i feel so extremely embarrassed that i have to live with a face like this everyday. its so fucking humiliating and i just wish i had a different face. it ruined my entire life im so sick of it omfg im so angry about it and sad and so so so insecure
im sorry if i ever act weird or idk. im scared to lose you but i feel like you’ll get tired of me eventually.
you mean so fucking much to me like seriously, more than you will ever know. it feels like ive known you a lifetime in such a short time. thankyou for coming into my life angel ❤️
it feels so fucking unfair knowing you’re so sensitive a single glance or mean comment or someone laughing at u can ruin ur entire day, and it doesnt matter if its the most important day of your life of not. it seems to happen so often that you just wanna isolate safe inside your house so no one can ever judge you anymore, no one can tell u anything or do anything to you. i just wanna be safe forever. i hate this judgemental society with all my heart.
i just hate everyone the second i step outside of my house and instantly wanna text my favorite people on my phone where im safe and not judged
hey ik woon in noord holland/purmerend en ik zoek echt een beste vriend, gender of leeftijd maakt niet uit als het maar acceptabel is en ja ik wil gewoon echt graag iemand waarmee ik alles kan doen, ik mis het om een echte vriendschap te hebben
(19m) hey so i just wanted to vent about my problem. my entire life ive been addicted with nostalgia, romanticizing every aspect of my life, capturing every moment forever, youth, cinematic stuff. im extremely dreamy and sentimental basically. its caused me so much destruction in my life, ive purposefully tried extreme substances cause of it, gotten addicted, had very evil boyfriends and girlfriends who weren’t good for me at all, and i dont know how to navigate it like this cause i treat my life like a coming of age movie or whatever. and i cannot accept the fact im becoming 20 next year and i notice im already starting to get extremely jealous by those younger than me. i feel like im stuck in a permanent dreamy state? even when i have near death experiences or severe trauma i still romanticize every aspect of it as if im some character in a movie. i wish i could get rid of it but i cant and idk i just dont like being extremely sensitive and so dreamy and i wont survive adulthood like this at all. i attach meaning to everything and im not ready to be 20, adulthood looks so flat and dull.
(19) hey so i just wanted to vent about my problem. my entire life ive been addicted with nostalgia, romanticizing every aspect of my life, capturing every moment forever, youth, cinematic stuff. im extremely dreamy and sentimental basically. its caused me so much destruction in my life, ive purposefully tried extreme substances cause of it, gotten addicted, had very evil boyfriends and girlfriends who weren’t good for me at all, and i dont know how to navigate it like this cause i treat my life like a coming of age movie or whatever. and i cannot accept the fact im becoming 20 next year and i notice im already starting to get extremely jealous by those younger than me. i feel like im stuck in a permanent dreamy state? even when i have near death experiences or severe trauma i still romanticize every aspect of it as if im some character in a movie. i wish i could get rid of it but i cant and idk i just dont like being extremely sensitive and so dreamy and i wont survive adulthood like this at all. i attach meaning to everything and im not ready to be 20, adulthood looks so flat and dull.
i didn’t deserve that.
\[19m\] okay hey uhm im already struggling so much with OCD and writing this cause i keep getting reminded but ever since i was omg i can’t stop twichting and curling up while keeping typing sorry okay so let me continue ever since i was very little i had watched chucky and after i saw someones throat getting slit and someone beheaded ive had a million nightmares for so many many years and unlimited intrusive thoughts and its messing me up im so so so tired of this trigger whenever i remember i instantly try to protect my neck area and feel so uncomfortable and see extreme graphic images in my head to the point it even ruined my hobbies and likes because it keeps generating the most horrific images and scenarios and i keep twitching while typing this i just want it to stop can someone please give any advice please im so tired its been a lifelong problem and i cannot afford therapy and i have so many more intrusive thoughts like these but this one i really need help with i can’t live like this anymore
[19m]
hii, i have a question for the older people with bpd, do you guys notice that it’s very different (the intensity of emotions) each year you get older or is it always the same intensity. im very curious as to how it feels when ill be older since im constantly having heavy intense symptoms for many years. Thankyou!
[19M] hey so, i’ve been smoking one pack a day since i was 16 so 3 years now and its deeply ingrained in my daily routine. earlier today i got a serious health scare and decided to quit smoking. but i have a grandfather in the house that smokes multiple packs a day and i dont know if i have the power to overcome it. can anyone please give me some advice and what i will expect the first few days? its very scary for me and i appreciate any answers.
Heyy Ik (M19) ga in maart solo naar Olivia Rodrigo in Amsterdam en zoek eigenlijk nog iemand om mee te gaan. Ik wil sowieso voor zitplaatsen gaan . het is echt een droom om te gaan alleen ik ken niemand die ook gaat🥲
Heb echt geen zin om daar in m'n eentje te zijn, dus als je ook alleen gaat en zin hebt om samen te gaan/te meeten, hit me up, Kunnen we samen stressen om de tickets lol. 💜
Heyy Ik (M19) ga in maart solo naar Olivia Rodrigo in Amsterdam en zoek eigenlijk nog iemand om mee te gaan. Ik wil sowieso voor zitplaatsen gaan .
Heb echt geen zin om daar in m'n eentje te zijn, dus als je ook alleen gaat en zin hebt om samen te gaan/te meeten, hit me up! Kunnen we samen stressen om de tickets lol. 💜