It's pretty funny. And - on it's own merits I'd call it commendable (..I guess).

But of course, from the awakened perspective, it serves as a demonstration of subversion. Krilling them softly, if you will ;;)

This is what 'sunshine spirituality' is all about. About NOT getting there. About 'uniqueness' as a virtue. Hollywood tropes of individual 'freedom'. If your hair is on fire for this thing called Enlightenment it is important to take note of these types of subversions.

Many a clown guru will have you aspire to them.

It's one of Maya's best Kung-Fu moves. Again: from the awakened perspective, she reigns supreme. Worthy still of the utmost respect. She rules all dreamscape entities with her iron fist. Interested only in one thing: your body. For recycling. Which is all fine by me btw. I am not against Maya at all. I am against delusion.

I'm nobody's bitch either ;;)

And Maya still plays fair. Once your out; you're out. For good.

She has many tricks up her sleeve specifically designed to reign in those who try to force Truth into her domain. to actually SEE what IS, instead of not seeing what is not.

Read that again - maybe.. ;;)

In Maya's world, for instance - being against evil makes you good. But what is 'good'? What is just? What is fair? It is not relevant to The Eye Of The Beholder, let alone in it. Does being 'good' make you free? I think not. But suit yourself (or sooth yourself, same thing ;;). Am I saying we should NOT be good? I don't think so.. It is not a negation of some sort either.

What is 'good' is fluid af over time. What is just or fair adheres to that same fluidity. So in the end what it lacks is permanence. It can be discarded on that premise alone ..by the awakening mind.

Contemplating these matters is where self inquiry works best.

Burning BS and THE IRRELEVANT with the passion of a madman. In the completely counterintuitive knowing that Truth does not burn. So whatever is left there, in the end, can only be That. The Truth.

This is how it is done. How to GET 'Done'. You are going for broke.

Hurling yourself into the abyss ...and then discovering there's a feather bed at the bottom. ;;)

Most don't even come close. It hurts too much. I don't judge them directly (there is no one there to judge). But the soul crushing power of the grand illusion is not to be underestimated. It will throw ever more fantastical experiences at you. They have nothing at all to do with what is real. What is TRUE. What thou art...

Instead of viewing the dissolution of ego as ultimate liberation (moksha), the sunshine spiritualist however, will frame the ego's... let's say, 'situation' as a horror story. Aka a prison of conformity of some sorts. To appeal to a very specific kind of audience, the clown guru too, will pivot heavily toward ..ehm ..Western individualism if you will. Culture is not my friend. I view it as neither fish nor flesh. Neither good nor bad. An impossible position to maintain ..INSIDE the dreamstate. But outside of it, it becomes effortless. I don't NEED to be 'well adjusted'.

In fact, I 'don't need to' a damn thing.

Sure, we all want to be well behaved. I too want to be 'well behaved' (I guess..). I just don't see anything to be well behaved TO. It becomes a real problem. I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. I am also damnded if YOU don't in a way. lol. I guess that's my job now. HINTING at some kind of way out. Without being able to give it to anyone. Because that is not how this works.

Enlightenment truly is the damndest thing ;;)

But I digress..

Did you watch the little video? When Will declares, "I am one in a krillion" he is actively creating a separate self where there wasn't one to begin with. Poor Will is manufacturing a personal ego and choosing to believe that his uniqueness makes him special ;;) Do you see?

When he mistakes physical independence for true freedom by declerating "I am leaving the swarm!" for instance - he becomes 'free' with a small c. As his friend brilliantly points out though, "...there's no such thing as free, Will". The other whale snack is accidentally right. Bless his crustacean heart..

You see; 'true freedom' is not found by ego, nor by trying to manipulate its ..uhm, natural habitat ;;)

It's the ultimate contradiction.

The irony of Will’s journey is that the movie tries to have it both ways.

Will realises that as a tiny, isolated individual, he is entirely powerless and at the bottom of the food chain. He is forced to return to the whole to survive. Yet, instead of integrating back into the swarm with a REALISED sense of non-dual unity, the film frames his return as a triumph of personal character and contentment with his small place in the world.

