u/nekoshogunmon

I'm currently on Horizon under NJ FamilyCare (Medicaid)

I have a real tall order, unfortunately. I have OCD, GAD, and Depression. In recent months, I received an Autism diagnosis (level 1, used to be called Asperger's), and I'm also starting to peel back some very deep layers of trauma, some of it from childhood, some of it from the toxic religious life I used to be in.

I need to focus specifically on the OCD, the Autism, and the trauma resulting from the religious years (which includes sexual repression issues, which I've been unable to resolve or make better at all).

I know it's a stretch, but if anyone knows any therapists who might be able to help with this stuff, please let me know. Thank you.

I'm currently on Horizon under NJ FamilyCare (Medicaid)

I have a real tall order, unfortunately. I have OCD, GAD, and Depression. In recent months, I received an Autism diagnosis (level 1, used to be called Asperger's), and I'm also starting to peel back some very deep layers of trauma, some of it from childhood, some of it from the toxic religious life I used to be in.

I need to focus specifically on the OCD, the Autism, and the trauma resulting from the religious years (which includes sexual repression issues, which I've been unable to resolve or make better at all).

I know it's a stretch, but if anyone knows any therapists who might be able to help with this stuff, please let me know. Thank you.

My life is kind of a mess right now, and in the midst of everything, the paint's come off of the arms of my glasses, so when I wear them my skin gets irritated and I break out in a small rash where the bare frame contacts my skin.

I know I have super sensitive skin, I'm sure the frame is made from nickel or something similar.

I've been getting by using medical tape, but it's white and very noticeable on my dark colored frames.

I've had some suggestions, including nail polish, but that kinda makes me a little paranoid about sweating and absorbing the nail polish into the skin.

I did try to get new glasses, but they felt very funky, and after about 5 weeks I finally gave up on them and went back to these previous ones. I want to try to get better insurance so I can go to a better glasses place, maybe one at Walmart isn't the greatest.

Would anyone have a better idea for how to keep the metal on the bare part of the frames from irritating my face?

I know it's kind of a random situation but I figured y'all may know what to do. Thanks for readin

I still have my Switch 1 that I bought in 2019, I played the hell out of Hades on there, just have a couple smaller bits of things to wrap up before officially shelving it.

I'd love to have Hades II on there as well but I just wanna ask about frame rate and such, my eyes can be sensitive to that kinda thing but I never had any trouble whatsoever with Hades I. How's it running for anyone else who's still using their Switch 1?

Thank you!

Hey all,

I watched playthroughs of Remake and Rebirth but I still kinda wanna play it for myself, really really big into FF7. The og, Crisis Core, the books (I have the three localized ones), all of it.

My options would be PC or Switch 2.

I have a Dell Inspiron 16 Plus laptop, I've played a bunch of Atlus/Sega games on it (Metaphor, Raidou, P3 Reload, Yakuza 0), but Time Stranger ran so badly that it actually made me sick early on.

I can be motion-sensitive to some games, Pokemon Scarlet on Switch 1 did the same thing. I wish I could explain why that happens but I honestly don't know a lot about FPS and such. My best assumption is that Scarlet wasn't optimized well on Switch 1, and Time Stranger was the same on PC, but I've heard almost no other complaints about Time Stranger, so... dunno.

I've had the laptop a few years now, so I dunno how much longer it'll be running well.

Meanwhile I never got around to buying a Switch 2, but my friend insists these games would run surprisingly well on it. I'm wondering if a new Switch 2 would be a better way to play Remake+Rebirth than my laptop.

What do y'all think? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

My frames are messed up so I went to a Walmart Vision Center. They ended up doing a new prescription for me, but for the life of me I cannot get accustomed to these glasses and I haven't the slightest idea why. Can't even describe what I'm feeling, just something off about my vision when I put these on.

We did a second run-through of the whole prescription process and all my answers were the same. No clue what's going on.

They adjusted the new frames to be as close to my old ones as possible, but I have a funny feeling it's not gonna make anything better. Gonna give it a shot for the next couple days anyway, but if I still can't figure out what's going on, would anyone have a good eyeglass place to recommend in the area?

Thank you

The glasses I've been wearing for my nearsightedness have damaged frames, so I ended up going to Walmart's Vision Center to get my prescription updated.

They said my previous glasses were actually like... over-corrective? or slightly too strong for my eyes.

I've been wearing the new glasses a couple weeks, but there's a weird... thing that's hard to describe. Not dizziness or cross-eyed, just... something... off. I have no idea how to describe it. And it hasn't gone away.

