his previous online friends now I guess I am another lore for his next one.

Ngl I got attached. Wayyyy more than I thought I would be.. My friends used to tease me about him (I used to talk to them at school about him) but I ignored it as I knew there was ZERO POTENTIAL and he did say he'd never fall for someone online because they are jus words on the screen. I don't know. I jus want to get the same friendship back.

If he ever sees this...

Sorry again because I never meant to hurt you as that's the last thing I would wanna do...I really hope we can talk like how we used to....spam each other with reels...have deep convos at 2 am....share music with each other...please...?

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Sooo we found each other in reddit btw thru a study buddy post (I had posted it) we texted a bit changed platforms to discord and I felt closer to him (idk how he did tho) hence we exchanged Instagrams we texted almost every day and whenever I didn't get a text from him I used to sulk but yeah "he's prolly busy" is what I used to think. Ngl.....I became attached way toooooooo much. He knows almost everything about my life....He's older than me and we aren't from the same time zones (4.5 hours apart) so we usually texted at night(also because of my school timings and his uni/work).....This is where it all went wrong..I kinda like to stalk my friends (I ASK THEM BEFORE DOING SO AND IF THEY SAY NO IT IS A NO). I asked him if I could stalk him too and he was pretty cool abt it at first so I went ahead and did stalk him. Tho I didn't find anything tooooo sensitive I did find smth related to his ex from 6 months ago. Eventually I told him what I had found (I didn't take it seriously as I thought I already knew alot about him and because I had his consent before doing so.) But he freaked out when I told him whatever I had found out....and I felt terrible I apologized, posted a story of apology in Instagram to which he said "this feels like secondhand public humiliation".

I tried talking with him after that incident...but I don't feel the old connection.

We haven't been talking for 15 days now.

He used to do lore spills about his previous online friends now I guess I am another lore for his next one.

Ngl I got attached. Wayyyy more than I thought I would be.. My friends used to tease me about him (I used to talk to them at school about him) but I ignored it as I knew there was ZERO POTENTIAL and he did say he'd never fall for someone online because they are jus words on the screen. I don't know. I jus want to get the same friendship back.

Sooo we found each other in reddit btw thru a study buddy post (I had posted it) we texted a bit changed platforms to discord and I felt closer to him (idk how he did tho) hence we exchanged Instagrams we texted almost every day and whenever I didn't get a text from him I used to sulk but yeah "he's prolly busy" is what I used to think. We aren't from the same time zones (4.5 hours apart) so we usually texted at night. I kinda like to stalk my friends (I ASK THEM BEFORE DOING SO AND IF THEY SAY NO IT IS A NO). I asked him if I could stalk him too and he was pretty cool abt it at first so I went ahead and did stalk him. Tho I didn't find anything tooooo sensitive I did find smth related to his ex from 6 months ago. Eventually I told him what I had found (I didn't take it seriously as I thought I already knew alot about him and because I had his consent before doing so.) But he freaked out when I told him whatever I had found out....and I felt terrible I apologized, posted a story of apology in Instagram to which he said "this feels like secondhand public humiliation".

I tried talking with him after that incident...but I don't feel the old connection.

We haven't been talking for 15 days now.

He used to do lore spills about his previous online friends now I guess I am another lore for his next one.

Sooo we found each other in reddit btw thru a study buddy post (I had posted it) we texted a bit changed platforms to discord and I felt closer to him (idk how he did tho) hence we exchanged Instagrams we texted almost every day and whenever I didn't get a text from him I used to sulk but yeah "he's prolly busy" is what I used to think. We aren't from the same time zones (4.5 hours apart) so we usually texted at night. I kinda like to stalk my friends (I ASK THEM BEFORE DOING SO AND IF THEY SAY NO IT IS A NO). I asked him if I could stalk him too and he was pretty cool abt it at first so I went ahead and did stalk him. Tho I didn't find anything tooooo sensitive I did find smth related to his ex from 6 months ago. Eventually I told him what I had found (I didn't take it seriously as I thought I already knew alot about him and because I had his consent before doing so.) But he freaked out when I told him whatever I had found out....and I felt terrible I apologized, posted a story of apology in Instagram to which he said "this feels like secondhand public humiliation".

