u/dodekahedron

Long story short. I have patch testing this week. I cannot take an antihistamine or steroid. We suspect a mast cell issue.

Anyway. That heat hit this week and ive been covered in hives since Wednesday.

Im nervous theyll make me reschedule.. my allergist is going on vacation so he won't be back until September (international doctor going home for 2 months) and so itll be weeks to months from THAT point that id be able to even get it.

And I cannot get any psych meds until this is finished. 🫠😿

Just looking for positive stories that itll be okay.

We can file to get property tax exemptions starting TODAY for the 2027 year.

Oh how I have missed the property tax exemptions. Cant wait.

My MH provider encouraged me to reach out on the portal since I cant see her for 90+ days.

I just wrote a letter to her and went to send it and I only see options like PACT team and MENTAL HEALTH

If I send it to the mental health option it wont go to her would it? It would go to a general provider account?

Guess I should print and mail it?

I am sadder than sad. Like I wish I had someone to feed my cats and go in patient sad even though I am safe.

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I am 37. I struggle to make friends. Tale as old as time. I do the things other people want to do. I put in the work. No one ever wants to do the things I want to do. Not my kid. Not anyone who says they are my friends.

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I used to just go do the things. Then people would hear the cool things and go do them too. Without me.

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Now I struggle to go do things because the things are filled with families or friend groups.

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Last year I made a friend. We had a period of disagreement last June and didnt talk for a week or two. Then since June 22nd til... Saturday we talked daily.

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A month or so ago I asked them if they wanted to go to this thing on a Saturday. They put it on their calendar. I know they dont like to do things on Saturdays. But they put it on their calendar.

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Recently they have wanted to go shopping for pants. Asked me to tag along. I did. They didnt get all the things they needed said they would need to go back. I spotted some things there my kid needs/wants but wanted to confirm his sizes. So I said cool. Few days later I specifically asked if they wanted to go back, so I can get the things I need and they can finish their shopping. They said yes, but we still havent gone (this was before memorial day)

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Last week they asked if I wanted to go with them to this other city instead to buy pants with them. I said yes. I enjoy spending time with them even for mundane activities and would say yes to almost anything if I wasnt busy.

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A few weeks ago I asked if they wanted to go see big boy. They asked me to not leave until a specific time to give them time to get ready. They got home from work and stuff in time but decided to not go because it looked like rain. It didnt rain.

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Last year our falling out was because he said he wanted to go to NASCAR in his life. Nascar race was happening within driving distance so I bought him tickets for his birthday, but the raceweekend came around and he didnt actually want to go.

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He claims he has issues with crowds. Which is fair. I do to. I am 100% VA disabled for mental health reasons. But I still want to experience life.

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Its not even just him.

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My kid doesnt want to do anything I want to do.

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I have a handful of people that on paper are my friends.

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However I never see them. They are all doing their own thing. They will invite me to their thing occasionally, but everyone is always too busy to go to my thing.

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Do you know how many people showed up for my military graduations? Zero.

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Do you know how many people greeted me when I got back from deployment? Zero.

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Do you know how many people visited me in the hospital when I was being treated like a burn patient? Zero. And I had a boyfriend at the time. Hes the asshole who knocked me up. Should have left him over this.

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Well anyway Friday I reminded me friend about the thing in Saturday and he showed me it was in his calendar.

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I brought up a few things we can do while over there. A time table. Be home by noon or 1pm. Go early. Avoid the people.

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Saturday. He doesnt text me until after I said we should leave so I already know we arent going.

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However I do straight up ask him. Then even say we can find something else to do. I need to get out of the house. Then he says hes gonna stay home and clean.

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I just say ok 😿 hopefully some day I can correctly communicate my feelings because I am sad.

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Then I try to communicate my feelings on no one ever wanting to do what I want to do.

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He just says I am sorry. Then never fucking texts me again.

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Confirming I am a trash person that doesnt deserve friends.

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I dont understand why I am a trash person. Ive done extensive therapy, so much so most therapists cant help more I can do all the I statements.

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I make room for others.

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I do the things others want to do first.

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I put it all in practice. Yet my life is still a trash person with no friends. Not even my therapist wants to see me until September. Maybe ill cancel it til october just because im about go to sleep until then and I can be Billie Joe. Wake me up when September ends.

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Anyway clearly I am rambling now so I am just going to shut up and go be sad trash person elsewhere

I have been seeing VA massage lady like once a week. She doesnt do a real massage. Just myofascial release.

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One of the routine releases is a subscap release where you get stuck in the armpit. It hurts a lot. One of the most painful releases I know of. Yet I remind her to do it. I ask for this particular one.

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Yesterday while doing it shes like "you know youre the only veteran I see that doesnt even flinch with this. I have grown men jump off the table with this one."

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"Says a lot about my pain tolerance doesnt it?"

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"Yes it does"

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And then I cried.

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Because I have multiple inflammatory conditions and cant get any meds to help. Just modalities and raw dogging realiity.

I am using an android phone, reddit app.

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This morning all of a sudden all posts are in a "preview mode" so to speak, with a blue "more" drop down

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Even if the posts are short, and then it just shows one or two more sentences.

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Posts have always been completely scrollable if I was already in the individual post.

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I am in card view, I tried the other view and it didn't change it back.

