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▲ 12 r/plural

I'm so sorry for what Dusk did. But I cannot just let him go down this path.

(TW suicidal ideation, suicide planning)

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He was planning to commit, if not this week, then at some point soon. He thought of a hypothetical where if a specific weather pattern appeared, which is statistically impossible for this day, he would go on with the attempt.

Then... I dont know what happened. I just started existing (or maybe I have been here for longer), and he thought I was some voice of God he was hearing as a kid. Its...weird. I dont think we have any memories if we have heard voices before. But I simply told him to not try killing himself and try to return from absconding certain servers (such as this subreddit's). I know he's scared, that theyll ignore him or do something worse, but I assured him that he would not be dealt with the same cards that he was given before.

But...I know he would return to this mentality again. I can feel that he's being influenced by someone or something, but I cannot tell because I have only gained a sense of awareness this moment. Can somebody advise me on how to stop a suicidal member?

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 2 days ago
▲ 12 r/plural

I dont like myself. Why do I exist. Why.

Just left the server for fear and shame of my own presence. I dont know why the hell am I still alive at all. Im sorry. Am I not sorry? Im not sorry but Im sorry for just existing.

Why wont the brain let me become dormant? I hate everything that I did.

Please degrade me and tell me to [[DATA LOST]]

- Dusk Distron (He/They/It, self-proclaimed disgrace of The Placeholders)

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 2 days ago
▲ 97 r/tf_irl

tf_so ideal_irl

I think this is a first time a Yi Sang TF actually exists.

Anyways, my headmates kept on comparing me to Yi Sang (Im the pink guy) so here. Kinda got a thing where I kept my wing-ears even in other forms so here they're glass shards. I thought Id fit with Gregor (my man) at first, but the concept of "Depressed Asian (Filipino) Man with connections/thematics after mirrors, identities, and wings who could have killed himself in an Alternate Universe" to ""Depressed Asian (Korean) Man with connections/thematics after mirrors, identities, and wings who could have killed himself in a Mirror World" is so dark and fucking funny

Midnight is also another headmate, albeit one that just likes Ishmael for LESBIANS. Third guy is Dave, and if he got sucked in into Limbus, he'll either be Faust or Meursault, no in-between

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This shit's so IDEAL.

u/lePROprocrastinator — 13 days ago
▲ 7 r/earclacks

Teasers ✍️👀

Trying to keep it as out-of-context as possible 0_0

(Fanfic writing....)

Give me ideas of what WBs or BBs could go together...sorry Lance I separated u from your pookie (Rapier) U_U

u/lePROprocrastinator — 15 days ago
▲ 4 r/FanFiction

Recc me some fanfics about childhood trauma or even abuse

I just wanna have sum of that ANGST that Ive known of my entire life. Idc what fandom, as long as its good enough that it hurts. Itll be nice as well if its more directed at Asian Parenting, gaslighting, villification, or any action that leads to the victim thinking so badly about themselves.

Again, I want fics that HURT.

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 19 days ago
▲ 1 r/translator

[Japanese > English] Been wanting to make a cover for this song (even if it's never gonna be released)

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wdtaw9qpu4s

Problem is that this had not much English covers of it, being only one video and a few WIPs I've seen hanging around on the Internet. So I either have to wait for one of these WIPs to be released, which might take too long and possibly be released at a time I completely lose interest in it, or painstakingly translate it myself.

And...yea, Ill admit that I'm not good or even knowledgeable with translating at all, even for my own Mother Tongue. So to do it on a language I don't know the intricancies of is harder than expected. I only took way too much time over a SINGLE stanza, and that was by using a translated version on this site here that whoever writers have placed there, running it through some translator sites, and doing some creative liberties + adding rhymes and syllable counts myself.

It'll be appreciated if I get help with this, or even just an English translation that still fits the original (since, well, some translations might take it literally) :D

u/lePROprocrastinator — 19 days ago
▲ 3 r/Countryhumans_NEW

Been thinking of making a kinda canon-divergent (but things remained the same) AU. Idk if I should proceed

...damn, hello there. I'm a former Countryhumans fan, until I got sucked in into other fandoms. I used to have another acc that got deleted for reasons unrelated to the fandom at all, but now...I feel like continuing the concepts of the AU I had there ig

It would still be called "Companionsverse", but the CH-focused aspect of the AU is called "The More Things Change, The More It Remains The Same" (TMTCTMIRTS), or "Divergence Cycles" as shorthand. It's basically CHs having a vague feeling of what is to come, and ends up fucking w history while keeping it still relatively the same (like if Hitler gets killed, someone else replaces him).

