u/twinkling_deer

FYI: I'm 21.

The report:

In the left breast, at the 2 o'clock position in the periareolar region, there is a 20 × 11 mm hypoechoic heterogeneous solid lesion with a macrolobulated contour and no significant internal vascularity detected. The lesion is categorized as BI-RADS 4A.

The breast parenchyma demonstrates moderate fibroglandular density. Fibrocystic changes are prominent/extensive.

In a patient with nipple discharge, histopathological correlation (tissue diagnosis/biopsy) is recommended.

No cystic mass lesions are identified in either breast.

The skin and subcutaneous fatty tissues of both breasts are normal.

No bilateral ductal ectasia (duct dilatation) is observed.

In both axillae (armpits), lymph nodes with benign characteristics are present.

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

Finally went to the general surgery clinic couple days ago. My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge for way too long so I still need a ultrasound. I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast.

I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump. They considered between 4a and 4b but said I should be written down as 4a for now since I'm so young. I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July.

Finally told my mother and we decided to pay for a private laboratory to get my biopsy results sooner. I don't have a good feeling about this but all of my doctor's say they've never seen anyone this young have cancer so I shouldn't be worried (they were contemplating between 4b and 4a and decided to write 4a becouse I'm young). Yeah doesn't make me feel any better

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

Finally went to the general surgery clinic yesterday. My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge for way too long so I still need a ultrasound. I don't have the report yet but I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast. I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump. Apparently my lymph nodes are also enlarged and I have a lot of fibroadenomas as well.

It seems like it's hard and doesn't move. She said she doesn't think I should wait to get an MRI like usual before the biopsy since it'd take too long in a public hospital and my symptoms have been present for too long form to waste time. They considered between 4a and 4b but said I should be written down as 4a for now since I'm so young.

I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July. I feel scared of course but I'm more concerned about telling my mother. It's an odd feeling. I am 21 I'll be 22 in October. My doctor says that I'm young and I shouldn't be too worried but still it's a weird feeling

I feel very alone and confused. I've talked to a couple people in my life but they've never went through this process and can not understand me. I need to talk to someone that knows what this feels like. I still didn't get my biopsy done, I just learned that I have a tumor yesterday. Some conversation would really help

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

Finally went to the general surgery clinic yesterday. My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge for way too long so I still need a ultrasound. I don't have the report yet but I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast. I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump. Apparently my lymph nodes are also enlarged and I have a lot of fibroadenomas as well.

It seems like it's hard and doesn't move. She said she doesn't think I should wait to get an MRI like usual before the biopsy since it'd take too long in a public hospital and my symptoms have been present for too long form to waste time. They considered between 4a and 4b but said I should be written down as 4a for now since I'm so young.

I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July. I feel scared of course but I'm more concerned about telling my mother. It's an odd feeling. I am 21 I'll be 22 in October. My doctor says that I'm young and I shouldn't be too worried but still it's a weird feeling

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

Finally went to the general surgery clinic yesterday. My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge for way too long so I still need a ultrasound. I don't have the report yet but I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast. I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump. Apparently my lymph nodes are also enlarged and I have a lot of fibroadenomas as well.

It seems like it's hard and doesn't move. She said she doesn't think I should wait to get an MRI like usual before the biopsy since it'd take too long in a public hospital and my symptoms have been present for too long form to waste time. They considered between 4a and 4b but said I should be written down as 4a for now since I'm so young.

I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July. I feel scared of course but I'm more concerned about telling my mother. It's an odd feeling. I am 21 I'll be 22 in October. My doctor says that I'm young and I shouldn't be too worried but still it's a weird feeling

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

Finally went to the general surgery clinic yesterday. My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge for way too long so I still need a ultrasound. I don't have the report yet but I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast. I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump. Apparently my lymph nodes are also enlarged and I have a lot of fibroadenomas as well.

It seems like it's hard and doesn't move. She said she doesn't think I should wait to get an MRI like usual before the biopsy since it'd take too long in a public hospital and my symptoms have been present for too long form to waste time. They considered between 4a and 4b but said I should be written down as 4a for now since I'm so young.

I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July. I feel scared of course but I'm more concerned about telling my mother. It's an odd feeling. I am 21 I'll be 22 in October. My doctor says that I'm young and I shouldn't be too worried but still it's a weird feeling

I had dark green breast discharge since last June so I went to my endocrinologist I was seeing for my hypothyroidism. My prolactin was only 1 score higher than normal range but he convinced me that it's normal and that must be the reason. My current one told me that's not enough prolactin for it to be milk and it's too dark so it's discharge and i should go to a doctor. My new prolactin levels are normal, not even at the ceiling.