I went back maybe a week ago and they did the thing for updating my prescription again for free, and I answered the exact same to all the questions from before ("what's clearer, 1 or 2" that kind of thing). So I cannot for the life of me imagine what's wrong. My only guess is maybe the frames themselves need to be adjusted better to fit my head/face??

Does anyone have any idea what might be going on lol

I'm 38, I live in NJ in the US. I was diagnosed with level 1 autism a few weeks ago. That's brand new to me. I have no idea what to think about it.

I've had a severe anxiety disorder since 2006 (that was the official diagnosis, but I probably had this earlier than that). OCD + GAD + Depression with religious trauma, something very few people understand (I'm an ex-christian).

20 years of no progress with the OCD, no matter what meds or treatment I threw at it.

I had a very rough month personally, but I'm preparing to get the ball rolling to figure out if there are any new resources that could be available for me, with the autism diagnosis.

Upon asking around, I've been. I've just been genuinely terrified.

A friend told me that I could potentially get classified as a disabled person, but there's not really any good resources for disabled people in situations like mine.

They then recommended applying for asylum in a country with better healthcare and resources for disabled people.

I literally can't do that. I am alive because of my elderly mom. I'm doing everything I can to make any sort of dent in my disorder before my mom passes (she's healthy but she's old, we've already talked about how I really need to figure out a plan for what comes next if/when that happens).

I feel like if my mom passes before I do, I'm screwed.

It's like, I was never able to figure out how to get this disorder managed, now there's an additional complication, and apparently this country in the modern day doesn't have any good resources for support.

I feel very alone and very scared. I don't have many local friends, my friendships are mostly online, and even that's starting to run dry because I left twitch-related discord servers (full of surface-level friendships that didn't matter outside the server) and I'm now seeing just how alone I really am.

Heyo,

So I've completed P3P a number of times (Makoto and Kotone routes, mostly Kotone for her exclusive SLs)

I actually played Reload when it came out but I got burned out hardcore halfway through because I was spending too much time grinding in Tartarus (you can really just spend hours in there if you're not careful)

Now the funny bit: I got into MCR for the first time in my life two years ago. Something about it "clicked" for me and I ended up at the Philly show last year. It's serious.

So I just saw the trailer for this mod and IMMEDIATELY came here to ask some questions

1. Is it easy to switch this whole thing on and off as needed? I dunno if I'll get to spots in the game where I'd rather see it the way it was intended. I'm hoping the thing is easy to install, I'm still not used to mods. I also struggle with frame rates and stuff but when I played Reload I had no problems at all, hopefully I won't accidentally mess with that.

2. I see Kotone. She doesn't have like... her whole route intact right?? There's no way. Right?...

3. Would anyone have advice for not getting burned out in Tartarus lol, that was literally the only thing stopping me from finishing Reload the first time around, I reached a point where I could just grind in there for hours without any natural stopping points so I couldn't stop lol

Thank you!

Hey all.

I'm 38. Miku's been in the realm of stuff I'm into my entire life. I recently played a crane game at Round One, tried to win a Miku plush for the heck of it. "I'll never win this thing," I said. And then I did.

Now I'm exploring Miku and Vocaloid music in general and I'm already running into some confusion

A friend recommended a bunch of songs, including Triple Baka.

I use Spotify. I got Triple Baka, by Hatsune Miku, Akita Neru, and Kasane Teto. I know Teto is another Vocaloid singer, I'm assuming Akita Neru is too.

It got delisted.

In its place, I found a "Rock version" and "Remake version," now featuring someone named La-Matryoshka.

Who is La-Matryoshka?

I've been meaning to ask about this for a while, and, funny enough, now that I'm getting around to doing so, I noticed that those songs are also delisted.

Confusing.

Right now it looks like the only Miku/Vocaloid I have on Spotify is the Dune song, Deco*27 (the one that starts with the doorbell sound), and Levan Polka.

1. is La-Matryoshka a Vocaloid person or someone doing remixes on Spotify, potentially without the rights?

2. can I get more recommendations for Miku/Vocaloid stuff similar to the Dune and Deco songs? those are really great, been messing with the Dune one on keyboard.

Thank you!

late edit: thanks for the replies, y'all! to be honest I would really like to drop Spotify but I have like 3000 songs in my library so it's... daunting. to say the least. I'll just go to youtube to look into these recommended songs!

Hey all,

38 year old cis male here, was diagnosed Level 1 Autistic two or three weeks ago.

Still figuring everything out. In addition to my Autism diagnosis, I've been struggling with a severe anxiety disorder (mostly OCD and trauma-related issues) for 20 years now. I'm hoping, going forward, the Autism diagnosis may help shed light on why all the different treatments I've tried have yet to make much of a difference.

