Social aspect of this game literally doesn't exist. I'm often the only person typing anything positive. Half my games nobody types at all and the other half people type just to mald or rage bait in all chat. Tbh I lock out sometimes when the game is going badly and there are just no comms because the game doesn't even feel real atp. Low masters lobbies.
A reality without sentient beings can never be improved upon through the creation of them, for nothing is lacking beforehand. In contrast, a reality where sentient beings are born that suffer as a result their own existence from the second they come to exist to the moment they die without any justifying value to be found is certainly a terrible one. To me pessimism is the obvious response to such a situation as painful as it is to accept when we have no control over the origin of our existence or even any actions at all in any morally important sense.
And yet, pessimism is pathologised and actively suppressed in conversation (along with other serious 'undesirable' topics like veganism) despite the clear and unavoidable evidence it is derived from. In comparison to the advanced teaching people receive at academic institutions, pessimism as a philosophy is so simple even a child can understand it. This judgement of pessimism comes not from a lack of ability to comprehend it, but willful ignorance and the refusal to reflect on the world and the nature of the experiences for the beings within.
Society serves as nothing more than a coping mechanism, people reproducing and continuing the cycle of suffering and death again and again to no avail, only delaying the inevitability of the future and for nothing of value to retain in the end once the last sentient being dies. So many distractions, so much conflict and so much violence and for what? At what point does one consider the insanity of this situation, or at least the immorality of it all? Perhaps if humans were morally inclined to reduce the suffering of existence in the long-term society could be justified as a lesser of evils, but in its current state it is dominated by needless exploitation and subservience to the authority (both of individuals and psychological factors) that creates such suffering.
At some point, the question has to be asked as to why we continue to live if we are only prolonging our agony until the same end of obliteration, but even when you think you could be removed from it all at last you are shackled by your own sense of morality. Reality is certainly horrifically bad, but as you are burdened with this knowledge you are to find yourself acting on it so that it may be less miserable for others worse off than yourself. As much as you want to leave, you stay because leaving it all behind when you could have done something is unacceptable. And even if you were to die, there is to be no reprieve for you, for you no longer exist. The only solution to ending the cycle of desire and suffering is one that cannot be enjoyed and which comes at the price of your existence itself.
No matter how hard you try and cope, no reasoning can delude you when up against what is undeniable. No matter how much you distract yourself, you cannot avoid facing it forever. No matter what you do, you will suffer and die. People may run from the truth, but nobody can hide from the world they inhabit. Sooner or later, when society faces the end, I wonder if people will still maintain the delusion or if they will accept their situation. I suppose the denial and absurdity is to be expected when all life is a result of unreasoned reproduction.
How tragic.
It's actually amazing to me that most people find it easier and more comfortable to live in extreme levels of delusion and dishonesty than just reflect on their actions and beliefs or change them. People make sure to maintain their willful ignorance while others suffer the consequences of their selfishness, and even if confronted with a topic they deflect as hard as possible to avoid any accountability. It is so unbelievably pathetic and narcissistic to hide away from your own suffering while forcing magnitudes more on others against their will. All the human exceptionalism, the egoism and the denial of death nothing more than fragile copes because people don't want to accept what has been observed since life first existed.
At some point when a person is faced with reality their poor education, exploitation and conditioning cannot justify their refusal to face it and it becomes purely a seflish and vacuous attempt at ego-preservation while time keeps progressing the same as it always has.
The buses and trains are shit (full/cancelled/delayed) so anyone who has an obligation/financial reliance on showing up on time can't rely on them or needs to leave extra early, at least not for early/late afternoon hours. Because the public transport is so unreliable and doesn't have the capacity for more people, the roads are also fucked with traffic wasting even more time and increasing pollution. I know buses are to be under the WY authority soon, but shit needs to happen faster and there needs to be more done than just that. It's been so bad for so long it's beyond the joke.
Most of the time I'm not distracted I'm thinking about how much suffering there is, especially the suffering of non-humans who are horrendously oppressed by humans without a concern because of how avoidable it is. Even just being around other humans is a reminder and the pressure to talk about it is immense, and when it does happen the same apathy or bullshit reasoning is given that has been said and countered 1000x over. It is beyond terrible living in a world of apathetic narcissists when existence is already more than bad enough without them. So sick of this shit, how is reflection harder than being so evil?
Recently I've seen a lot of incredibly apathetic/ridiculous takes from 'vegans' regarding wild animal suffering, as if somehow suffering is suddenly not tragically bad but actually permissible because it is 'natural' as long as humans are not involved in the situation and it can just be ignored. Animals dying of diseases/being predated upon/starving to death/drowning/burning/etc is somehow not morally problematic, but you can know if the human claiming this was personally involved in any of these situations they would beg for salvation. It is amazing the cruelty people will attempt to rationalise when it is not their suffering to endure.
