u/railroad1904

I dont want to travel (super far).. Gas guzzling old jeep... But if you can point me in the direction of places with fish... (probably not for eating right now). I don't want to get too big into equipment either (as I don't have anything), so I dont want to get into the whole fly fishing thing, at least initially, as i've never done it.

I'm from FL and.... I definitely did not fish enough.... (I know, I know). But, most of the fishing i'm used to is freshwater. We try for bass a lot there. (I suck sometimes). It's really easy to catch catfish, (but obviously not the most "fun")... I also enjoy catching bluegill.. Because they are just great to catch and have a childhood memory vibe to them.. we used spincasters or spinning.

I guess I will use one of those... what is preferred?... Also, I've got a bit of an issue, often tangling up the reels... even when I'm careful. Also, getting stuck on logs and rocks really just makes me tangle stuff or snap the line.

So, when I take the ibuprofen, my cheek swelling fluctuates the past day 1/2. Right now it’s not too bad. But, the hard lump is still there. It’s pretty hard lol… just hoping it will start going in a few days. I don’t want to have a giant infection

Okay I've got a weird question. Please bear with me... Obviously say open carrying a long gun in the cities is probably going to get you judged. A lot. But say you are traveling by motorcycle. Maybe you are going target shooting, small game hunting, Hunting birds, or just going on a multi-day camping trip.. What can you say would be some (weird situations) you may run into.. if you wanted to bring a long gun along? Say, going into grocery store/walmart for some food/ supplies, going to the bathroom (anywhere really gas station/ Walmart).

I'm sure hunters in small towns either leave their rifles in the vehicle, or bring them inside.. Is there any advice you can give? I enjoy doing the things I mentioned, but with a motorcycle, you really can't leave a long gun on your motorcycle; it might even freak people out more seeing it left unattended (locked up) vs it being on your back.

Here are the long guns I have

1. 10/22
2. AR15
3. Mossberg 500
4. bolt action 308.

I've got PTSD. I want to do long-term therapy sessions for my benefit. found an LMFT. I said eventually, I'd like a ESA letter... they dont/cant do them "due to policy"...

Pretty sure in my situation. Having PTSD, I would get theraputic benefits from an ESA that would help with my symptoms...

So, aside from just not wanting to? what's the big deal... As a therapist... is it not their job to look out for the best intrest in the patient? Well, they are limiting theraputic options by not providing a letter. I'm failing to see the unwillingness... heres my thought process if I was a therapist "Well, my patient clearly has PTSD, I can determine that by our session/s, could a ESA possibly improve their symptoms by providing theraputic comfort? Yeah, I could see how that could, I can write them a letter"

Clearly im missing something, because clearly it seems like something within their scope.

I have a serious, non-curable digestive disease that causes daily pain, anxiety and contributes to depression. I also had a "voluntary." hospitalization once after a psychosis, panic attack (due to a rare steroid reaction). It was traumatic. I've also had a bedridden stay in the hospital where I was in constant, severe pain/ on morphine around the clock for 2 months... and yes, you guessed it. it was very traumatic and I still deal with the after effects of these experiences... So in other words, I've got the ptsd, depression, and bad dreams.

I could have gone on and on about other illnesses or trauma, but hopefully you get the point... (Make note, I am not in a rush to get an animal, but I want to get the documentation eventually, so I am protected by law against paying pet fees, being declined "pet" housing at my apartment, future travel, or different apartments.)

Anyway. I live in an apartment. I moved to Colorado, and have begun seeing a new PCP. I asked the PCP if they are able to write me a ESA letter so I can give it to my apartments. (they are not able to because of their policy) the place is (Peak Vista health centers).

So, I make an appointment with an LMFTC (licensed marriage and family therapist "candidate") . I would plan to see this person, long term, to help in my healing process through multiple, many mental issues and wounds that I have a big need for.. ONE small, yet important part for me... would at one point be to get an ESA dog.. (which i'd need a letter).. So, as someone who has had a psychiatrist before, been to professionals in the past... I understand whats going on with me to a decent degree that I can confidently say that I'd benefit from an ESA. I can truly see how that would provide me with A LOT of relief, and peace... So, I ask the therapist if they are able to at some point write a letter... (no they cant, its against their policy)...

So, now at this point... I am just disappointed... while sure, it seemed like a lot of people were "taking advantage of it".. Now, it seems EXTREMELY difficult to find someone willing to provide a letter! So, what is the POINT of even having a distinction/ legal laws WHEN YOU CANT EVEN GET A "ESA"...

