u/edging_monarch

so talked with her just now , she is not over her ex , in noon she told me she is attached with kiss emojis and a few days back our chats were all lovely
ig i really am a rebound, i love her too but ab uski khushi me hi khush rehna thik , i have understood ki me sirf dil behla skta hu , me kisi ke dil me jagah nhi bana skta hu , i wish she knew her emotions affect me by alot , bc 3 saal se nhi roya tha but as soon as she texted ki she was crying , mere aansu nikal gye yrr 😭

ladka hu , emotions control krne ka experience na jaane kabse hai , i will keep things platonic from now on and i will end things the very next day of her exam, this fcking green flag loyalty of mine , jab tak she will be with me even as companion , me kisi dusri ldki ki taraf nhi dekh skta , it feels disgusting
usske aane ke baad se nazare niche rkhke chalta hu💔

wish i could tell her

"chaar din pehle tak toh mehaz ek ajnabee thi tum
Ab bhool kr bhi mt bhoolna , ki kitni zaruri ho tum"

i really am a loser dosto 🪦, so sorry everyone 🙏 , i really think flaws ab mujhme hi hai

with whom i talk alot on chat like flirtatious talks too , we are like a bit more than close friends , she shared her secrets and i shared mine too , we have been vulnerable too , like when she cries , i cried too cause imagining her crying makes my heart ache , she trying to overcome her breakup which happened 2 mnths ago and my break up was 5 yrs ago , idk if this is talking stage or smthg but at the same time i don't wanna force my feelings on her , like i have also thought of ending it at right time (after her exam) i help her in studies too , but ig its better to not to ruin this companionship , but i was listening to "from the start by laufey" and the cupid's arrow hit a bit too hard , that's why writing this post

Oh, how I wish you’ll wake up one day
Run to me confess your love
At least just let me say

That when I talk to you
Oh, cupid walks right through
And shoots an arrow through my heart
And I sound like a loon
But don’t you feel it, too?
Confess I loved you from the start

so sorry if any of my line hurt you 🫂🙏

I WILL PRESERVE THIS COMPANIONSHIP RATHER THAN RUINING IT🥀

Idk someday it feels like i won't be able to live long like at max 35 yrs old

I wished she would stay, remain by my side,
Then this corpse would not regret dying so much.
I want to live again, only to die once more,
And may she come again to my second funeral

Niche sirf tan(A+B) ka formula hai , i will post solution tomorrow