In my travels, I've been keeping all of this in mind, and I wanted to ask about two specific things that came up this week.

To begin with, I've been a "picky eater" since I was very little. It's a phrase I deeply hate, because I now understand that everyone around me was quick to label me as "picky" or "fussy" without fully examining why. It was the 90s, I guess, but I am definitely paying for it now.

My diet should be studied by medical science because by all accounts I should really be in a hospital or worse. I try to eat Cheerios or something similar every morning (some lactose intolerance prevents me from using milk and everything else is pretty high in fat/sugar), as a way of trying to maintain a healthy weight, since lunch and dinner is chaos.

I'm unfortunately a frequent fast food guy, lately it's just much easier, plus my own OCD issues have made learning to cook for myself challenging (I live with my mom and I have trouble cleaning dishes for fear that I'll mess it up and make her sick).

I wanted to start small to introduce vegetables to my diet, and, funny enough, my mom feels the same way for herself. I occasionally go to California Shakes in a local mall to get the Tune Up smoothie, which contains a number of healthy fruits and veggies blended up fine enough that I can drink it down with almost no trouble. Spinach and kale are my go-to's for brain health, one of the reasons I never bother trying other flavors.

I occasionally pick up one of those Naked Green Machines in grocery stores, but I have to assume that's not as good since it comes in a bottle rather than being made fresh. Still, mom wondered if we'd both benefit from trying to buy these in bulk.

I wanted to ask if others here have trouble with fruits and veggies, and what you do to manage. We do occasionally try buying fresh, and I can eat stuff like baby carrots right out of the bag, but these things go bad so quickly when there's only two people in the house eating them.

So, that's the first question. What do you recommend for trying to incorporate more fruits and veggies into your diet, especially if the most efficient way you've found to do so is a smoothie? I can't imagine how expensive it would be to get one of those smoothie-makers in the house.

Second is about stim toys. Stim toys were highly recommended for me, and in messing around with different ones recently, I've noticed I have less of a tendency to pick my skin, which is yet another thing I've struggled with all my life.

I picked up a blind box Godzilla squish toy (got Mothra) as well as a Digital Circus one (Kinger). I'm a bit of a nerd lol

Kinger seems to give off a sweet smell, so I googled around to see if that's intentional (one or two comments did say he smells like marshmallows/strawberries), and ended up finding a lot of results warning of the "Dumping" toys being made with dangerous chemicals.

It's a weird era of the internet where I honestly don't know what to make of it all. That, plus my worrying, plus the struggling to understand myself in light of the new diagnosis... well, that's why I'm here.

My second question is that I have to assume a lot of y'all might also use squish toys as stim toys, do you know if there are any actual health concerns with these things? Mothra and Kinger seem completely unrelated to these Dumpling things I've been hearing about, so I'm guessing they're ok, but I just wanted to make sure. It's convenient having Mothra in my pants pocket and Kinger on my desk so that I always have something to stim with.

This got wordy, my apologies. Thanks for reading!

Just finished reading the manga adaptation of the original Persona

Had two quick questions

1. >!that moment between Sonomura and Philemon towards the end... what was that about?!<

2. >!what was written on the blackboard on the final page?!<

3. I read the manga since I heard it's the best way to experience the story of Persona 1, but if I wanted to get into Persona 2 next, what's the recommended way to go about it?

Thank you!

I've been here a few times and I might have even mentioned this previously but I definitely don't remember.

I also think some of us might relate to it.

I just turned 38, I'm a dude in south NJ, and for a variety of reasons (mostly but not limited to the Christian years), I'm extremely lonely.

I do feel as though it's a bit of an epidemic that we're all dealing with on different levels, but I know for my specific situation, it's a lot heavier and a lot more complicated. Depending on the amount of time we spent in our previous Christian lives, how much damage it caused, and how it intersects with the rest of what we're dealing with, I'm guessing a lot of us are suffering.

Turning 38 has me somewhat freaked out. At the moment, my in-person social life is almost completely dead. I try to go to a local store to play Magic the Gathering, but I'm terrible at it and losing interest in it due to how "pay for the better cards" it feels. And beyond that, I have literally no other plan.

I had a job for two years in a very isolating cubicle, and I told myself after losing that job that I'd get myself a functional social life, and I still haven't.

I even went back on Hinge, hoping to at the very least make a friend, if not finally start dating, and I've had one like (wasn't interested in them) and zero messages despite putting a lot of work into it.

I dunno what to do. I'm sick of Magic. I'm sick of being at home. I'm sick of most of my socializing being online or with my mom or therapist. I'm sick of feeling so lonely on so many levels. People don't understand the religious trauma, they don't understand the fact that I feel as though I've lost a substantial amount of developmental time and that I'm not mentally 38, they just don't understand what it's like to be me. They couldn't even begin to.

