Can't shake the guilt of indoor cats..
- I know that it's ethical, mostly recommended and keeps them/safe as well as local wildlife.
- I know I live in a busy city, in an upper level apartment, and at this point they do not understand cars or hazards.
- I know that they were tiny rescue kittens from the train tracks who likely would have died
- I know that I kept 3 of them so they could have company while I'm at work.
- I know I constantly talk to them, pet them, think about them. Bring them toys.
- I know I built them a catio on my balcony so they can go outside.
- I know that they seem to really love me.
BUT
I just feel like if I was doing right by them as living beings I would be giving them a fuller life.
This is probably a values thing.
And maybe I'm projecting.
I long to see them run around outside climbing trees and exploring. It is very much in their nature and I feel like I'm a prison guard keeping them from a full life. I hate seeing them laying around bored and listless much of the time. I value freedom and exploration. I feel like I'm just condemning them to have their world revolve only around me, and food, and 3 rooms.
I've taken them out a couple times on leash and they hate it. They just want to roam freely and explore. When they were about 2 I lived rurally for a year. I knew I would come back to the city so I didn't let them be fully outdoor because the change would be too dramatic coming back. But we went outside together a lot. They absolutely loved it. Made friends with a group of cats. Climbed trees. Ran around the yard and always came back. Came to the beach with me.
But working a city 9-5 and then trying to get angsty cats to jump into your backpack so you can (somehow walk multiple of them??) on a leash they hate around a park feels unmanageable, especially managing exhaustion and depression dips.
DO YOU EXPERIENCE THIS?
HOW DO YOU GET OVER IT?
DID YOU FIND A WAY TO BRING MORE ADVENTURE INTO THEIR LIVES THAT IS COMPATIBLE WITH YOUR LIFESTYLE?