Disclosing to PCP who won't prescribe after getting TRT from third party
TLDR: I'd like to start TRT with an outside clinic but I don't know what to expect when I tell my Kaiser Permanent PCP about it.
I'm a 42yo male experiencing basically all the symptoms of low T despite Total Testostosterone in the 390-410 ng/dL range for the last year (down from 460-480 ng/dL 2 years ago). Symptoms have been present for almost 6 years.
I've talked to my PCP (Kaiser Permanent So Cal, female) and she seems sympathetic to my symptoms and has ordered the total T tests for me no problem, but she won't order a Free T test because my total T levels are not below normal. I understand the KP system and generally like them, but I know I will not get TRT from them. Last time I saw my Dr she asked me point blank if my goal was to get on TRT and I told her I was undecided at that time, which I was. After a lot of thinking about it, I am planning to get out-of-pocket free T and SHBG tests from an online place or a clinic (there's a ton of them in Los Angeles) and, depending on my results, starting TRT at a lowish dose.
My issue now is how do I navigate this with my PCP? Ideally I would just tell her that I understand KP won't prescribe so I am just going to go outside so that I could still monitor things through KP, but if I need to keep using outside labs, that's fine, too. I like my Dr and she has honestly been more sympathetic than the men, who always blame it on poor sleep or diet or say it's just a mental thing (I'm on antidepressants but they didn't help for the cognitive symptoms or lack of energy etc). My worry is that this will somehow fuck-up my care in an unexpected way. Can someone share any experiences with keeping PCPs in the loop even when you go around them to get TRT? I am not trying to get super high levels, I would just like to feel "normal" again (energy, focus, sex drive, training). I feel like 42yo is too young to lose sex drive and start losing muscle mass and strength despite regular strength training (I've been lifting for 20y).
Additionally, any other suggestions or things I may have failed to consider? Ideally I would go with the self-administered injections (I have a young daughter so I don't want the gels in the house) but the implants also seem reallllly convenient once I have my dosing figured out. There's plenty of clinics in the city, so I don't think that's a problem but I don't know if I should aim for one of the clinics that do all the follow-up testing or just get the tests on my own. I don't mind paying a little more for good care but I also don't want to waste money if the clinic is just running tests as an up-charge. There's so many options here that I haven't finished researching which clinics are good.
FWIW, I don't think my symptoms are lifestyle related. (see below)
Things I do right:
- I am not overweight (have almost no visible fat except some around mid-section
- I drink zero alcohol
- I lift heavy twice a week on a volume-maximizing program
- I am pretty active even on days I don't train
- my diet is pretty good
- No cannabis or other drugs
Areas I could improve:
- I should probably get more sun to boost vitamin D (I do take a supplement daily)
- I do smoke cigarettes, but only like 2-3 per night and not every night. like 10-15 per week tops. Everyone should get one vice, as a treat.
- I could probably sub some animal fats for olive oil (I just really like butter)
- my LDL is kinda high (188 mg/dL) even though my HDL is good (60 mg/dL)
I am open to any input here. I wish I could just have this discussion with my PCP instead of having to do the work myself, but there's no point in getting mad about an insurance system that is never going to change anyways.