u/Acrobatic_Front1738

my fringe used to be to my bottom eye lid and now its 2cm above my eye brows and it looks horrific, it wont even style properly even after being washed. ive tried every product in the book and nothings styling it, now i look like a masc lesbian despite me being a homosexual man, it dosent even define my face, it make me look puffy and circular to the point i feel bald.

please help urgently with product reccomendations and what to do as its effecting me to the highest extent and i have work tommorow and i will get fired if i dont show up.

i have been in my room all day painting and cleaning and just as i finished i took a break. watched a tv show and relaxed, then i went for a relaxing hot bath to chill out. i came out feeling fresh and ready for bed, but apparently the world thinks i should be doing the opposite.

tell me why i come back in and discover a fucking snail in my wardrobe, that contains all of the clothes i had just washed not even 6hrs ago, tell me why i now feel the need to deep clean and/or get rid of every clothing item including the wardrobe or just get rid of every mf item in general.

i am still currently sat disgusted, in a towel, debating on what step i shall take next and where do i even start as its currenty 23:18PM, and not only do i have no time or energy to deep clean and wash all of my clothes 10 times before i will feel the slightest bit comfortable but i also have work tommorow at 4pm and have a family member coming to help me paint at 11am.

i cant even call in sick for work as im still a trainee, not to mention the fact i still stay with my parents so i cant do 20 washing cycles until atleast 10am before they even wake up, and i cant even bring myself to go to bed incase i discover a slimy snail trail in my covers.

my job is also very pressuring so i cant even stay up all night and drink 6 extra strong coffee's, i genuinley feel violated, disgusted, and sick, tell me why also after 3 coats of paint on each wall i can now smell a lingering potent cigarette ash smell coming from them, im honestly so exhausted and cant be fucked with this bs not today, not tommorow, not ever.

anyways rant over but please people reccomend cleaning tips on how to get rid of a cigarette ash smell from my NEWLY painted walls and on how to clean snail trail without vomiting violently, major clean freak here and this is a case that idek how to handle.

i have feared this day since the day i realised i couldnt feel.

can anyone give advice?

currently on s1 ep3.

why is there a bare minimum if not no history to the creatures?.

why are they introduced so quickly?.

for example, on ep2 i assumed the dragon was going to be the main plot to s1 and not even 2 mins later its literally forgotten about after being killed without any context or insight to where it came from.

i feel like it probably would have been hard to create but also an amazing watch.

I love them, just before their first romance scene i wanted them together and there it was 2 seconds later

personally, mine was vicky

Motivate me to keep going please!

for context: i have been through a lot in my life, from loosing my grandfather at the age of 11 to being ripped out of my mothers arms at age 12, going through severe depression that included me self-harming everyday for 1 whole year, and then my mother dying by the time i was 14 before i ever was able to gain the courage to talk to her as my family portrayed her as a monster due to becoming a drug addict, and just when i thought that my suffering had finally ended i became an alcoholic at mid 14 that lasted till i was 15.5 and during that my friends wanted to rid me of the group and in doing so theyr spreaded allegations that i had SA'd my bestfriend of 7yrs on a night out, for context one of them was upset so i gave her a hug and told her everything was gonna be okay etc. and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and sat with her until she felt better which i thought of as a kind friendly gesture but led to the allegations being plastered on a group chat the next morning which also led to me loosing every single friend i had.

eversince that i have never felt emotion other than mentally strong as i turned all of my pain into strength to numb me from feeling it, however now there are times where i just want to cry and i litteraly cant as they wont come out, as every day goes by i feel more and more drained but no emotion to let loose and free me from this reoccurring state that i suffer, eventhough i have went a year feeling the happiest ive ever been as im finally free from the toxicity of that group id been stuck with for 7 years, im starting to feel like everyday is on a repeated loop except each day gets more tiring and i dont know how long is left before i eventually collapse or potentially crawl back into that severe depression that i have been in fear of for the past 4years as it took me so long to escape it.

any advice is appreciated,

additionaly sorry for the length but i felt it was necessary to my question.