Not just that, it is hypocritical to the point of being adjacent to the oppressor yourself to make such a claim, it is literally rooted in the exact same speciesist/human supremacist mindset. Inaction is not keeping your hands clean when you can otherwise act or at the very minimum acknowledge an injustice, it is just simple discrimination. I'm not claiming humans can do anything of great significance at this point in time, or potentially ever, to reduce wild animal suffering, but the denial of it as problematic or even attempting to moralise it as good with some fucked up naturalistic fallacy (isn't that ironic) or other means is pure insanity.
I was sleeping on it recently for all-ins, especially since Darius already wants to be doing that in a lot of matchups. Item is actually cracked for letting you live longer and get more value from passive/possibly more healing from Q usages. Dshield will be better for poke ofc and Dblade into lanes where you have strong kill pressure with little resistance to face (Sion/Cho'gath/Etc). An example of when to take Dhelm imo is into Sett/Jax (fighters that you can easily force into all-ins when they try trade or want to all-in themselves), makes your all-in potential way stronger especially if you have boneplating/unflinching to pair with it and you can kind of stand and bang. It even gives more value to your health pot.
Don't let Azzappp see this. Pray for Sivir perma.
If you hostage when the entire team is getting shit on or someone is griefing you should eat your own shit. Maybe 1/5 horrifically lost games I see get ffed. No I don't want to play with 2/13 Zoe who is permadying and against 18/0 fullbuild at 28 minutes Hecarim. I also don't want to wait for objective spawns to end the game when I already know this shit is over and so does everyone else who is mad out of their mind refusing the ff.
Since becoming aware of pessimism I have experienced a significant depreciation in my desire to do things for my own sake beyond just distracting myself from my own thoughts (necessary for retaining any mental fortitude). Apart from the desire I have to prevent suffering for others in worse situations, when I consider myself I really have almost no desire to do anything at all just my own sake because I know that I will later become unsatisfied and need to constantly put in more effort and endure dissatisfaction again and again just to end up at the same state again in the end anyway (death/dissatisifed until then). I hate the self-inspired slavery, and at best I am only kept doing things because of the threat of significantly greater dissatisfaction than what I already endure (starvation/illness/disability/homelessness/etc). The fact that so many humans attempt to rationalise their own servitude to their desire not to suffer as good (directly or indirectly) in a body that constantly mandates suffering is pure insanity to me. It seems existence is only desirable to the extent of avoiding a worse current experience before what is ideally obliteration (the end of consciousness) in my opinion.
1:15 to 1:30 every other game the game just hangs and crashes. Going to bomb HQ soon for ts.
I've lost multiple games because I'm up the ass of multiple people about to get my reset and someone steals the kill from in front of me and I don't end up getting my stacks and die like a dumbass. Actually insane how I can ping off and people still do it mindlessly and then do nothing after.
I usually play Darius and every Singed I come across feeds their ass off and does nothing for their team the entire game. I know it is a bad matchup (idk why they would ban anything else tbh) but it's also accompanied by crying in chat half the time too even when they voluntarily pick this shit.
Secret counter technology unless he also does it.
I don't want to see or know people at all, almost nobody is actually capable of self-reflection and they are just beyond pathetic in how they behave. Shit is intolerable on top of already having no interest in living for my own sake, I'd be dead if I didn't feel morally obligated to live. Sometimes I think it can't get worse, but I've been unable to sleep normally for weeks because of this shit.
Am I ass or is this champ just a worse Darius in every aspect except for engage? Considering how immobile he is and his inability to seriously take Stormraider's his sticking power is bad. He is easily short traded by anyone with movespeed/cc and his sustain only keeps him around lower hp thresholds in the early where he can still be bursted quickly. His damage is also entirely physical except centre W so tabis hard fuck him considering his reliance on autos for damage. He wants to use W to make favourable trades but anyone with a brain will fight outside of minions if they need to dodge it or just play around the decay timer. I main Darius but everytime he is banned and I'm on Sett or try picking him for fun it feels so shit if I don't have counterpick. He has way less pressure/opportunity to abuse unless the opponent allows for it to happen, and I'm trying to force fights/diving early levels. I honestly think they need to buff his early damage slightly on his E/Q so he can take ghost without losing significant kill pressure or improve his sustain a bit.
I feel like the only time I can fight in lane is when the enemy allows me to and then I get the reward of just being a worse Darius in the same situation. So much less lane pressure and way easier to kite out. Also any champ with a decent stun or slow can short trade you to shit and never let you figth back. The only thing Sett is good at is teamfighting but if he gets stunned on the engage he just gets walked away from again. I like Sett's kit but I feel I'm handicapping myself picking him.