Friendship, dating, FWB, even just seeing some people at a game shop. Varying levels of social-ness, and none of it is going well right now.

I really need any advice you can give. My ideas aren't working, so I need something else. Other ways to meet people that might resonate with where I've come from, or at the very least simply be understanding. I can't relate to people that are in their late thirties/early 40s, married, have kids, have their lives together, but I also can't relate to someone who just turned 21.

Feel like a puzzle piece that doesn't fit anywhere and I'm just so desperate to have some people to talk to that aren't my mom and aren't simply words on a screen.

37 year old dude in the Haddon area

I fell into a situation a few months ago where I kinda need to go out of my way to be more social

I immediately started playing Magic at a nearby game shop. I do Commander so I can play with multiple people at once, and it was going pretty well.

Unfortunately I'm not great at Magic, and all the people I tend to play with are way, way better than me.

I'm now considering switching over to Pathfinder or D&D, I'm sort of experienced but still consider myself a beginner, and this game shop isn't the greatest for a TTRPG experience. Kinda too loud with so many different kinds of games happening at once.

What kinds of options are available for in-person TTRPG in a setting that isn't super loud? When I first moved to the area I actually did a night school class(!) which was GREAT, but it was geared towards beginners, it was very short, and the group disbanded quickly after it was over.

Heyo,

I tagged this NSFW but it's... not, exactly, I dunno. Read on, you'll see why. Couldn't tag it as "no NSFW" so. anyway.

I'm hard to describe. I've been through a lot, so I tend to give off the impression of someone younger than 37.

I have a severe anxiety disorder that I'm still struggling to figure out how to manage, primarily OCD.

I moved to the area from north NJ right before the pandemic. I also had a full-time job here for a bit, so I've had a hard time getting out and meeting people.

That's why this is more specifically meant for women, I kinda already have a bunch of really close friends, but I don't know how to go about dating, and being friends first would be nice. Even if we only stay friends, that'd be cool, especially if you're local.

Also I'm a straight cis male, as far as the romantic preferences and such go. For friendship it doesn't matter, but in romantic terms I tend to prefer cis women (I don't think it's a dealbreaker but I honestly don't have enough experience to know for sure).

I'm big into a Japanese film genre called tokusatsu as well as video games and music. I'm an on-again off-again bass guitarist too.

At the bottom of this post I'll list a bunch of random stuff I'm into, to see if we share any interests!

other main points:

I went through a lot with Christianity. if you're going to try to witness to me, move along. I'm Atheist/Agnostic/not even sure anymore, but I'm not going back to that.

I'm not a very political person but I did not and would never vote for trump.

if you're local, I'm allergic to dogs and cats but I love them anyway.

I have sensory issues related to food. if I can't eat something you made, I am begging you not to take it personally. but I am 1/3 Italian, I understand that can be hard.

Thanks for reading, hope to hear from ya soon.

oh, and here's the list of random interests and such:

Toku stuff: lifelong Godzilla nerd, special spot in my heart for Kamen Rider, also big into Super Sentai and Ultraman but haven't been following the current stuff very closely. Gamera's cool too.

Games: Hades (haven't played 2 yet), some SMT/Persona stuff, Final Fantasy VII (been exploring the Compilation and following theories for the Remake project), Metal Gear series, played a lot of Pokemon and Animal Crossing in my life as well. also I'll throw this in the games section, but I'm big into virtual pets! also learning Magic the Gathering again. and I have a bunch of interest-specific board games like Simpsons Clue and Godzilla... Clue... I like Clue a lot.

Music: My Chemical Romance, Alestorm, Pierce the Veil, most of what I hear from the SMT/Persona library to be totally blunt, classic stuff like Bowie and Queen, stuff from all sorts of video games (lots of stuff from the FF7 remake games recently)

also some other shows, movies, anime: older Simpsons (mostly seasons 1-10), Pacific Rim, Muppet Treasure Island, Jurassic Park (the original), Cowboy Bebop, Neon Genesis Evangelion

other stuff: a nice chill sunny day, hanging out in locations that aren't too loud so we can talk and stuff, but I'm also a sucker for arcades as well as ocean/nautical stuff so I can and have spent hours at the NJ beach/boardwalk. love animals, love seeing some random animals I wasn't used to in north jersey just randomly here. I'm not into sports at all, the most I like about the sports stuff in south jersey is Gritty. but if we click, you can absolutely take me to a game. parking sounds terrifying there though. I went to the MCR concert in Philly and made full plans to avoid driving there.