u/Asexually_Freaky

I'm confused on how to actually start putting knowledge into practice, even after fully going through the beginner guide and the linked posts.

One thing that keeps me from advancing is a fear that I'll constantly be watched and judged by the demons (I posted about this maybe a year ago here, but it has persisted).

I feel like I'm too "unclean" to even research about them (like I have some sort of aura around me that activates when I think of a spirits name or think about them, saying to spirits "hey, this human has to go to the bathroom and shower, and sometimes they dirty themselves by dropping food or working out!"). I feel like a medieval peasent wanting to approach a castle after taking a tumble into a pig pen. 😮‍💨

QUESTIONS:

• How do I know my foundations (For myself I imagine this to be confidence in manifesting, knowing my subtle senses, and reading tarot cards) are strong enough to be able to advance futher?

• When I should advance into researching about demons (deep research into their histories and all) and finding who I'd want to work with? Is it after being comfortable with my subtle senses?

I see videos about people keeping a Book of Shadows or making a grimoire, and they have so much knowledge in them about crystals, incense, color symbolism etc. And I get so overwhelmed by how much there is to know.

• How can I practice law of assumption where the idea is that I'm a god of my own reality, and that only I can affect things, while knowing that (by what I've read on here) a demon could make me lose my job or relationship or friendships etc.?

Will the demons think it is disrespectful of a human to think of themselves as a god of their own reality?

Thanks to everyone in advance for any advice!

EDITING TO ASK: Can I work with a demon to figure out how to advance/get over my fear of being too human for them or would that be poor practice?

For this post I'll be separating the writers from the characters with a W and C.

So, I had this thought while thinking about referencing some authors in a fanfic I'm writing.

I started thinking that, in my whole 5 years of being in this fandom, I haven't seen/read any of the characters mention W!each other, like Dazai doesn't show up talking to C!Dostoyevski about how much better W!Dostoyevski was, nor does he reference works like Crime and Punishement or Notes from the Underground.

C!Chuuya doesn't talk about how influential W!Verlaine's works were to him.

C!Akutagawa doesn't mention Chinese literature! Was Sun Tzu and ability user? /hj

But then again, if their literary works don't exist at all, that would affect so much! Like, Fukuzawa Yukichi was very important to Japanese politics and culture. Yosano Akiko was extremely important to the start of feminism in Japan! So on and so on.

So, do their writer counterparts still exist in the BSDverse (but they're just dead), or do their literary works still exist but they're just written by other people?

Does anyone have an answer for this or maybe Asagiri himself has already given an explanation?

Does anyone have advice for this?

I felt fine after getting it, but then 2 hours after I was snappy, felt like crying, actually cried, and now I just feel anxious and on the verge of tears.

I've really wanted a new piercing, I thought I'd be overjoyed.

Is this from fear of change or what? And like, how do I regulate my emotions?

I'm sorry if the question sounds bad, I tried to google but nothing came up.

Tomorrow I'm getting a second lobe piercing. I already have 1 in both lobes.

Is it easier for the piercer if I wear an earring so they know that there's an existing hole and roughly where it is? Or is it better if I don't wear any earrings and just tell them that I already have 2 existing piercings?

I can't think of questions for an assignment, and I feel like my writing skills suddenly lack an academic tone to it.

I genuinely don't know what happened. Just two weeks ago I was speeding through assignments with ease, and now I'm looking at my assignment like "how the hell do I come up with questions to build up the essay???"

Does anyone have any advice for how to stop feeling stupid? Quick hacks? Should I just go for a run or read a book or what?

Sorry if this is the wrong subreddit!

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I'm writing a story set in WW1, Germany, where 2 soldiers are in a relationship, however, although I have read many articles, I can't quite grasp what it was like.

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My main questions are:

What would they have called each other? Partner? Boyfriend? Lover?

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Did gay men during this time feel more okay with being put into a "feminine" role due to wanting to fit in? (Like, if character A jokes about making character B his wife, would B feel offended by that, or think "hm, I suppose that would be better for us."?)

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How would they have acted? I have the understanding that leaders feared having gay men in the army because it was "unmasculine" and threatened the masculinity of the soldiers, but that the soldiers themselves were close and tried to care for each other?

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How closely could two gay men act like before it was suspicious?

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Often when I watch queer historical dramas, the straight men share cigarettes, walk down the street hand in hand, etc. But gay men doing the same feared it would've gotten them jailed. Why is that?

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Whether it's for self-love, relationships, money, etc. I love using songs to make myself feel confident and to get ideas for affirmations. I even manifested my ex getting back in touch with me a week after our break up just because I kept playing Ariana Grande's songs on repeat!

So, what are some of your favorite songs or artists for specific/general affirmations?

I've been struggling with math since 3rd grade, so I understand times tables, adding and substraction etc.

