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i love it when i hear ‘god doesn’t like this’ because ill just do that.

(i fucking love it).

pls tell me it’s not just me 😭🙏.

im curious.

mine is red pill blues :)

if god is all knowing and all loving, why does he give us the option to test us.

since you know what we’re going to do?

how does that make any sense.

It’s in Hyde’s Park, UK. Which is in central london.

Please message me if you are.

surely the police wouldn’t arrest two people without an explanation, right?

i get that by law, if they are investigating they cannot tell us more about the said issue.

however because the two men have been released, why do we not know more?

all we know is that they ‘played no part’, but how comes we as the public can’t know what they said.

mine’s highlighter.

if god chooses the death of everyone why do people who commit suicide go to hell?

if he chose for people to be extremely unhappy with their lives to the extent that they feel that ending their lives is the only solution, WHY is he now saying ‘right you’re going to hell’.

if he’s the one who’s responsible for making our minds place us in extremely rough situations, why are we held accountable for HIS actions?

but the exception to this rule is if you had no self-awareness and you had a mental illness that made you ‘insane’.

being insane’ is subjective. while god calls himself ‘all-knowing’, it doesn’t change the fact that his views may not always align with the beliefs of others.

and don’t say it’s because he ‘tested’ you, because not everyone can pass his ‘test’.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel like this every fucking day.

I cry several times a day, i constantly have thoughts ruminating through my head that upset me, they’re all pretty dark and grim too.

And what sucks is I can’t do anything about them, I’ve had this for years.

I feel so alone and im slowly becoming comfortable with being sad.

I want to relapse but I know I’ll get caught.

I do not want to dm anybody.

does anyone have any tips on how to fade away physically or emotionally?

im already restricting how im eating.

i feel so sad all of the time and cry several times a day and think of relapsing.

i just think by fading away that’s the closest thing i’ll get to being dead whilst still being alive.

and i just want to shrink and want to stop feeling this way.

i don’t believe the world needs me here anymore.

he planned got all of this to occur yet he never thought ‘shit this is too much’.

he’s a sadist.

Given the fact that it has almost been 20 years since Andrew’s disappearance, for the 20th anniversary, if the police were to appeal to the public for investigation.

What leads would help them get there?

Where would they start.

I think that the main reasons why religion was made was to control people and was made because of people’s moral judgement, not because they genuinely believed something was out there, that’s stupid.

I also think that because society had a huge issue with gambling, addictions, issues with riba (interests), etc. Because this was having a knock-on effect on people psychologically, they wrote a book and they included stories (hadiths if you like) to try and scare people into listening to them, if that makes sense.

Lastly, I say this because the pre-islamic era had no laws and were disorderly. (300-610 CE) and islam didn’t come into place until 610, in saudi arabia.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on this!! I’m willing to listen to all perspectives <3

What we know & implications:

- He left £100 in his room, packed no suitcase, and left behind his PSP charger and passport. These are the actions of someone planning a day trip, not a permanent escape.

- He withdrew £200—plenty for a fun day out in London, but nowhere near enough to start a new life.

- It was a Friday, he was seen waiting in the park, and he skipped school, suggesting a calculated, one-off thing for a long-held plan.

My conclusions:

- Andrew intended to come home. He knew starting a new life under 16 was legally impossible.

- He could not have traveled to meet anyone. Police forensics confirmed he had no email, no internet accounts, and no digital footprint.

Logically, you cannot plan a meetup in a massive city like London without communication.

- His tragic long-term disappearance and the 100+ unverified, scattered sightings do not prove a planned escape.

They suggest a highly publicised search for a young, vulnerable boy.

Verdict:

Andrew went to London completely alone for a day out, and his disappearance is the result of a day trip that went wrong, not a runaway plot or a pre-arranged meeting.

- Considering the fact that he was not street-smart, this seems the most plausible to me.

Ive considered this theory, that maybe he never actually lost his phone and just told his parents in hopes to gain another Xbox.

I came to the conclusion that maybe before he hopped on the train at Doncaster Railway Station that he would’ve texted the person he was meeting on this day that he was going to arrive there and what time he’d arrive etc.

Another thing I think Andrew did was perhaps he knew of British Transport Police as he had been to London in the past with his family so he would have some knowledge of them as well as witness reports.

So he deliberately did not use this phone on the train but texted the person details BEFORE he got on the train (so when Andrew was on the train to London, whoever the message was aimed at, they would see the message).

If that makes sense?

i currently use a 2-in-1 lipliner and lipgloss (it’s from sheglam)

(I’m just starting out with makeup)

What can i use or do to keep it to last all day??