I tried talking with him after that incident...but I don't feel the old connection.

We haven't been talking for 15 days now.

He used to do lore spills about his previous online friends now I guess I am another lore for his next one.

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So basically my parents took my phone away in the start of 2026 as I was in 12th grade and left me to use my tab but believe it or not my tab is veryyyy old and has jus 32 gb of storage so I sneaked my phone a few days ago to use and also my parents don't let me talk to my friends via texts or calls, I've never been out with my friends..never been to a birthday party...they don't even lemme get notes from my friends hence I started hiding things from them.. I started an Instagram account jus so I could communicate with my friends in 2025 and that's not the main issue as I've never gotten caught but today I was using my phone for being in a gmeet with a friend while studying and I kept it under my books when my mom called me....she later found it under the books and started yelling that I've got no discipline and that I'm prolly gonna get addicted to drugs in the future. She also said after you go to college you'd probably end up in the news because you won't ask me anything and go away with a guy and get.... ig you understand what she was gonna say... yes I understand her frustration that I didn't ask her for permission but accusing me of fake loving her is harsh.. and the fact that she strongly believes that my life is going to be in ruins kinda hurts...I apologized I even asked her if I could use her phone instead but she firmly stood her ground in calling me a lier.

My relationship with my parents aren't good. Me and my dad haven't been talking for a while. And my sister is my mom's puppet. I don't know what to do.. I know I messed up big time.. and she did say that she'd never trust me and that no one in this family does.

What do I do...?

Sooooo I'm a 12th grader from India and I really hope to find someone whom I can study with in ypt I'm good at most of the subjects 😁(rip math🥀🥀⚰️⚰️). Plus also I do better with a bit of competition!😇If interested please lemme know! I'd create a study room in YPT therefore we can push each other towards their goals! 🤝🤝

It need not always be about studying we can yap at times too!

Anyways looking for genuine people to study with!

Thank you!

So...uh I'm in my final year of high school rn....but the past year was straight up shit....I'm kinda emotionally drained and exhausted by many reasons...but my irl friends don't understand what I mean.....I just want some company at times....if yall have any suggestions on how to get better...please tell me

Thank you

Gng this comes under what ship yall😭🥀🕊

It started in 7th grade okahy so what happened was we both are academic rivils and all tat in 7th grade he once told me to change my water bottle because it was too tiny and I did I told him that he said "I care about your hydration please drink more water"

In 9th we used to get jealous when the other gender came too close he used to tell the guys not to talk with me and I used to get mad when he spoke with girls once during truth or dare they asked me whom I hate the most and I said his name and guess what he asked my best friend to ask me why I hated him (I lied brooo I loved him but already people started spreading rumors and all that) so one day when they called me and him for an interschool competition we spoke with the teacher and when we found ourselves alone in the corridor I told him "I lied when I said I hated you" he said "its okay" I said "its quite the opposite of hate" I said that and ran he called out "don't run you might fall"😭😭😭😭

And in 10th grade we both were in different classes but I still peeked in to look at him and now 4 days before our 10th grade board exams I called him and confessed thru a phone call I used to write poems for him so I recited one of them

Then in he said "I'm not mature enough to be in a relationship and stuff but it's not like I'm rejecting you maybe later"

WDYM "MAYBE LATER?"

