u/CeleryNo76

I was raised sheltered and homeschooled, but not religious. I hate having sexual thoughts, feelings and desires. My self esteem is so ungodly low that I truly believe no one would ever look at me in an even somewhat sexual light...though that thought is terrifying and a whole other can of shit. It has gotten to the point where I have somewhat considered doing some uhh "permanent damage" to my genitalia. This whole thing has also led me to have a very negative view of sex, and hookups especially. Of course everyone is free to make their own decisions, but unfortunately i do hold pre conceived notions and judgements toward those who participate in the hookup culture. Uhh, yeah I guess that's hoe I feel

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I work a full time, rotating shift, factory job. I am often totally exhausted after work. I was home schooled and didn't have any irl friends until a year ago or so. I do go out with my friend and we have fun together...but it's the doing stuff alone that I have trouble with. I am turning twenty five soon and I definitely wasted my youth jacking off and playing video games. I have no constant interest other than firearms, cars and military history. I jave money to spend, but I spend it on stupid shit, rather than experiences. My friend has tried telling me to "just do shit for the bit" or the whole fake it til you make it shebang. I do not find these things to work very well, if at all. I have read so many posts of this similar nature. I look up local events going on, but none of it sparks any kind of excitement or joy or anything. Congratulations if you made it to the bottom.

TLDR: How to force myself to go out and have fun

Yes Aeroplane is amazing, but obviously their other works deserve the time of day as well. Some of my favs are: Oh sister (my favorite song of all time), I will bury you in time (both versions are good, bit I prefer Jittery Joe ver), Three peaches, Naomi, Home, Baby for pree, Marching theme, Engine (holland 1945 single version is my fav)

Hey, I realize that what you are about to read sounds absolutely batshit, but here we go! Is there any way, medically, physically, or mentally to completely or nearly eradicate sexual thoughts, urges, libido and all related irritations? No, I am not religious. No, I am not some shut in who never interacts with women. I actually have multiple female friends, believe it or not. I just want to get rid of all of my stupid ass sexual urges.

My bestie and I have a slight RR dynamic, it's amazing. Was just wondering if anyone else has something similar

If you hypothetically were a beginner, but had the money for binos....would you get them? Or stick with a mono?

I do not get the appeal of summer...but I want to understand it. Please explain. Now don't get me wrong, I AM NOT A WINTER LOVER EITHER. I prefer autumn. Not too hot, not too cold, slightly breezy, pretty leaves.

Never thought I would ask such a pathetic question, but i really need to leave the house a lot more.

If so, I would like to hear how your experience went