u/cosmicat4

I used to go out all of the time but now it's a struggle to leave the house. I can't tell if it's because of my cptsd or just getting older. Anyone else?

Since being on meds my sex drive has gone done a lot. I haven't dated seriously since being diagnosed bipolar and I worry it would affect a future relationship I have since I used to want it constantly and barely have any drive at all.

the heat is brutal this weekend. How's everyone doing? I've been staying inside hydrating and exhausted. It's like the heat depleteted all of my energy.

title says it all. getting back into yoga now and using a new manduka pro mat. been reading ways to break it in and thought id ask here!

Even when stable on meds I tend to be more of a night owl. I had a sleep doctor tell me to wake up around 9am but it's a struggle. I don't really get energy til around 2pm and I'm not a morning person at all. Wondering if other bipolar peeps are night owls too.

Last night I was eating spicy food and it was so spicy I couldn't finish it so my meds didn't get absorbed since I need 500 calories for my meds to absorb. I was up til around 2am last night and slept in today. I was so tired I just laid on my couch and listened to music while playing the sims all day. My friend was understanding that I cancelled but I feel kinda down that I couldn't do anything. On your off days what do you do or tell yourself when you can't do much? Trying not to feel too down about it

I started IOP this past week on Thursday. It's a lot as this is all new to me. My ed started when I was 16 and I'm just now getting help at 34. I've been crying so much more than usual. I cried on the phone with the intake people and almost every day since I started as it feels like a lot to process and try to heal. I can't believe how bad my ed got and I regret not getting help sooner.

Is it normal to be exhausted from this? I've been on my couch all day listening to music and did anyone else cry this much? It's a lot but I do want to recover.

I (34 F) started developing an ED when I was 16. I would use adderal to eat very little, skip meals, drink a ton of green tea, and overexersize. My eating disorder then got worse in college. I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and got put on a medication that made me rapidly gain weight and binge eat. My bf at the time was an asshole and would call me fat and even filmed me binge eating. I was mortified and after I got off that medicine my ED got even worse and I'd go most the day without eating then binge eating at night.

In my late 20's I found the right meds and my SSRI quieted the ED thoughts. I was finally eating normally and found balance. Then I got thyroid problems and was very light headed. When I starved myself and I felt light headed I would binge eat so with the thyroid problems I started binge eating a lot. I rapidly gained a lot weight in that time and over the years with bipolar meds.

Now I am obese. I hate myself so much. I pretend I'm okay but I'm not. I told myself I won't date unless I lose weight. I finally broke down crying to my therapist about it and he recommended an IOP for my eating disorder. I start this Thursday and am so nervous. I want help and I think part of that is going easier on myself for gaining weight and hopefully losing it in a healthy way. I don't want to starve myself but I also don't want to be obese anymore I'm finally ready to find a healthier path somewhere in the middle.

Does anyone else relate to going from anorexic to obese and how did you deal with it?

I can't take the pain anymore. Has anyone ever gotten perscription pain pills for their cramps just to use on their period? I'll cry til 3am my cramps are so bad.

I'm extreemly nervous to start an eating disorder IOP this upcoming Monday. I'm 34 but my eating disorder started when I was 16 and got really bad in college. I never really got help for it bc I hid it well. Now I'm extreemely nervous to start the program bc I feel all these emotions coming up that I've been ignoring. I already cried on the phone multiple times with the intake coordinator for this program.

Any advice or tips? Also did you cry from facing your eating disorder? is that normal?

I can’t have any caffeine anymore because it makes me manic which makes me so angry on days I’m tired like today. The last time I had caffeine I had a tiny bit of Snapple like a fourth cup and that made me manic where I was talking a lot. Even decaf tea gives me insomnia and throws me off. Is anyone else like this? I’d kill for some tea so badly.

Edit: I was so tired today I gave in and had a small amount of tea. I actually feel fine since I'm on a higher dose of meds! Seems I am in the clear for now. Hallelujah.

I grew up very thin and in shape. Now that I am in my 30s I have gained a significant amount of weight. I feel embarassed and disgusted with how I look. I miss being healthy and thinner so badly. I also feel mortified when others make fun of me.

If you have an eating disorder and are in a bigger body, how do you deal? I’m about to start looking for a therapist but don’t have one yet.

I’ve had an eating disorder since I was 16. I never got help for it. While mine hasn’t been as bad since I got put on SSRIs, I broke down crying to my trauma therapist today about my past struggle with it, how bad my eating disorder was in the past, and how I’m still struggling today.

We agreed I’d look for an eating disorder therapist for me to get help but I’m really nervous to start and open this can of worms I’ve been ignoring for a really long time. I’m 34 btw. Any tips or advice before I start so I’m not so nervous/ scared? Much appreciated.