My hand test was clear at first but he said I've had discharge way too often so I still need a ultrasound. I don't have the report yet but I have a 2 cm 4a/4b lump on the upper left side of my left breast. I went back to by doctor, he was in surgery another doctor came and hand tested me again before looking at my chart. She could feel the lump.

It seems like it's hard and doesn't move. She said she doesn't think I should wait to get an MRI like usual before the biopsy since it'd take too long in a public hospital and my symptoms are too long form to waste time

I have my biopsy scheduled 7th of July. I feel scared of course but I'm more concerned about telling my mother. It's an odd feeling. I am 21 I'll be 22 in October. My doctor says that I'm young and I shouldn't be too worried but still

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I (22F) have known I'm adopted since I was 5 years old. I have no siblings and my father was bedridden for years before he passed away 2022. Growing up we never really talked about my adoption, most of my conversations about my adoption was with my therapists and psychiatrists during my childhood.

We have a love and hate relationship with my mother. Both of us has been through so much trauma and it effects our every day. One second we can be fine and next we can be screaming, crying. Obviously I also have my hand in this but she raised me, the apple doesn't fall far.

With time she's only grown more and more insecure and unhinged and so did her comments on my adoption and related topics. She's a very religious traditional Muslim woman. I've deconstructed from religion for years but keep the hijab on just to play the part, we're already not on good terms.

Just this morning had another fight. She likes to stay at the breakfast table for hours and do nothing, she doesn't talk to meuch during breakfast either but she takes offence if I try to skip breakfast or leave after eating. It was after 3PM that i was abled to leave the breakfast table after our fight.

I told her I had to study and went to my room she yelled that I only leave her side becouse I can't stand her so I brought my laptop with me to the balcony to be with her while I study just to make her happy. I asked her not to play anything loud on her phone while I was busy. She looked through her phone for a while then she started listening to a womans video. At first I didn't pay much attention to the audio. I asked her to turn it down. She lowered it just a bit, it was still loud. I could still clearly hear the woman talking very loudly.

Here's why I can't believe she reacted the way she did. The woman in the video was talking about how the government (I'm Turkish) was trying to push giving birth as the only form of motherhood and even going as far as to push vaginal birth as the only option, which is true. Then she said she never had a child, she never gave birth even tho she's fertile and healthy and told her now husband she never would before they got married becouse she fears to bring a child into this world and this country knowing the bad things that can happen.

My mother started very loudly said "whore, you whore, you bitch" to her phone. I was so confused. I know she has bigoted beliefs but I didn't think she'd find anything wrong with this, given she started off the video saying how the government wrongfully puts birth as the only form of parentage.

I always knew she felt insecure about being infertile and adoption was her last option becouse she believed giving birth was a womans duty and everyone should have children, people who don't want to get married or have children are disgusting in her opinion but I didn't know it ran this deep. From the parts I've heard this woman is another adoptive mother I don't understand why she reacts this way. I think she's just insecure she waited 24 years to be a mother "the natural way" and couldn't and other people can and won't.

I was shocked so I reacted to this, I asked her what the hell she was saying she reacted badly to this as if I said something disgusting. She started yelling and telling me to say what I'm thinking and called me stupid. I've told her once before that I want to adopt even if I can give birth her eyes opened up but she didn't say much in front of people and I think also becouse she didn't want to show her true colours.

I just feel so humiliated. Is this how she really feels about adoption? She always talks about our adoption as if it's a miracle and talks shit about birth mother's but I didn't know her hypocrisy was this deep. She never exclusively talked bad about my birth mother but she's clearly deeply insecure which is weird becouse I never even met or wanted to meet my birth mother. But I'm realizing it's all a part of what she made me think all these years.

Couple days ago we were watching TV and she talked about how she doesn't like how people call bio parents birth parents or just parents. I asked her why she felt that way, that's the correct terminology. Especially given the birth mother in the show we were watching didn't give her son willingly, her husband left the son on a mosque to separate them. She just yelled for a while then didn't talk to me.

This year on mother's day she "gifted" me the phone number of the women that handled my adoption (I was adopted illegally) after she found her. A couple weeks before that I talked to her about how I feel angry towards my birth mother for giving me illegally to people she didn't know and not even checking on me to see if I'm safe especially after the Epstein incidents. I thought she was a safe space but I just feel the least emotionally connected to her I've ever felt. She just told me to think about the bad situations my birth mother must have been but only one half hearted sentence.

