u/moon___22

so 20/f here and very much single . Creeps don’t msg ; i am just sharing my experience. I always wanted to have a connection and to be intimate with someone who loves me deeply tooo but that was not happening from a long time so i discovered masturbation a year ago . I always try to do it by rubbing my clit or humping a pillow . but i just can’t physically squirt or cummm like in the videos they show . i used to think maybe i am doing something wrong so one day i was like i wanna see is any cumm coming out or not . So one day when i was horny , when no one was home i tried putting a mirror infront of me like a big mirror ; got naked and started rubbing slowly slowly while my legs wide open ; i was watching porn too i wanted to be sucked very badly at that time i remember ; in some time i had an intense orgasm where i was shivering and they i saw the mirror ; it was a white liquid ( little bit only) but i was very very happy that oky i can cummm .
Now yesterday i was feeling horny too but everyone was at hone so in the night i put on my headphones and put a sound of guided rubbing in men’s voice ; i started doing as he instructed as omg one of the best orgasms i had . felt the orgasm 2 times in a row for the first time . i wanna try with a vibrator tooo but i just can’t order bcuz of parents . (Thanku for reading , i just vented out my experience)

soo 21/f here and i can still feel like i’m always in a rush to feel loved by people like i am very desperate to find somebody who loves me , cherishes me , adores me and i know i am pretty , kind and whatever a gentleman would want in his wife or gf ! I get compliments etc too but its just i can never feel the love in myself ; no matter what everyone says i still feel shallow and empty . i feel like people just see me lustly and never the kind of girl who would want a man to take care of. whenever i’ve been in a relationship he was always bcuz of my looks nd all but never really made any effort to know who i really am irl , how my soul looks , why do i have anxiety, what are my favourite thingsss. No one in this world ever know bcuz no one tried to. i just wanna connect to my higher self and really wanna know how to love myself and see myself as worthy of all the love i know i desire ; wanna calm my nervous system which is always in hurry and in fear to be left alone when i have so much love to give tooo. Thanku for reading till now; hope u have a good day🫶🏻

its been 2-3 days since going to gym , now trainer suggested me to have tamarind water soaked overnight then having it first thing in the morning even before brushing. Is it beneficial? I am quite doubtful about that ; it’s acidic in nature and i hope not to cause any acidity . i have anxiety, constant nausea etccc and trying to gain weight so do suggest something

So i am 20/f having this anxiety disorder, constant nausea and fear of going out etc since 2-3 years now . i was like i want to remove this feelings and i took the gym membership bcuz i was losing weight and thought that my mental health will be better after that. I went yesterday and paid the fees ; the gym was filled with so much crowd specially boys and i felt like this is the worst but still i didnt flee , didn’t freeze and tried to face the situation. My most biggest symptom is nausea and fear is also nausea . now today i am feeling this anticipatory anxiety and feeling sooo scared right now . I don’t know what to do . I take my water , my mints with me ; but still the fear persists . I know there is bathroom there and if i felt anything i can go but still i feel embarrassed thinking this and panic . its 2pm and i have to go at 4pm . Also so much amount of loud music was there today it was making me more anxious and so stimulating. I am hoping the crowd to be lesss. please give me any tips ???

20f here ; and its just a genuine that i don’t think i deserve this kinda loneliness i have in this age. It feels weird and strange to live a life soo lonely and so difficult than all of your family members . boys tend to approach me in college but thats just their lust and nothing else . I am on the verge of crying just by thinking that how can i become this lonely ? i was not like this . I was a talkative bubbly girl who was always happy no matter what . but after i got diagnosed with anxiety disorder things got difficult like real difficult for me . i am damn sure the things i am feeling is depressing and you know whats more depressing? Having not even a single soul to share all this and cry about your feelings. i maybe am little difficult for people to understand but i do deserve kindness i guess . All the emotions are so hightend mannn maybe its the full moon or something but still i feel lonely almost everyday. Even when i sit with my family ; go out somewhere ; i feel out of place . So many people and still no one for me.

its kind of a rant of current feelings but like literally i have never everrrrrr been loved by any single person living on this planet . my fantasies are sooo romantic like confession under rain , stargazing , giving love letters nd all but its just so difficult to find someone like this . I know i watch a lot of romantic movies and my brain is purelyyy delusional nd all but atleast i can hope for the rom-com kinda love . everyone says i am pretty , kind and all but why the hell does i have no one who’ll really see who i am and how my soul looks like !!?? i am just tired of all this . i don’t know if god will listen to this but for onceee let me get what i want and rn i want a man who’ll stare at me like i stare at the sky , who’ll love me like i love the moon , who’ll understand me like i understand songs lyrics and who’ll care for me like i care for every little thing . its quite difficult when you have so much love to give , so much things to say and no one to ever respond . Moreover i know i am a young girl and maybe will find someone but i think all the fictional and loving kind of men are commited or just don’t exist i guess . Also i have this fear that i’ll never find this love ever but i really wanna experience it all before i die . i hope i do .

Thankyouu for reading out my rant you sweet stranger; have a nice dayyy .

So i have recently discovered masturbation although i am 20 rn ; because i live in a strict household where all the talks about it are forbidden . whenever i have urges i just turn off the lights and use my fingers to rub my clit but can’t do it loudly and i guess because of the fear of my parents finding it out i am not able to cum . I have never cummed and not sexually active . With the rubbing i just reach the orgasm stage but then my hands automatically stop even when i wanna do it ; hands get tired nd all . i am sure i will enjoy nd know myself more with vibrator but i cant buy it rn ; my parents know whatever i buy . i am really concerned about it as i really wanna experience the cumming level of masturbation.

20f here but after seeing rom~coms i really felt like maybe i am only meant to give and not to feel any kind of love . If feeling loved by someone, him appreciating me , doing some efforts is so much of a big thing i am asking? I know i am ranting rn but i just feel and yearn so much to be loved purely passionately classically by someone once in my life . i have standards but no one fits in that ; the walls of my heart are maybe too high that no one wants to climb .
i am not really in the need to find someone or be in a relationship bcuz whenever i did it broke my heart always ; always settled for low efforts while i give my whole to the person and it hurts to feel this way . maybe i feel the need to be loved so much because i never got it from any male figure while growing up ;father was and still is so busy that he never realised his eldest daughter is so much in need for his love . never been in any relationship in school or something however the thing is people do talk to me and want to be in relationship with me but that’s just lust and now i really hate it. Always given my everything to the person whoever i used to be in relationship with to just ask for my nudes !!!
I am starting to hate all this noww honestly. I just once in my life before i die i wanna feel the love i give , the love they show in movies , the pure passionate love without any needing of benifits , that making some efforts and loving me will not feel like a chore to him. Alsoo thankyouu you sweet soul to finish reading it till the last.

So i am 20 yrs old with the height of 5’2 and weight 43kg ; honestly saying whenever i try any kind of banana shakes or heavy meals i just physically feel so bloated and just can’t eat anything afterwards and have little appetite specially i can never have anything in the morning because of anxiety and nausea but i want to gain weight and have no idea what to do . I am thinking of going to gym but i have social anxiety also so i am scared . please give me some tips i want to change my appearance .