I've never really bought into this kind of stuff, but for the last few weeks, I've been seeing 444 so much, and it's kind of freaking me out. I've seen some people say that it means that there are guardian angels, and some have said that it means there's a plan for me. If it means there is a plan, how do I know what plan/how to stick to it?
All my life, I've been the person who gets left out. No matter what I do, I always just get talked over and ignored in group settings. It doesn't matter who I'm with, everyone does it to me. I always just get left out. I try to be interesting, I put on a positive attitude, I ask questions, I stay engaged, but no one actually likes me. I know everyone is just laughing at me behind my back. None of them actually like me or want to be friends with me. I just wish they wouldn't pretend to.
If I knew what was so wrong with me, I'd change it, but no one tells me what's wrong with me.
Genuinely, this has happened once, and I think another guy is doing this to me. The current guy I was getting along with really well, we were texting a bunch and have some good common interests, but we're supposed to go out tomorrow and he never got back to me on what time works
Ever since I was 11, I've wanted to kill myself. I'm 20 now and it's the same. I'm in constant pain from my depression and anxiety. No one actually likes me all that much, I'm always talked over and interrupted, I can spend an entire group outing without saying anything because people don't let me speak. And that's if people actually bother to invite me out. I'm stupid, so fucking stupid, I don't know anything. I want to be a nurse to help people, but I'll never get there. Everyday, I'm just waiting for my 21st birthday so I can legally purchase a shotgun and end my misery once and for all. A shotgun is the solution to all my problems (my brain).
20 and I've never been in a relationship. I installed some dating apps and got a few matches, but I'm absolutely terrified of actually messaging any of them! I was able to talk to two of them a little, but I have another match and am really anxious about actually messaging with him. How do I just get over this?
I'm 20, I very rarely get any attention from guys in my age group. The only men who seem interested are much older, and I don't want that. And just to be clear, I do approach guys, but they're never interested in me. I don't think I'm terribly ugly. I'm not overweight, and I try to dress nice. I have some acne issues and I'm on the taller side (5'10) but that's it.
Like, if they are hanging upside down, suspended by their ankles, but they are on their period. Does this effect how fast the blood comes out? What happens?
That's all! We've been texting for a few weeks, known each other for a few months, and I asked him if he wanted to get coffee sometime, and he said yes! Sometime next week we're going to meet up.
I honestly feel kind of embarrassed for not having a job while going to school. I'm a full life community college student and I spend nearly all my time just doing homework and studying. I have a volunteer position that I do once a week (I need volunteer hours to get into the nursing program), but I feel so embarrassed that I don't have a real job while going to school. My college doesn't have many opportunities for student employment (I've applied) and my city is kinda shit for entry level workers.
I honestly feel kind of embarrassed for not having a job while going to school. I'm a full life community college student and I spend nearly all my time just doing homework and studying. I have a volunteer position that I do once a week (I need volunteer hours to get into the nursing program), but I feel so embarrassed that I don't have a real job while going to school. My college doesn't have many opportunities for student employment (I've applied) and my city is kinda shit for entry level workers.
So I've known this guy for a few months through college, and finally have started texting him. However, I have no idea if he's interested or not, or if he's just not seeing that I'm interested.
Reasons to believe he's interested:
- when I was asking about his tattoos, he sent a photo of one on his chest!
- he showed me a photo of him from when he was in the army, and when I asked if he had a favorite photo of himself in uniform, he said he doesn't really have many photos. But when I said I had been hoping to see more, he sent me a few more pictures the next morning
- he asks me questions about himself when we're texting (and I ask him questions about himself as well)
Reasons to believe he's not interested:
- he has made no move on me
- while I've mentioned liking his tattoos, and made a joke in a group chat he's in about how he always dresses nice, he's never said anything to me about my appearance
My attempts at flirting:
- asking to see more photos of him
- teasing him about stuff sometimes
- texting him that I'd been hoping to see him at our last club meeting that he'd been unable to make
- told him that I just like seeing him (texted that earlier, still waiting on a response)
Overall, I just have no clue as to if he's uninterested or not seeing that I'm interested. I've never been in a relationship, so this is all new to me.
Seriously. It feels like so many gen xers are alcoholics, and we were the ones stuck getting raised by them.
In my teen years, I had very little privacy when it came to online stuff, and even after I turned 18, my mom was still trying to monitor my activities online. As a result, I'm very private about stuff I do, and that includes writing fanfiction. I don't even like having people use my phone to look something up, because they might look through my shit. The stuff I write isn't even all that "weird" but I really worry about a potential partner wanting to read it or see my Tumblr blog where I post fandom stuff. Would it really be a bad thing if I were to not let a romantic partner see that kind of stuff? I'm sorry, this is really just the only place that I feel other people would understand.
I'm in a club with him at our college, and I've never heard any mention, but the club is more politics based, so who knows. I might be meeting up with him Monday to give him some fliers that I printed out, but I also have his contact info, so I could try and message him. I'm not on IG, so doing some sleuthing that way won't work for me.
5'10 and I would kill for some recs where the male and female leads are around the same height, or the male is a little shorter. I just don't want the height to be a plot point or anything, I want it to be treated like normal. Thank you!!