I don't know how to think or feel. I can't even talk to her about it becouse she clearly doesn't have the awareness. And I bet you she thinks she's the best mom alive and that swears she never talked bad about my birth family. It's all coercion and manipulation with her, then she wonders why I ended up the way I am🤦🏻‍♀️

I (22F) live a parasitic life, I lie constantly, I steal, I feel threatened when someone calls me out, I get angry when someone cries, I get into arguments constantly, I have no realistic plans for my future I just waste my present with impulsive choices, I waste money constantly, I only feel bad when I get the consequences, I've never had an actual relationships, I try to normalize my bad behaviour, I make people sad or angry then go back to doing what I was doing and feel shocked when people are stuck on it even if it was 5 minutes ago.

I don't like responsibility, I do everything in my power not to work, I feel entitled to peoples admiration but I don't admire myself, I get throughts of hurting people even tho I would never do that, when people inconvenience me even if they're close to me I wish they died so they'd be out of my way, I constantly imagine myself with a better position, wealth, status and psychical attributes, I have a moral code for others but not so much for myself, I don't handle my finances well, I only felt limerance and never love, I have no real friends.

I don't know what to do. I don't want this life for myself and I desire to have relationships and stable life but I can't handle life without some sort of trouble. I had been diagnosed family confined conduct disorder at 8 but it wasnt severe. Later I went through trauma and got psychosis for a couple months (I don't remember the timeline) in highschool. It just got worse and worse after that.

I'm my 4th year in university, my GPA is 1.98 and I'm extending my studies for one more year. I didn't even study to get into this, I didn't have any plans for a major I picked after my score came back. I just found myself in a good school and good major but I skip classes I don't even know what days I have which classes. I have to take 11 this semester (most from lesser classes) which was supposed to be my last. I just come and go, looking at my list everyday. I'm genuinely ruining everything I touch.

I stole 2 grams off gold from my mother. It was not my first time stealing from her, she confronted me 2 times before, now 3 in total. I don't even know how long ago I did that. She learned about it today I tried to deflate the situation I had something in had to give to a neighbor so after a while of arguing I excused myself and left. I fell down the stairs on my way back and twisted my left ankle and hit my right leg on the last marble stair.

Someone called the ambulance and I called my mother she was obviously freaked out, she brought a close relative we have and his wife and we met at the hospital. Thankfully I have no crack in my bones. But after we went back home we argued again and I couldn't tell her I have credit debt she doesn't know about.

We had a talk about how I probably have cleptomania which, fair. But I think it's deeper than that. Last time I went to a psychiatrist she asked me to bring my mother to hear about my childhood from her, I declined and didn't go back becouse it seemed she was trying to diagnose me but maybe I did the wrong thing. I already feel shitty about it becouse I don't want to be this kind of person, it's like my life is going to shit. My mom seems to worry about this going out/getting worse and ruining my life. I think I need professional help

I (22F) think I have ASPD, and it's ruining my life.

I live a parasitic life, I lie constantly, I steal, I feel threatened when someone calls me out, I get angry when someone cries, I get into arguments constantly, I have no realistic plans for my future I just waste my present with impulsive choices, I waste money constantly, I only feel bad when I get the consequences, I've never had an actual relationships, I try to normalize my bad behaviour, I make people sad or angry then go back to doing what I was doing and feel shocked when people are stuck on it even if it was 5 minutes ago.

I don't like responsibility, I do everything in my power not to work, I feel entitled to peoples admiration but I don't admire myself, I get throughts of hurting people even tho I would never do that, when people inconvenience me even if they're close to me I wish they died so they'd be out of my way, I constantly imagine myself with a better position, wealth, status and psychical attributes, I have a moral code for others but not so much for myself, I don't handle my finances well, I only felt limerance and never love, I have no real friends.

I don't know what to do. I don't want this life for myself and I desire to have relationships and stable life but I can't handle life without some sort of trouble. I had been diagnosed family confined conduct disorder at 8 but it wasnt severe. Later I went through trauma and got psychosis for a couple months (I don't remember the timeline) in highschool. It just got worse and worse after that.

I'm my 4th year in university, my GPA is 1.98 and I'm extending my studies for one more year. I didn't even study to get into this, I didn't have any plans for a major I picked after my score came back. I just found myself in a good school and good major but I skip classes I don't even know what days I have which classes. I have to take 11 this semester (most from lesser classes) which was supposed to be my last. I just come and go, looking at my list everyday. I'm genuinely ruining everything I touch.

I stole 2 grams off gold from my mother. It was not my first time stealing from her, she confronted me 2 times before, now 3 in total. I don't even know how long ago I did that. She learned about it today I tried to deflate the situation I had something in had to give to a neighbor so after a while of arguing I excused myself and left. I fell down the stairs on my way back and twisted my left ankle and hit my right leg on the last marble stair.

Someone called the ambulance and I called my mother she was obviously freaked out, she brought a close relative we have and his wife and we met at the hospital. Thankfully I have no crack in my bones. But after we went back home we argued again and I couldn't tell her I have credit debt she doesn't know about.

