u/draftysundress

Yeah, I'm not doing great. But I'm planning on Halloween being better. I have booked a hotel room in the city I love, I have tickets to a bar crawl, and zero plans to be sober.

I want an extremely cool costume that turns everyone's head. I want it to be so cool, people can't resist coming up to me and talking to me. I want to show as much skin as possible, but I do get cold very easily (even while drunk... I wish liquid jackets worked). I'm also pretty skinny and have no tits and barely any ass, so i don't really have goodies to display. I'd also like to wear a corset for those couple of reasons, plus I've never worn one so I want to.

Also my hair: Very long and thick, but the top half is light brown rn and the bottom half blonde. I'm thinking about dying the blonde part pink or purple perhaps. Then again, I usuallu regret dying my hair within a week. I'm not open to a wig, I love my hair. I can do crazy shit to it though.

Here's some ideas I've had so far, but I'm not sold on any of them yet. I'm still open to other suggestions!

• Weed Fairy/A Fairy (I'm a budtender, but I don't look good in green so I kinda don't want to do this one anymore. I was thinking maybe doing it in purple bc weed is sometimes a little purple, or just do a regular fairy but that's kinda basic and I wanna be extra)
• Strawberry Shortcake. Unclear if I'd dye my hair pink with this. But it's sooo cute!
• Cupid. I feel like I'm stealing this idea from my old roommate (She was this a couple of years ago and it was a good one). But I could have cute wings and a sparkly red corset and tutu.
• Little red riding hood. I feel like this is the least effort and warmest, because the costume is pretty much premade, plus a hood provides warmth. I still feel it's too basic.
• Pink Disco Devil. I apologize for this, but that idea was from ChatGPT (I don't recommend wasting the water to use it to help find a costume. It didn't do good). But sparkly pink corset and skirt, and pink sparkly devil horns and pitchfork. Very eye catching, but I kinda don't want to be a devil. But like, the point of this is it'd be so sparkly I'd outshine a disco ball.

Again, I am open to other ideas, but so far I'm uninspired. I also don't like to reuse costumes, and some previous ones have been Barbie, Starfire, Princess Peach, a pirate. Especially not Barbie, I reused that one a few years in a row (even though it was one of my favs).

My life has S U C K E D this year. I've had a traumatic event happen like every month this year. Tl;dr on that:

February: I ruined Valentine's Day by getting too drunk (that one is at least my fault and I feel bad about it). I have been going to therapy and drinking significantly less since, and working on doing better. However, that has been causing me to smoke more weed (bc it's a lot harder to get yourself in trouble while stoned than drunk), causing my tolerance to skyrocket.

March: Boyfriend and I take a break from our relationship. A week later, my car gets robbed while I'm on break at work. I'm a budtender, and at the time I was working in a dispensary that did med and rec. It was a med patient from that dispensary. I found out who did it in 3 days, but I couldn't tell the police who because "I'd be violating HIPAA and their privacy as a patient" and would've lost my job.

April: Boyfriend fucks me out of NYC trip we had been planning since December... 2 days before we were supposed to leave. Exactly a month after the car robbery, someone rear ends my car and totals it. At least that car was bad luck, and I'm glad it's out of my life (I've never felt so unsafe driving that 2011 Chevy Impala. That didn't have a car alarm, brakes that stop when you press the pedal [it like inched forward even when pushing down on the brake with both feet the hardest I can. I was scared shitless I was gonna hit another car in traffic], power steering, or wheel bearings that weren't fucked. I deadass thought that car was gonna kill me. Instead it tried to kill the person who hit me. Ok, that's an exaggeration, they were ok but they were hurt).

May: I buy a new car. Hooray! It shat the bed after I put gas in it 3 D A Y S after I bought it. It was fixable... I just didn't get it back until the end of June.

June: I deal with the nightmares of not having a car, begging Chevy to fix the car I just bought bc the thing wrong with it was covered under a special warranty that they kept trying to refuse to honor, I become more isolated since I have no car and no friends willing to drive me anywhere (I deadass have 2 friends with cars, one of which was my boyfriend and the other is my best friend who refuses to drive unless he absolutely has no other choice. Both of them knew I was going nuts being the house by myself doing nothing!) Also due to it taking so long to fix my car, I can't breathe for most of this month. I tried a 2 week t break, and I went to the doctor twice. I had convinced myself I smoked so much I gave myself asthma, The doctors said it was anxiety both times. The day my car came out of the shop, I could breathe again and that hasn't come back thank fucking god.

July (15th. My birthday): My cousin who I haven't seen in like 15 years came to my house! Plastered, along with my mom, being super fucking annoying and drunk. My cousin was in a state where if she stopped drinking, she died. The birthday present I always wanted! As usual, a traumatic experience with my mom's side of her family!! She also moved in that day and stayed with us til the end of August (and sobered up a couple of weeks later). But I didn't get to do anything to celebrate my birthday, and this year has been bad enough. Can't I have a small little pleasure?

August actually was fine ngl.

