u/dear_june

I'm going through some crisis in life and idk who to turn to. But since i am a student, i need to focus and study for my exams. So i want a counselor/psychiatrist to talk to and then prescribe me whatever they feel is right for me. So if anything helps, please let me know. Please recommend doctors keeping in mind I'm a student, so i have a limited budget.

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I (22,F) have been fed up from my life. The more I want to create a good life for myself, the more my family keeps ruining it for me. I want to cry and cry my heart out. Anyway, this is going to be a bit long but here me out:

I have a brother (23). We lost our mom in 2022. We always had a dysfunctional family where dad constantly abused mom. Mom tried her best giving us good education with whatever she earned from being a teacher. Dad never supported her Anyway. From my childhood, i have felt pity for my mom. My brother never stood up against dad for his trash behaviour.

Mom was diagnosed with 4th stage Brain Cancer and passed away within 4 months. I was there with her alone most of the times during her last moments. I witnessed her death which was too much for me honestly. But it took me a long time to recover from it.

After her death, i never had much expectations from my brother. We promised to support each other but i have always perceived him as a narcissist, arrogant and hot headed person. No one could ever make any sense to him.

Cut to 2025, he took some money, started a PG, failed in it and started drinking a lot. He permanently moved back home but now all he did was talk about how we are from a royal lineage(lol) and how he is destined to be a king, etc.

In 2025, he was hitting one of our dogs and i stepped in and got beaten by him badly. Till this date I have a scar on my forehead.

Dad changed a lot after mom's death but he still has no say in front of my brother because he threatens to beat him up as well.

Now the main story: In April, I invited a guy home for lunch. He's way younger than me and calls me didi. I consider him to be a little brother as well. He came home, talked to my brother as well, had lunch and we watched a movie on our TV which was in the living room. That's all. Then he left. And we genuinely didn't do anything wrong.

Last night, I went home for some work. My brother got drunk and after 4 months he wanted to know why my friend came home. I explained to him so many times that he's a kid and he did nothing wrong. But he kept on saying multiple times that he put his hand on my shoulder and started screaming how he would beat him up and 🍇 his mom and sister.

I was so furious I screamed that he has been a better brother to me than you will ever be. And this angered him even more. He kept on screaming all night and even tried to attack dad.

In the morning, I got up and left home. I stay in another city Anyway. Then I got to know how he's repeatedly asking dad to bring my friend's parents to him so that they could touch his feet and apologise. When i heard all this I was so mad, i called him and I threatened him to kms if he lays a finger on anyone.

Then, he started threatening me that he will kms as well. He has an airgun. He asked me if he should pull the trigger. I said yes, please go ahead..i will be happy. Then he started acting like he was shot which was a complete lie. I blocked his number and he called me 50 times.

Then he sends me texts on WhatsApp calling me a bitch and says how he disowns me from the family and i am an orphan now and have no home and all. I stopped responding at all.

I called my friend, told him everything and asked him to put an FIR against him for harassment if he does something.

Now, my dad has also decided to move out from that house and live in rent. And for me? I will need years of therapy first to move on lmao..

Thanks for reading. Bye 👋

I want to cut all contacts from my family.

I (22,F) have been fed up from my life. The more I want to create a good life for myself, the more my family keeps ruining it for me. I want to cry and cry my heart out. Anyway, this is going to be a bit long but here me out:

I have a brother (23). We lost our mom in 2022. We always had a dysfunctional family where dad constantly abused mom. Mom tried her best giving us good education with whatever she earned from being a teacher. Dad never supported her Anyway. From my childhood, i have felt pity for my mom. My brother never stood up against dad for his trash behaviour.

Mom was diagnosed with 4th stage Brain Cancer and passed away within 4 months. I was there with her alone most of the times during her last moments. I witnessed her death which was too much for me honestly. But it took me a long time to recover from it.

After her death, i never had much expectations from my brother. We promised to support each other but i have always perceived him as a narcissist, arrogant and hot headed person. No one could ever make any sense to him.

Cut to 2025, he took some money, started a PG, failed in it and started drinking a lot. He permanently moved back home but now all he did was talk about how we are from a royal lineage(lol) and how he is destined to be a king, etc.

In 2025, he was hitting one of our dogs and i stepped in and got beaten by him badly. Till this date I have a scar on my forehead.

