u/selenelovestoread

Guys please dont message me

I am 25f looking for a female study partner time zone is GMT +5:30 (india)

I would like to share daily todo list and updates as well as weekly plans and for us to study on cam (our own personal meeting or we can join a preexisting group meeting)

I really want someone to keep me accountable and motivated and i will do the same for you 💕

I just downloaded noteful since someone on reddit told me that it has a very similar backup system to goodnotes which i NEED. aka it backs up files on google drive as pdfs and constantly updates it as you write.

Im still hesitant to buy pro as i jist downloaded it and i explored it a little but idk much about it. Ive already wasted money on starnote and i reget it its an amazing app but doesnt have automation backup that works well and doesnt backup pdfs of notebooks. I want to be able to read my notes from my phone or laptop for revision and thats my main purpose. I dont take a lot of noted just 2 notebooks as im preparing for 1 entrace exam one is for notes and one is for rough work. And one digital planner. Thats it. I have noticed a few things tho. How its a very.... minimalistic app. Idk if thats a good or bad thing. Most apps provide tempelates or inbuilt stores or stickers. You dont get that here.

Anyway thats not really a deal breaker for me as i already have my own hyperlinked planners and notebooks and stickers.

So Please someone guide me is it worth the purchase? Do i buy it? Im a super broke student unemployed staying at home so i really cant afford to loose money

I had goodnotes 5 i ended up uninstalling it and now im struggling to find an app with one time purchase that i can afford which has similar featues as goodnotes especially its live backup/cloud sync.

I love how when you make a folder or notebook similar folder or notebook is created within the goodnotes folder in google drive. Then when you write in that notebook a pdf version of that notebook is updated regularly. So incase i loose my ipad i can always access my notebooks as pdfs om google drive.

I genuinely cant find any other affordable app that does this.

I recently bought star note premium and im regretting it so much. Its an amazing app but its auto backup is terrible and this very specific feature is missing.

Can someone please help me find something similar and affordable? Im desperate 😭

PS : chat gpt tells me noteshelf 3 is a close one but idk how true that is and i dont wanna buy another app im broke af man 😫

So ive had an ipad for almost 7 years now and using it in clg was easy i did all my clg on it. However im preparing for a national level entrace exam which mostly involves maths and reasoning subjects along with some english and cureent Affairs. Im struggling to use my ipad for it. Ive noticed that when i take notes i completely forget they even exist unless i force myself to scroll back and revisit them. I dont naturally revisit them. I also dont retain anything i write in my ipad. Idk why.

I recently started using pen and paper after a long time and it seems to work better. I can remember stuff. But i have to carry around so many notebooks and pens and what not.

I miss using my ipad and how convenient it was. Any suggestion on how can i use it ? Or should i stick to paper???

Can we get the backup option where our notebooks are backedup on google doc as pdfs and are updated WITHIN the same pdf as we write?

I know goodnotes did this.

I love starnote but i want to be able to revise my notes on phone or laptop via google doc 😅 plus the auto backup rarely works. And even if it does it creates multiples of the same file which feels like a waste of space.

If this already exists im sorry can someone guide me through it? And if it doesnt then can we please get it. This is literally the only reason why im thinking of going back to goodnotes 4 just for the backup:(

I lost my person. 5 years together and... poof. Just gone. I do wonder why everyone leaves me i understand im so hard to deal with with all my issues. My ED ruined everything. If i was ok ans didnt had all these issues we would still be together. I just want things to end. Im so tired. Nothing is here worth living anymore. My therapist left. My bf left. My friends dont reachout anymore. My parents never gave a fuck about me. Why am i still here. I wish i had guts to end things i really wish i did. But im such a chicken i try everytimr and then i cant do it. Why is it so hard to do it. It shouldn't be so hard when you desperately want it.

Im not sure if this will be helpful to anyone at all im sorry for such a long post but im extremely passionate about what im about to share and it has motivate me to get better and if it can help even a single person beyond me then that would be amazing 💕🌷

So i got diagnosed with AN five years ago and over the time it changed into BED which was my worst fear come to life. I ended up gaining a lot of weight and being so hard on myself and hating myself everyday. I still havent made any progress but i got trigged about four days ago when i was taking pics for my bf (iykyk) and i just felt horrible and disgusting so ive been down in the dumps I've been struggling to leave bed or do anything at all. I can only manage to brush and shower because of my meds.

Fwst forward to an hour ago i was sitting by myself alone and i was trying to send this long paragraph to my bf and i stopped and i started wondering...is this who ive become? This person who's existence only makes sense when others find her pretty and when she is a certain number on a scale?

I swear to god i went down a rabit hole inside my own train of thoughts. And ive come to a few conclusions i wanted to share.

> I always wondered how therapy helped me get better at dealing with depressio. And anxiety and why havent it worked for my eating disorder. I think its because when it comes to depression and anxiety ive tried to almost rephrase the exact things they tell me ? Like no one loves me and im so alone and bla bla ive tried to take action over the years to prove these things wrong. Ive made a very strong community of friends and person who do love me i reach out to people who are always there for me. So why cant i do the same for my ED? It tells me im no one if im not skinny then why not i prove it wrong. Ive decided that everyday i will focus on all the amazing things that i do that make me who i am.

