u/Fire_Raptor_220

I am currently having serious urges to look up this one content creator that I used to watch...

Backstory: I've known since I was 6 that I had a pregnancy/belly fetish. By the time I was 14 I was looking up images/YouTube videos of it online and learned how to delete my search history. By the time I was 19, though, I was at one of the worst parts of my life in terms of my mental health. I started looking up actual porn, and started looking at BBWs, and even began questioning my gender identity, fantasizing about being female.

By the time I was in my mid-20s, though, my mental health improved, so I wasn't obsessed with porn and this fetish like I was before. Also, while painful, I had to stoically accept that I'd never satisfy the pregnancy kink, because I don't want kids, and am against hookups and paying sex workers. Also, when I was 29, I met my girlfriend and LOML, so I kind of buried the fetish in the back of my mind.

However, 3 months ago, my mental health deteriorated again, much like it did when I was 19. Also (coincidentally) I learned that a horror actress my gf and I like got pregnant, and I saw a photo of her on the red carpet, wearing a dress that showed her bare belly. I was so turned on, it was like all of those emotions had come back to me. It felt like someone had injected dopamine straight into my brain, and I felt like that for a week straight. I watched porn a couple of times, and later confessed to my gf. While she didn't seem thrilled about it, she was very understanding and supportive.

Although I stopped porn, my social media algorithm has picked up on the fact that I like pregnancy content. It has been feeding it to me every day, I have fantasized about my fetish when I masturbate, which makes me feel so guilty considering I have a girlfriend.

I am very attracted to my girlfriend but this fetish won't go away now. I think about it every time I wake up or fall asleep. I am struggling right now because I've spent today thinking about a particular content creator in this genre that I used to watch, and am tempted to peek. I really wish that the extreme arousal I got from this fetish, was gone so I could feel it for my girlfriend.

Hey. Posting here because it didn't get any traction on r/NoFap. Backstory: I've known since I was 6 that I had a pregnancy/belly fetish. By the time I was 14 I was looking up images/YouTube videos of it online and learned how to delete my search history. By the time I was 19, though, I was at one of the worst parts of my life in terms of my mental health. I started looking up actual porn, and started looking at BBWs, and even began questioning my gender identity, fantasizing about being female.

By the time I was in my mid-20s, though, my mental health improved, so I wasn't obsessed with porn and this fetish like I was before. Also, while painful, I had to stoically accept that I'd never satisfy the pregnancy kink, because I don't want kids, and am against hookups and paying sex workers. Also, when I was 29, I met my girlfriend and LOML, so I kind of buried the fetish in the back of my mind.

However, 3 months ago, my mental health deteriorated again, much like it did when I was 19. Also (coincidentally) I learned that a horror actress my gf and I like got pregnant, and I saw a photo of her on the red carpet, wearing a dress that showed her bare belly. I was so turned on, it was like all of those emotions had come back to me. It felt like someone had injected dopamine straight into my brain, and I felt like that for a week straight. I watched porn a couple of times, and later confessed to my gf. While she didn't seem thrilled about it, she was very understanding and supportive.

Although I stopped porn, my social media algorithm has picked up on the fact that I like pregnancy content. It has been feeding it to me every day, I have fantasized about my fetish when I masturbate, which makes me feel so guilty considering I have a girlfriend.

I am very attracted to my girlfriend but this fetish won't go away now. I think about it every time I wake up or fall asleep. I am struggling right now because I've spent today thinking about a particular content creator in this genre that I used to watch, and am tempted to peek. I really wish that the extreme arousal I got from this fetish, was gone so I could feel it for my girlfriend.

Hey so I just defeated an urge. I've been struggling with this for a while.

Backstory: ever since I was 6, I've had a pregnancy fetish. I started to look at YouTube videos of it when I was like ~13 and I learned how to delete my search history. By the time I was around 19 I started looking at actual porn, looking up pregnancy/belly stuff and also BBWs. This also coincided with one of the worst times of my life, in terms of my mental health (severe OCD).

My mental health got better as I entered my mid-20s. While I still had my pregnancy kink, I watched less porn. I also kind of buried the kink - I don't want kids, and I don't believe in hookups or paying a sex worker, so while hard I stoically accepted that I'd never satisfy it. Plus, when I was 29 (I'm 31 now), I met the LOML, so I kinda gave up on the pregnancy kink.

Unfortunately, 3 months ago, I learned that a horror actress my gf and I like was pregnant. I saw a photo of her on the red carpet with a dress that showed her belly. I was so turned on that it felt like some injected dopamine straight into my brain, and I felt that way for a whole week. I ended up watching porn a couple times, and confessed it to my girlfriend. She didn't exactly seem happy with it, but was very understanding and supportive.

Ever since then, though, my social media algorithms picked up on my pregnancy kink. I was constantly making excuses the whole time, such as "it's not really porn", or "your girlfriend watches/used to watch porn too". Funny enough, I never actually masturbated when using the P-sub. I worked hard to delete pregnancy related content from my algorithm when it pops up, which has been mostly successful.

Today, I was alone for the first time in a while and extremely tired. I had a serious urge to watch this one particular video/person, and while it was so hard, I resisted.

While I find pregnant women extremely sexy, I sometimes wish I didn't have this kink. I find my girlfriend incredibly sexy, and how I feel towards those actresses is how I SHOULD be feeling towards my girlfriend.

Just kinda venting. Any advice is helpful, thanks.

TL;DR: girlfriend got fired and feels devastated, I want to get her something nice like a card and flowers, but I struggle with autism/OCD so I am not sure what is appropriate for this situation.

Hey, so long story short, earlier this evening my girlfriend of 1.5 years got fired from her job. When I picked her up from work she was inconsolable, and her best friend came over and we did our best to comfort her and pick her back up. She was really mistreated at her job, and her boss was basically this male boomer POS who mistreated her the whole time she was working there.

I'm being there for her and anyway I can, and reassuring her and everything. I let her know too that I'll help her look for a new and better job. Her friend that I mentioned earlier gave her $150 to help her out. We are currently having a little hotel day that we planned out before she got fired. I really want to do something nice for her. But the problem is I have autism and OCD and I can't think clearly about these things sometimes.

I'm going to buy her some weed gummies as a little pick-me-up (she loves them), but I was thinking of doing something a little extra for her, like maybe a card and flowers. Would this be appropriate? And if not, do you guys have any suggestions? Thank you in advance.