I feel like I am having existential dread because of dissociation. The feeling of unrealness and disconnection with reality, that I am not real, so is everything, and that it's all just some kind of memory, dream comes up most of the times. I only feel real in my thinking and thoughts, is there a way to feel stable sense of self in reality outside of thinking, that worked for someone?
I don't understand this thing about advaita or nonduality, that why does it already starts from awareness? If awareness itself was constant in people then there would be no need for realization. From what I understood jiva appears within awareness, but is the movement of both are same? If so how do they even relate to each other, it seems like a movment of indifference to me. The movement of mind, memory itself connects a person with their identity, then what is ignorance in this? to not identify yourself as past, but isn't that more complex than just the past and memory. The happening of event itself creates impression on a person brain even neurologically, so what is even nonidentification in that. A person with their brain and body,senses which inevitably would react with the events in time, how that can nonidentify with itself? And is that what is considered as ignorance? In all of this where does even realization occurs, the concept of awareness is itself moving away from the movment of accumulated time in every aspect within a person, that makes it seems like this two movment were never related with each other. So what is even the realization itself? Who is even seeker in that? A movment of mind, to step outside of mind, when the awareness itself is not related with movment of memory, mind and time. Even in all that non identification how does even a person's past impressions could be processed? Because I don't think you could just negate all that with just the mind.
I don't understand this aspect of advaita or nonduality, that why does it already starts from awareness? If awareness itself was constant in people then there would be no need for realization. From what I understood jiva appears within awareness, but is the movement of both are same? If so how do they even relate to each other, it seems like a movment of indifference to me. The movement of mind, memory itself connects a person with their identity, then what is ignorance in this? to not identify yourself as past, but isn't that more complex than just the past and memory. The happening of event itself creates impression on a person brain even neurologically, so what is even nonidentification in that. A person with their brain and body,senses which inevitably would react with the events in time, how that can nonidentify with itself? And is that what is considered as ignorance? In all of this where does even realization occurs, the concept of awareness is itself moving away from the movment of accumulated time in every aspect within a person, that makes it seems like this two movment were never related with each other. So what is even the realization itself? Who is even seeker in that? The movment of mind, to step outside of mind, when the awareness itself is not related with movment of memory, mind and time. Even in all that non identification how does even a person's past impressions could be processed? Because I don't think you could just negate all that with just the mind.
So I am having trouble understanding what is happening. I had dissociation like tendencies before but recently after dissociative experience on edibles, this feeling start to feel more prominent.
The thing is my mind find it hard to feel stable in reality and i feel like my sense of self is unstable. Sometimes this constant feeling of unrealness starts to appear, i start to feel like I am in some kind of memory, dream and this realty is unreal. When I think about my thoughts, it feels I am thinking about thinking itself and then it start to feel like I am unreal. It feels like a disconnection between me and the reality that is happening, i can't seem to feel connection with outside reality.
If I start questioning about if i am real? Or is this real? The more paranoid I become, and this weird feeling starts to come up. I don't have schizophrenia, but I do think I have dissociative tendencies. I don't seem to understand if it is psychosis or just dissociation. Sometimes the feeling start to become stable but sometimes it's not. And when those feeling comes up, then only thinking itself or my thought is the only thing that make me feel real and stable. I don't really want to go in medication and those stuff, so if you do give advice, just something that doesn't include them, I was just basically trying to make sense of what is happening with me.
I don’t know why I don’t feel much desire for food. I have to force myself to eat. Most of the time I even skip meals,i am not taking care of my nutrition anymore. And that is taking toll on my body. I am getting skinnier, even my family points it out to me all the time. But I feel too hopeless to have any desire. To me it’s just what’s the point of eating? It never gets better, i never have what i want, I am always in this prison. It feels like I don’t even mind whatever my health becomes. I just don’t understand what I should do about this in the long run.