> i also want to challenge the way i talk to myself. And change my environment i want to follow more body positivity and neutrality content online and unfollow anything that makes me want to be smaller. I also want to use more neutral terms to describe my body and myself.

> next is a more of a political take on EDs. I want to challenge myself to learn about the politics behind patriarchal beauty standards. From reading books to watching content online. One thing about me is that the only thing that i care about more than being pretty is being the loud advocate of feminism and anti patriarchal standards and i think this will fuel me a lot to keep going and will change the way i look at my body entirely.

Tl;dr > So i conclude that i will be changing the way i look at myself and bodies of humans in general and understand outlook and politics behind womens bodies in general and hopefully will be rewiring my brain enough to want to escape this hell of a disorder that has been ruining my life.

>I got diagnosed with AN like 5 years ago sadly nothing has changed since then other than my weight. (>!Which has only gone up because i started binge eating when my college ended!<) the moment i made any progress in therapy my therapist would leave and i hate them so much for that i dont like my new therapist so i ended up emailing her that i wont be showing up to therapy anymore since they dont have any other therapist Avilable. I feel beyond disgusting whenever i look at myself. Recently few days back my bf wanted me to send him some cute pics so i did. And the whole process of taking pictures was so traumatizing that ive been spiraling, sleeping and crying non stop from past 4 days. And the worst part is my bf doesnt understand what im going through or how to be there for me. And i hate him for that i wish i had a partner who understood me better and was there for me. I dont want to depend on someone byt dont we all need support from our loved ones at some point? I feel like my existence is meaningless because im not pretty anymore. I just want things to stop i genuinely dont think i can deal with it anymore.

So we have been together for 4 almost 5 years now. And honestly ive dated a bit before and i know how horrible the whole dating scene is so meeting him felt like a breathe of fresh air. Hes fun and positive and his outlook on life is refreshing.

Here's the problem. Things are only perfect as long as im happy. So i have a few diagnosed mental health issues such as depression anxiety eating disorders. And the moment i am triggered or deep into a depressive episode. Suddenly hes not to perfect anymore. He will try to "motivate me" with tough love. I had to repeatedly tell him that it ends up making me feel worse so now he's stopped doing that instead he gives me very generalized statements like "yeh its ok everyone struggles" or "you'll get through it you work on things" recently i had a huge breakdown over my body image issues and i was venting to him how i feel ugly and awful.. and all he said was "you will loose weight dont worry its easy if you put in the effort" not ONCE did he say no you dont look ugly.

I then went on to embarrass myself even more by asking him if he can at least lie and tell me nice things and his only response was "i never said you look bad" it was clear that he simply can not understand what im going through.

I honestly genuinely dont think hes evil or have bad intentions i just think hes someone who simply doesn't get stuff like this.

I just dont know what i should do about it. We have talked about this a million times and nothing ever changes. Ive reached a point in my life where when i feel bad i text ALL my friends first before texting him. I understand your partner cant be your only support system However there needs to be a certain amount of support from there end right? I dont even know if im doing something wrong honestly if i am i would appreciate soneone pointing it out.

And for anyone who would mention professional help i do want to let yall know i am on medication and ive been in therapy for years i recent changed therapists and today decided to stop going to therapy because the new therapist isnt working for me at all.

Tl;dr - my bf seems unaware and ignorant of my mental health issues and never knows how to support me we have talked about this over the years but nothing changes. Im not sure what i should do next?

I lost my previous therapist because they wanted to focus on higher studies this is thr 4th therapist ive lost and the new one just isnt doing it for me. From last few days ive been beyond triggered and overwhelmed and i had an emergency therapy session and guess what. At the end of the session i felt more numb than ever. So i told my therapist i wont be seeing her again. It was an impulsive decision because im so tired of things not working out for me. I do need therapy but they dont have any other therapist that i can afford. It feels like everything is going wrong and working against me. I think im loosing my head

Myquals msc biotechnology cgpa 8.3 and i have like 5 different research experiences (idk of it matters). Sadly I let my parents convince me to spend past few months preparing for banking exams but now im reconsidering my options. I dont have csir net or gate cleared and i think phd in bits seems like a really good opportunity as a friend of mine was doing it from there. Since i dont have any other exam cleared i have to clear BITS entrace exam. I just dont know what to study for it and how to approach my prep? Also ive been told the exam will be in September or September end but i cant find any confirmation online can someone confirm the date? As well as tell me whats its like there if you are someone whos doing phd from there?

Passport size image > retake a new image from your phone make sure some people are holding solf lights (flashlight behind a cloth or plastic sheet) then remove the image background and replace with a white colour background

Live photo > take photo in a well lit environment infront of a white wall use laptop camera as phone one is glitching

Signature > use a thick azz pen to sign then remove background of the image and replace with white colour background again.

Hope this helps someone 😊💕