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i fucked up my money order for rent. didn't know i wasn't supposed to sign the back. i thought it was like a check. i might not get a refund, it's not guaranteed. if so that's $835 down the drain. today i had to drain my bank account getting new ones because rent is due tomorrow. ubered home from work (can't drive) when i found out i did it wrong, had to ask my partner for $175 and cleaned out my entire bank account to buy new ones. money didn't transfer and i couldn't add a stop to uber so i had to go to a different store and get a second order, then uber AGAIN to work. fees for the (potential) refund and uber costs came out to $66, on top of paying rent twice (and i might not get the first payment back).

i feel sick. immediately i emailed myself calling myself a fuck up and scheduled it to be forwarded to myself once a day for the next week, so i see it and remember to be more careful. i got home from work an hour ago and i can't move. i need to start putting shit on facebook marketplace ASAP, i'm probably gonna have to sell some cherished items so i'm not fucking homeless which sucks but i know i'm being an entitled brat about it. i'm so angry at myself i can't do anything about it. i feel like such a fuck up and a waste. my partner bounced rent twice so we're stuck with money orders now. if they do it again rent is on me. i can't pay it with a credit card. we'll just be fucking homeless. i need to stop beating myself up so i can figure out how to make us some money but i just want to cry. i'm so exhausted. i can't believe i didn't think to FUCKING GOOGLE SOMETHING before throwing my money away. or checking my balance to see if the money transferred before leaving again. i can't believe i didn't learn to drive at 16. i'm 25 and i can't drive and it's fucking pathetic. i don't know why i'm like this, i don't know what to do about it.

newly diagnosed IC here. I took oxybutynin for around 2 months and switched to mirabegron about 2 weeks ago because the dry mouth was so, so awful. new meds are treating me much better, theyr're not as effective for the bladder pain, but I would rather deal with that than the cotton mouth. I used to take oxybutynin times a day and my mouth would get so dry I wouldn't be able to talk unless I held water in my mouth for a few minutes at a time. this would happen a few times a day.

about an hour ago I had a massive tonsil stone just fall out. I was stunned because i've never had them before and dental hygiene hadn't changed. I'm 99% sure it's the meds and that now that my mouth isn't as dry they loosened up in my mouth a bit and fell out.

has anyone else had this happen on oxybutynin (or mirabegron, for that matter)? or has anyone had any kind of dental side effects? i'm not sure where to go from here. i might need to get another cleaning i think but i'm not due for one.

don't be antivax in the comments, that's not what this post is for :))) please and thanks. i'm going to get it regardless of what anyone says.

i know POTS and vaccines differ from person to person. the covid vaccine and boosters wrecked me but i seem to do okay with flu shots. i hadn't realized until recently that you need another TDAP after 10 years and am debating doing it when i go to the pharmacy today, however, i'm in a flare rn and i don't want to feel worse. i could wait, but i rarely have energy to go out so i kind of just want to get it done and am weighing the pros and cons. i've also taken up soldering (and am a klutz) and stuck the iron into my hand the other day... ouch. i will not be at all surprised if i stick molten metal into my skin again in the near future.

that being said... what has this vaccine been like for y'all? was it like the covid vaccine levels of hell a lot of us seem to have, or not as bad? if it was bad, how long did it last? thx in advance.

sorry to be that guy who just reposts a short. but this genuinely made me laugh

hi friends!

i've got an old 3DS i'm debating swapping for an XL/LL or 2DS so i wanted to ask y'all's opinions before doing so. i think all in all i'd be happier with a different console, but money is a major issue because i work for a nonprofit, so i don't make shit lol. here are a few of my reasons for wanting to switch:

-accesibility. i get eye strain and migraines and actually don't even use the 3D function at all. i think the larger screen might be beneficial. i also have hypermobile hands/fingers that cramp up BAD when playing, and i'm pretty sure having a bigger console might help.

-customization. a few months ago i shell swapped my switch back plate, joycon shells, and pro controller shells to clear purple and i LOVE them. it's a superficial reason but i'd just love if everything matched.

-hardware mods. i want to do the USB C and Bluetooth adapter mods. i only vaguely know how to solder but you learn by doing, and i think this would be a great first project (after practicing on some donor boards, of course- i have plenty of dead joycons i can use for this).

and then i also had a few questions:

-other than being built like a nokia, does the 2DS have any advantages? i feel like I'd prefer an XL/LL but like i said I don't use the 3D function. in my personal opinion i kind of just think the 2DS is ugly lol.

-are any of them easier or harder to homebrew? i'm very new to 3DS modding, I'm much more switch literate, which is finicky because you may or may not need a modchip. if i can do it with an SD card, i'm good. from what i've seen all 3DS models work that way but i want to make sure i'm not missing anything.

-i know the newer models have another set of trigger buttons and another joystick. are there different games that can be played like this? what's the purpose of those buttons?

-is it worth finding a console in perfect condition or getting the parts and fixing up a B/C grade one? i would have to look into those costs but i'm assuming fixing is cheaper. i've built joycons from scratch so i imagine i could do those repairs but I'd be lying if i said i was an expert.

-and lastly... if i do switch, what should I do with my old 3DS? i would be parting with it for sure. it has a messed up digitizer that i will be replacing today but otherwise functions fine. the top screen is yellow and i'm not sure whether or not it's worth replacing that screen and asking for more or just leaving it as is. i want to be as close to breaking even as possible because i am very, very broke lol.

thanks for reading all this 💜

after 8 years of knowing and 5 years of trying... i got a diagnosis.

it's not news. like, i knew. it took forever to get a doctor who A. took me seriously instead of just waving me off as "crazy", and B. was actually willing to sit down and do the work with me (interview + the DES + us literally going through the DSM line by line and discussing each bullet) to get me a diagnosis.

i got incorrectly diagnosed with BPD and an "unspecified trauma disorder" first. also got put on antipsychotics that nearly killed me and "did not make the voices go away" (my old psychiatrist's exact words. SHE LITERALLY SAID "THE VOICES".) it has sucked. but now idk how i feel.

validated, i guess? i'm glad to know i haven't been gaslighting myself for the past 8 years. relieved and hopeful, too, hopeful that i can actually start getting proper treatment. it certainly explains why the therapy i've been in for my whole life hasn't worked.

but i'm also scared and sad. i couldn't really tell you why, because once again, this isn't news. just confirmation of what i've known for years. i feel empty, i think.

just wanted to get that off my chest, i guess.