A person with their mind, memory and whole psychological complexity is outcome of time, and the life that which is further lived and continued, is also within the response of time. So how does that which is timeless and not within time relates with the beings of time?
A person with their mind and memory is outcome of time, and the life that which is further lived and continued, is also within the response of time. So how does that which is timeless and not within time relates with the beings of time?
I've been dealing with this issue for quite a long time, and i dont understand what this is. What is happening with me is that I seem to forget things, but in a specific way. I can't remember what happened as an actual experience but i can only recall memories in an analytical way and think about them analytically but beyond that I can't truly remember them. It feels like a disconnection between my mind and the life that is happening. I seem to only react to what is happening in front of me, but beyond that I cannot recall the past in a way that feels real, or remember interactions with people in a way that feels real to my brain. It feels like nothing has really happened, there is no memory of anything. Even when something dramatic or turbulent happens, my mind forgets it within a few minutes. Most of times my brain goes blank, or I overthink specific issues that I am emotionally attached to.
I also struggle to form sentences or recall what I have read just a minute ago, it feels difficult to me. Even when I try to understand something related to studying or any topic, it feels like I have to force myself to think deeply or even grasp it, which i am not able to. Sometimes I feel like my brain just wants to shut down.
I’ve been dealing with this issue for quite a long time. What is happening with me is that I seem to forget things, but in a specific way. I can’t remember what happened as an actual experience but i can only recall memories in an analytical way and think about them analytically beyond that I can’t truly remember them. It feels like a disconnection between my mind and the life that is happening. I seem to only react to what is happening in front of me, but beyond that I cannot recall the past in a way that feels real, or remember interactions with people in a way that feels real to my brain. It feels like nothing has really happened. Even when something dramatic or turbulent happens, my mind forgets it within a few minutes. Most of times my brain goes blank, or I start overthinking specific issues that I am emotionally attached to.
I also struggle to form sentences or recall what I have read just a minute ago, it feels difficult to me. Even when I try to understand something related to studying or any topic, it feels like I have to force myself to think deeply or even grasp it. Sometimes I feel like my brain just wants to shut down. Has anyone experienced something similar?
I feel I lack understanding in how I come off to others, or maybe I lack social intelligence. I think I go too deep in things quickly, even in conversations, and I emotionally attach myself to that. So the lack of the same emotional depth that I give isn’t reciprocated, reflected, or understood. I feel like I am misunderstood and too much in certain situations, and I withdraw myself.
Then I think and tell myself I should not go too deep into things, but either way my brain maybe doesn’t work that way, and again I end up emotionally attaching myself to things and conversations, and I don’t really know how I am being perceived socially. So what should I do about this? Does this come off as weird for other people? I don’t know. For example, I was talking to someone online about addiction and other issues, and I was approaching it more from psychological aspects other than the symptoms that it shows, while the other person stayed on a functional level of what was happening. They didn’t go into things the way I was going, or maybe they just shrugged it off.
So I basically always question myself do I come off as too much for others, or is there some other aspect to this? I always feel disappointed in conversations with people. How do I even stop this pattern from happening?
As I was dabbling in vedic astrology, the more I read about the concept of nakshatras, the more confusing it feels to me. Nakshatras are basically celestial divisions and happenings, their symbolism and mythological stories, which are then correlated with the nature of planets. And again, the nature of planets is also understood through those same celestial happenings and symbolism. And if that’s so, are human beings just combinations of the qualities and nature of the 27 Nakshatras?
Why and how does even the concept of nakshatras correlate with human nature, psychology at all? Why in vedic astrology time is fragmented and studied through Nakshatras, which is then further related especially with those celestial happenings and symbolism? Just on what basis is this whole system is built upon?
I've been thinking about how I spend most of my time talking in my head. There is always constant evaluation, interpretation happening in my brain. I don't even do or participate in actions as much as how much my brain seem to be constantly talking with itself about things. So basically I was asking, how this even comes about in the brain scientifically or something like that. And is there any way that someone could reduce this?