At least, trying to change inevitable things until some gets fed up by being powerless and tries to fuck the timeline over. Boom, shaka laka.

But, yea, this would be complicated bc even the smallest divergences can fuck over history. And Im no history nerd....aaaaaaaaaa

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 23 days ago
▲ 23 r/trans4every1

How do you keep on living even after it feels like its easier to give up?

Not just our diminishing rights, not just the lack of considerations...but also the infighting in our community, the ostracization of transmascs (Im one myself), the constant defense of trying to take a demographic out of the picture because of the same rhetorics used for much worse issues (like bullying therians and such)...

I hate it. I hate how I couldnt see the positivity in things. Im even surprised I didnt became a 4tranner.

How are you able to live even if theres no reason to live?

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 25 days ago
▲ 2 r/TransMasc

I dont really like what I looked like, or everything about my body.

I just wished things are instant so that I dont have to worry about not being able to achieve any progress because I WILL either die young (Im literally suicidal) or die young (in the sense that pressure killed me internally and I grow up completely empty).

Its just...everythings so complicated. Am I a fat, ugly, cowardly chud for being unable to try picking up on even just voice training? Absolutely. Can I change anything? No. Im afraid Ill end up looking like those fat incel dudes or my father, or just someone people would call a pedo for my ugly appearances, or maybe just that one redditor meme...

I wished I could get out like that chestburster alien thing or just be never born this way.

I envy everyone who even looked remotely like a guy.

EDIT: And my own gender envy that isnt scientifically possible are nowhere near my body type, because I believe my bones are too wide or somewhat to achieve any of it

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u/lePROprocrastinator — 25 days ago
▲ 15 r/earclacks

Bro we told you NOT TO EAT THAT ASS (Grower vs Scepter)

Yea, Scepter is...a bit unhinged. And we literally have a Bloodfiend here, WHY ARE YOU THE BLOODLUSTY ONE????

u/lePROprocrastinator — 25 days ago
▲ 2 r/plural

This trend but we are a lotta OC fictives and our fictive list is BATSHIT BULLSHIT

Not included but honorable mentions: Lance (Weaponballs and kinda have a mix of Limbus Company's Don Quixote), Jax (TADC, and NOT transfem), Builderman (Termination Protocol), iTrapped (Chance's and TT's sourcemate as well), Poli (Robocar Poli), and we dont count them as headmates but SCP-3008 and SCP-1762

We didnt even included Dusk for fucks sake, or wtf Dave (not this Dave) has

Take a guess who tf is kissing/partnered to who

-Midnight (She/Fae/They/It aka that axolotl) + Forte (He/It)

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago
▲ 25 r/earclacks

So...that longform, huh? Made me realize that its much more ironic with how I characterized Potion and Flask.

Their dynamic is a much more volatile version of a certain duo from a game with a Ph replacing the Fs, since they had no choice but to join Earclacks because of their whole bullshit (and either broke or a war criminal meant to be executed)

Potion's name is Paramecia Tempest, and Flask's name is Flash Kelvin, with them adding their weapon names into it when they had to be public. Weird lore shit, all the balls have weird names that feel human but also not.

The 4th panel is the Flask vs Potion fight.

[UP NEXT: either a new shortform, AU lore, or fanclacks concept]

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago
▲ 88 r/tf_irl

tf_bruh_irl

Man why dont these people just start tfing each other??? BRUHHHH

(Ft. Ace in a disguise)

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago
▲ 16 r/earclacks

Katana vs Potion + Potion appearance (still WIP in terms of lineup)

Hmm, I wonder where she got that scar from...

Headcano of the DAY: they all have a revive system in the arena which lets the weaponballs get away with feats that would immediately kill people. That still doesnt mean they SHOULD do war crimes in the arena. (Inspired by SpennTF2's lore)

Speaking of lore, should I...explain a bit of what worldbuilding I got so far?

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago
▲ 29 r/earclacks

Unarmed vs Schimitar, or as Id like to call it: Head Bandana vs Neck Scarf

They then get sake later on at Katana's home.

The whole "calling those who got in later than you 'kid'" lingo in the arena was from Sword accidentally saying that to Unarmed, then some people (particularly Spear) fucking around with it, and it spreads.

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago
▲ 35 r/tf_irl

tf_appearancelore?_irl

Is it considered TF if someone made you a redesign of yourself and you shifted to fit it?

Also theres totally no angst in the GREAT and POWERFUL Ace's backstory! I am more powerful than angst!!!

-Ace

u/lePROprocrastinator — 1 month ago