Instead of moving from Ego to the Infinite, Will moves from Ego to a smaller, more content Ego.

The movie sacrifices a profound spiritual truth about the beauty of self-transcendence to sell the safer, watered-down message that he is special JUST THE WAY HE IS. Sounds familiar? I hope so. The spiritual marketplace is full of these subversions. And you might know yours truly for railing against them with great 'vengeance' and fuuuuurious anger ;;)

But I digress.

What I like you all to take away from this is the idea of egos ...of 'animated characters' who grapple with existentialism. That it will ALWAYS be ego that grapples with existentialism. Does ego dissolve upon awakening? Yeah, it is (roughly) true. I guess.. But don't get hung up on the dissolving what is not even real metaphors. Or any metaphors for that matter.The process ITSELF is ALL about Ego grappling. Not even ego killing. You have to put that sucker in its proper place. Come Hell or Highwater first.

In the end, the enlightenment part will come (or not).. It is not like you choose to get it or something. Besides; all the good stuff is already right there when Ego functions 'as intended'. Enlightenment is just ..extra. I guess. You cannot 'want' it, because Ego wants it...

Such are the paradoxes on the path.

When media gets it 'right', characters don't just find a tidy, comforting answer. They stare into the aforementioned abyss and have to figure out how to live with the vertigo ..OR jump in. In 'The End of Evangelion' (for instance) Sjini is given the ultimate out; 'Human Instrumentality'. All souls merge into a single collective pool, completely dissolving the ego! Yeah, right ;;)

Shinji ultimately rejects this, choosing to return to a painful, isolated individual reality because he REALIZES that getting to The Truth requires the risk of suffering.

There are other 'fairly great' examples. Rather than using The Multiverse as a ..playground for fulfilment if you will (like many Western superhero films that are not 'Unbreakable' ;;)), Clancy (from 'The Midnight Gospels') is forced to confront impermanence (aka 'Anicca') and deep grief. The show serves as a bit of a masterclass in combining existential anxiety with REAL 'meditative practices', teaching him how to still 'be here, now' amidst the inevitable collapse of everything he loves.

When Western mainstream media, or clown gurus, import Eastern philosophy (Buddhism, Taoism, Advaita Vedanta), it almost always processes it through a capitalist, individualist filter.

The result is a deeply watered-down version of the original truth. And I am simply pointing that out. It is no sweat of my back either. As you know, I like to throw my detractor's BS back into their face by proclaiming "I finished my work a long time ago.." when they try to pull no-one in particular down to their level and hope to beat it there with ...experience. Please. ;;)

I don't even play in that game.

Even guns and bombs, and nuclear war are just child's play when once one knows the True War that wages. Equanimity (aka 'Upekkha') is a state of deep, unshakeable balance that arises from seeing the true nature of reality. Not being rocked by pleasure or pain, or success or failure.

Domestic contentment is taught by many a clown guru. To have you accept that you are just a small krill, happy with its little rock. It uses the superficial veneer of, say, 'mindfulness' to preach. Preach compliance and complacency.

Rather than going for the radical, reality-shattering liberation that Enlightenment demands.

Cheers my friends!

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"Man cannot be anything other than what he is.

Whatever he is, he will create a society that mirrors him"

- UG

Thought is like Newtonian Fluid when it comes to the process of Awakening.
AKA 'deprogramming' yourself.

Put that sticker on every mental door, gate, hole or window you are trying to open and surely the enlightened shoe will drop. ;;)

Cheers

I often forget how hard is must be to 'fathom' non-dual awareness (and abiding in it eventually ...maybe ..if you are lucky ;;) for the a average spiritual Joe out there..

The above statements are from Jed McKenna's books on the subject and the first three books 'they' wrote where basically the last three books I can claim I ever read...

There was no more need for me to read ANYTHING else after consuming them.