I used to make silk thread bracelets lam so I made one for him and attached a pearl gng A PEARL I made it a day before english boards gng took me 3 hrs(dw yall I got a 99 cool) when I gave it to him he said thanks then I came to know that (in 11th) he threw it in the drain lmao🥀 "bad quality" he said it seems and threw it🙏🕊

GNG NOW DA TWIST EH

He started dating in 11th and the girl is non other than his friend's girlfriend. The moment he said ILY she left a full on green flag gng😭 (she left a year relationship for this guy gng even she knows he's dating her jus for a year)🙏🥀

That girl was my friend's friend (my friend is his ex I didn't know that till 11th gng she didn't tell me🥀)

And guess what he did now? He told a teacher a very chill and cool one (big sis vibes bruh)

"I want fun rn

Timepass love

She's torturing me

She doesn't have any other choices so she's circling me like a dog

She's physically not my type" His exact words btw.

I mean what? Ugh

Then he told my friend "she has no concept of boundaries" "wtf does she know about love?" "I mean if I looked like (he mentioned a boy from my class) I'm sure she'd still "love" me" "Tbh jus block her" I mean I don't know about love? Ehhh??

Then it was his bday he was called infront of the class everyone sang the birthday song I didn't. Jus before he came to my bench I left the class because I didn't wanna give him a hand shake and get a chocolate from him. And guess what he did.

He left a chocolate bar in my place and told my friend "its for her"....🦧🦧🙏

Now 12th grade we still don't talk but looking back my time with him I don't know what the fah happened my memories of school are filled with him rather than fun with friends

I Loved him gng I couldn't even get angry at him properly.

Maybe he spoke in the audacity of being the school topper lol🥀🕊🙏

Gimme yar thoughts 🙏😭(and yes my priority is studying)

If yall stayed till the end THANK YOU SO MUCH gng🕊🫂✨️

Gng this comes under what ship yall😭🥀🕊

It started in 7th grade okahy so what happened was we both are academic rivils and all tat in 7th grade he once told me to change my water bottle because it was too tiny and I did I told him that he said "I care about your hydration please drink more water"

In 9th we used to get jealous when the other gender came too close he used to tell the guys not to talk with me and I used to get mad when he spoke with girls once during truth or dare they asked me whom I hate the most and I said his name and guess what he asked my best friend to ask me why I hated him (I lied brooo I loved him but already people started spreading rumors and all that) so one day when they called me and him for an interschool competition we spoke with the teacher and when we found ourselves alone in the corridor I told him "I lied when I said I hated you" he said "its okay" I said "its quite the opposite of hate" I said that and ran he called out "don't run you might fall"😭😭😭😭

And in 10th grade we both were in different classes but I still peeked in to look at him and now 4 days before our 10th grade board exams I called him and confessed thru a phone call I used to write poems for him so I recited one of them

Then in he said "I'm not mature enough to be in a relationship and stuff but it's not like I'm rejecting you maybe later"

WDYM "MAYBE LATER?"

I used to make silk thread bracelets lam so I made one for him and attached a pearl gng A PEARL I made it a day before english boards gng took me 3 hrs(dw yall I got a 99 cool) when I gave it to him he said thanks then I came to know that (in 11th) he threw it in the drain lmao🥀 "bad quality" he said it seems and threw it🙏🕊

GNG NOW DA TWIST EH

He started dating in 11th and the girl is non other than his friend's girlfriend. The moment he said ILY she left a full on green flag gng😭 (she left a year relationship for this guy gng even she knows he's dating her jus for a year)🙏🥀

That girl was my friend's friend (my friend is his ex I didn't know that till 11th gng she didn't tell me🥀)

And guess what he did now? He told a teacher a very chill and cool one (big sis vibes bruh)

"I want fun rn

Timepass love

She's torturing me

She doesn't have any other choices so she's circling me like a dog

She's physically not my type" His exact words btw.

I mean what? Ugh

Then he told my friend "she has no concept of boundaries" "wtf does she know about love?" "I mean if I looked like (he mentioned a boy from my class) I'm sure she'd still "love" me" "Tbh jus block her" I mean I don't know about love? Ehhh??

Then it was his bday he was called infront of the class everyone sang the birthday song I didn't. Jus before he came to my bench I left the class because I didn't wanna give him a hand shake and get a chocolate from him. And guess what he did.