At this point, it's starting to look like serious discrimination... I get that people with physical disabilities/ blindness will not be bothered because they have "service dogs".. but what about the rest of us with our struggles?... The doctors are happy to write any prescription, not scared of liability... but when it comes to a dog (that SO many studies show the benefits in health/ mental health).. they wont do it because they are afraid to be liable/ sued?... What about their integrity as a doctor or professional... HOW CAN THEY have the audacity to claim they are looking for their patients' best interest... when clearly, it would almost be a guaranteed improvement. But their reasoning is "they know it would help, but they refuse to do it because they don't want to get sued".... How freaking backwards is that?... like seriously... it's getting disgusting... I don't even care if I have to go to 10 therapy sessions.. for them to "determine" that I actually qualify as someone who would benefit from ESA..

I’d really like to get a dog. I have PTSD. My mom and her boyfriend psychologically abused me growing up, I once had 2 separate girlfriends who would be physically abusive (punching me in the face/ slap me)… (obviously I’d never have gone back to that… but I had low self esteem and did NOT leave).

The above issues contributed to a lot of things, once I had a corticosteroids shot for a health issue.. I had a RARE reaction that created extreme behavior (mania/ psychosis) where I temporarily went off the deep end… it was very traumatizing and I humiliated myself. (I also had panic attacks which I had not had before)

Anyone, I still deal with ptsd, depression, etc.. how are you getting a letter? I don’t want to spend $150 for an online letter for my apartment to say they don’t accept it… I feel like esa/ service animals are 100% for people like me…

I occasionally see very small black spots on my ears. It looks like maybe a small blackhead. But they don’t “pop” like a blackhead, basically, a very small piece of (dirt?) will come out, then can be wiped away. They don’t seem deep. Are my ears just dirty? I haven’t taken a shower since yesterday… I’ve also noticed there’s more on the backside! Are these all mini blackheads? Or just dirt… is it normal… they are not super noticeable.

Just curious others experience, I’ve had an 02 r1 when I was 19, a 1999 r1 when I was was 21. (Had some dirt bikes such as an rm250). I can remember a time, when I guess I was just dealing with a lot. Whether it be a really rough breakup. Maybe extreme anxiety. That I just was really “afraid” of certain vehicles. Like a very loud sport bike made me feel like a bitch. I heavily preferred stock exhausts. I probably had sensory overload and in a flight or fight mode. I’ve at times, had weird cases of low testosterone (it’s naturally stable now).

But has anything like this happened to people? It really sucked. But I think it’s usually something you can overcome. (Especially after curing a lot of anxiety). I used to clutch up wheelies in 3rd pretty decent. (Last time I rode a gsxr750, I was not having any fear issue btw)

I’ve also shot 7.62 machine guns. I remember on time, I was really sensitive to the firing (and I had my heart rate up for a little after shooting). I’ve also had periods where I’d get jittery/ shakes at the range due to the booms. I’ve also been fine multiple times since (got over the phase)

I think testosterone levels have a lot to do with it

So, I know people usually say “cash in hand” which is a great start… but, from y understanding… if the tester actually crashes your bike (and haven’t signed the title) they could truly just be a dick and make a big deal about getting their money back (with probably reporting to the cops that you stole their money).

So, that leaves your best option, having full coverage insurance. So if they do/ refuse to buy your wrecked bike (or. Pay for it to be fully repaired). I don’t have insurance right now (haven’t been riding the past few months, been parked). I had unexpected bills arise and the easiest solution for me would to sell my bike.

Does anyone have advice on the best way to safeguard against a punk wrecking/ not paying up? One thing that concerns me. It’s a 2016 versys 650. Notorious for a sensitive/weird throttle.. while you get used to it.. I can easily see beginner or experienced people make mistakes with the naturally odd throttle

So, for example. If you are interested in general world history… how do you remember the important things so you don’t sound like a dummy to certain people… (ESPECIALLY when there’s nothing but mixed in truths/ brain rot “exaggerated” history videos that quickly go over the subject… so you forgot IMPORTANT details..

And the same with science, math?

I truly don’t try to decipher politics or the news anymore… it’s just clear that both sides are putting out so much stuff, it’s too hard for me to follow.. and things don’t add up…

What do you do to keep from being overwhelmed

I have a lot of goals and things I need to improve upon... I am having a wisdom tooth removed next week. Shortly after. I want to begin a complete transformation of myself. I have digestive issues, PTSD from a bad childhood. Not good in relationships due to me not imposing boundaries, and picking partners who arent willing to communicate. So, I totally want to improve myself. Which I know will be incredibly hard... because I'm sure I have habits that I don't like. I also need to lose 25-30 pounds (If I do that, I will in pretty spectacular shape) I have been in great shape before.. but it's been a while. Just being real with myself... everything has been suffering (yes my whole life has been pretty hard, ups/ downs, mostly downs) but lately, due to poor physical health choices, and doomscrolling, it is just a step in the wrong direction. I've gotten used to how it's made everything harder.. and I need to seriously do a 180. Now I have isolated myself (away from toxic family), which alone has done wonders for my physical and mental health. I have never been able to reach my potential, physically, health-wise and just as a person. I can do a lot better, but I will need to teach myself things like organization, consistency, and focus. While the exercising and eating part is straightforward... I assume my body is full of toxins and I'm just wondering if there is a real need for that.. if yes, how?

