u/Bright-Currency-3999

I'm a Capricorn Sun but never could relate to anything about my Sun sign. I'm super sensitive, emotional, and I don't care about "ambition" or "success". If anything I'm very lazy (just being honest lol). So I wonder if the reason I feel so much less like a Capricorn is because of my Cancer Rising? I'm also a Sagittarius Moon, but I hate travel or adventure. I'd rather just be comfortable at home

What are the main traits of Cancer Risings? How do you spot one or what gives them away? I just wonder what it says about me

I've always hated myself (my personality, my looks, everything about me) it's funny that my body hates itself too. Just destroying itself and causing me pain. I guess we agree on something. I just want to cry

I was told by an eye Dr. that contacts would be better for me because I have antimetropia (one eye nearsighted the other farsighted) and glasses give me headaches and can mess with depth perception?? He said contacts are better for that because they're directly on the eye so theres no issue with the minification/magnification. Well I didn't get to ask many questions because I was rushed and the whole appointment was kind of disorganized

I was perscribed biweekly lenses, I haven't picked them up yet though

I'm scared because I will be starting an immunosuppresant medication soon, which will put me at much more risk of infections

I'm not trying to sound dumb but I'm scared of the risks (I have OCD and anxiety it's not a good combination). Like infections, abrasions, and amoebas causing blindness?? I know it happens when you don't take care well enough, but I'm scared about something happening by accident. I would hope I would always remember to never keep my contacts in during sleep or showers but I'm still worried

Also, I live with a very unhygenic hoarder parent and there are not many clean places in the house(I really really try to keep my room and the bathroom clean, but it's difficult and out of my control. The bathroom has mold) Like I said I have OCD so I'm worried about cleanliness, sorry if this makes no sense in context

Are my fears overblown? Am I really paranoid? I'm just scared

How do you care for your mental health when dealing with this disease. Its affected my life so much to where I have to avoid doing things or going places because of it, because of the physical pain. Also permanent disfigurement. I don't know what to do with my life. HS is the cherry on top of other things in my life, including female balding, and just being extremely ugly in general. It's extremely mentally painful. What kind of therapist am I supposed to find for something like this? I don't know who to talk to or what to look for.

I have features found in fetal alcohol syndrome even though I for sure don't have it, I literally just came out this way. I look deformed. Why couldn't I at least come out normal/average/mid looking. Why did I have to look like this. I think I come across as disabled, even though I'm not, because of how I look and the fact that Im quiet and awkward because of anxiety/shame. The way people talk to me or treat me sometimes comes across like they think I'm intellectually challenged. Its soul crushing. I'm so ugly and stupid looking and there's nothing I can do. I hate myself more than anything in the world. Even a cockroach has more worth than I do

Im hideous in the face and body, been bullied for it my whole life, now on top of that, I am balding. Im a woman and I'm balding. It's not preventable just horrible genetic luck. Funny because no one else in my family is balding not even the men, but here I am. It's over.

I also have Hidradenitis a skin condition that causes horrific painful cysts that leave scars holes and craters in the skin, on basically the worst area of the body you can imagine. I feel like Im being stabbed 24/7. Its life long with no cure. It can even lead to sepsis. Google at your own risk

What did I do in a past life to deserve this? I cant go on like this. It's just too much.

I have Hidradenitis and my last option left is to try a biologic, I'm wondering if being immunocompromised means you can't get filler injections/microneedling/etc anymore? Also wanting to get a rhinoplasty in the future and I'm worried if being on Humira means I have to stop before the surgery?

I live somewhere extremely EXTREMELY hot and humid weather year round. There isn't even a real winter season. Trust me I want to leave but its not in the cards any time soon or ever. I've lived here my whole life and my body is still not adapted. I get heat rashes regularly and feel like passing out. I'm drenched in sweat five minutes of stepping outside especially groin area which is where my HS is. Heat = sweat = friction = HS

Literally feels impossible because of where I live excebrates the disease and theres nothing I can do. I'm so beyond depressed. I don't have words for it I just don't. I shower two sometimes three times a day as I have OCD and sweating is extremely uncomfortable for me, I stay very clean. And I try to stay as dry and cool as possible at home using a fan to dry myself and try to wear comfortable loose clothing but I can't avoid going outside as much as I wish I could.

How do you cope with this??

I'm depressed with no hope for life anymore. My groin is completely destroyed

I have tried every medication except biologics which I am wanting to try but idk if I cah even afford it. I feel hopeless.