u/komiwah

Tenho consciência de que tenho alguns kinks, mas nunca imaginei o quanto eles me ajudariam a ter uma experiência sexual melhor.

Ontem, enquanto meu namorado (que tem 19 anos, eu tenho 18) estava me tocando, eu pedi para ele parar, mas não porque eu realmente queria que ele parasse. Sinceramente, nem sei por que fiz isso, porque eu estava quase tendo um orgasmo. Acho que ele percebeu, porque ele disse: "e se eu não parar?".

Meu Deus, a forma como aquilo me excitou foi insana. Saber que ele estava fazendo o que queria comigo me fez sentir no paraíso.

Claro que, depois que terminamos, ele perguntou: "Você gostou? Eu fui longe demais com você?" e conversamos sobre criar uma safe word (cereja, kkkkkkk), mas, no geral, ele foi incrível.

Ele sabe que sou bastante masoquista, e ainda bem que ele é meio sádico. Ele sempre me dá uns tapas, e só de pensar nisso já fico excitada, kkkkkk

So, I'm 18 and my boyfriend is 19. He has more sexual experience than me, since I only lost my virginity at the beginning of this year.

I've never met a guy so handsome, so kind, and who turns me on so much as him. But even so, it seems like what I feel is multiplied four hundredfold in his eyes.

For example, today I went to his house. We had sex once for about 30 minutes, and then I got a little tired even though it was extraordinary (my ex used to last a maximum of 20 minutes).

So, we lay down together, cuddling and kissing, but in less than 10 minutes he was hard as a rock again. I thought, "Okay, normal, I guess," and we did round 2.

We finished the second round, which lasted about 40 minutes, and by then I was already pretty exhausted, LOL.

Same thing: we were snuggling normally, but then I decided to play around a bit just to see his reaction and, again, the giant woke up. I was like "Oh my God???". He grabbed me and asked for a third round. I agreed, after all, I was also a little horny despite being tired. I didn't keep track of the time for that one.

Skipping ahead to the end of the date, while I was ordering an Uber, he asked for a quickie. I was exhausted, but wow, he's so good at it that I couldn't refuse. It lasted about 10 minutes.

In short, he came about 3 times (he didn't have time the last time). I also had an orgasm a few times, but now that I'm home I'm practically dead. As for him, although tired too, he still went to his college normally.

I even asked, "Don't you ever get tired? How many can you handle?", and he said, "With you, it's hard to get tired."

I feel very desired by him, not only for that reason, but for several other reasons as well. The problem is that I don't know how I can get as much stamina as him!!! I don't know if I get tired too quickly or if he's just tireless, but I really wish I could keep up with his level better.

If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know!

seguinte, eu tenho 18 anos e meu namorado tem 19. ele tem mais experiência sexual do que eu, que perdi a virgindade no começo desse ano apenas.

eu nunca conheci um garoto tão bonito, gente boa e que me dê tanto tesão quanto ele. mas mesmo assim, parece que isso que eu sinto é multiplicado por quatrocentos na visão dele.

por exemplo, hoje eu fui na casa dele. transamos uma vez por mais ou menos 30 minutos, e aí eu já cansei um pouco apesar de ter sido extraordinário (meu ex costumava durar no máximo 20 minutos).

nisso, a gente deitou junto, fazendo carinho um no outro e se beijando, mas em menos de 10 minutos ele já estava duro que nem pedra de novo. pensei "beleza, normal, eu acho", e fizemos o round 2.

acabamos o segundo round que durou mais ou menos 40 minutos, e nisso eu já tava meio acabada KKKKKKK.

mesma coisa: estávamos juntinhos normalmente, mas aí eu decidi brincar um pouco só pra ver a reação dele e, novamente, o gigante acordou. fiquei tipo "meu Deus???". ele me agarrou e pediu pelo terceiro round. eu concordei, afinal, eu também tava meio foguenta apesar de cansada. não contei o tempo desse.

pulando pro final do encontro, enquanto eu pedia uber, ele pediu por uma rapidinha. eu tava só o pó, mas poxa, ele faz isso tão bem que eu não tive como negar. durou mais ou menos 10 minutos.

enfim, ele gozou umas 3 vezes (na última não deu tempo). eu cheguei a ter um orgasmo algumas vezes também, mas agora que estou em casa eu estou PRATICAMENTE MORTA. já ele, apesar de cansado também, foi pra faculdade normalmente.

eu até perguntei "você não cansa não? quantas você aguenta?", e ele disse "com você, fica difícil cansar".

eu me sinto muito desejada com ele não só por isso, mas por alguns outros motivos também. o porém é que eu não sei como eu posso fazer pra ter tanta stamina quanto ele!!! não sei se eu canso muito rápido ou se ele que é o tal do incansável, mas eu queria muito poder acompanhar melhor o nível dele.

se alguém tiver alguma sugestão, por favor, me diga!!!