Although I am still curious and might skim some book here or watch some video there. Mostly pegging the author or subject about two or three pages/minutes in as “not there at all”. Or “close but no cigar” or... 'didn't finish his work” or "Still holding on for dear life or to 'some thing' or “Maya has them by the balls again…” ;;)

It comes effortlessly as well. As everything does. NO thinking required. I can smell a clown before his floppy shoes are anywhere near me. It’s true. Conversely no clown can see the truth of his own predicament - ever.

I can also smell an awakened individual no problem. It might take me two or three minutes though. That’s all. It works the other way around too. 100%

There’s very little to say to each other though.. ;;)

So why even talk about Jed again? Shut up, I rarely speak about him anyway, so let me. ;;)

He's dead now so there's that. I actually did talk to the man and it immediately disproved all my suspicions. It's quite something to talk to a REAL being. I'll never forget it. You could sense it right away: bro looked right through me.

His favorite responses? “Hm.. Is that so?” or “Hm, I see..” but mostly: “…so” or “so the fuck what?” 😂

He also taught me that most people waste their time on irrelevant spiritual pursuits or ‘answers’ in stead of doing real self inquiry (or as he called it “spiritual autolysis”

I'd figured after one and a half decades someone else would have written something similarly earth shattering or something just as powerful. But they have not. There are really few books out there that are not laughably fallacious at their core when it comes to this subject matter. I've seen NONE since 2007.

Tolle writes about a ‘new earth’ in stead of no fucking earth at all. ;;)

NONE! It should make you pause and reflect on how rare TRUE Spiritual Enlightenment (and ABIDING IN IT.. this is the key thing) really is these days. It does not sell books. it simply does not. HUmans are not primed to consume the truth. It’s all lies and BS that propels the human forward (as it should) ..only when your gut is already churning and you feel like love is dying inside of you are you ever going to pick up and understand a real spiritual books.

"The sickness runs deep these days my friend" .. some mystic I met ONCE, once told me. I forgot what else we even spoke or talked about. It happens a lot. I forget whole conversations still.

"Oh yeah that's right we discussed <this or that and so and so>, then and then..." if I'm even lucky to remember it like that ;;)

Some people get really hurt when I admit it too ;;)

Nobody likes to be forgotten.
But that’s enlightenment for ya.
I have forgotten all about myself too if it is any consolation ;;)

Of course, the yapping, dancing clown I still am on the ..inside cannot seem to shut up about the subject. What strikes me is how literally, completely and PRECISELY my own awakening matches theirs/his. Not in a metaphorical sense alone. Literally.

I literally had almost ‘the same awakening'. So to speak. It was not 50 pages into my firsts serious spiritual book ('Damndest') but about fifteen pages or so. I had already gone through the 'madding, feverish, clawing search' EXACTLY as described by him before I even knew the guy existed. By page fifteen the thunderbolt literally hit me. EXACTLY as describes. Weird shit. Coincidence. Maybe.. who cares. It was the end of the end. I woke up like someone might 'wale up' from a 4 minute DMT trip. The world took on a candy colored haze... it felt unreal, corny even ..some of the cliche's were true I guess. The world looked 'cartoonish' and extremely familiar at the same time. Looking in the mirror I marveled at seeing myself with my own eyes for the first time. Who is this guy? This went on for years... I guess now it is integrated or something. Nothing changed. It still looks the same. Unreal. I also became fearless. I mean completely fearless.. not in some self destructive sense.

I did finish the books but there was really nothing in there I contended against. It was already done. The finishing of the books was just me trying to be respectful or some shit… none of it felt hard to comprehend at all. So I did read the books but only AFTER awakening.

The path towards my awakening was also strewn with epiphanies, mysticism and coincidences that are too ridiculous to not smile at the Universe about. The universe has a real sense of humor about it. Jed would call the Universe "not unlike a playful puppy'... there is also a reason that specific dog is featured on the cover of his books..