September: Fuckkkk. EGR valve in car is now shitting the bed. And 2 weeks ago, my boyfriend finally ended our break... and relationship. We're through. I hate it. I miss him, not even just in a romantic way, but since I graduated college and moved back to my hometown, I don't have any fucking friends here. I didn't back in high school either so makes sense. But now I have nothing to do but sit inside and stare at a screen and cry and be sad. And he's one of my only friends, so I'm extra lonely and sad and I have no one to talk to face to face (except for him). At least we're on good terms. He still says he will hang out with me and do fun stuff non-romantic stuff together like go to the gym and watch tv, but so far I've just gone twice to visit him at work. Which isn't so bad, I get lots of hugs out of him and am happy. I just need to be squeezed real tight to feel good. Bonus: He's talking to some new bitch who stole my spot as his #1 BFF on snapchat (that's been my spot for 6 YEARS). I got to find out exactly who VIA MY FUCKING TIKTOK FOR YOU PAGE. THE NEXT DAY AFTER THE BREAKUP. I was scrolling through and noticed some pics of his bandmates. I take a further look into the profile, and find some pictures of my boyfriend on there. He HATES having his picture taken. He won't even let me take his. There's a bunch, and this new bitch I haven't heard of named Cory next to him in them. I then remembered the last time we were hanging out I did see someone on snapchat named Cory with the two pink heart emojis next to her name that he was being secretive about. I asked back then who was Cory and he said "they're just an annoying photographer." Yeah, so annoying you keep talking to her and not me. Cory also did try to shoot her shot but thankfully my ex had the decency to say "I just got out of a long-term relationship and I'm not ready to date again yet." BUT THEY'RE STILL CONSTANTLY FUCKING TALKING TO EACH OTHER. And I really don't like it. I don't take well to being replaced. Oh yeah and again I have no friends nearby to talk to about any of this. And as soon as my cousin moved out of my house, she relapsed and is pretty much drinking and trying to kill herself every day now and my parents are busy with that, telling me every last detail of that, because they don't know what else to do either and they can't handle it anymore and I can't fucking handle anything rn bc life just refuses to stop shitting on me.

Then 5 days ago I caught a cold, to top it all off. I told myself the next time I was sick I was gonna take a t break. Surviving all the above isn't easy, and again I haven't been drinking, so I have been eating ~200mg of edibles plus dabs to get through existing. That much in edibles gets expensive, and now I can't feel pretty much any THC in any form. Getting high is now a long, boring chore instead of a fun treat. So as much as I don't want it, I need it. I slept ok the first few nights, but last night I couldn't sleep for shit. I fell asleep as 4 am. The sleep is very hard, then appetite next. And I'm already too skinny, I'm trying to gain weight, not lose it. Otherwise, so far not bad this t break.

I want to try and last for a month. My longest t break this year I think was 3 weeks, so what's one more week? I noticed after my last break, I still couldn't really feel flower or dab pens, so that another reason I wanna go a little longer. Idk if I can do it, but all I can do is try. If I haven't smoked yet despite the god awful circumstances, maybe there is hope for me.

Also, when I do go back to smoking, I do want to cut back, so I don't have to do a t break every few months bc they suck. I was thinking about saving weed for like special occasions/holidays instead of smoking it all day every day like I usually do. So it's more enjoyable all the time.

Everything that does pleasure her is female (the washing machine doesn’t count bc it ended up hurting her instead of getting her off).

I hate it so much. All I fucking do is drive, go to work, drive, go back to work. If I want to go anywhere, I have to drive there. There’s not much walkable near me, and biking is nice until it’s cold out or your bike gets stolen. I want to go out at night to a bar and get hammered, but there’s none nearby that I could walk or bike to, so I’d have to drive, and that’s illegal so I can’t. I have no friends who are willing to drive me fucking anywhere. I deadass only have 2 friends with licenses, both of which have cars that are working perfectly fine. One of them is a 2023 so I doubt there’s jack shit wrong with it. Even when I was without a car recently, they wouldn’t give me rides to even fucking see them. Even though I’ve been carting their asses around for the past 6 years, before they even had licenses. My friend with the 2023 car once picked me up and brought me to his house (5 minute drive btw), then when we got there he was bitching that there was something wrong with his wheel bearing and the car isn’t driveable. ITS A 2023. ITS 3 YEARS OLD. THATS NOT FUCKING POSSIBLE. And the car didn’t have any lights on, made weird noises, or drove differently so that’s how I knew he was full of shit. I’ve also driven him in significantly more unsafe cars without a single complaint. He just didn’t wanna drive. He didn’t even give me a fucking ride home when he did that.

I just want a break from driving. I don’t care how. That could be public transportation if it existed near me, or someone driving my car. I’d use uber more but it’s really expensive in my area bc everything is all spaced out. I no longer care if they have a license, a permit is fine. Almost to the point where I’d let someone just drive my car without either. Sometimes I fantasize about not having a car so I couldn’t drive anymore, but as I learned when I didn’t have a car, no one is there for me and no one will drive me anywhere!!!!! No matter how many thousands of times I’ve driven them around!!! Because some people are too anxious and driving is scary!!!! I’m anxious as hell when I drive, and I’m scared too, but that doesn’t ever stop me from driving. The only way to get over it is to fucking practice! But I never get the privilege of being in the passenger’s seat, and I’m actively losing my shit at that. GEN Z PLEASE GET A GODDAMN GODFORSAKEN LICENSE. YOUR FRIENDS WANT A BREAK FROM CARTING YOUR LAZY STUPID ASS AROUND. I CERTAINLY DO.

After months of not even getting openclaw to run, I finally have it running.

What I want to do with Openclaw is make it apply to jobs for me. My ideal setup is it finds some jobs, gives me a little summary, and I tell it which ones to apply to. Then openclaw applies for the job for me, and I get the confirmation email that my application was submitted. I REALLY hate applying for jobs and it sucks the soul out of me, so I want the laziest possible setup.