He left a chocolate bar in my place and told my friend "its for her"....🦧🦧🙏

Now 12th grade we still don't talk but looking back my time with him I don't know what the fah happened my memories of school are filled with him rather than fun with friends

I Loved him gng I couldn't even get angry at him properly.

Maybe he spoke in the audacity of being the school topper lol🥀🕊🙏

Gimme yar thoughts 🙏😭(and yes my priority is studying)

If yall stayed till the end THANK YOU SO MUCH gng🕊🫂✨️

FIRST I PUT UP TAT FLAIR "LONG" BECAUSE THIS LORE IS LONG NTG ELSE 😭😭🥀🥀

It started in 7th grade okahy so what happened was we both are academic rivils and all tat in 7th grade he once told me to change my water bottle because it was too tiny and I did I told him that he said "I care about your hydration please drink more water"

In 9th we used to get jealous when the other gender came too close he used to tell the guys not to talk with me and I used to get mad when he spoke with girls once during truth or dare they asked me whom I hate the most and I said his name and guess what he asked my best friend to ask me why I hated him (I lied brooo I loved him but already people started spreading rumors and all that) so one day when they called me and him for an interschool competition we spoke with the teacher and when we found ourselves alone in the corridor I told him "I lied when I said I hated you" he said "its okay" I said "its quite the opposite of hate" I said that and ran he called out "don't run you might fall"😭😭😭😭

And in 10th grade we both were in different classes but I still peeked in to look at him and now 4 days before our 10th grade board exams I called him and confessed thru a phone call I used to write poems for him so I recited one of them

Then in he said "I'm not mature enough to be in a relationship and stuff but it's not like I'm rejecting you maybe later"

WDYM "MAYBE LATER?"

I used to make silk thread bracelets lam so I made one for him and attached a pearl gng A PEARL I made it a day before english boards gng took me 3 hrs(dw yall I got a 99 cool) when I gave it to him he said thanks then I came to know that (in 11th) he threw it in the drain lmao🥀 "bad quality" he said it seems and threw it🙏🕊

GNG NOW DA TWIST EH

He started dating in 11th and the girl is non other than his friend's girlfriend. The moment he said ILY she left a full on green flag gng😭 (she left a year relationship for this guy gng even she knows he's dating her jus for a year)🙏🥀

That girl was my friend's friend (my friend is his ex I didn't know that till 11th gng she didn't tell me🥀)

And guess what he did now? He told a teacher a very chill and cool one (big sis vibes bruh)

"I want fun rn

Timepass love

She's torturing me

She doesn't have any other choices so she's circling me like a dog

She's physically not my type" His exact words btw.

I mean what? Ugh

Then he told my friend "she has no concept of boundaries" "wtf does she know about love?" "I mean if I looked like (he mentioned a boy from my class) I'm sure she'd still "love" me" "Tbh jus block her" I mean I don't know about love? Ehhh??

Then it was his bday he was called infront of the class everyone sang the birthday song I didn't. Jus before he came to my bench I left the class because I didn't wanna give him a hand shake and get a chocolate from him. And guess what he did.

He left a chocolate bar in my place and told my friend "its for her"....🦧🦧🙏

Now 12th grade we still don't talk but looking back my time with him I don't know what the fah happened my memories of school are filled with him rather than fun with friends

I Loved him gng I couldn't even get angry at him properly.

Maybe he spoke in the audacity of being the school topper lol🥀🕊🙏

Gimme yar thoughts 🙏😭(and yes my priority is studying)

If yall stayed till the end THANK YOU SO MUCH gng🕊🫂✨️

Sooo I'm a 12th grader from India cbse board science stream (cs) 😖✨️

Woullldd loveee to have people with whom I can study withhhh tbh if you're good with explaining physics please let's be study buddies 😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn't always have to be about studying we can yap at times too

But still I wanna make connections which last long and I hope we achieve our goals together 😝😝😝😝