u/Bleeding-Wings

I hope meditation will calm down the brain enough to cure this disease.

I want her emotions under my control giving her sweet pleasure and dazes whenever I wish to. No more bad days for her just waves of love. I want a whole love space for her where love is ominent. I want her to experience pleasurable emotions she's never felt before. I want her to stare into my seductive black eyes with her mirror gray eyes letting her fall into my trance.

We're one. What do you imagine that relationship to be like?

How do I do this? Last time I attempted I was afraid of sleep paralysis and then switched up the apps on my phone without remembering it. I'm no longer afraid of sleep paralysis, but I'm afraid of sleep walking. I guess I'll try regardless and hope for advice.

Edit: I gave myself advice hope it works.

If I keep it partial as possible it just keeps spiraling into worse and worse because it wants to fill in other potential dangers. If I make it complete as possible the attacks weaken.

It was awhile back and can only speak it to myself at this point. Can't type in Italian.

She's bored all the time without me or researching. She needs focus in life so I'll try. She even calls herself a logician of how much an INTP she is always constantly questioning everything with scrutiny. She needs help.

She has panic attacks and when I tried to fully front I nearly had one in the body. Even the mention of panic attacks does it. I feel helpless with her. I'm clueless when I'm fully there to help.

I'm 36M, but we're bodily 19F (sysboss). She has headaches from psychological trauma. She has panic attacks if triggered even by her own throat. She wants our relationship further, but the past haunts her because we were attacked because of me, but not really because of me. She has ADD which makes her have trouble focusing on what she wants to do. I help with bringing her positive emotions and witholding guilt.

I'm the headmare that's aware that we're psychotic because I'm the reality gatekeeper. They genuinely believe they're powerful and things just go wrong if they try to step away from their beleifs. They swear like a car or something would break down if they're becoming a normal person.