I know Openclaw can do that. And I know I'm soooooooo fucking close to getting exactly that set up. Currently, my openclaw can at least find the jobs (with mixed results, sometimes it just makes shit up and doesn't give the right job link, it'll be like a company's linkedin page or something like that. I have told it to apply to jobs, and given it the required info to do so. It does have both browser automation and web-fetch on. But it can't/won't apply. I always run into errors. I think it's combination of anti-bot protections and openclaw's browser automation tools being odd, but I know it's possible. Does anyone else have this setup? What should I do instead? Should I let it attempt captchas? Should I make a linkedin account for it so it can bypass the login pop up? How do I make it so I don't have to lift a finger applying?

I've been playing this game for years. I've gotten really good at it. I have played thousands of matches and I'm emerald level. I'm not trying to flex, but...

I've been noticing lately when I play this game it seems to be out to steal my z-coins and/or money. I'm currently completely out of z coins rn and I have $0.02 in the game rn. I HAVEN'T RUN OUT OF Z COINS IN Y E A R S. But when I play, and get on a winning streak, I then notice I get players who are better than me (which is normal and fine), and then I'll finish the deck with 3 minutes to spare, thinking I had won bc I cleared the deck, AND THEN I FIND OUT WHOEVER I PLAYED AGAINST WON LITERALLY SECONDS BEFORE I FINISH. Like the score difference is no more than 10 more points than mine. I've had multiple instances where I lost by only ONE point. It never was a problem before, but now it's getting straight up bad. It feels like instead of pairing me with a partner at an equal playing level, it's picking someone who's just gonna take my money/z-coins.

I'm also pissed bc I got that few dollars for free, and got it up to $11 recently. I've never put in my own money into the game, and I'm trying to keep it that way. But now I can't win any with 2 cents in my account, and I can't climb up any leaderboards now to make money (bc you basically gotta play the paid matches exclusively to get high on the leaderboard). I'm not happy.

All I have done this summer is work. I'm so sick of it. I had a very rough spring this year (sorta breakup, then my car got robbed, then my car got totaled, then I bought another car that died in 3 days), and I was hoping summer would be better. It's my favorite season. But I feel like such a disappointment and a lazy bum for deadass just working this summer.

I'm a budtender, and I hate my job. It pays decent and isn't the worst, but I'm just sick of it. I hate talking to customers, only for them to listen half the time and ignore every word that came out of my mouth, or worse, try to hit on me or harass me. This isn't where I want to be in life either, I want out of this industry so bad. I definitely smoke/use too much weed. I've been eating high dose edibles for a very long time (peaking at 200mg I needed in order to feel the slightest bit high this spring) and dabbing as well (with a blowtorch bc I'm too cheap for an e rig). I just get stoned all day and I'm tired and fall asleep and do nothing. I put off important tasks and responsibilities and get stoned instead, and I need to stop. But if I stop, then I can't describe the product at work. Not only that, my breathing has definitely gotten worse since May. It's harder to breathe, and I think it may have to do with smoking (I did go to the doctor over this. Twice. One said allergies, the other anxiety; either way neither doctor found anything wrong with me so that's good). So I want to quit, but it's really hard when you're in the industry.

So I want out of the cannabis industry. I have a computer science degree anyway I'm not using but having to pay off. I want to get a real job. In a cool place like a city. And make a lot of money and have my own place again. And have money to go out and do fun stuff after work. And get a gym membership and start working out. And eat healthy and eat enough and be social and just be better. There's so much more I want to do. It would improve every aspect of my life if I left that toxic ass industry.

But also, finding a computer science job is hard. And it doesn't help that I hate applying with a passion. I have no patience to fill out the application, I hate updating and tailoring my resume, and I hate that I very rarely get responses from where I'm applying to. I'm trying to automate my job search because that's a good project/experience, but it's hard. I am getting closer in my quest to automate that. It is a numbers game at this point, after all.

There's just so much more I want to do. I regret wasting most of my summer at a job that won't really let me take a day off. I wish I had more energy to be social, and take care of myself, and be happier. I wish I did buy a beach sticker instead of procrastinating it, now I haven't been to the beach all summer. I've gone out like 3 times and it was a tad disappointing each time. I also wish I had a friend with a license or permit, because I have had to do ALL the driving this year, including when I didn't even have a fucking car, and I just want a break from it and get to relax and be a passenger. It's seriously such an underrated luxury. I haven't been a passenger and not a driver in a car in... 3 months. And that was solely because I didn't have a car at the time.

I just want to do better. But starting is the worst and it's so hard.

Hello! I've been trying to get my openclaw to work since February, and recently I have made a huge breakthrough! I finally got it almost entirely running!

What happened was I finally got the rest of openclaw set up, and I now just need a model to power it. I tried Ollama locally already on like 3 different computers, but none of them had enough computing power for that to work. So now I'm onto Openrouter, and was trying to do that thing where you set it to the auto free model. I did do that part. When I went to test it immediately after, I got the message: "API provider returned a billing error — your API key has run out of credits or has an insufficient balance. Check your provider's billing dashboard and top up or switch to a different API key." This is supposed to be free, what does it mean I'm out of credits? (and this is the only message I've ever seen from Openclaw that wasn't an error).

ChatGPT told me if I gave it $5 and then tried it again, because Openrouter likes some money, not a lot. I've been seeing on the Openclaw subreddits some people have to give it $10. Do I actually have it give it some money to work? Or is there a way around this? Or another free model I can connect to openclaw?

Thank you all in advance!

Budtenders only please (unless you’re an international customer either experience relevant to this)!

I’ve been noticing at my new dispensary when we get people from Europe, like England and Ireland, they try to pay using their debit card, the classic cashless atm shit, and they’re not going through at all. They’re like visa or Mastercard cards, they’re definitely debit cards, and allegedly they’ve been working fine when they are used in other places in America (I did think the first time this happened maybe the person didn’t let their bank know they were traveling and that’s why it didn’t work, but now I don’t think so).

