I finally found my people. Now I'm mad I didn't know about this the whole time. I haven't been reading many discussions at all just kind of watching in tbe background. Now I gotta lock in!
They know what they're doing
My mom lost her dog around Kirby Rd/S Mattis Ave corner in Champaign. His name is Zigzag. Around 8pm last night he got scared of the fireworks and escaped from the yard. He has a lot of anxiety so might be hiding somewhere. He is microchipped, no collar. If seen let me know. He will probably run away if you chase. It's important to find him or at least have him in a shelter before tomorrow because he is very scared of thunder.
My mom lost her dog around Kirby Rd/S Mattis Ave corner in Champaign. His name is Zigzag. Around 8pm last night he got scared of the fireworks and escaped from the yard. He has a lot of anxiety so might be hiding somewhere. He is microchipped, no collar. If seen let me know. He will probably run away if you chase. It's important to find him or at least have him in a shelter before tomorrow because he is very scared of thunder.
I took a break from 90 Day Fiance for a few years because every season was like deeply depressing with all of the people extremely toxic and just icky. Terrible age differences, creepy vibes, nasty men. But this season idk I really like a lot of the people? Some people have their issues but a few of the couples are actually really functional and sweet. There have been some respectful conversations. And even when there is drama, it feels less like the people involved are in a dark situation if that makes sense.
Just me? I have lost a lot of friends and/or made acquaintances uncomfortable. I'm just doing my life, thinking everything is fine, and then someone will suddenly tell me I'm a terrible person and they never wanna talk to me again. And I'm usually flabbergasted like wtf did I do? People literally cut me off and we dont ever talk again. Often it's people who I have been really close friends with for a while too or people I trusted.
So I stopped trying to meet people or make friends because... YEAH. I am not dealing with that anymore, no thanks. Now I just have my discord group, and suddenly today I get a DM from one of the women who said among other things:
>As long as you've been on the server, you have indeed been really mean towards me. [...] But being spiteful or condescending or passive aggressive doesnt grant me anything, its just draining and I dont have the spoons for that. [...] I would really like to like you, but I cant do that as long as you continue treating me like you have
And I'm like WHAT DID I DO?? I am so confused. And for me what really does it is the fact that it can never be "hey, this thing was hurtful" it's like "YOU'RE a bad person who hurt me on purpose" even if they know I'm autistic. I'm so fucking tired of it. And then I wonder hmmm why am I becoming such an angry hermit person? Why am I not more positive?
It's hard not to be angry when your interactions are like this for reasons you dont understand. I put so much effort into being the best person I can, I want to be caring and kind, but then whenever there are moments where I'm selfish or thoughtless or miss social cues, I get in trouble right away and lose everything.
Is this okay? They vets had said she might always have small issues with her legs. She is mostly normal and walks on it fine but when jogging or running (which is most of the time on walks since her legs are like 2 inches long) she often kind of... does this thing where she skips her back right leg. She will just not use it, or hop with it more like a bunny every few steps. This is not new, it has been happening since the surgery. We just moved into an apartment with no yard so now I'm wondering if it's healthy for her to be going on lots of walks with this gait.
Sorry this has probably been asked many times. I live in Ilinois and just moved to a 4th (top) floor apartment. No good options for tornado warning. Stairs are near windows. So do I stay in top floor bathroom or go to first floor hallway? Those are the best I can think of.