u/CeleryNo76

Just lookin for some neat stuff to do

Hey all. I have made some comments here for about a month or so now. I am not exactly sure what this post is honestly...I am just letting my heart talk, so please bare with me if you wish to read. I am a 25 year old guy from Canada. My sister and I were raised extremely home schooled and sheltered...but with un restricted internet access. (for some very logical reason I am sure). Sex was literally never spoken of, ever. I learned everything I knew about sex (until last year, but we will get there in due time) from the big Ole PORN! I remember finding a foot fetish slave video on YouTube in about 2008 I think it was, and that sadly shaped my fetishes from then on. I was forced to enroll in Brazilian jiu jitsu classes for "socializing". Hindsight being 20/20, thry were really sweet people, truly wonderful human beings, every one of them. I was just too shy, standoffish, and depressed to let any of them become my friends. One girl who I had a crush on tried to befriend me....but i brushed her off every time, and I feel fucking horrible about it now . Anyway then covid happens, I go through multiple shitty online friend groups, I get a job and life is going okay enough for a while. Then this time last year, I am assigned to train a woman at my workplace. We immediately hit it off and over the last year we have become besties. She has broken me out of my shell a lot and we go on adventures together, we say "love you" to each other (without any sexual or romantic shit!!!!). Unfortunately I did catch "feelings" early on, but thankfully through reflection I realized that was just me latxhinf on to the fact that a woman was being nice to me and letting me take up space. I never ever had sexual thoughts about her though, believe it or not. I genuinely think she is the most gorgeous and beautiful person alive and I have absolutely ZERO desire to sex or romance her. It is a (excuse the cwc reference) TRUE AND HONEST bestie love. She is my only real life friend, and I know i should work to change that and I know nothing lasts forever, but right now I am jist trying to enjoy the thing that we have. She often tries to encourage me to go out meet people and start dating and she gives me advice. Don't get me wrong, i really appreciate that she is trying to look out for me...but i just can't get through to her that I have no desire to. Her response is usually a caring somthing like "dont worry, just go out, live your life and you'll find someone!". I won't go into detail, but her and I have polar opposite views on sex and all thst, so we don't see eye to eye there. She is definitely the best friend I ever had and I really do love her so much in the bestie way though. I really don't know what the point of this post is...friendship is magic? Idk, you be the judge! And if bestie somehow finds this post? Hey, how ya doing? Have a good day anyone who survived this wall!

I was raised sheltered and homeschooled, but not religious. I hate having sexual thoughts, feelings and desires. My self esteem is so ungodly low that I truly believe no one would ever look at me in an even somewhat sexual light...though that thought is terrifying and a whole other can of shit. It has gotten to the point where I have somewhat considered doing some uhh "permanent damage" to my genitalia. This whole thing has also led me to have a very negative view of sex, and hookups especially. Of course everyone is free to make their own decisions, but unfortunately i do hold pre conceived notions and judgements toward those who participate in the hookup culture. Uhh, yeah I guess that's hoe I feel

TLDR AT BOTTOM!

I work a full time, rotating shift, factory job. I am often totally exhausted after work. I was home schooled and didn't have any irl friends until a year ago or so. I do go out with my friend and we have fun together...but it's the doing stuff alone that I have trouble with. I am turning twenty five soon and I definitely wasted my youth jacking off and playing video games. I have no constant interest other than firearms, cars and military history. I jave money to spend, but I spend it on stupid shit, rather than experiences. My friend has tried telling me to "just do shit for the bit" or the whole fake it til you make it shebang. I do not find these things to work very well, if at all. I have read so many posts of this similar nature. I look up local events going on, but none of it sparks any kind of excitement or joy or anything. Congratulations if you made it to the bottom.

TLDR: How to force myself to go out and have fun

Yes Aeroplane is amazing, but obviously their other works deserve the time of day as well. Some of my favs are: Oh sister (my favorite song of all time), I will bury you in time (both versions are good, bit I prefer Jittery Joe ver), Three peaches, Naomi, Home, Baby for pree, Marching theme, Engine (holland 1945 single version is my fav)

Hey, I realize that what you are about to read sounds absolutely batshit, but here we go! Is there any way, medically, physically, or mentally to completely or nearly eradicate sexual thoughts, urges, libido and all related irritations? No, I am not religious. No, I am not some shut in who never interacts with women. I actually have multiple female friends, believe it or not. I just want to get rid of all of my stupid ass sexual urges.

My bestie and I have a slight RR dynamic, it's amazing. Was just wondering if anyone else has something similar

If you hypothetically were a beginner, but had the money for binos....would you get them? Or stick with a mono?

I do not get the appeal of summer...but I want to understand it. Please explain. Now don't get me wrong, I AM NOT A WINTER LOVER EITHER. I prefer autumn. Not too hot, not too cold, slightly breezy, pretty leaves.

Never thought I would ask such a pathetic question, but i really need to leave the house a lot more.

If so, I would like to hear how your experience went