u/Asexually_Freaky

In these dreams everything goes well at first, he's funny, attractive like when we first met, caring and gentle, and then it all turns around the blink of an eye?

Like, in these dreams we'll be cuddling, and suddenly he's on top talking about wanting to have kids despite me having told him it was a dealbreaker (for some reason I still stayed for 2 years). And these dreams are so vivid, I can hear him, feel what he does, I can feel myself panicking and then like, numbly floating away from my body when it happens... it's terrifying.

But the damn "gentle" moments make me reconsider the no-contact and the whole break up. I don't want him back but like, I keep thinking "who else will at least try to respect my boundaries and then be nice and gentle after breaking them?"

It's ao confusing. It's nothing like my first experience with an abusive ex, though that was fully online, yet somehow this doesn't feel as "severe"? I don't have panic attacks, I just have these goddamn dreams and thoughts of "what if we did work it out?"

Please can anyone help? I already take sleeping pills that help with anxiety but it doesn't help.

I have a freshwater 100L (26 gallon) tank with amano shrimp, 7 cardinal tetras, 5 glass tetras, and 5 blue tetras.

The tank has been doing well, however, I would really like some more tank cleaners like plecos (or something similar to them, I forgot their name in english though.) And I saw that they're in tanks with sand instead of gravel at my local fish store.

Is it a smart idea to switch substrate? I know most of the bacteria lives there, so I'm worried about losing all of that with the switch, but I really think sand, or a mix of sand and gravel, would look much better.

Is it a good idea, and if so, can anyone link reliable articles or give some tips on how to go about it?

Ever since the whole AI craze started, I've had less tolerance for those people. I will block anyone who uses AI. Generated a pic of you hugging your dead grandma? Blocked. Generated a nursery or garden? Blocked. Used AI to clean up your post? Blocked. Even mentioned using AI? Blocked.

Same with homophobes/transphobes. You said an anti-trans meme was funny? Blocked? You posted a homophobic meme? Blocked. Said your gay friend was gross for acting gay? Blocked.

You said you're an incel? Blocked. Women are to blame for you being single? Blocked. All women should make sandwiches and stay at home? Blocked.

Like I genuinely cannot handle seeing some of these posts. I've hit the block limit on some sites/apps and I really wish I could just block more. Especially with the AI. It's raising the temperature near data centres, which is detrimental to everyone. Data centres are causing deforestation, pollution is black neighbourhoods which aids in environmental pollution, and you still use it? Come on.

Does anyone else use the block button this freely?

A lot of my old favorites have been deleted from Netflix, and I cannot find them anywhere, especially the ones that were foreign ones. I've gone through almost every non-specific site on fmhy, and I still cannot find one show.

Does anyone know of a specific site for these? So far I haven't seen any.

A week or so ago I was laying down on my right side when I started feeling a numbing tingle go from my hip to my thigh. I thought "I'll suck it up for a bit", and it ended up with me completely losing feeling from the hip/groin/thigh area.

After that night, I haven't been able to lay or sit in any way that puts pressure on my right lower body. Even laying on my stomach ends up hurting. I've tried laying on the left side, but now the same has started happening (just milder), and it's really bothering me.

I don't think I herniated a disc, since it happened while laying down. Nerve compression maybe?

Should I go to a doctor or physiotherapist?