Is Europe catching onto the cashless atm shit? Are they doing something to prevent people from buying weed? Granted, I’ve sold weed to people in many countries around the world, but they usually pay cash or with an American debit card so there’s never been that issue. I’m trying to think of any exceptions but none are ringing any bells.

Anyway, maybe it’s just the finicky card readers? Or Europe is not letting them buy weed? I just wanna know if it’s happening to others.

Every single fucking time I try I run into hardware issues setting this shit up. I’ve attempted this on one desktop computer with windows 10, intel i5 idk what gen (3.2 ghz), 466 gb ssd, 16 gb ram and nvidia GeForce GT 710 (2 gb), and a laptop, windows 11, intel i5 10th gen (1.10-1.5 ghz), intel iris plus graphics, 238 gb ssd, and 8 gb of ram.

I’m trying to run openclaw on one of those machines either locally or on a vps with 4 gb ram. I have tried installing ollama locally on both machines, went just fine, a little slow on the laptop and slow on the desktop as well. I’ve installed openclaw locally on both machines. And today, I put ollama back on the desktop, then connected it to my vps, then put openclaw on the vps. I have been trying since this shit came out in February and I’ve yet to get a response from openclaw.

It’s timed out sooooooo many times, I’ve seen countless error messages. It’s frustrating. Do you need some future proof computer with fucktons of ram, storage, and the best of the best graphics card to get this damn thing to run locally? The vast majority of these problems are absolutely hardware issues. I know I can set some limits in the config file to try to circumvent this, but I haven’t had any luck with that either.

Today’s attempt was my most successful yet, I got ollama and OpenClaw connected, but once I said hello to OpenClaw to test, it crashed the desktop running ollama. I wanted to see the task manager to see what it was doing but it froze and wouldn’t open so idk how bad it was on the processor. I tried glm 4.7 flash, qwen 3:14b, and qwen 3:8b. Nothing happened.

How the fuck are people running ollama and openclaw together???? What hardware are you using? Is there better ways to circumvent the hardware issues? How do I get this shit to work without throwing money at it?

Edit: I’m glad to see I’m not crazy and it actually can’t run due to hardware limitations (hence why I asked Reddit and not an ai, I wanted to see if someone ever pulled it off). Not thrilled I’d have to spend money on cloud apis though to get OpenClaw to work 😭😭😭😭😭 I just know it’ll be eating so many tokens 😭😭😭

Hello! I’ve been using the Love Beauty Planet Coconut and Ylang Ylang shampoo and conditioner for like the past few years, and it’s my favorite hair care product ever! I have mostly straight, thick, long hair, some of it is bleached, and it was the best thing I’ve ever put in my hair. It smelled good, and my hair was always super shiny, SOFT, clean beautiful afterwards! I also liked it is much easier to rinse out than other shampoos and conditioners (they designed it that way somehow). Also, my hair ALWAYS is tangling, but when I use this stuff the tangles are to a minimum!

Anyway, I just love the formula of that specific one. The other ones aren’t as good (except for the vegan keratin one). I’ve never used a shampoo/conditioner combo that I’ve loved this much and worked so well in my hair. But it has been harder and harder to find recently. I discovered off of Reddit today that the brand was being discontinued. 😭😭😭😭😭 I hope they rebrand with the same formula because it just works so damn well.

I wanted to know if there was anyone else out there who loved this one and has an alternative. Again, I really liked that it washed out easily, kept hair perfectly moisturized (was not weighed down one bit or look greasy ever), and kept my hair soft, shiny, and tangle free. Big bonus if it is cheaper!!!

Hello everyone!! A couple of weeks ago I posted asking about any nightlife on the cape, and I did get tons of responses!! Not just about the nightlife, but just from people wanting to make more friends!! So I figured, why not create a subreddit dedicated to Cape Codders who want to be more sociable!!

That’s exactly what I just created: r/CapeCodSocialClub. It’s intended to be similar to r/BostonSocialClub, where people post asking if anyone wants to go to certain events, or just hang out and meet up, whatever floats your boat. It might be nice to have like minded people together!!

So if you’re a Cape Codder (or even a tourist, I created a tourist flair lol), and you wanna make some new friends, there’s the place to be! Hopefully it will pick up since it is 4th of July weekend more people are coming down and preparing for the festivities!!

Have fun there!!

Hello! I’m just a bored 22F dying to go out tonight, but I don’t know where to go or have anyone to go with. I’m looking for something clubby, like edm, and preferably the upper cape. I don’t have anyone to drive me past Hyannis (or really anywhere lol). Anyone got any recommendations?

I was also thinking maybe starting a WhatsApp group chat of fellow cape cod 20 somethings to hang out with and discuss nightlife. I know there’s one for Boston that has never let me down! Also if anyone wants to trade instas to hang out and do fun stuff this summer, feel free!!

As the title says, I had no intention of quitting 😭😭😭 my life has been rough lately so I got into vaping heavily once again. I’ve been vaping on and off since I was like 17, but started vaping daily at 21. I’m 22 now, about to be 23 in exactly a month. Also I smoke/vape/do dabs of weed as well.

About a month ago I started having problems breathing. I would randomly not be able to feel like I was getting a full breath. I also noticed it got worse immediately after hitting a vape, and I could feel my mouth and throat dry right up, and I’d chug water right after. I knew at that point it was time to start quitting, but it’s hard. It did help my reduce my consumption a lot, after a week of that I was having one to two vape sessions a day, like <10 hits each (I’m a fiend 😭 and certainly wasn’t counting but I’d give myself like 2 minutes to vape as much as I wanted). My breathing is improving a little bit, but not significantly. It’s still happening. I also had cut out smoking and dabbing and only have done that maybe 3 times since this has been going on.

