u/fairysmut1113

It looks like I’m having a blighted ovum, go back next week for final scan but last two showed sac no fetal pole (measured around 5 weeks 5 days then 6 weeks 3 days), high increasing HCGs but no longer doubling (in the 50ks). I had an ectopic in the fall from an IVF transfer, got spontaneously pregnant between IVF cycles. This is the farthest I’ve gone in a pregnancy in over three years of infertility.

I don’t know how to explain it but I feel like I’m disassociating a bit. Like my life isn’t real. Most people don’t know so I go parts of my day fine then have severe anxiety and panic. I’m often sick to my stomach from the anxiety. I’ve been incredibly anxious this whole pregnancy since it was a natural pregnancy. I was convinced I would miscarry and now well I probably am.

I have moments where I feel like I’m not present. I’ve been sleeping a ton becuase well I have morning sickness and fatigue but also I just don’t want to be awake, I want to be checked out from my life. I’m sad every time I wake up and remember what’s going on. Is it normal to feel like this?

My IVF journey has been kind of exhausting. Started trying at 28 and didn’t get pregnant, I knew I had stage one endometriosis. Did an egg retrieval and another excision surgery, first FET was natural modified and failed. My doctor died so I had to change clinics, lost time there. Did Lupron, second FET failed, third was ectopic. Had to do methotrexate so lost more time: Did back to back ERs and got 4 euploid embryos frozen. My RE recommended a mock ERA and I got pregnant between cycles spontaneously. It looks like a blighted ovum. I’m so overwhelmed, do I just go back to IVF. I feel so defeated.

I had an excision August 2024 (stage one) and am worried maybe I’m too inflamed and that’s what keeps causing my issues. But another excision would be too soon. Ideas?

This fall I had an ectopic pregnancy from an IVF transfer, prior we had two failed transfers as well. I got pregnant spontaneously between IVF cycles and it looks like a blighted ovum. I just feel so sad and defeated. We were told both of these things seem to be “bad luck” and one off things. But twice in a row? I had endometriosis surgery two years ago and did Lupron but maybe that’s a factor. I just feel so sad and like I keep letting everyone down, my husband is always so happy and supportive.

I had a lap August 2024, my RE died so I had some delays, did an FET 4 months after that failed, had to transfer care, then did Lupron and two more transfers. One failure one ectopic. May this year I got pregnant on my own after an egg retrieval but it looks like it might be a blighted ovum.

I heard endometriosis can cause ectopics and blighted ovums, I had stage one and excision. It feels too soon to do another lap but maybe my insides are just too damaged…

6/19 measured 5 weeks 5 days

Today 6/29 measured 6 weeks 3 days no heartbeat

This was a spontaneous pregnancy between IVF cycles, they’ve done multiple betas and they all have been fine, waiting on ones from today. Prior ectopic from IVF but no miscarriages. Just so anxious

Looking for a local recommendation if possible but willing to travel! I got unexpectedly spontaneously pregnant in the middle of IVF so my clinic has had to drop me, I’m at Bedford commons right now but they only deliver at Eliot which is an absolutely horrible hospital so I need to find somewhere else.

I’m assuming I’m very high risk if this pregnancy progresses so would prefer somewhere with a MFM. Anywhere up here or should I just suck it up and go to Boston? If so any recommendations there?

Thanks

Looking for a local recommendation if possible but willing to travel! I got unexpectedly spontaneously pregnant in the middle of IVF so my clinic has had to drop me, I’m at Bedford commons right now but they only deliver at Eliot which is an absolutely horrible hospital so I need to find somewhere else.

I’m assuming I’m very high risk if this pregnancy progresses so would prefer somewhere with a MFM. Anywhere up here or should I just suck it up and go to Boston? If so any recommendations there?

Thanks

Looking for a local recommendation if possible but willing to travel! I got unexpectedly spontaneously pregnant in the middle of IVF so my clinic has had to drop me, I’m at Bedford commons right now but they only deliver at Eliot which is an absolutely horrible hospital so I need to find somewhere else.

I’m assuming I’m very high risk if this pregnancy progresses so would prefer somewhere with a MFM. Anywhere up here or should I just suck it up and go to Boston? If so any recommendations there?

Thanks!