can’t sleep
a little background first, i have been unemployed for 5 months, stressed out every month on how i will pay my car each month. i’ve had a few trips planned prior to my unemployment that i need money for, which also causes me stress. i have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression for 15 years, i don’t take any medication for it, i just do occasional therapy when i can afford it.
back to my anxiety. i have severe health anxiety/death OCD, and am constantly convinced i have something that is going to kill me. last week my thoughts were rabies. i kept a log of my “symptoms” that made me have those thoughts:
sunday itchy leg
monday itchy/pain on front of leg. progressed to calf
tuesday itchy/pain all over leg. headache at end of day
wednesday itchy/pain sometimes but in a more general area. on and off headache/sore throat . couldn’t sleep
thursday calf muscle pain onand off. headache/sore throat later in the day. couldn’t sleep
friday small tingling feeling in one area of leg on and off (drank so i knocked out but didnt sleep long)
saturday tingling on and off on 1-2 areas. felt a little sick mid day. throat felt inflamed, back of head hurt. later in day head felt fine but throat was feeling weird. cannot sleep feel like i can’t breathe
sunday didn’t feel anything until i tried to sleep, a little calf pain took magnesium to fall asleep
monday only pain in my calf and right side of ankle occasionally can’t sleep
now if you notice i only started not being able to sleep once i had more “symptoms.” it’s not just a normal “i can’t sleep”, about 2 hours before i anticipate sleeping, i get this feeling that i know i wont be able to sleep. and then about 30 minutes before i want to sleep, i start having muscle twitches. that’s what’s keeping me awake. it will be in any part of my body but something will twitch and keep me alert, so as im trying to sleep it will do that. it will happen for hours and hours until i eventually just pass out, and then i will only sleep 4-5 hours. during the day i feel completely fine as far as nothing having spasms, it is only happening when i try to sleep.
since its been about a week of this going on now i’m thinking of going to urgent care or maybe even the ER to get checked out because im just so tired and don’t know if this is just my anxiety or something worse.