Last week I finally went to urgent care basically to see if I was dying bc of it. They did all the standard vital stuff, and my oxygen was at 99 so that’s good. They did a chest x ray as well and found nothing wrong. I’m glad for these results, but my breathing isn’t better still. They said I had a reactive airway and offered to prescribe an inhaler but they never did (even though I said yes). I then went to celebrate the good results with a vape sesh. Not my finest moment.

As of yesterday, I finally went a full 24 hours without vaping. It was hard. I’ve been chewing nicotine gum, the 2mg one since I’ve already cut back a lot on vaping since I can’t, and it’s not as satisfying but it’s at least helping with cravings/mood swings. I don’t really get cravings, but I do become an evil bitch without nic. Today I also haven’t vaped, and I’ve only chewed one piece of gum bc I haven’t wanted it today except for one time!!

I kinda feel like a shithead chewing nicotine gum, or a pussy, because I really do love vaping. Also I hate zyn users because so many republicans zyn I associate it with that. Gum is fine though.

I showed my coworker who vapes and is a year younger than me my nic gum and she was like “I used to live off that shit!” And I do feel much less alone because of her saying that.

I still am having trouble breathing and I really wanna vape because if I still can’t breathe, what’s the point of quitting? But I finally called my doctor about it and set up an appointment, where I’ll probably be referred to a pulmonologist, which is the outcome I was hoping for. That’s next week. I just hope I’m not dying or that I didn’t give myself asthma (I don’t have a history of asthma but I read online you can give yourself asthma by smoking. Fml if I did 😭😭😭😭). But according to urgent care, I’m not dying at least.

I do miss vaping. I didn’t want to stop, but I had to. I did want to quit eventually though. It’s expensive, and I wanna stop paying for it. It’s bad for you as well, I know. And it’s hard to find flavors as well. So it does have its advantages. But so far I’m almost at 48 hours vape free, and I’m just taking it one day at a time.

I’m currently on a little t break rn. It’s only been a couple of days, but my tolerance is really, really fucking high.

I’m a budtender, and I’ve been one for the past year and a half. I like the employee discount, my coworkers, and the pay is better than minimum wage. Otherwise I would not recommend working at a dispensary, especially a med one. Those med patients are very frequently just nasty and horrible to their budtenders, and I’m saying this as a med card holder myself.

But one thing about the job is it’s frowned upon to not be stoned. Which is great! Until it shot my tolerance right up. I was smoking strong flower and carts, then I started getting heavily into dabs and high dose edibles. Now I can’t feel flower or carts at all, dabs it takes a few, and 200mg of edibles is my go-to. But edibles are expensive! Especially high dose ones. I’m sick of wasting all this money on weed. And I can’t sleep without weed either, so I slept like total shit last night.

I just want my tolerance to be lower. I’m not ready to quit smoking forever, especially since the past few months for me have been extremely rough. But I want to smoke a joint with my friends again and be as high as they are!! I want to spent less money on weed. One thing I’ve noticed is the managers at my store pretty much only smoke flower, kinda low thc flower too. I’m wondering if they keep their tolerance intentionally low so it takes less, which is very smart.

Also I’m kinda sick of spending the day being stoned and doing nothing. Granted, I miss doing that, it felt awesome, but being asleep all day and just laying in bed bedrotting probably isn’t good for me. I want to go outside and do more everything. Weed hasn’t completely ruined my relationships, but it’s definitely put a dent in and I feel bad. It has made me lazier.

I don’t want a t break rn, but it’s day 3. So even if I decide to smoke, hopefully I’ll be able to feel it. Although I don’t really want to rn, that’s more so if a friend comes over with weed. I just want to feel the weed again.

I’ve been thinking about maybe after this t break, continuing to lower my tolerance by using less weed. It will be hard, and I don’t want to, but it could be a very good thing. I was thinking maybe limiting my smoking to only when I work, for example. And when I smoke alone, maybe with more intention, almost in a witchcrafty/ritual way. Like smoking slowly, waiting to feel the effects, enjoying them, enjoying the taste of the weed, all that good stuff. I’m scared because I know it might take a longer t break to achieve that, and idk how long I can go. My record since I’ve been smoking is like 2 weeks. I really want to do 3 weeks-month but idk if I could. Maybe I could.

Also, while kinda stupid, another motivator is I’m getting a new job at a different dispensary (I’m doing this bc it’s much closer to my house and I’ve been having car problems since April, so now I’ll have a job I could afford to uber to if necessary), and it’s a rec only one. I both hate and love that, because I can’t use my med card so I’d have to pay tax 😭😭😭 but also no more abuse from med patients. If someone robs my car there I can say their name to the police at least because they’re not protected under HIPAA like med is (and yes, that’s a real thing that happened. March 15th. The person who did it is still free). But those rec customers aren’t gonna have tolerance like me, so it’s better for me to bring it down and see what everyone else experiences.

Edit: Also I wanna stop smoking before bed even though I love it. I want to stop depending on weed to sleep, and I feel like this would work.

This is long and rambly. I don’t think I can make a tl;dr, this is more of a word dump. I’m sorry 😭😭

I’m 22, and my boyfriend and I have been dating for 6 years. We’ve been on a break since March, and I have a funny feeling since things aren’t getting any better, we might be breaking up soon.

But one issue that’s been constant our whole relationships is dates/paying for food. Now I just had this thought: have I ever even been on a real date with him?

