u/lostkitty0

I only nap sometimes. Happened twice in a month. I even had an excel sheet called no lying in bed challenge lol. Its been a month let's see if I can commit forever : D

Lying in bed has destroyed my body posture or so I feel.

I have been unemployed for a decade now taking baby steps to move forward

Where are you on your self improvement plan I would love to hear from you'll.

Have a good day :))

I haven't slept well in over 5 days. I was laughed at recently. Feeling humiliated and shamed. I also feel ashamed I am unemployed. My mind won't let me sleep unless I solve all problems. Some kindness is much appreciated

I charged my phone thrice while traveling today. Whoever created power banks deserves an award. Grateful ❤️❤️❤️

I had good energy while traveling today which is not the case usually. Grateful to the Universe ❤️

Like always loyal. I want them to be angry when someone hurts me or wrongs me in any way. When will I have that.

I hope I have learned it for life. I am very behind in life unemployed and mentally ill. Learning things bit by bit. What have you improved off late?

I turned 32. I dressed up applied makeup but my mother didn't say anything. Dad wished me but avoided eye contact. My brother and I are not talking because we had a fight. I can't leave home because I am unemployed. My online friends did not wish me. I shared with one so I got one obligatory wish. Another birthday without a man, a kiss, intimacy. Its scary the illusion of having people in my life is fading away.

My mom gave me disgusted looks looked up and down coldness in her body language hurts.

I sincerely hope no one gets a mother like mine.

Universe why I just want to be loved

I was the one bending backwards to make people feel comfortable. Making eye contact, initiating conversations and what not just to be forgotten. No one ever did that for me. It was a bargaining chip to make people like me or be friends with me. Now that I know it doesn't lead anywhere I have stopped it completely.

One reason could be I grew up unattractive and hence I had no choice. I hope I meet people who make an effort to make me comfortable as well.

I no longer have to offer this unappreciated emotional labour anymore.

Maybe this is part of fawn trauma response?

Did you have any similar experiences?

We are in this state of because of our life experiences. We are NOT mentally ill period!

I was dumped in therapy because no one talked to me including my own family. Why should I be called mentally ill? It fills me with rage. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self there's nothing wrong with you.

It breaks my heart to see so many teens and pre teens here. I wish I could hug you all and tell you you were never the problem ❤️

My left foot was swollen since 2 days but it healed on its own.

I got my period after a month. Last time my period got delayed by two months. So kinda happy it came on time.

My mom's phone apps are working again. This is a strange one. Some apps were working But some apps were that the Internet is slow. So I put my mom's sim on another phone and saw that the Internet was working with a higher speed and apps were working as well. Then I put the sim back in told my dad the problem is not sim but maybe the phone. Then my dad was checking but all apps working just fine. How did that happen?

I also lost 3 kgs despite eating out for three days straight!

Thank you Universe! grateful ❤️❤️❤️

I didn't do any affirmations or scripting. I literally did not do anything. I only had a clear intention

I feel feminine and alive. I love my periods. Little joys of life. I don't get cramps anymore so its more enjoyable.

Rice and chicken curry is my soul food. Its from my favourite restaurant I loved it so much my heart is full. Grateful I can afford them.

What's your favourite lyrics from the album?

I had this back pain since two weeks. I had a fracture in my backbone last October. I assumed it hasn't healed and maybe I might need a surgery. Turns out it was swelling and inflammation in tendons or muscle around my backbone tailbone to be precise. Also the x-ray showed that my fracture has healed yippee He prescribed me a week of medicines but my pain is gone right after day 1 of taking my meds. How magical is this. I wish I could hug my ortho doctor. Grateful for him I wish him all the happiness in life ❤️❤️❤️

Also grateful I could afford medical treatment it was slightly expensive but worth it

Grateful and happy 🌷🥀🌹🌸

It turned out to be an angsty ballad haha

I had an online affair for six months with a beautiful man and then he ghosted me.

I am just grateful for the time we had together. I grew up unattractive never had a relationship. We were never official yet he was kind to me. He made me laugh. He sent me good morning every day for six months. We texted for 8 hours everyday minus the weekends. He was very attentive sweet and kind. I never thought I would experience that. He has set the bar very high. I don't know if I will experience ever again. I know I am supposed to move on but feeling grateful for having one of my first romantic experiences.

I love you J now and forever. You hold my heart with your hands.

My favourite thing to do is to watch entrepreneur youtube videos. Mostly by Alex hormozi and sharan Srivastava. I barely understand anything but I love it haha.

So guess I am an wantrepreneur lol

I aspire to be an entrepreneur some day

I wanna gossip bitch about something and rant today. I don't wanna be two goody shoes anymore. My mom has relatives to call and gossip and she never gets in trouble.

I am worried about being caught as well. It has happened to me once. Why can't I bitch about my life

how people have treated me growing up. Why? Why do I live in a world I have to be nice?

I am generally happy and stable but its getting to me today. Keeping everything inside is taking a toll. Even sharing on reddit doesn't cut it anymore. I wanna have someone I can call and rant as much as I want to and still be loved. But we live in a world where sharing feelings is now trauma dumping and victim mentality. WHY Universe why.

No one's trustworthy as well. They might tell someone else. So many problems

My only hope is finding a trustworthy husband since I don't want to share my anger with anyone or a therapist