We had a talk about how I probably have cleptomania which, fair. But I think it's deeper than that. Last time I went to a psychiatrist she asked me to bring my mother to hear about my childhood from her, I declined and didn't go back becouse it seemed she was trying to diagnose me but maybe I did the wrong thing. I already feel shitty about it becouse I don't want to be this kind of person, it's like my life is going to shit. My mom seems to worry about this going out/getting worse and ruining my life. I think I need professional help.

"TL;DR:TIFU by realizing my compulsive lying, stealing, impulsive behavior, and emotional instability are probably signs of much deeper mental health issues like ASPD that are actively ruining my relationships, education, and future and it might be too late"

I was born in October 4 2004 18:50 in Istanbul Asian side. Possibly around Maltepe. If you think you might be the mother or one of the nurses that helped give me up please DM me. I'm not going to force a relationship or disturb anyone's life i just want answers

My mother (66F) and I (21F)don’t talk about my adoption often, but I’ve known I was adopted since I was five. The older I get, the less the story sounds like an adoption and the more it sounds like trafficking.

According to my mother, she and my father used to own a summer house in a vacation town which they later sold. They were introduced to the area through my father’s uncle’s family, who still own their own apartment building there. While living there, my mother became friends with a woman I’ll call Sarah who was a neighbor and a mutual though my dad's relatives.

One day, Sarah was at her friend’s baby store when two women in casual clothes came in. Supposedly, they were nurses from a hospital. Sarah later told my mother that the women were discussing a newborn baby who was going to be put up for adoption, me.

From what I was told, my biological mother was very young, around university age. I don't know if she came to the hospital WITH her mother or if she had to call her. There are parts of the story that make me think it may have been a cryptic pregnancy, because I remember my mother saying the girl kept insisting she wasn’t pregnant. I was born breech birth and had to be vacuumed out becouse I was loosing oxygen. According to the nurses, the family didn’t pay for the birth, and the grandmother refused breastfeeding, allegedly saying, “Your brothers would kill you if they found out.” The nurses (including ones that werent shopping for me at the store) called their families and took out bank credit themselves to cover the hospital costs. Which is presume is becouse they pitied her situation. I was allegedly going to be transferred to an orphanage the next day.

Sarah then told them she knew a couple struggling with infertility who had been waiting to adopt through official channels, who were my parents. She contacted my father’s cousin, who then called my parents and told them to come immediately.

My parents went to the store Sarah's friend owns and paid the “hospital fee”. I have to say for context, I'm personally unsure if that's true considering these two women only told this story after they were asked and they were dressed civil. My suspicion mostly stems from how authorities didn't suspect anything which I'll get into.

When I later asked my mother whether she realized that sounded like they had effectively paid for a baby, she admitted she didn’t think about it at the time. She said she was overwhelmed with happiness and desperation to become a mother. Considering they waited 24 years.

The story raises questions for me. If I had already received vaccinations and the authorities had supposedly been notified, then there must have been some kind of official registration or birth record. If that’s true, then legally speaking, the “original” me had disappeared on paper entirely. Either records were falsified, or a death certificate was forged.

Last month, my mother tried to find Sarah again. Sarah and her husband used to own an antique shop, though they had closed it years ago. My mother eventually found someone who knew them and managed to get the phone number of Sarah’s son. Apparently, Sarah’s children (a son and daughter) never knew anything about this situation, and they reacted badly (especially her son) when they learned about this.

Sarah later called my mother back. During the conversation, she specifically asked her to make sure I would never go on television searching for my biological parents. My mother reassured her that I’m reasonable and would never try to publicly expose anyone. She told me all of this on Mother’s Day.

I genuinely don't know what to think. I'm technically happy about my adoption and my parents. But it still feels disgusting to think about. I know worse things could have happened to me if I was on the system.

Today I've learned that Sarah Ferguson (British royal who was in the Epstein files and worked for him) came to the İstanbul and Ankara orphanages in disguise in 2008 for a "documentary" that supposedly exposes the orphanages. I was about to be given to the İstanbul orphanage. But her intent was clearly more wicked considering her being Epstein's accomplish around this exact time.

I don't know if I should feel glad or angry. Even as a child I've wondered why anyone would give a baby theirs or not to people they don't know and never search for said child even just to make sure they're in a good place. I could have been sold, murdered, SA'd ect. I think I'll never understand. I had a good childhood, but my parents were old. My father was sick for 6 years bedridden for 3-4. During my teens.

I have CPTSD becouse of this. Before he died the year I was supposed to turn 18 my mother also got paralyzed. My relatives found a caregiver and employed her so I could go to school. My mother gotten better but my dad died. It just feels like I was doomed from the beginning.