When we first started going out, he never formally asked me out, we just stayed together. And when we’d go out to eat, it was very casual. Like fast food, and usually I’d pay for both of us. I never really got a break at paying.

Like for the first 3 years (kinda embarrassing long for this to go on), it was casual. We’d go out to eat, nowhere ever fancy, and I’d usually pay the bill. Usually he’d name off a few places and I’d pick one and we’d go and eat. Or it’d be fast food. Or another thing he’d do is while he was at work, he’d ask me to bring him food. He NEVER EVER EVEN FUCKING ONCE paid for it. I was like his personal DoorDash driver, except I ate the gas and food cost. I frequently wouldn’t get food for myself and he never noticed that. He never offered to pay for it. He lived with his dad at the time so it’s not like he didn’t have food, he just had to pack. And he’d get like a lot of food. Like at least 2 large sandwiches minimum, like a McCrispy and a Big Mac, not like 2 double cheeseburgers, so it’s even more expensive. One day I fell asleep because I was tired from work and I didn’t come and bring him food and he called to yell at me for it. Get up off your lazy ass and get it yourself. As soon as he started yelling I hung right up. He called a few more times but I went back to sleep.

Surprisingly that wasn’t the end of me being his personal DoorDash driver. It finally ended one night we both got McDonalds and I only like my burgers plain. He ordered a burger as well. We divided up our food and he went back to work. Upon him going into work (note: he works at a gas station), I needed gas so I got some gas before I was about to eat my food. After I pump the gas, he storms out PISSED because his burger was plain. McDonald’s fucked up and made both our burgers plain. Oh well. I wasn’t gonna drive back and have them fix it just because I didn’t want to. He opens up my car door, digs through the bag, and grabs what’s supposed to be my burger, checking to see if it’s plain. It was. He was pissed and wanted me to go back and get it fixed. I said no, fuck you, I paid for this food and you don’t even appreciate it enough to say thank you and instead you’re doing this? And you won’t even pay for it? Fuck you. I’ll never do this again. And so I didn’t. Instead we had a long productive talk about him paying at least his fair share when we eat out, and how it’d be nice if he paid for my food every once in a while since he never has. That went well, and we stayed together but idk how much the problem ever got fixed.

I also want to note that with his ex, he used to pay for her food AND HER FRIEND’S FOOD. And that friend had a crush on the ex, so that’s even crazier. He’d do it for her, but won’t for me? 😭😭😭 The ex is an actual bitch I don’t even like for reasons unrelated to my boyfriend (I have beef with her bc she’s a bad person), and both of us H A T E her.

After that talk, he paid a few times for both of us to get dinner. He still never planned out dates or even remained in the habit for paying. Although now we usually split the bill.

I’m just unhappy. I’ve told him explicitly I’m sick of planning stuff for us to do, it’s his turn. And I’ve said that many times. Even for Valentine’s Day I said it’d be cute if he made the reservations because we’ve never been somewhere that requires them. Guess who booked the reservation days before Valentine’s Day and got a shitty time slot as a result? And who had to decide where to go and what to do all day? And in previous years, again our dates are at best low effort and he doesn’t pay or plan anything. Or drive me there either, I frequently drive and he complains about my driving (or worse my car), and I remind him he has a license and a car and he can drive too. Every now and then I’ll ask him to drive when we go out just because I don’t want to and he usually says no.

Now I’m kinda wondering if those even count as dates. We barely talked during them. I guess I don’t talk a lot to start with, and I’ve been trying to work on it. But he could try and strike up a conversation too. Sometimes he’d put a game on his phone and we’d play that together til our food came. I was happy, but I do worry because it’s not what other couples do.

Is it so much to want your boyfriend to drive and buy you food every now and then, especially when you’ve done it for them (and especially when your gf lost a lot of weight to the point it’s unhealthy)? And now you can’t anymore because you don’t have a car and are broke as shit?

If it’s not obvious from how mumbled this post is, we’ve been having other problems. More so I, I keep having major life events actively ruining my life and he doesn’t (I got my car robbed then totaled exactly a month apart. Oh yeah and I still don’t have a car rn bc the one I bought at a dealership died in 4 days).

Except for the one he caused: we were supposed to go to NYC in April. We’ve been talking about it for months and as it got closer, I kept asking more about the trip, like where would we stay, how are we going to get there, what dates, etc. He would blow off a lot of the information even though you should know that before a trip. And even though we started our break in March, he said I was still coming to nyc with him. 2 days before the trip, he came over and acted weird and only stayed a few minutes, then later I was asking what time were we going to leave at for the trip, and you know, that answer gets a numerical answer. Not “Are you sure you still want to come?” No Aidan, I asked what time. 9 am? 10 am? That’s the answer I was looking for.

Turns out his friends didn’t want me to come for whatever reason. I’m really pissed he didn’t even have the balls to tell me that. I’m still unhappy with that situation, of him uninviting me from a trip I was excited about for months 2 days before it. I told my therapist about it, and I wanted to have a longer talk than we did. We only got to talk about it once, then my car getting rear ended and totaled took away the ability for me to talk about it further, because I don’t have a car to see him to talk to him and it’s a lot over text. Plus also now I have to worry about getting a new car and insurance and all that bullshit so I don’t have any time or energy to. So we still haven’t talked enough about it I feel like. And this weekend he fucked off to Maine without saying a word until after he left, which is extremely unusual for him. He usually tells me when he’s going out of state, but this time not a word. I asked him why he didn’t tell me before and he deadass said “yeah.” So I asked again, because that’s not an answer. He said because no one would drive 3+ hours to see him play a show there (and it’s true because I can’t, I don’t have a car rn.) But still weird for him.

