It can be anything, articles included. I am trying to make a list of P-DID resources for r/pdid.

It can be anything, articles included. I am trying to make a list of P-DID resources for r/pdid.

How do I interact with my fellow system members more? For context, we are a P-DID system and have aphantasia. We can't "see" or hear each other in our headspace. The only way we can communicate is abstractly. None of us can communicate via words, we can only convey whatever we have to say to each other through "vibes" (or feelings). Like vibes isn't even the right word for it, whenever one alter says something, they don't say it through words but we can 100% understand what they are meaning to say. Now the issue is, none of the alters have been sending "vibes" in our headspace for some time. I feel so alone and scared because no matter how much I shout for them, they don't reply with anything. It's not like we are in bad terms w each other either. I know they are present in co-con, but I am not able to get to them. This feels like prison. How do you guys recommend I go about this?

I am looking for a list of queer historical events in Indian history, as I am part of the LGBTQ+ community and want to get more educated on historical events from my own country :)

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Hi!! If you're interested, could you draw a goth OC of mine? She's a chubby goth (romantic goth to be more specific) woman with split-dye black and purple/violet hair of waist-hip length!! She wears an all-black dress down to her ankles (or if you wanna add a pop of colour, you could add violet), which has full-length sleeves. She does not have any piercings/tattoos. If you'd like a reference photo, you can use the one I've attached (it's a picture of a TikTok influencer @ ravengriim)!! I love your art and would def love to see this OC drawn in your style :3 Hope you enjoy drawing her!! (I'm just looking to make her a profile picture, so if you just wanna draw a headshot then that's okay as well!!)

I can only recognise the first row.

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I am very new to anime in the sense that I started watching it only recently, even though I have been aware of it since 2017. I wanted some anime suggestions, and also a few anime y'all recommend that were popular in 2020. These are the only anime I have watched till now, and I have loved all of them:-

-Kakegurui
-Nana
-Beastars
-Perfect Blue
-Death Note

I am currently looking for anime that are like Kakegurui and Death Note. I really like psychological thrillers in general.

I am very new to anime in the sense that I started watching it only recently, even though I have been aware of it since 2017. I wanted some anime suggestions, and also a few anime y'all recommend that were popular in 2020. These are the only anime I have watched till now, and I have loved all of them:-

-Kakegurui
-Nana
-Beastars
-Perfect Blue
-Death Note

I am currently looking for anime that are like Kakegurui and Death Note. I really like psychological thrillers in general.

Well, to start it off, I'm writing this because I have felt guilty and disgusted with myself for my entire life and need the world to know what a horrible person I am. In my eyes, I am no better than a rapist. It doesn't matter that I was 8 years old, because I still knew deep down in my conscience back then that what I was doing was wrong, yet I acted on my curiosities.

I was exposed to adult media at the age of 8 years. I started watching those kissing prank YT channels regularly at the age of 8 and inevitably discovered porn after a few months. Struggled with a porn addiction till the age of 12 years. Porn quite literally destroyed my body. I started playing with my vagina in ways that no one should have, especially as a kid, and it triggered one hormonal disorder after another, and I suffer to this day. (Please don't ask me to elaborate on that.)

But even worse than the physical damage was the mental damage. I grew so accustomed to taboo topics that I started believing that taboo was the norm. I was 8 years old when I normalized inc3st and p3d0philia in my head. I didn't know that these beliefs were wrong till I got onto social media during COVID, saw other people talk about things, and realised how morally fucked my beliefs were. It took me the longest time to unlearn all of that. I am still unlearning a lot of things. And those intrusive thoughts never fucking stop.

Porn turned me into a sexual aggressor at the age of 8, and I will never forgive myself for the harm I caused to my childhood friends. They didn't deserve to go through what I put them through. To all adults out there: no matter how small your child is or how naive and innocent and childlike you think they are, NEVER leave them unsupervised, especially if they are with other kids. It might seem like they are having small playdates with each other, but the moment they see that no one's supervising them, they WILL act on their curiosities. And no one deserves to be on either side of that.

My history with porn and its consequences has pushed me into a box where I am isolated from the entire world because of the immense amount of shame, guilt, and regret I have. Porn is the worst fucking thing to exist on the entire planet. I hate the industry and the people who promote it. It is the most dangerous thing mankind has ever done. And to that one man who made those kissing prank YT videos back in the day, I hope you fucking rot in hell for what you have done to so many children. I know I am not the only one who spiralled into addiction because of your videos. You knew what fucked content you were posting, and it's horrible how you kept up with it for so many years.

Fuck the entire industry. It has created a false and harmful identity of sexual relationships worldwide. To all parents and future parents: never stop being wary about your child(ren), because there is a huge chance that they are 1. either harming others, 2. others are harming them, or 3. they are harming themselves.

I am not blaming the porn industry for what I did, even though that's what influenced me to become who I was. I take full accountability for my actions. The amount of shame, guilt, and remorse I feel eats me alive every second of the day, yet I feel like it's not enough. This is not sympathybait, I mean it with every cell of my being when I say this: I deserve to suffer more for what I did, and no amount of suffering will ever be enough. I hate myself for who I was, and for who I still am. I have tried many times to separate my past self from my present, but I know it's impossible because that child will always be a part of who I am, and I'll never get rid of it. I will live my entire life with this well-deserved burden and will only be free from its shackles on the day I die.

I am looking for Assamese names which can be spelled with X and Z, hence asking the question!
(I am aware that জ is technically J and not Z, but I'm just being a little funky here and experimenting around hehe)

For context, I am Tea, and I am uncomfortable with any kind of dancing. I don't dance, and I can't dance. I am the stiffest person in any room. I love watching others dance, but I never do it myself- especially in front of others. Other things that I am not interested in are full face makeup, especially makeup that makes us look feminine. I am a bare face with just grunge black eyeliner kind of person. The most feminine I can get is putting on lightly tinted lip balm whose colour barely shows. I hate wearing revealing clothes to the extent that I only wear full sleeves and long ass pants at all times.

And then there is a part of "me" which loves dancing. And by dancing, I am talking about full-on vogue-ing and pole dancing and uhh twerking and really "extreme" (to me at least lol) forms of dancing like that. That part of "me" is also really into drag culture and really feels like being a drag queen is their true calling. That part of "me" loves makeup, but a really exaggerated kind of feminine makeup. If I personally were to do drag, I would only and only do drag king looks. (Drag kings are cool asf and they need more recognition fr). And lastly, that part of "me" wants to wear clothes that accentuate our body's curves and maybe even wear something that shows cleavage. I feel like that part of "me" would definitely buy push-up bras lmfao, feels weird to realise that since I only wear sports bras and am looking forward for the day I can buy my own binder.

So here is my dilemma: None of the other alters feel like this is a part of them, so ik this isn't their quality. It certainly isn't mine, even though I have my own fair share of interest in RuPaul's Drag Race. So what is it? Could it be a different alter? Or is it just another part of my own personality?

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