I'd say there are people who would really benefit from a good "reset".. and in my mind, the best way to explain that is the people who go to Uber-expensive "health resorts" (Like in Switzerland) which people go to overcome depression, chronic stress, or chronic illnesses with cutting-edge therapeutic treatment. (I don't have money for those things, but I'm exactly the type of person who would benefit from that).

Does anyone have any advice for someone trying to undertake a long journey of healing? Thanks..

So I did a little fb search. My ex of a few years ago has a boyfriend. That's not something that bothered me, I don't think... but it made me think about my own healing... I dont talk to anyone, and cut off most people I know, I was possibly, going to reach out to my ex one day, just to apologize and kinda check in. She really underestimated my trauma/ toxic childhood, and I just thought it would make her proud to see "who I was supposed to be" when I isolate/ heal from the childhood... She was not perfect, though. and probably had many issues as well... But, just reconnecting might have been nice, because "besties" and things just got messed up...

Anyway, I don't think i'll be contacting her now. But it just had me thinking... yes, clearly I was looking for closure with my ex, not exactly on the issues with her personally... just so "someone" could know who I am... But anyway. I was walking, and just feeling lost on what to do with my next steps. Kinda feeling more "pointless" than usual. What would be the point of achieving my dreams? if I would be alone, perhaps only with a dog... I am probably more alone than anyone i've ever met... being the scapegoat of my family... I finally had enough and moved far away, no contact... this is a hard way of life... and if I do one day meet someone... I dont even know HOW i'd tell them that I spent 1- however many years this lasts, as an absolute loner... rock bottom... unloved by anyone.

But, I knew I had to stick to my plan, which is basically follow my path, and heal on my own time (seeing a therapist soon =).

One thing my ex did say, because when I was dating her, she was reckless and selfish, we did not see eye to eye, she did not respect my boundaries... I asked her if we could go to a couples therapist... and she said "If it's this soon we need to see a couples therapist, then it's not worth it"... which effectively ended that conversation... (mind you , this is a saying she loves me/ wants my babies..) You'd think, "Great, this guy really wants to put effort into this, before it becomes toxic"... She lost me, (and from my understanding... she went through a depressive phase/journey...)

She claimed to be an ultra kind figure... (which in some ways, was true), a hippy. But when it came down to it. She did me wrong, gave up on me, when in my opinion... I've got an easy-to-see/ understand trauma.. and, like an adopted dog that needs a few things.. reassurance, love, understanding, true kindness... I would have thrived...

Here is a note I wrote to myself: "Maybe someone out there will be patient, willing to love me, watch me heal, and see my worth. A true kind soul."

... I don't see it now, but eventually, if I'm ready, I will have the confidence to seek out my person. And it will be a new version that ACTUALLY has self-esteem. And I will make sure it's not another toxic shit show

I know most sushi has fish in it. Tuna/ or salmon.. but when I started eating rolls 15 years ago, I never really noticed the fishiness. It just had perfect blend of flavor that was enjoyable. Every now and then, I’ll get some rolls, maybe it’s not fresh avacado? Or maybe too much portion of fish? And the first bite is like wow.. that’s a lot of flavor.. but NOT in a good way.. idk.

What rolls are the tried and true “bests”? How do you guys feel about “spicy” variants vs regular?

I honestly don’t remember at all how the song goes. But I remember these people are supposed to fight, so they kinda show up outside at a parking lot at a park or something, and they are about to be in each other’s faces. One person was pretty small, like a Kat Williams type figure… and yes, it was for the most part not a “serious” video.. as far as I remember.. due to the weird “standoff”.

If I remember correctly. The rapper was kinda tall, may have had dreads. Definitely not a super common rapper. Probably from Texas or Louisiana. (Maybe GA/ Atlanta too)

So my main reason for fasting. I’ve got a whole lot of issues, sugar/ caffeinated addiction. Sleep issues. Brain fog. Digestion issues. Bad breath. Just lack of motivation. Negative attitude. And just generally unhealthy…

I use to(still better than most) be pretty active… athletic and fast/ strong. I’m 35 years old. My testosterone is in the 400s. I need it to go up. I also weigh 230, I need to weigh 205 (obviously fasting isn’t my main solution for this, but I thought it’s important to mention).

Anyway, I know people who fast get crazy bo, how do I combat that in the most natural way possible?

What can I do as far as exercise? Walking? I just want to not be home ridden/ unproductive. I’ll be off work for a few weeks and will have free time.

