u/universal_pen_789

I have a Palestinian friend, and we’ve been close for years. We love each other and have always had a good friendship. However, there are quite a few things about her and her family that have made me question certain things.

Of course, I know that not every Palestinian is suffering or being attacked every day, but I also find it strange that a Palestinian person could be buying from brands that are being boycotted and living a very comfortable life with that fact while, on the other hand, there are people dying. I also know that half of the world hasn’t participated in the boycott, but I felt somewhat uncomfortable because I was boycotting while she wasn’t

Her family is also extremely wealthy and owns land. She told me that they live in Qalqilya, even though she had previously told me that they live in Nablus. What bothered me about the boycott issue is that it’s not just about food. She buys expensive designer clothes and bags, talks about them all the time and how she wants more, and takes pride in them while people are dying.

She has also told me several times that we wouldn’t be able to meet because it’s difficult to leave Palestine. But her sister was able to leave quite normally and went to Paris for her honeymoon. She also told me that her uncle is not allowed to enter Palestine and is currently in Jordan.

I don’t really know why I’m bringing all of this up, but honestly, at one point I found myself thinking, “Is it possible that they are collaborators or traitors?” And honestly, I would feel uncomfortable if that turned out to be the case. I know this is a serious assumption, and I don’t want to accuse anyone without knowing the truth. I’m just trying to understand whether these things actually make sense or whether I’m overthinking them.

Somebody told me that and I don't know if I should be offended or flustered or what cuz I don't even know what it means 🥲

I'm so exhausted. Lately, it feels like so many unresolved issues and difficult situations have been happening all at once, and it's becoming incredibly overwhelming.

I keep praying to Allah and trying to stay patient, but it's starting to hurt so much. I just want to see even the smallest sign that one day everything will be okay.

Whenever I pray, I truly feel God's mercy, and it often makes me cry. But I keep holding on and being patient, because sometimes things only seem to get worse. There are moments when I genuinely feel like I'm about to break down, and I don't know what to do.

When I find myself in situations like these, where no one but God can help me, all I can do is keep praying and hoping but my heart feels so tight with pain and agony, what should I do, I'm so desperate for god's reward but I fear my pain will take my patience away, I want to keep the connection I feel with god even when I'm at my worst but sometimes I feel like crying all day, I wanna see that day where I'm at peace.

Is it just me, or does anyone else go through something like this?

At a certain time every year (summer especially) I start going through something I can't really describe, every single year I completely forget that this happens to me, and then it starts again and I suddenly remember, "Oh... this is that yearly thing"

I begin feeling this overwhelming sense of dread, and I start having incredibly strange dreams. They're not scary in the usual "a ghost is chasing me" kind of way. They're unsettling cuz they're so oddly specific and vivid, taking place in realistic places I've never been with people or situations that have absolutely nothing to do with my life.

I also become much more restless in my sleep. I wake up suddenly more often, and my exploding head syndrome seems to get worse. (A few days ago, for example, I suddenly heard what sounded like a group of men humming a single note together, almost like they were performing in an orchestra right into my ear).

During this time I become afraid of doing simple things alone, like going to the bathroom. It's not the kind of fear where I think, "If I go, I'll see a monster", It's a very real, physical fear. I get panic attacks, my throat feels tight and dry, I feel like I can't breathe, and my hands and chest start shaking til I manage to calm myself down.

I also become painfully self-aware. I constantly feel as if someone is watching me, and sometimes I'm even afraid of myself somehow like "who are you?". The people around me start to feel incredibly distant, even if we're literally sitting together having lunch. It's like I've somehow drifted into another dimension, and no one can reach me or pull me back.

Does anyone else experience anything remotely similar or has an explanation to this?

I really need to vent but not in a post cuz it's not just abt one topic I'm feeling suffocated, If you're a listener please reach out 😞

So I'm a 20 year old girl, I've never truly felt love or had a crush cuz I simply focus on what I'm doing wherever I go.

however at uni, there was a guy who'd always stare at me more than strangers should stare at others, and once he did something that really bothered me , approaching me from behind till his thigh touched my bum, I hated it and I still do.

but since we can't control our emotions, I found myself drawn to him with time, you'd say he must be angelic that he's my first crush but no, he's super normal I'd say, but there's something so masculine and attractive abt him, especially in our generation, he's so naturally special, he's so calm, a good student, no forcefully curly hair, no overly baggy jeans (not judging, just highlighting my preferences) again ,as for personality i don't know why he did what i mentioned earlier or if it's on purpose or not? Cuz when I started getting interested and noticing him, I heard him multiple times apologizing to girls for asking class-related questions and it made me think "would a man like that really do what I thought he did?" Not sure tho.

But I found myself thinking about him more than i should, not in an inappropriate way, not in a way that is "oh I'm daydreaming about falling and he catches me"

but just wanting to be legally his really, I never did that, but his name is the first I've ever mentioned in my prayers, asking god to guide him and unite us in halal,

and even tho I've never been in a relationship, social media kinda traumatized me, I'm afraid of getting heartbroken, I'm afraid of becoming obsessed with him and he won't be mine, i feel attached to him even tho we mean nothing to each other and share nothing but very few classes.

one thing about me is that I'll never admit it, I'll never confess or even think about it cuz I don't like doing that as a girl, I'm not even thinking about stalking his socials or anything like that, i think i just fell in love and leaving it to god really.

And if any guy reads this, could you please tell me what could've possibly pushed him to do what he did? Besides staring into my soul all the time and trying to bump shoulders with me? (Truly hope it's an accident)

I'm 100% algerian, from Jijel, but with all the arguments going on around social media idk if I should consider myself amazigh or arab? Or both? Or none? Our teacher back in the days used to tell us "we are Amazigh, Islam Arabized us" and I thought that's it, it's how I'll be introducing my identity, but asking more here and there, some sources messed me up, saying that in Algeria there are pure Arabs and pure Amazigh and there are mixed people, I don't know where I fall exactly and I hate giving false information about myself or sounding like a "wannabe" , I really wanna know but most sources say I need to know about my great great great grandparents or whatever.

The last few weeks I've been only seeing heartbreaking stories of real women's experiences with men and also by accident finding movies that show how men think of women and I think being on that side of the media really affected my perspective of men and love I really wanna know how love feels to men and if it's true? Does it really happen?

Not cheating, anything other than cheating or having affairs, I mean like, something that humiliated you, made you feel alone in some way.

Not cheating, anything other than cheating or having affairs, I mean like, something that humiliated you, made you feel alone in some way.

It doesn't sit right with me but ppl on other social media platforms always tell me I'm insecure and old fashioned, not judging anyone but I really don't see myself in a relationship with someone with that "job" , I'd love to know how ppl with partners in that industry actually feel and deal with that fact?

How do men genuinely feel towards their postpartum wives/ first time back home with a baby? Like..from all sides, I urgently need to know