used a washing liquid w synthetic fragrance

spent the night throwing up and slept on the shower floor. my whole body was vibrating and my heart was pounding, it felt so scary. I think my partner is going to leave me. everyone keeps telling me its anxiety. I’m trying to qualify for disability but no doctor takes me seriously. chemical sensitivity is a recognized medical disorder but seems impossible to find someone who recognizes it.

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u/cinnabar-field — 8 days ago

softstar sizing

repurchasing ballerine flats that I had a few years ago and purchased the wrong size again as their measurements are off. can anyone offer their experience with sizing as I don't want to have to pay for a third return :/

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u/cinnabar-field — 12 days ago

same class filing

I’ve been waiting to apply for a wordmark but someone has beat me to applying in the same class but not category. theirs is herbal medicine and tea. mine is functional foods. we are both class 5. is there any chance at all of it being acceptable as they are quite different categories?

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u/cinnabar-field — 14 days ago

starting out from zero

building out a new account, at what stage would you start trying to get followers and begin following other accounts?

is 10 posts enough to get some traction?

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u/cinnabar-field — 21 days ago

reusing egg wash

making fried chicken and always get so confused about whether it is safe to reuse egg wash for a second batch. it has been in the fridge for a few hours marinating the chicken.

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u/cinnabar-field — 25 days ago

he takes pleasure in causing me pain and exerting power over me

I used to be a much more resilient person. he denigrates me for being too weak/sensitive

ironically it is all of the mocking and denigrating that makes me feel weaker, on top of having an illness with no support.

I am genuinely one of the most resilient people I know. most people who meet me would recognise that. but he only sees me as weak.

I found out the other day that I have an ACE score of 9/10 which is like 0.1% of the population. I feel like I’m lucky to be alive at 35 years old.

I think he enjoys triggering my abandonment fears because it usually makes me need him more and he likes pushing my boundaries. my heart and soul are perpetually at war.

people underestimate how strong you have to be to leave a dynamic like this. my spirit is fighting to live every single day.

how can he be so cruel and then claim to love me?

the only thing keeping me alive right now is working on my business. it is not just a business but the culmination of my life's work and the experiences I’ve had and reminds me of my purpose here. I think that's why he wants to take it away from me, as I will no longer be afraid to leave him.

when I become financially independent I will not tolerate his awfulness and immaturity anymore.

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u/cinnabar-field — 1 month ago

looking for some insight

I’m currently in the pre-launch phase of my business, creating content, copy, website, and finalizing products. I’m a sole founder with no employees. My partner is helping out with the technical side.

For those who’ve launched a physical product business, how did you structure your time in the lead-up vs after launch?

I have some health limitations that affect my capacity day to day, so I’m trying to structure my pre and post-launch workflow realistically to be more fully prepared rather than burning out.

Right now, I am enjoying every aspect of creating my own business as it also happens to be a special interest of mine and I enjoy having a creative outlet.

Which makes it feel pretty effortless right now but I worry about the actual workload involved after we launch. It seems manageable from what I’ve projected but I see alot of comments from burned out founders that make me wonder if I’m being delusional about how challenging it will be.

Is there anyone who genuinely enjoys every aspect of running their own business? To the point where it doesn't feel like work at all?

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u/cinnabar-field — 1 month ago

looking for some insight

I’m currently in the pre-launch phase of my business, creating content, copy, website, and finalizing products. I’m a sole founder with no employees. My partner is helping out with the technical side.

For those who’ve launched a physical product business, how did you structure your time in the lead-up vs after launch? Specifically around workload, what surprised you most about how demands shifted once you went live?

I have some health limitations that affect my capacity day to day, so I’m trying to structure my pre and post-launch workflow realistically to be more fully prepared rather than burning out.

Right now, I am enjoying every aspect of creating my own business as it also happens to be a special interest of mine and I enjoy having a creative outlet.

Which makes it feel pretty effortless right now but I worry about the actual workload and friction involved after we launch. It seems manageable from what I’ve projected but I see alot of comments from burned out founders that make me wonder if I’m being delusional about how challenging it will be.

Is there anyone who genuinely enjoys every aspect of running their own business? To the point where it doesn't feel like work at all?

Is there anything I should be more prepared for?

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u/cinnabar-field — 1 month ago

looking for some insight

I’m currently in the pre-launch phase of my business, creating content, copy, website, and finalizing products. I’m a sole founder with no employees. My partner is helping out with the technical side.

For those who’ve launched a physical product business, how did you structure your time in the lead-up vs after launch?

I have some health limitations that affect my capacity day to day, so I’m trying to structure my pre and post-launch workflow realistically to be more fully prepared rather than burning out.

Right now, I am enjoying every aspect of creating my own business as it also happens to be a special interest of mine and I enjoy having a creative outlet.

Which makes it feel pretty effortless right now but I worry about the actual workload involved after we launch. It seems manageable from what I’ve projected but I see alot of comments from burned out founders that make me wonder if I’m being delusional about how challenging it will be.