My main goals are to start eating/ living healthy and improving posture, strength, mobility. Ju staying active in mixed intensity training.

If there are any movie buffs here. Can you point me in the direction of “stereotypical” songs that usually appear in scenes with a ninja sneaking or stealing? A lot of movies used these sounds/ song’s lyrics in the 90-00s. I’m sure you guys know what I’m talking about right?

I was staying at an extended stay hotel, because I had not found an apartment in the city I moved to. One time, The manager said she would "lock in" a pay rate for me, until July, (this was months ago 2025 November) and that if I found a place before then, it would be okay. (because Obviously, if I found an apartment in March, WHY would I need to PAY FOR A ROOM until JULY!!!). Anyway. I did find an apartment in March. I let the desk staff know, cleaned my room up to snuff, got a Uhaul trailer, Made a few trips and moved to the apartment. I would have to pay, with my credit card, every week at the hotel, or my card would automatically not open the door... So, clearly it was a weekly type thing. not A combined payment.. (not even monthly).

Anyway, I turn in my room cards, make sure the guy up front knows to stop charging my card and he says its good... What do you know? I notice I've got 2 weekly bills on my credit card from after moving out (in total about $800 for 2 weeks). I call the hotel. they stop charging. But are having problems refunding the money... The manager says "She personally had to eat a $6000 bill" Whatever the fuck that means...

Anyway. Bank of America is disputing it, and after being removed, and reappearing on my statements multiple times... the 2 charges are back there... I guess the dispute found that they arent going to refund me the money?... I just dont get it! I'm having a hell of a time, I mean. I don't know what they are having an issue with.. Can they not check the cameras to see I never returned to the room? can they Not see me loading all my belongings into the elevator?... They gave me a "service".... No I did not get any service, besided the stress of dealing with useless people from Bank of America, and worthless people from Extended stay America... I'm going to try and call BOA again. And see if they can figure it out.. I mean I've got proof of my apartment lease date, Uhaul rental, the weekly payments of my hotel rental! And I turned in my cards to the guy working the afternoon shift (who said I wouldnt be charged, and was good.)

I really feel like i'm on a hidden camera show and the universe is just fucking with me. Like What do they expect? Me to shell out $800 bill for a hotel room for 2 weeks that I didn't stay in?... I've been waiting for them to fix this for 2 months.

I've had it for about 5 years. I don't take that much Imodium anymore, sometimes I do, sometimes I do warm water enemas in the morning. I take a sitz bath in the tub after everytime I go to the RR, even if it's not painful, at least to clean.

I usually have a pile of clothes in my bathroom, because I know I'm going to take a sitz bath. I live alone. I dont travel too far from home, I'd like to do road trips, or camping trips, but that might b painful. Things like going on a boat, or to the beach, or music festivals seems like an out of the question activity for the condition. I dont even know about dating/ getting married because of possibly feeling lik a burden. This even causes me to not seek new friends. I would absolutely love a dog. Just need to figure out how to fit it into my lifestyle.

The biggest thing I struggle with, (because I have struggled with orginization/ planning and consistency my whole life). Is just not procrastinating. I'm extremely disorganized, messy, and have put all my wonderful goals on hold.

While we know our struggles arent easy. I'll personally never give up... (i'd say, the phrase "down but not out" accuratly describes m right now).

Some of my goals are - begin a strict diet to lower symptoms, - have a better perspective/ outlook, - overcome the "I cant do this activity" fear, -prioritize/ overcome my struggles with schedule/ consistency/organization, - get to the point where i'm satisfied.

I know there is a lot to improve. And it takes work and a good mindset. I see or hear a few people with LARS who are able to overcome a lot of struggles with consistency, good life management, and just the ability to keep moving forward.

I unfortunately was not raised with those awesome skills. I'm extremely overwhelmed and always feel like i'm not making progress or being efficient. For example, I can wake up early, plan the day and just feel like there's no logic and hard for me to even think of tasks/ in what order to do.

Any tips? Thanks

I live on the bottom floor of my apartments, from what I understand, my neighbors hear the bottom floor the least... I hear my upstairs neighbors the most. Just moving around and general noise. Every now and then, I will hear my neighbors on my kitchen wall. Anyway. I am trying to find as quiet of a bb/ pellet/ or even airsoft rifle/ or pistol as I can to have target practice with. For those of you that don't know, these can be made extremely quiet and a loud movie would probably be louder. They are also very safe and won't damage my apartment because I'll have it where the projectiles are stopped from ricocheting. I will also wear eye protection. So zero risk to myself or others safety.

Does anyone have tips to drown out any light sound? I'm guessing the average sound would be around the noise of a heavy-duty stapler, or less. I know my ceiling fan produces a little sound. I think a portable fan would also have some sound. Any tips? Thank you.