But anything from geometry to exponents to square roots are very difficult. I have difficulty understanding when to apply the rules and how.

Just to show an example of how my mind works: (-3)^2 • (-3)^3

I don't understand what to do! Like I just see numbers, and then I get confused of how to put them together because I don't understand their purpose. Is it (-3) + (-3) = 6 = 6^2+3???

(-3) • (-3)^2+3 = -9^5??

I have a math tutor but she just explains it like every other math teacher has "well we use this rule" but why?

I ask her to explain the logistics behind these, like why do we substract and add, why do we do exponents, so on and so on, but she doesn't really explain.

And so, I'm wondering if anyone could share sources to help with re-learning basics? I tried to google sources but it ends up with me being recommended some app I'd have to pay for.

Apologies if this is the wrong subreddit, and in that case I'd appreciate guidance to a correct one!

My great-grandmother died a few years ago, and today we got some of her old stuff, including a bag with newspapers from 1890's (most likely my great-great-grandma's parents'?)

They're mostly in great condition, but the edges are flaking or torn. I really want to preserve them as I'm interested in history and want to become a historian!

How can I store them and where? My room is quite humid so I don't think it'd be the best place. Are there specific containers/slips/binders to put these in?

Should I contact a local museum/university in my country for guidance?

I'm writing a WW1 AU fanfic where two characters (fighting for the Germans) are going to meet a spy in Roye, France for information and they need to travel there from Verdun on a motorcycle.

My problem is that, before arriving in Roye, the characters take a break due to driving for so long (I'm thinking at least 5 hours), and that is needed so character A can be kidnapped by a nearby french soldier camp.

However, Roye is actually like 2h 30 mins from Verdun, so there's no way it'd take up to 5 hours to get halfway there...

I'm just wondering like, will a reader be put off if I make them still ride like 5 hours, then settle down for the night due to it taking too long to get to Roye?

Does anyone have any ideas or can a reader share how put off they'd be by this?

I really don't know if I'm overthinking, I mean, I have like 5 tabs open analyzing different maps of the Western Front while comparing them to google maps, feels like I'm going insane!😫😭

In these dreams everything goes well at first, he's funny, attractive like when we first met, caring and gentle, and then it all turns around the blink of an eye?

Like, in these dreams we'll be cuddling, and suddenly he's on top talking about wanting to have kids despite me having told him it was a dealbreaker (for some reason I still stayed for 2 years). And these dreams are so vivid, I can hear him, feel what he does, I can feel myself panicking and then like, numbly floating away from my body when it happens... it's terrifying.

But the damn "gentle" moments make me reconsider the no-contact and the whole break up. I don't want him back but like, I keep thinking "who else will at least try to respect my boundaries and then be nice and gentle after breaking them?"

It's ao confusing. It's nothing like my first experience with an abusive ex, though that was fully online, yet somehow this doesn't feel as "severe"? I don't have panic attacks, I just have these goddamn dreams and thoughts of "what if we did work it out?"

Please can anyone help? I already take sleeping pills that help with anxiety but it doesn't help.

I have a freshwater 100L (26 gallon) tank with amano shrimp, 7 cardinal tetras, 5 glass tetras, and 5 blue tetras.

The tank has been doing well, however, I would really like some more tank cleaners like plecos (or something similar to them, I forgot their name in english though.) And I saw that they're in tanks with sand instead of gravel at my local fish store.

Is it a smart idea to switch substrate? I know most of the bacteria lives there, so I'm worried about losing all of that with the switch, but I really think sand, or a mix of sand and gravel, would look much better.

Is it a good idea, and if so, can anyone link reliable articles or give some tips on how to go about it?

Ever since the whole AI craze started, I've had less tolerance for those people. I will block anyone who uses AI. Generated a pic of you hugging your dead grandma? Blocked. Generated a nursery or garden? Blocked. Used AI to clean up your post? Blocked. Even mentioned using AI? Blocked.

Same with homophobes/transphobes. You said an anti-trans meme was funny? Blocked? You posted a homophobic meme? Blocked. Said your gay friend was gross for acting gay? Blocked.

You said you're an incel? Blocked. Women are to blame for you being single? Blocked. All women should make sandwiches and stay at home? Blocked.

Like I genuinely cannot handle seeing some of these posts. I've hit the block limit on some sites/apps and I really wish I could just block more. Especially with the AI. It's raising the temperature near data centres, which is detrimental to everyone. Data centres are causing deforestation, pollution is black neighbourhoods which aids in environmental pollution, and you still use it? Come on.

Does anyone else use the block button this freely?

A lot of my old favorites have been deleted from Netflix, and I cannot find them anywhere, especially the ones that were foreign ones. I've gone through almost every non-specific site on fmhy, and I still cannot find one show.

Does anyone know of a specific site for these? So far I haven't seen any.