u/seahorse000

25F, struggling extremely after escaping, no contact and living alone now. I’m finding different things like my supervisors, my tasks, even my hunger as a danger or controlling me and running from it. I’m trying to replace that control figure as idk how to live without it

25F I recently cut contact with my narcissistic parents after whole 24 years of my life. And I’m processing everything.

One sharp trauma is a childhood friend when I was 6. We both were friends from first day, she was the first human I met outside of my house consciously. But when we were 9 she suddenly stopped talking to me. This can sound normal, but the neglect, the trauma the questioning, thinking I did something wrong. My parents told I would have done something to piss her off. I swear nothing happened. She refused to talk to me even after we were teens and now adults. I begged her for years but she always ignored. It’s so deep in me because my parents neglected me my whole life, and having evidence another girl did this to me is like something is wrong with me or I keep thinking my whole life till now what DID I DO or what’s the reason.

Idk how to process her too, because even as an adult she grew to be cold and bit mean. Like even when I was in uni I tried talking to her, she was least interested. But not recieving empathy or communication or clearly telling a reason, idk man. My inner child is doomed, because my parents told me it was about me. So I’m still scared to make a friend in life, I’m so hypervigilant to neglect in small ways

I’m rewatching S5 and Alex and Iz keep telling they can’t afford an apartment and move out, when Derek moves in. Alex also mentions he’s gonna be broke by the end of the year etc etc on several occasions. But they go to Christina for flat renting, saying she can afford (maybe she’s rich?)

I thought interns earn so much money from all the hours they’re clocking in. Since Izzie also paid off her loans

I’m trying to gain a deeper understanding of fundamentals. I understand we have a reference sa for a range of frequencies pleasing to the human ear.

Why are we using western notes like C, C# etc as a pitch in Tanpura for Carnatic music as well? Whats the coorelation? And do I call it key/pitch/scale/shruthi?

And I’ve heard people say 1 kattai, 2 kattai, etc.. Is it the octaves?

And C panchamam, madhyaanam etc.. are they referring to where their reference is positioned?

I know good movies come once in a while and new people like me might bring some change too.

But even the good movies need some big stars, otherwise there’s no awareness and it’s not even watched by the people.

I wanna make new concepts, normal people, casual movies, something a common person can relate to, something that people watch again and get some hope.

I want to create movies like Mozhi over and over. And I feel so uninspired rn seeing how privilege, dominance and utter crap being produced.

Idk what to do or think. Too much information and awareness is being a bane with internet

I just got a ukelele few weeks ago and looking for people to jam and just chill.

Hi is anybody driving from Bath to Avebury or other solstice gatherings? Kindly need a lift. Thank you

I’m unable to contact customer support through call from UK. The online form only allows changing number to another Indian number linked to my Aadhar. What to do

I’m not sure if it’s cheaper to go to Bristol for this, or if there are good but cheaper prices in Bath. Thanks

I went to my garden, as I love seeing snails and roses, I stepped on something and there was a breaking noise 😭😭😭 I feel so sad
I tried to help, but the shell was fully crushed and I can’t even begin to say about what was inside.

I’m so disturbed. Supportive responses only

I saw the poster of Karuppu audio launch somewhere (couldn’t find the photo now), but it had Trisha photo and name on it along with other cast.

I think she was invited! And her tweet - “I guess the invite got lost in the mail”

It’s actually like she’s saying she missed the invite mail in her inbox. That’s what lost means. Not that it was never sent.

I can’t believe she created this whole controversy, if this is true😖