I dreamed today that I was watching a series with my family about an infectious disease that was transmitted through contact with someone.

The series made way too much sense up to a certain point.

It started with a family going to a... restaurant? Something like that. But then, the family's oldest brother somehow became infected, becoming very violent and hostile and attacking everyone around him. He was arrested by some kind of department and kept in solitary confinement in a place in the middle of a forest.

There was a scene in the dream where they were going to do something to him, all protected and wearing lots of clothes, but I think he managed to escape somehow because afterward it showed him running around the forest like a maniac, killing every kind of animal he came across.

His younger brother was nearby playing soccer with his friend during sunset, and then it cut to the younger brother fleeing from the older one through the forest on top of an ox.

He eventually managed to reach the village where he lived "safely" on top of the ox, but then the older brother caught up with him even though he had reached the village, and the episode ended.

It was actually kind of scary. I remember letting out a little scream in the dream, and my family told me not to scream because my dad was sleeping on the couch. I said that we were watching a sort of horror series and that it would be normal for me to scream because of that, but they lightly scolded me, and I, feeling sad about it, went to my room. The dream ended there.

Feel free to ask anything! I'll try to answer them ASAP :)

I'm 18 years old currently. I'm also somewhat of a character designer and 2D animator! I'd put an example of my art here if I could, but just imagine cute anime girls haha

I've had 3 attempts, and the third one, the most impactful, was because I thought the boy I used to like was gonna abandon me.

I told my man about that, and he did his best to comfort me! he said "don't worry, I'll be with you though thick and thin, I won't be a motherfucker and abandon you"!!!

yesterday was a very difficult day for me, but I asked to call him at 11 pm and he said "of course". then I told him about that and it all happened. I'm so happy... 💕

seguinte, vou tentar ser breve.

meu "mais marcante" caso de dependência emocional ocorreu quando eu tinha 14-15 anos (tenho 18 hoje em dia). eu gostava tanto, mas TANTO de um menino, que eu tinha um medo absurdo de ser abandonado por ele, e acabava me cortando até a camada de gordura só de pensar nessa possibilidade.

certo dia, eu não aguentei mais. tentei suicídio. no dia seguinte, acordando no hospital, pedi meu celular para avisar o garoto, e após desabafar com ele e pedir por apoio, ele terminou comigo.

hoje em dia, já estou bem melhor, mas ainda carrego as sequelas disso tudo. eu estou tendo um caso com outro cara, e tipo, ele é super tranquilo, mas às vezes demora para responder. isso me dá uma ansiedade tão absurda que eu começo a passar mal ao pensar que naquela hora eu esteja levando ghosting ou sendo abandonada, a ponto de quase vomitar.

eu tenho tanto medo de voltar a ser como eu era antes... meu jeito de amar sempre foi muito intenso, e isso é absurdamente perigoso pra mim. eu faria tudo pela pessoa que eu amo, e se eu tiver que pagar com a vida, que assim seja. sou capaz de fazer de tudo pra não ser abandonada de novo.

i know this may sound silly but FUCK I was practically having an anxiety attack just by thinking about what was making he take so long to reply.

I was thinking like "is he with someone else?" "what is he doing?" "should I call him?" "is he okay?" "oh god if he's with someone else i might just go insane" "I'm so fucking worried" while crying a bit and almost throwing up.

when he replied, i started crying for real while letting out a huge SIGH of relief. I asked what he was doing, and he said he was watching some movies with his mother and sent a pic of his tv.

being a yandere is all fun and games until this type of stuff happens. i genuinely thought i would die just by feeling my heart tightening.

Imaginação sensorial vívida é a capacidade de imaginar uma sensação de forma tão detalhada e intensa que ela quase parece estar acontecendo de verdade. Não é um diagnóstico por si só, mas é uma variação da imaginação que eu, por exemplo, tenho mais forte do que boa parte das pessoas.