Anyway, these three books come highly recommended if you are a SERIOUS seeker. But ONLY if you are, because the hit damn hard. The truth is like that. Unflinching. And most people who have been soaking in Sunshine Spirituality for decades will surely throw them against the wall a few times. Most Tolle readers will not even dare touch these books as the eviscerate fake (unbeknownst to themselves) gurus and false teachers.

It's not an easy read when you start to realize this MFer is telling the truth. Warts and all.

Still: It's a hell of a job killing a man.

Anyway.. just rambling because some... thingies happened IRL that got me to look at some of his stuff again. Don't debate books. Consume them. Don't think about the writer.. ask yourself if what is in there is true. Or find another book.

There are not many good ones out there concerning the death of self process btw. Ego death if you will.

Know these things.

• “We all get what we need when we need it. If the universe has set you in front of me or put this book into your hands, then in all likelihood you are closer than most to honestly confronting the stark reality of your situation.”
• “This book isn’t about the evolution of the soul or the relationship between higher and lower self, it’s about abiding non-dual awareness—spiritual enlightenment.“
• “If I were to reduce this book and my teachings to their essence, I would say it all comes down to nothing more than this: Think for yourself and figure out what’s true. That’s it. Ask yourself what’s true until you know.“
• “This isn’t my teaching, it’s the only teaching and this is just my way of delivering it. If we were to strip out the excess in this book it would probably be a tenth the size and would just be my way of saying what any enlightened guy would say. It’s not personal. It’s not regional or ethnic. It’s not a Western Christian’s version as opposed to the Inuit Shaman’s version or the Tibetan Buddhist’s version. It’s not on that level. What’s true is true regardless of region, culture, planet, galaxy or dimension. It is what it is and I’m just the guy who happens to be saying it right now. If you put ten books by ten enlightened people together and stripped out the excess, they’d all be the same. That’s how it is at the core. The reason for all the excess is that there’s no saying it directly because there’s no it**, so everything has to be communicated indirectly—what it’s not, what it’s like—never what it is.**“
• “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. This book is more about getting to that First Step than the rest of the journey. Once you’ve begun there’s no stopping or turning back.“
• “When I look at my own life, my own story, I look for the pattern, the unifying theme, the sum of the parts that explains my existence.”
• “I really have a thing for epiphanies. They’re my raison d’être, so to speak.”
• “My thunderbolt epiphany came in my late twenties, around fifty pages into reading my first book of a distinctly spiritual nature. As all good epiphanies should, this one struck my brain like a bullet of light and redefined my entire life in a single instant. The realization was nothing more or less than this: Truth exists.”
• “I did my time. I spent thousands of hours pouring through every spiritual, New Age, metaphysical and esoteric book you could name, and quite a few books on religion and Western philosophy too, using the knowledge in books to fuel an unquenchable internal blaze.”
• “I severed all ties—no job, no friends, no family—and had only a few possessions. I did nothing else. I had no other thought. I went for long walks, thinking, pounding away at whatever door I was stuck behind at the moment.”
• “And then one day after a couple of years of this I was suddenly done. Just like that: Done. Although I didn’t think of it in these terms, I had become enlightened, satoried, awake, truth-realized, a jnani, Buddha, whatever you want to call it. Getting the hang of this new state, however, would take me another decade.“
• “That’s where I am now. Empty space is my reality. The void. No-self. I abide in non-dual, non-relative awareness. This is the part that can’t be explained. I can’t frame it in words even for myself. No one can say ‘I am enlightened’ because there is no ‘I’ to it. There is no such thing as an enlightened person. The person writing these words, the person that speaks to the students, isn’t the enlightened one. My personality, my ego, what appears to be me, is just an afterimage; a physical apparition based on residual energy patterns. Jed McKenna is like the outfit an invisible man wears so that he can interact with people without freaking them out.”

Don't settle for 'Enlitenment'. Go after the real thing. And yes, it requires you to NUKE your life. All of it. In the end you will find that you only lost what was never even yours.

TRUTH, at any price. Learn to read but BETWEEN the lines and take the person who wrote the thing AND your damn ego out of the equation completely. If you even can.