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I don't see any other setting options to revert back to how it was before I went to sleep.

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Thank you for your time.

Pulled into my driveway as some sort of critter was crawling under my garage door.

Bigger than a mouse.

I parked in my driveway and then ran into my house and into the garage to find it. Some sort of rodent with a fuzzy tail. Not a smooth tail.

It wasnt in a spot I could easily reach and I needed a better flashlight. Went to get said flashlight and couldn't find it again.

Google just says bushy tailed rat, but also that they dont live here.

Im am in german township by cleveland/lilac

I just got an email that the VA is greenlighting an MDM@ study for PTSD and alcohol disorder.

They are looking for 80 veteran participants.

The criteria is strict, must be an alcoholic but not so bad that you can not-drink for 48 hours without medical intervention.

Must also have ptsd.

Fit the bill for you?

https://clinicaltrials.gov/study/NCT07118839?id=NCT07118839&viewType=Card&rank=1

I was totally okay with doing this for entertainment purposes only. Just using what I can find on Ancestry and any databases there.

However I just learned of that new Canadian by Descent law. I am interested.

Time to get serious about document collection.

But I dont even know how to get my grandparents records. They are all dead. 3 in NY. 1 elsewhere

NY says you have to have proof of death to get it but like im requesting proof of death arent I? Makes no sense

Specifically NY says:

"The time periods are waived for direct-line descendants. A direct line descendant is a person in the direct line of descent, i.e., the child, grandchild, great grandchild of the person whose record is requested. The direct-line descendant applicant must provide the following:

Proof of their relationship to the person whose record they are requesting.

Proof of the death of the person whose birth certificate they are requesting.

Proof of the death of both spouses whose marriage certificate they are requesting."

My parents are alive and estranged. Can I even get a copy of their birth certificates if they are alive? Ill need them right?

I used to know things like this.

Thanks

How? 🤷‍♀️

In 2009, I was in a bad way. Something went haywire. Skin started falling off.

Ended up at an allergist. Confirmed like 7 allergies including ragweed cottonwood and cats cant remember my other 2009 results.

Long story short we never figured out the skin thing I moved. Decades of life happened.

2026 I am back at an allergist trying to figure some things out.

Skin prick testing this time resulted in 0 allergies besides dust mites.

Blood work confirmed just dustmites and cats.

Soooo great news! No more allergies!

Bad news: ive probably had mastocytosis this entire time instead and it's been hell. 🤷‍♀️🤣

Alright bear with me. My long story shorts are never short.

I am fairly confident i am super sensitive to polyethylene gylcol or propylene gylcol. With good reason. Was hospitalized at one point because my skin fell off. Treated like a burn patient. (2009)

Got pregnant. Stopped all meds. Skin was better.

Bit later get rhe anxiety dx ans try pharmaceuticals and my skin starts flaring again. We try a lot of things. Things dont even work for my mental state.

In 2021, we try to get me tested for this allergy officially due to the climate of Everything. That clinic kicked me out. Stating get my shot in the hospital. They'll reverse allergic reactions. But im not anaphlatic.

My doctor just writes in my chart the allergies. I become unprescribeable because its too much work to find non PG meds, but at the same time theres no PG in my house my skin is great. My mental health takes a shit. Lots of physical health issues. Its time for pharmaceuticals.

The VA sent to me to allergy testing. It was today.

I just went to get these patch tests.

But bless this man, and the fact that EPIC charting actually worked for once.

He asked me about a wound swab I had in 2025 and immediately told his note taker to order Mast Cell bloodwork.

Which is something I have wondered about. However I was ready to accept my Just Anxiety diagnosis (despite all my other confirmed diagnoses) and just need help getting on meds.

However he hears my actual problem. A blessing in disguise

My WBC count has been off for so long, outside of tolerance range...ive asked about it

The first two or 3 years "maybe youre sick"

Then "your wbc is always high. Its normal for you"

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I lost my gallbladder, not to gallstones. But to eosinophilic cho.... cant spell it.

Anyway.

First good doctor appointment in a while.

Although, weirdly enough. I did skin prick testing jn 2009 and lit up like a Christmas tree. Apparently I have no allergies now.... the specific things I want to be tested for I have to go back for patch testing

Does anyone know who was apprehended the other day? The one that went from SB up thru niles.

Im only curious because where it originated from is the block I know some people on, and the lady of the couple is an attorney. The dude is also under a lot of stress and has ptsd, and the vehicle description fits their car.

Ive got 2 theories in my head of what happened, one being she was targeted due to her job (most likely)

The other is the dude cracked. I consider the dude a friend but not like a friend to where we hang out. He was my supervisor at one point and I just want to make sure he is okay.

I know 3 were arrested so I am hoping that means it wasnt the dude im trying to check on.

Thanks!

I am in the market to move somewhere secluded and spend my retirement days. A tiny cabin with some land. Arkansas offers property tax exemptions for disabled vets, and I see some remarkable looking properties i could be happy to sit and spend my days.

However talk to me about the things ive never experienced. Ive spent the majority of my life in Snow Belts with mild summers.

How bad is the humidity in the summer? What are winters like?

I keep seeing a lot of information on how they pass away when the mom gets gassed.

I dont think this is true. I think its the sugar coated information?

If they are viable then are there other steps that must be taken?

Just looking for facts/truth. Thank you.