Por exemplo: eu consigo sentir gostos e cheiros de frutas/comidas em geral só de pensar nelas. Dependendo, até a textura na minha boca.

okay so, me and my future boyfriend/husband (yeah I just know it) had another date today. he went to my house and after that we went to a shopping center

when we were at the shopping center, we had this dialogue:

him: "hey, look! that's you" (pointing to a character from a manga I heavily relate to)

me: "how the fuck do you know i relate to her? haha"

him: "...i just know that"

me: "stalker??!!"

him: "no..."

me: "but it seems like you know a lot about me that I haven't told you..."

him: "nope hahaha"

me: "...🤨"

him: "...alright, i know yeah"

then he kissed me and changed subjects

he also said that his only enemies are two friends of mine that he thinks are handsome, but then laughed and said he was kidding

GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

he was looking at me while i was scrolling on my phone and said:

"is he your best friend?" when I opened a boy's chat on whatsapp (note that he had already asked about my friendships about three times in less than 30 minutes)

i replied "he's my brother" while trying not to laugh

and he said "oh" and laughed

i love it when he gets jealous, even with things like that. he's so cute... OH GOD I WANT HIM SO BAD

he was looking at me while i was scrolling on my phone and said:

"is he your best friend?" when I opened a boy's chat on whatsapp (note that he had already asked about my friendships about three times in less than 30 minutes)

i replied "he's my brother" while trying not to laugh

and he said "oh" and laughed

i love it when he gets jealous, even with things like that. he's so cute... OH GOD I WANT HIM SO BAD

he was looking at me while i was scrolling on my phone and said:

"is he your best friend?" when I opened a boy's chat on whatsapp (note that he had already asked about my friendships about three times in less than 30 minutes)

i replied "he's my brother" while trying not to laugh

and he said "oh" and laughed

i love it when he gets jealous, even with things like that. he's so cute... OH GOD I WANT HIM SO BAD

I've never been happier...

We walked around the shopping center for a bit, and then we went to his house. I'm not going to go into too much detail about what happened there, of course, but know that it was all incredible.

He seems as excited as I am. As soon as I got into the Uber to leave (with a heavy heart 💔), I texted him saying I wanted to see him again soon. He said that if I agreed, we could meet tomorrow. Like, TOMORROW!!!!!

Unfortunately, I can't see him again anytime soon, like tomorrow, but he's coming to my house this weekend to meet my family and have dinner with us.

I want him to be mine so badly, and I'm so, so close to achieving that... We took some photos together, and I really wanted to print them out to make a shrine.

Now we're going to play games on an audio call!!!! I want to spend every second with him... 🫶🫶🫶🫶

I've never been happier...

We walked around the shopping center for a bit, and then we went to his house. I'm not going to go into too much detail about what happened there, of course, but know that it was all incredible.

He seems as excited as I am. As soon as I got into the Uber to leave (with a heavy heart 💔), I texted him saying I wanted to see him again soon. He said that if I agreed, we could meet tomorrow. Like, TOMORROW!!!!!

Unfortunately, I can't see him again anytime soon, like tomorrow, but he's coming to my house this weekend to meet my family and have dinner with us.

I want him to be mine so badly, and I'm so, so close to achieving that... We took some photos together, and I really wanted to print them out to make a shrine.

Now we're going to play games on an audio call!!!! I want to spend every second with him... 🫶🫶🫶🫶

I really want to tell him to delete all his social media accounts, but I can't do that because I have to maintain the image of the perfect candidate for a partner... But that's okay. Anything to stay by his side and anything to have more chances to say that he will be mine.

If I could, I would lock him in my house. He wouldn't be able to leave, not even if he really needed to.

I'm going to make him need me as much as I need him.

I really want to tell him to delete all his social media accounts, but I can't do that because I have to maintain the image of the perfect candidate for a partner... But that's okay. Anything to stay by his side and anything to have more chances to say that he will be mine.

If I could, I would lock him in my house. He wouldn't be able to leave, not even if he really needed to.

I'm going to make him need me as much as I need him.

So, I met a guy. He's very funny, very handsome, a really good person, and very fun. He's perfect.

He lives in the neighborhood next to mine. We're going to see each other personally for the first time tomorrow, and I'm just freaking out. I can't stop thinking about him, I have a feeling my heart is going to explode. I was so anxious that night that I stayed up until four in the morning after finishing a call with him because I couldn't sleep from excitement. I woke up at nine in the morning, also feeling anxious, and the first thing I did was text him wishing him a good day.

I've felt similar things before. That excitement, that anxiety... But it had been a long time since I felt like this. And I'm very afraid that everything will go wrong, just like the last few times (more than 2 years ago).

I'm willing to do anything to make this work. I want him to be mine and nobody else's. And I have a feeling that I'll make it, but the traumas are also screaming along with me.

Don't get me wrong, I love this: that adrenaline rush, that feeling of wanting to do anything for someone. I missed that so much. But I've been a perfect partner the last few times. I've also had hope the last few times. So I don't know... I think I'm pretty scared.

Does anyone have any advice? Anything or any word of affirmation that could help me? I just need to believe that everything will be alright...