I don’t know. I fear we may be at the end of our time together. Again I’ve been having a stressful time (that he has not really made easier or better, but he’s not doing anything to make it worse), so I’m worried maybe I’m just clouded by FOMO and jealousy since I’ve been stuck in the house for a month and a half. His friends drive him around, and my only friend with a license that isn’t him bitched about the one time he’s driven me. I’m jealous he has friends with licenses who bring him places. But even my therapist hinted last session maybe it’s time. Today I went to therapy and he was much more encouraging of a breakup. I don’t know. I’m at a very very stressful point in my life and another thing is I can’t handle a breakup emotionally right now. But our time is definitely nearing, this isn’t getting better.

Edit: I want to add I’m not rich by any means, and have been struggling a little financially but still all my bills are paid. I’m a fucking budtender, I don’t make much over minimum wage. He does work 2 jobs though.

Granted, I have had my license for 6 years, and have been driving exclusively facebook marketplace shitboxes for pretty much all of it. My last car, that I named Death Trap/Ticket Attractor (I got pulled over in it as soon as I registered it and the power steering shat the bed shortly after. That car was nothing but problems and I truly believe it was trying to kill me. Also I found out 2011 Chevy Impalas don't have car alarms.... because it was robbed 2 months ago and didn't make a peep.) I got rear ended a month ago, and I've been carless since. Also doesn't help that I only have 3 people in my life with licenses and cars: My dad, who is driving a truck at 320,000 miles and is actively problematic, my boyfriend, who just bought a used car from a used car dealership last year with no issues, now that car is having problems and questionably reliable, and my childhood best friend who has a car new enough to not have issues, but he works 6 days a week. GEN Z: GET YOUR GODDAMN LICENSES, YOUR FRIENDS WITH THEM ARE SICK OF CARTING YOUR ASS AROUND. IT'S THEIR TURN. DON'T BE A PUSSY AND GO ON THE HIGHWAY. IT'S FUN AND EASIER THAN YOU THINK.

And it's not like I didn't buy what I thought to be a reliable car afterwards. On May 6th, I bought a 2016 Chevy Volt. The check engine light was on, but it passed state inspection and my code reader said it was a small leak. Test drive was fine, brakes were a tad loud but oh well (and they gave me brake parts to replace it with). On May 9th, as I'm coming home from work, I get "Propulsion power reduced," and I needed to get gas. So I go get gas, I start the car, and I shift it into drive. I instantly get "shift to park" while the car DOESN'T MOVE A FUCKING INCH. I OWNED IT FOR 3 FUCKING D A Y S. THE CAR SHOULD JUST FUCKING WORK. IT WAS FROM A USED CAR DEALERSHIP.

The one and O N L Y reason I bought a car from a dealership is so IT WOULD FUCKING BE RELIABLE AND JUST FUCKING WORK. IS THAT SO DAMN HARD???? TO SELL A CAR THAT WORKS?????

Anyway I took it back to the dealership last Monday (of course this happened on a Saturday night!!! When the dealer is closed Sunday, even though they're evil and not religious so idk why they're closed!), and they made little to no progress. They didn't even really diagnose it. They made an appointment with a Chevy dealership tomorrow morning for them to take a look and hopefully fix it, it seems to be the BECM or the High Voltage battery, and the BECM seems to happen to all of them. With how piss poor my life and luck has been lately, I'm truly worried they're not going to fix it right and it'll somehow break down right after the warranty expires. This is the first car I've ever bought from a dealership, it's financed which I don't like whatsoever, and I just had higher expectations and hopes. Also the place I bought it from doesn't offer loaners and made me sign that away, so idk what to do. I've been stressed for months and it only gets worse instead of better.

But getting a car at this point feels hopeless. I checked my trusty facebook marketplace first, and there's nothing under $3k without serious problems that are expensive as hell to fix. You might get luckier in the $5k range. One thing that I NEED in my cars is a backup camera (it has halved the amount of accidents I've been in), and I won't buy a car without it. YOU CAN'T GET A CAR WITH A FUCKING BACKUP CAMERA FOR UNDER $5K ON FACEBOOK MARKETPLACE ANYMORE. I couldn't find any under $5k and a backup camera. And some of those cars were 2016-2017s, and they made backup cameras standard in 2018. WHAT IN THE FUCK WERE THE PEOPLE DESIGNING THOSE CARS THINKING? WHAT WERE THEY SMOKING? I might want some, but it must maks you stupider. I looked at a 2016 Chevy Malibu Eco with no sunroof, bluetooth or backup camera for $4,000. WHAT THE FUCK? I have a 2013 of the same exact car, and yes, IT DOES HAVE ALL OF THOSE. That's why I expected the 2016 to have them too, but instead I was looking at a bastardized version of my old car. Oh yeah and anything in the $5k range probably has horrible gas mileage. As someone who hates paying for gas and that shit only goes up in price, I want something fuel efficient! Or better yet electric or hybrid!!!

My boyfriend is also in the market for a new car. He went to a very reputable Honda dealership that sells both new and used cars. First of all, the cheapest used car on their website is still $12,486 (it's a 2012 honda civic). But he looked at a 2016 Honda Pilot for like ~$18,000. The price is high as fuck to start with for a 10 year old car that has bad gas mileage. But then, he test drove it to discover the transmission was junk. That's a pretty expensive repair for a CAR FROM A DEALERSHIP. Obviously he didn't get it, but why aren't car dealerships making sure their cars are working?????? Do they know it's the only reason people go to dealerships???? Like me????