Dad changed a lot after mom's death but he still has no say in front of my brother because he threatens to beat him up as well.

Now the main story: In April, I invited a guy home for lunch. He's way younger than me and calls me didi. I consider him to be a little brother as well. He came home, talked to my brother as well, had lunch and we watched a movie on our TV which was in the living room. That's all. Then he left. And we genuinely didn't do anything wrong.

Last night, I went home for some work. My brother got drunk and after 4 months he wanted to know why my friend came home. I explained to him so many times that he's a kid and he did nothing wrong. But he kept on saying multiple times that he put his hand on my shoulder and started screaming how he would beat him up and 🍇 his mom and sister.

I was so furious I screamed that he has been a better brother to me than you will ever be. And this angered him even more. He kept on screaming all night and even tried to attack dad.

In the morning, I got up and left home. I stay in another city Anyway. Then I got to know how he's repeatedly asking dad to bring my friend's parents to him so that they could touch his feet and apologise. When i heard all this I was so mad, i called him and I threatened him to kms if he lays a finger on anyone.

Then, he started threatening me that he will kms as well. He has an airgun. He asked me if he should pull the trigger. I said yes, please go ahead..i will be happy. Then he started acting like he was shot which was a complete lie. I blocked his number and he called me 50 times.

Then he sends me texts on WhatsApp calling me a bitch and says how he disowns me from the family and i am an orphan now and have no home and all. I stopped responding at all.

I called my friend, told him everything and asked him to put an FIR against him for harassment if he does something.

Now, my dad has also decided to move out from that house and live in rent. And for me? I will need years of therapy first to move on lmao..

Thanks for reading. Bye 👋

How can I move on and be happy now?

I (22,F) have been fed up from my life. The more I want to create a good life for myself, the more my family keeps ruining it for me. I want to cry and cry my heart out. Anyway, this is going to be a bit long but here me out:

I have a brother (23). We lost our mom in 2022. We always had a dysfunctional family where dad constantly abused mom. Mom tried her best giving us good education with whatever she earned from being a teacher. Dad never supported her Anyway. From my childhood, i have felt pity for my mom. My brother never stood up against dad for his trash behaviour.

Mom was diagnosed with 4th stage Brain Cancer and passed away within 4 months. I was there with her alone most of the times during her last moments. I witnessed her death which was too much for me honestly. But it took me a long time to recover from it.

After her death, i never had much expectations from my brother. We promised to support each other but i have always perceived him as a narcissist, arrogant and hot headed person. No one could ever make any sense to him.

Cut to 2025, he took some money, started a PG, failed in it and started drinking a lot. He permanently moved back home but now all he did was talk about how we are from a royal lineage(lol) and how he is destined to be a king, etc.

In 2025, he was hitting one of our dogs and i stepped in and got beaten by him badly. Till this date I have a scar on my forehead.

Dad changed a lot after mom's death but he still has no say in front of my brother because he threatens to beat him up as well.

Now the main story: In April, I invited a guy home for lunch. He's way younger than me and calls me didi. I consider him to be a little brother as well. He came home, talked to my brother as well, had lunch and we watched a movie on our TV which was in the living room. That's all. Then he left. And we genuinely didn't do anything wrong.

Last night, I went home for some work. My brother got drunk and after 4 months he wanted to know why my friend came home. I explained to him so many times that he's a kid and he did nothing wrong. But he kept on saying multiple times that he put his hand on my shoulder and started screaming how he would beat him up and 🍇 his mom and sister.

I was so furious I screamed that he has been a better brother to me than you will ever be. And this angered him even more. He kept on screaming all night and even tried to attack dad.

In the morning, I got up and left home. I stay in another city Anyway. Then I got to know how he's repeatedly asking dad to bring my friend's parents to him so that they could touch his feet and apologise. When i heard all this I was so mad, i called him and I threatened him to kms if he lays a finger on anyone.

Then, he started threatening me that he will kms as well. He has an airgun. He asked me if he should pull the trigger. I said yes, please go ahead..i will be happy. Then he started acting like he was shot which was a complete lie. I blocked his number and he called me 50 times.

Then he sends me texts on WhatsApp calling me a bitch and says how he disowns me from the family and i am an orphan now and have no home and all. I stopped responding at all.

I called my friend, told him everything and asked him to put an FIR against him for harassment if he does something.

