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Girl Dinner

Finally I'm graduated I can speak about it. Idk what I was waiting for till now, really expected some people to change and take accountability but anyways. Let's start from the beginning. It took me a while to figure out what I wanted to study and what I wanted as a job and it it took me longer to convince my parents. My bachelors was not too enlightening to me cause my choice of college was not too great. So for my master's I was pretty careful and made sure they will teach atleast something which benefits me ( thankfully I was able to achieve that goal). Since it was a PG program there were only few girls in my class and we were the first batch so alot of expectations on us. We got along immediately especially with 4 girls ( imma use code names). Ann, Sam, Nina and Meena. We were pretty tight, Ann the ambitious one, Sam very talented, Nina very protective giving off mom energy, Meena very smart but really silly. We were awesome 🥹. Anyway on the first day itself I was talking to alot of faculties and fellow students and one particular person caught my eye. At first I thought he was a student cause no ID card. He came Outta nowhere and roasted how bad our group project was . I asked him for suggestions to improve and then he said " I don't have to tell you anything" and he left. Was it like a power move who knows. Ann asked him for his name and what he taught and gave the same answer to her. Everyone was weirded out. I simply asked another faculty about him, she said his name is Mr Kurian ( code name) and she is not fond of him. I was surprised why a faculty member would openly admit she doesn't like another teacher, that too to a new student.

Our first semester was eventful I did struggle a bit academically cause I was going through something in my personal life so I was scrambling to keep up with my friends. I also noticed out of nowhere Mr Kurian was randomly spawning infront of us and trying to be a smartass, mostly by asking questions and when we answer them he will tell we are wrong and would never give us the right answer. Tbh I was getting bored of him and I stopped answering after a while. Days passed and we as a group noticed that Ann was acting selfish whenever it comes to things involving all of us. Initial we did not address the issue and after few events i told her we need to work as a team and in the future this will help her out to achieve her dreams too but she was not taking it too well. For some reason Sam was not getting involved in the whole situation which was fine in the beginning but I noticed that she was purposely keeping a blind eye whenever Ann does something really bad. Finally Ann did something really selfish that everyone of us had to go through a tough time. I thought Ann was going through something so I gave her the space. But she turned around and informed Sam that she hates me and Nina . I was ofcourse sad but I felt weird so I simply responded to Sam " if Ann wants to talk about this she can always do it. I still don't understand why she have to be angry at us after backstabbing us. Still she is free to come to us and tell us her side of the story" . Sam was like a middle man at this point. Meena was confused about the whole situation aswell.

On day after class Mr Kurian again spawned infront of Nina and me and started questioning us " why are you not talking to Ann!!"

I'm like what!?

Nina was surprised aswell. I did not feel like answering him at all . But Nina said " what do you mean, she decided to not talk to us, we are still open to discuss, why are you even asking this to us ?"

Mr Kurian " Well did you know she have ADHD? She have trouble communicating, YOU should talk to her"

I was so disgusted, I just smirked. Nina bursted out crying and said " I can't believe she would do this we were her friends" I started consoling her and Mr Kurian said this " well if you want to talk about all this I am always available, I did learn Psychology." I just gave him a side eye and left. But Nina stayed back and talked to him . In my mind I did not feel comfortable telling a non academic dispute between few female students to a male faculty who i is not an official council member( and yeah our college did provide legitimate people for personal problems students face).

Few weeks after that there was huge dynamic shift in the class. Even though Mr Kurian was not teaching us at the time he was hanging out with Ann, Sam and Nina alot. I was glad that Nina felt better with Ann. When I talked to her about that she said "Ann actually hates you more, less me. We talked it out with The help of Mr Kurian. " I was like good for you. Those 4 grew closer together by the end of the semester.

I was pretty competitive when it comes to academics, I love if my peers are also competitive, it gives me the edge. So when the first semester results came I was runner up and Sam way first place. I went to her and I'll said, " congratulations, but I'm gonna take you down next time, bhuhahahahahahah". Sam did not take it as I thought she would, she was immediately threatened. I also figured out where I lost my marks and started preparing way before it was too late for 2 nd semester.

Second semester have to be the weirdest one. I tried so hard to hangout with Nina and Sam but they will always Go out with Mr Kurian or Ann. Meena had her own thing going on so was not always present in college. So basically I was alone most times. I used that time to made my projects for that semester better and freelance, working out alot etc. By the middle of semester I noticed Sam was getting angry at faculties and talks back at them whenever they are asking her to submit projects on time. One time she Sam snapped at a faculty and said they are playing favouritism. " You are rude to me because you only like her ( me)." Everyone was weirded out by her comment. We were all very much aware that she was slacking behind because she will always be hanging out with Mr Kurian after college. The faculty in charge did not backed down. He asked me to show the class everything I have done for the project, which I showed ( almost 70 % for the final project) and then he asked Sam to show which she only had like 20% ,the sole reason that faculty was questioning her in the first place.

After this event Sam stopped hanging out with us. She even stopped talking to Nina. I got to know Nina questioned her hanging out with Mr Kurian too much.

By the end of that semester Sam stopped hanging out with us completely, she constantly sat with Mr Kurian and worked on her projects. She refused to tell us about her projects even though I was supposed to inform the faculty. There were so many weird stuffs going on, unfortunately my health was at its worst so I tried my best not to get involved. Once the exams were over during the vacation I was asked to contact my class members. While calling everyone Sam was so freaking rude to me. I snapped and asked why she is like this. After a while she calmed down and told me she needs to talk to me in person but she wants someone with her. I said alright.

Part 2 coming

I used mostly Maybelline products,matte lipstick, light colour foundation, eyeshadow, eyeliner and Kajal.

Hope y'all have a great day and thank you for the support in the last post . I'm trying different makeup looks for myself but I always end up going for Goth. I'm not 100 % sure whether it's goth or not but I feel that way. I have half a mind to go outside with this look but sadly I can't. But I love seeing myself this way.

Feeling really detached from myself lately but a small fight is left inside which is working overtime to make things better. Hope y'all have a wonderful day ☺️.

I got a call from a random number I didn't pick up. It kept coming so eduth. She introduced herself as my ex's GF and I'm like ' why are you calling me? That too at this hour? U okay?'. She said she wanted to know whether I was still talking to my ex to which I responded with a dramatic " Ewww". I told her that I don't see him even as a friend and I don't want anything to do with him. She revealed that she caught him cheating and now she is paranoid. I truly did not know what to say in my position. I'm like so u gonna leave him and she said she doesn't know. Awkward pause, I was kinda feeling bad for the girl. She asked me why I broke up with him. And it was mostly because he started distancing himself from me without communicating properly. When he went for several days and weeks without talking I left the relationship. She told me he revealed that he also cheated on me but I was not aware. Which kinda made sense. Finally I asked her what she was gonna do next. Which she responded by saying. ' I love him so much, but the fact that he cheated is making me go insane and insecure.' I said take your time and make the decision which she won't regret in the long run. And she apologized for calling me at that hour and hung up. Poor girl

I used to like taking pictures of myself

What was the whole point of this guy wrenching journey. Maybe I was not supposed to be a protagonist. Glitch in the system. Being punished