In the end, Jed was also right about one thing most teachers will never tell you:

"ALL will arrive..." Death squares all accounts. so there's that as well.
But you don't want to be dead while alive only to find out in the end. Anyways, I digress...

Trust me: This thing is real. AS REAL AS IT GETS.
You want to 'know' you can live forever and ever. You want to be AWAKE for most of it.
It's the only good fight there is. So get cracking! By any means necessary.

If you do in once. ONCE is enough. Forever.

Cheers my friends <3

Cheers my friends

..about this little manifestation we've got going on in here?

"Belief is a toxic and dangerous attitude toward reality. After all, if something is really there it doesn't require your belief, and if it's not there - why should you believe in it?" ~ Terence Mckenna

Cheers my friends

https://youtu.be/PPnXY9BzY0c?is=S__9snCBD6sLRQj9

Bless BOTH their naive hearts.
These people HAVE to believe 'something'. ;;)

Cheers

🤓 “Granted, it’s all a manifestation but rooted in some truth. You could’ve offered a lending hand to the OP but instead you’d rather point at the futility of it all….. I get it! Been there, walked that path, You’re not wrong in your logic, it just lacks compassion.”

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If the ability to muse and think in absolutes is not there. Forget about it.

You will just be looking for some kind of nuance. Looking for some way or means or some angle or story to have your enlightened cake and eat it too.

I see it in here all days. Folks negotiating this thing with their Selves. Taking their ego along with them for the ride. Trying to gauge what will be upside or downsides.. the thoughts never enter the mind for those for whom the bell truly tolls. Those far along will attest to it.

There is no “what do I do with the truth when I find it” at all. The irrelevance of ‘the debate’ about it cannot be understated.

Most people don’t even speak on it.
They just slip out of the back door. Never to be seen again.

I’m just a talkative abomination ;;)

99.9% ‘true’ is still 100% false

That is the math on Awakening.

Do as you please but preconceived notions (not just about me but about EVERYTHING) are blindfolds on the path. Very few contemplate the ‘compassion’ issue beyond it somehow being crucial ‘not to lose it’ and making sure you approach ..no, shower the neophytes with it.

Which ofcourse slows down the process.

You must learn to throw a monkey wrench into the spokes of your dharmic wheel ;;) and if your hair is not on fire for this thing - why even bother.

If you don’t want it to eat you alive

Don’t bother

If you are looking for a boon, a pot of gold at the end of your crocodile tears rainbow

Don’t bother

If you are looking to become a better person

Maya has you by the balls again.

This ain’t no spiritual kid’s play
And most in here are looking for that

To become Something OTHER than what they already are and always will be.

You are a good sport 👍🏽

But your no-compassion show stoppers are just that my friend. Some other cat will have some other ‘no no’ on his list of ‘how much truth do I really want?’

Compassion is mostly an obscured form of selfishness upon closer inspection - especially among the spiritual folks. They love the term. But only when it has positive connotations. That’s what ego prefers..

Telling the truth (be it horrible or beautiful to another soul, wether you can ‘handle it’ or not is the biggest feat of compassion there is in here.

This is not about no fucking ‘upper hand’ or me vetting everyone’s ’awakening’ At all. The fallacies scream at me from their words. As does the arrogance. It’s cute.

But I finished my work a long time ago.
There is nothing here that I don’t already have friend.. ‘the upper hand’ is a dreamstate concept that has ZERO meaning outside of it.

Who’s above who!? Please.

This is not about equality either.

If my words break one spell the pain (and domino effect) will be worth it a million fold. You have no idea what this perspective brings. It is staggering.

Staggering I tell you!

I’d rather have folks sit there and fume and fight me or grapple with the hard truths they love to actually avoid while they play ‘seeker’. At least THAT has a bigger chance of their heads inching closer to the guillotine of Truth.

Two weeks of sulking over some kind of bs issue you refuse to reckon with. 6 months of agonizing depersonalization or depression: that’s where it is at.

Few are primed for that.

Cheers