Now, my dad has also decided to move out from that house and live in rent. And for me? I will need years of therapy first to move on lmao..

Thanks for reading. Bye 👋

Students, preferably but working will also do. Rent is around 3.5K.

I want to take a 3 year L.L.B. course from Odisha. But there are so many good choices, so I'm confused. So please, help a girl out :)

Please give it a read, only if you feel like as this is going to be long.

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I (22,F) was in a relationship with a guy (21,M) for the last 2 years. He was my classmate in college and we didn't know much about each other but in the last year of college we started interacting & we decided to give it a try.

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Full disclosure, I come from an abusive family and I do have a lot of baggage that I need to heal from. I have had past relationships which didn't work out for me. So when we first started talking, I told him everything about my life and said it would be for the best if he does not get dragged into the complexities of my life. But he pursued me anyway, started putting efforts, love and care into everything and eventually I gave in and agreed to be with him, which today I think was my biggest mistake.

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I decided that no matter how my life has been, I will always keep myself happy and I will live my life to the fullest. And this is predominantly why this relationship became bitter towards the end.

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One thing i noticed from the very beginning is that, whenever I would share my issues or problems with him, he would get so worried about it and start overthinking about it so much that he would spend nights sleepless, walking. After I got to know of this, i became more careful about sharing my problems with him.

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Then, i noticed signs of impatience, childishness in him which was honestly fine i guess. I wanted him to be himself around me. Our relationship ran very smoothly till we graduated and we kept it private. We also took trips together and every time we were leaving, I always found him crying and I knew how much he was attached to me.

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After we went back home, i took up a job in a small startup. Life was hectic for me, work was stressful and I had a job which was related to appear on camera and stuff. When l told him about it, his first reaction was that ," how can I bear seeing you with a guy in a screen?" But we sorted that out eventually. When I was busy at work and dealing with a lot he would tell me he was facing a communication gap from my side and this leads to him overthinking. He also tells me that I don't care about him or put in my efforts.

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A few months later, we go back to different places for higher studies. Things were fine until a point. But then, some of my old friends moved into my city and I started hanging out with them.

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He started telling me how he faces the communication gap again, despite me being on call with him basically half the day. And he told me strictly to not visit my friends anymore on the pretext of this hampering my routine.

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One thing about me is that I drink occasionally. He knew this from the very beginning. So, a few of my female friends decided that we should go to a club together. And me who had never been to a club before was very excited about it. When I called him and told him about it, he instantly said no and said ," How come you're telling me that you're going to a club and not asking me?". My friends and i , we all tried to convince that we girls just wanted to have fun but he didn't listen and screamed at me.

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A few days later, I went to a family friendly bar with one of my female friends. It was a cafe+ bar. We had beers and just had a good time. And when he came to know of this we had a huge fight again, and he basically told me that I have to take care of his wishes. He doesn't mind me drinking but me drinking in a public place. When I asked him why, he says i intend on marrying you some day and this is something about you that i would have to hide from my family.

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We had a lot of fights and then, last week we met after months apart. I tried to talk to him and he said something like ," you girls only want equality when it comes to freedom and enjoyment, when it comes to responsibilities you guys always back off. Men are inherently strong, etc.etc.". I reminded him how my mom was the single caretaker of our family but he didn't listen to my points. Then he said, " whenever we have fights or arguments, do not go to your female friends for advice. They will ruin your life" I was so annoyed with the way he thinks.

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Then, something else happened in terms of physical intimacy in those 3 days we stayed. It was like he was keeping a score of how many times he could do it because we would meet again after a long time..Despite of me saying no,despite of me resisting he still did it.

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Now that I have talked about breaking up, he's crying, howling, devastated and saying he will change.

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Yeah that's all. Thanks for reading.

I take my skincare very seriously and using a sunscreen is non negotiable for me. But I also sweat a lot, and my body sunscreen seems to be doing nothing for me. So, I have been thinking about giving into the new hype in the market- sunscreen jackets. I know brands like Blue Tyga, Uniqlo and even Jockey sell them.

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So, if you have used them please tell me if they are worth spending a 1000 rupees on them or if any fabric will do the same?

My (22,F) boyfriend threw accusations at me left & right that clubs are meant for hookups only and it shows what kind of mindset i have. So I am conflicted at this moment. Help me out.

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