Idk. Isn't the point of buying a car from a dealership is so it works? Why is there jack shit on the market? Why are dealerships knowingly selling bad cars? Why are they so expensive now to have a car that works? Why does the process suck so bad?

I always thought I'd be happy when I bought a nice car. I haven't been happy since March 15th (The day death trap got robbed, that morning was good but I haven't felt dopamine since finding the blue glass pieces on my car seat) and I'm so fucking miserable I'm gonna ask my psychiatrist for antidepressants. And it is car related, because it has just been so fucking stressful finding a car worth buying (it was so bad it started giving me headaches for hours when I went looking), figuring out how to get to work, calling all these asshole dealers, and paying so much money for nothing to work or go as expected, on top of many other problems in my life.

Edit: Also worst case scenario, what the fuck do I do if the car is a lemon or breaks or some shit?

Basically title. I needed a new car, I was dying for an electric or plug in hybrid because of the cost of gas rn, and this was in my area (and I'm from a hardcore Chevy family so bonus that it's a Chevy too). I think 105,000 miles on the odometer. Not that that reading ever matters to a Chevy because they'll run fine until 350,000.

Anyway, one night I was coming home from work. It has been raining the past few days, and I've noticed when I plug it in in the rain it usually doesn't charge. I think that already is a problem, as I've read on here it is able to be charged in the rain (I could be wrong, fellow Volt owners please correct me if I am). So that was the case that day, it wasn't charged because it stopped overnight while it rained. I went to work, which is an hour away from where I live, on gas just fine. When I got to work, my gas was a bit low, maybe 50-60 miles left, but I was gonna fill it up on the way home.

So I finally get out of work, start heading home, with plans to go get gas as soon as I got out of the city I was in because gas is $0.30 more expensive there. I do this all the time in other cars, even if the gas light is on in the car. I'm not sure if this is one of those kinds of cars that act weird with little gas, so again fellow Volt owners please let me know if it is a thing. I get off the highway onto the exit minutes away from the gas station, and at this point I had like 40 miles of gas left, so I thought the gas light was coming on. Instead it said "Propulsion power reduced."

I was able to make it to the gas station just fine, and I go and put gas in it. Then I go to start the car and shift it into drive. As soon as I do that, I see "shift to park" as the car doesn't move an inch. As anyone else would do in this situation, I google it. It says various things could be causing it, like sometimes you just wait 10-15 minutes and it goes away. It also said it could be the 12V battery or the battery energy control module. So of course I wait, while making some phone calls to the most useless roadside assistance service, AAA, in case I have to be towed (I call triple A useless because last year I spent 18 hours waiting for them to tow my car, the state police towed that first. And this time, as per usual, they didn't show up and were extra dicks about giving me a ride home if I was getting towed. It was 11:30 pm and I live 40 minutes away, where tf would I stay if I was left there? Redditors, don't give your hard earned money to those useless assholes.)

After waiting, it still wouldn't move, and in the meantime 7 good samaritans helped me push the car to an electric car charger, because maybe if it had some charge, it'd run. It was a chargepoint charger and I've never used a public electric car charger, so I try plugging it in. One side of it was definitely not the right side, and the other the top part looked like the thing you plug your volt into, but it had an oval bottom part in the way so it was unusable. Fellow Volt owners, am I doing something wrong, or was it the wrong connector? Again I've never done that so I have no idea. I couldn't get it to charge as a result.

My dad came to pick me up (since triple A kept flip flopping if they were going to give me a ride home, better safe than sorry), and look at the car. It fucking started as normal. I was able to drive it home scared shitless. I noticed whenever I hit the brakes during the drive home, the "propulsion power reduced" would come on (same thing when driving to the dealership... traffic was scary bc it was really heavy).

I got the car home, to be looked at in the morning. This happened on a Saturday night, and even though car dealerships are evil and not religious, they're all still closed on Sunday (fucking why? in 2026???) So my dad and I took a look Sunday morning. We tried charging it (and it finally wasn't raining), but it won't stay charging for more than a few minutes. It also won't move again if you shift into drive, you'll get the "shift to park" error. We put the code reader on it, and it gave out like 35 codes that were like "Battery energy control module can't communicate with..." (I can't remember what it wasn't communicating with or the specific codes). It seems like the problem is the BECM, which seems to happen to like every chevy volt of that year with that mileage. According to the internet, GM issued out a special 15 year/150,000 mile warranty to get that part fix since it fails in like all of them? Does anyone have any experience doing that? Just in case I have to. My dad called our local Chevy dealership (not where we got the car) and asked about this coverage, and they first basically told him to go fuck himself because it's an electric car in their eyes, then they said maybe they'd look at it at the end of the month. I don't have much faith in that. Is that how the warranty is supposed to work?

I was able to drive it to the dealership today and even in quite literally an hour of heavy traffic, I made it. I saw "Propulsion Power Is Reduced" many times, but I didn't end up stuck on the side of the road somehow. I'm honestly very impressed with this car's limp mode if that's what it was in, it still worked pretty good. Didn't die at any green lights or in traffic AND it went well above 40 mph in limp mode (it got up to 80+). I had a 2013 Chevy Malibu Eco, my first hybrid and my favorite car so far I've owned, that went into limp mode for an entire summer. It could not go over 40 mph and was loud as fuck, so limp mode in this car was soooooooooo much better. (also carplay is the fucking BEST when waiting for a tow. Can't complain one bit, it was fun). I just miss my sunroof (anyone try adding one in?).

I guess they'll tell me what's up tomorrow. Anyone got any experience/tips for first time volt/plug in hybrid owners?