Is there anyone who genuinely enjoys every aspect of running their own business? To the point where it doesn't feel like work at all?

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u/cinnabar-field — 1 month ago

are there any good psychiatrists?

that actually understand the overlap between adhd and complex neuroimmune conditions?

my psychiatrist just tried to diagnose me with schizophrenia which is absurd.

it doesn't feel possible to actually get the help I need.

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u/cinnabar-field — 1 month ago

my provider is defunct

line disconnected and abn has been cancelled. I need a reliable provider ASAP. suggestions please.

I’m also now unable to get a discharge letter from my previous prescriber but I have invoices if that counts for anything?

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u/cinnabar-field — 2 months ago

I’m at breaking point

why is it SO hard for people to understand that not everyone has the ability to leave a bad relationship? especially if you are financially dependent on someone/chronically ill/disabled.

I am trying my best every day to achieve financial independence but its so so hard when you are trapped in a bad dynamic.

this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life.

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u/cinnabar-field — 2 months ago

bdsm

I don't know what to do. I think my issue is beyond reddit's pay grade. I have complex ptsd and bpd. obviously an attachment based therapist would be ideal but I don't have the funds to do so rn. I love my partner so much but he keeps hurting me even though he means well. my condition is deteriorating. he doesn't see the problem bc its not his fault. its my trauma pattern. but by this stage he is contributing to the pattern and I’m unable to stop doing it on my own (it's unconscious and impulsive) I’ve asked for his support in breaking this pattern and he doesn't feel any sense of responsibility or obligation.

I’m so afraid of ending up in a place where i have less and less agency over this pattern bc it puts my life at risk. and I know its just a bad pattern/bad conditioning which needs a different input but he wont acknowledge or recognise that to help me change it.

like yea self agency and autonomy but what am I meant to do if its literally an UNCONSCIOUS thing I have no control over and it is fully in his power to help me break the cycle.

its like the core trauma pattern existed on its own long before him but its become a much more complex trauma now and I only realised recently that it began as a distinct pattern in the beginning of the relationship while he was seeing another woman. there were times where he was not completely upfront about it which led to some extremely deep fearful reinforcement of my attachment wounds.

its not that its his fault, this is my trauma and attachment pattern at its core but its not only that now, its become something else too which he contributes to, a new thing entirely which is perpetuated by his dismissal and reinforcement which makes any possibility of secure attachment impossible for me.

I guess at this point its just a Retraumatisation Loop.

I don't want to feel like im victimising myself but I don't see any way out of it on my own.

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u/cinnabar-field — 2 months ago

bdsm and ifs

I don't know what to do. I think my issue is beyond reddit's pay grade. I have complex ptsd and bpd. obviously an attachment/ifs therapist would be ideal but I don't have the funds to do so rn. I love my partner so much but he keeps hurting me even though he means well. my condition is deteriorating. he doesn't see the problem bc its not his fault. its my trauma pattern. but by this stage he is contributing to the pattern and I’m unable to stop doing it on my own (it's unconscious and impulsive) I’ve asked for his support in breaking this pattern and he doesn't feel any sense of responsibility or obligation.

I think people really shouldn't be doing bdsm without psychological training and understanding of attachment dynamics as its dangerous and people's lives are at risk.

I’m so afraid of ending up in a place where i have less and less agency over this pattern bc it puts my life at risk. and I know its just a bad pattern/bad conditioning which needs a different input but he wont acknowledge or recognise that to help me change it.

like yea self agency and autonomy but what am I meant to do if its literally an UNCONSCIOUS thing I have no control over and it is fully in his power to help me break the cycle.

its like the core trauma pattern existed on its own long before him but its become a much more complex trauma now and I only realised recently that it began as a distinct pattern in the beginning of the relationship while he was seeing another woman. there were times where he was not completely upfront about it which led to some extremely deep fearful reinforcement of my attachment wounds.

its not that its his fault, this is my trauma and attachment pattern at its core but its not only that now, its become something else too which he contributes to, a new thing entirely which is perpetuated by his dismissal and reinforcement which makes any possibility of secure attachment impossible for me.

I guess at this point its just a Retraumatisation Loop.

I don't want to feel like im victimising myself but I don't see any way out of it on my own.

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u/cinnabar-field — 2 months ago

Just getting tired of all the manufactured outrage when there is actually a very simple solution to it all.

CIS women retain their identity and as a social and legal category remain unchanged and transwomen gain explicit legal protection and the right to self determination as a distinct category.

TERFs have no grounds to dispute on as their protected identity of "womanhood" is entirely their own.

Trans women achieve their right to self determination. Everyone is fully agentic.

If anyone (on both sides) objects then they immediately expose themselves as having dishonest motives or fascist motives as in this scenario everyone's agency and right to self determinacy is preserved and intact.

No one is forced into spaces they don't want. TERFs get to keep the sanctity of their identity and trans women don't have to fight for inclusion in hostile spaces where they wouldn't want to be anyway.

Everybody wins.

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u/cinnabar-field — 2 months ago