Do you guys struggle with feeling as if you're actually loved or cared for by the people who you logically know love you, but your heart doesn't feel it?
I have people that i know and can see that, they love and care for me- whether it be my mom making food for me in spite of the pain she has inflicted to me in the past,
friends online that i know logically that they love and care for me, but my heart often doesn't feel that reciprocity or care from them...
not having anyone in real life is definitely a personal factor in my life, and also my chronic lack of support in the past three years when i was going through something that my family opposed on helping me. the storm of that is over but, it still left wounds on my heart that i'm trying to heal from.
I just feel really lonely a lot because it's a natural impulse for me to think of a person and want to message or be present for them, but when have they ever done that for me? it feels as though my prescence in their lives are taken for granted, and in the times where i feel lonely myself, no one is reaching out to me inspite of all these people i have messaged before
i am definitely a fool that needs improvement, and am blind in some ways. i'm not going to hate myself for my faults i just simply wish to improve; but anyway, yeah sometimes i find it hard to feel actually loved or cared for by people. anyone got any words or advice or anything, since right now my current solution is to just spend time by myself & focus on recovering by myself